#and then I just drew this on the misc one since I didn't know what I was drawing at first | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

meanbossart · 3 months

Text

Misc. Ask compilation

These aren't all of the asks I want to reply to, just some that I can answer relatively quickly to clean the ol' inbox out before things get out of hand. Thanks for your patience!

HAHAHA THANK YOU FOR PERUSING AROUND and for enjoying my work! I had a... Weird Gale experience my first playthrough which led to his characterization being what it is in my comics. Here's the beat-by-beat of all the shenanigans: https://meanbossart.tumblr.com/post/740827466716807168/alright-i-am-like-90-sure-there-is-one-line-in-a

And here's just some of my personal thoughts on him! https://meanbossart.tumblr.com/post/736193145686114305/can-you-tell-me-more-about-how-you-would-make-gale

I would be lying if I said I'm not conflicted to know my style still bears some remnants of my edgy teen roots (not your fault not noticing it though, you aren't the first and won't be the last) BUT... That comic did mean a lot to me as a youth, so I guess I should be proud 🤷 and honestly it is a little cool that such a thing would survive for so long in what I do, crazy how that works.

LMAO, re: the bottom/top debacle, I was honestly so surprised to see people react to it like it's something novel. If I ever expected to get any push back on the matter, I thought it would be from people assuming DU drow was the top and taking issue with how violent and big he is (and yknow, some people are weirdly protective of Astarion as if he isn't a sneaky murder machine rippling with lean muscle)

Very disheartening to see that mindset still so alive and well among young people, but I guess it just means I gotta draw DU drow throwing more back and Astarion drooling over more ass until the stereotype is forcefully banished out of people's minds!

(more asks below the cut)

"Sleeper agent activation phrase" absolutely took me out, Thank you so much LOL

YEAH I got it pretty late though, Astarion had already told my durge that he was a vampire of his own accord (and the response was, of course, "no duh") I forgot wheter this happened before or after the first romance scene triggered, but I think after.

Since this was after DU drow decided he was gonna fuck him out of pure contrarian spite and was shamelessly laying it extremely thick, He happilly let Astarion drink his blood. Hell, he was probably a little Too Eager - the guy likes pain and he likes letting people he trusts do with his body whatever they will, and while he didn't yet trust Astarion at that point, that event might've very well reminded him of something from his past that planted a seed which would eventually grow into his genuine affection for the guy.

Ah, he definitely got a half-chub as it happened too. I'm sure Astarion noticed it and just walked off rolling his eyes and thinking "eugh of course" lmao.

Hello!!!

Oh man, I grew up fascinated with horror things. I remember from a very young age just looking at the covers and backs of horror movies at the film-rental even though I wasn't allowed to watch them. I was also easily scared but I sought those things out anyway - I think i just enjoyed the visceral reactions it drew out of me and was always curious about most things taboo.

When I got access to the internet that just opened a (very unfortunate) door to all things vile and awful like it did for so many people at that age in time. Though my tastes have changed a lot since then (Less August Underground, more The Devils kind of guy nowadays) my stories and art are just always going to fall into a horror-y category because I just... Don't think there's many better ways to showcase the human experience and emotional range without many of the elements native to the genre, and I'm all about that.

Thank you for your question and your sweet words, have a good week yourself!

I did a little write-up about that over here! https://meanbossart.tumblr.com/post/742508493562593280/i-dont-have-a-particular-question-in-mind-sorry

That's the result of a scene that happens relatively early in the story I'm writing ("A Novel Experience" on Ao3).

{SPOILERS} DU drow accidentally passes out on a blade which puts a relatively deep gash on his hip. Meanwhile, Astarion is weakened and starved after certain events that transpired the prior night. They have a private exchange both in a somewhat hazy-state of mind and Astarion ends up prodding and prying at his wound while feeding, so it's a laceration and bite mark that just scarred over badly.

Elves apparently don't grow body hair so never LOL guess they'll just have to slip&slide up on each other for heat

#ask compilation

43 notes · View notes

goldenfox3 · 8 months

Text

Personal rambling lmao

It feels a bit...silly to be posting this right after posting an art and recently after posting an art positivity post but I've always flip flopped between feeling great about what I make and feeling like. Meh. It's out there I guess. I know perfectly well notes/kudos aren't everything and you should make stuff (especially fan art/fic) for yourself first and foremost so I wouldn't say I've ever like...posted anything I didn't want to make.

But there are times when I feel like...I drew something that I knew would be more well-received over something I wanted to draw more. Or I drew because I put pressure on myself to make something to hit that high of attention. This is partially what the Blood Falcon in water vent art and the Stewart hanahaki sketch was about. Choking, drowning, the imagery is a bit dramatic but yeah. It sounds ungrateful to even say it when I have so many lovely people supporting me and what I do but maybe it's the anxiety talking when I say I feel isolated sometimes. Sometimes that's not necessarily a bad thing! I have fun vibing with my homies in my gay little corner of FZ fandom!

But sometimes I do wonder if the charas or ships I'm most interested in would be more popular if like...I could draw better or push myself to interact more (that one is more related to twt) or had more followers here/on twt or even if it wasn't a gay ship (sounds silly to say I know but FZ twt has a diff vibe). It's not that there isn't anyone else interested and that no one supports my misc ship ramblings (I love and adore those of you who do) at all I just feel greedy and want to do more than shouting into the void I guess lmao. Spread it to the world or whatever. There's no need to feel down about that like getting to spread my love for a ship into the world should be a positive thing so???? Ironically enough I think twt may have made it worse bc though I (usu) get more interaction there it also becomes easier to see when the art I put the most love into (anything Falcon/Stewart or Andy/Robert) gets very little attention compared to art I put less effort into that I made more for others or randomass pieces where I'm like ???? why that one.

I know this is common and that you can't predict what people will like and funny or general pieces usu do better than hyperspecific niche ship pieces but even though I intellectually know that it's still like :( Sometimes I catch myself thinking things like "should I make this piece more gen because if I make it too obviously gay/shippy the people will be turned off". It's not like I don't make things for myself! I have tons of material I've never published lying around just because it makes me happy and sometimes I will polish it and turn it into something presentable because it makes me happy to do so. But again there's also this like...internal pressure (that no one else put on me it's just me being dumb lmao) to keep pushing out content to get my ships out there because there's very little of it (or none of it) otherwise so I feel like I have to keep pushing pushing pushing even though literally no one is pushing me but myself. Or to make things that aren't really the thing I wanted to make because it will get more attention even though attention isn't everything I know, I know.

None of this really matters in the grand scheme of life and it really sounds like I should go touch grass or something but I'm stuck inside for now because of work and school and physical pain so yeah lmao. It's that kind of situation where I think people would advise me to take a break from socmed and creating things since I do still feel happy when I go out with friends or family but to bring up the burning star analogy again, I feel that I'm burning up as I make things at a fever pace but I also feel like I'm burning up if I don't make things so. I might as well make things so I can be temporarily euphoric upon seeing what I made. It's not like I don't have other interests or people to socialize with it's just...a vague feeling of discontent about. Fictional characters of all things. Why lmfao

I know these feelings aren't uncommon for artists and envy towards other creators/putting yourself down in comparison is a common problem so it's like the conundrum of I know exactly what's wrong with me I just can't defeat it with logic lol. It's not my intention to sound ungrateful for anything I already have or to go hashtag first world problems or to like....guilt anyone or sound entitled or begging for attention or what have you...I just felt like it would feel, if not better, at least something from trying to make sense of my illogical thoughts by dumping it out somewhere.

#dusk rambling #/neg i guess #neg

3 notes · View notes

ifievertoldyou · 2 years

Text

in my english class, we had an assignment to make a comic displaying parts of the hero's journey within a story that we're familiar with. and you already know what story my autistic ass decided to go with. here's how it turned out !

as always, check out @alexanderwesker 's fic here !!!

and obviously, i had to abridge some parts of the story, since i was already doing double the requirement of panels, and i didn't really want to do like 14 more just so i could include tHAW!slime and q's whole crisis on LN being real and stuff yk ^^;

chapter 1 + 2 comic

full thing

panel closeups + analyzing

---

panel 1

panel 2

if i ever get a chance to foreshadow q's change to becoming more like quackity, you know i'll immediately jump on that shit. and i did in this panel. here, the sun shines a little more in his left eye, and you can even see a sunbeam cutting through it. idc if that doesn't make sense in the situation, i feel like it solidifies the parallel between him and quackity, and that's all i really wanted for this part tbh.

panel 3

the intention with this panel was to make q seem as small, alone, and exposed as possible, so as to draw (haha) on the essence of what this walk through the desert is a metaphor for.

panel 4

ignore how his hair makes him look emo here. it's for the ✨️ symbolism ✨️

"what symbolism, tumblr user ifievertoldyou?" i'm glad you asked, imaginary person.

for one, i really wanted las nevadas' lights to reflect in just his left eye, to nod to that eye becoming his blessed eye later on.

for another, i kinda wanted him to only see out of one eye, to foreshadow him meeting, and eventually becoming more like, quackity.

(also i gave the little box of the arial view of him running a purple tint to represent how the sky gods are watching him go through all of this.)

panel 5

i made the las nevadas sign look a lot like the las vegas sign, but i also tried incorporating things from the las nevadas flag onto it, like the little star with the ace of spades, and i also leaned more into the flag's color pallette (though it's still pretty close color-wise to the las vegas sign)

i also had the sign popping outside of the box because of how good las nevadas is at grabbing your attention, and to demonstrate how she's so much larger than life.

panel 6

i kept in mind here that q's shoes kinda look like half boots, and i also drew upon the reference of his meet-up pics with phil.

also, the shoes have just a hint of that wine red that's all over the pariah district and has come to represent quackity. ;]

and obviously, him stepping onto the not-asphalt was symbolic of him crossing the threshold, so there's that.

panel 7

i originally intended for this comic to be longer (and who knows? maybe one day i will continue it), but this frame was intended to also be in the flashback when q has to figure out what quackity's lucky card is. that's why there's a whole frame with just the double doors (and also to cause anticipation, and transition into him meeting quackity, but yeah-)

panel 8

quackity! his little box is super red, in contrast to q's purple box in panel 4, because that's quackity's magic (and favorite) color, so it represents him.

his desk has a las nevadas star on it too, simply because i couldn't think of anything else to put on there lmao, but also, when looking at the LN flag, i can't help but think that the star represents quackity, since it's his magic color and it's all sharp around the edges like how he tends to be, and the ace of spades that is inside of it is more representative of q, since he has the blessed eye, and it's the same as his magic color and whatnot.

misc things:

the color of the gutters get progressively more red than purple as the comic goes on, to symbolize las nevadas and quackity coming into q's life. though the purple is still there, because so are the sky gods ;]

the same goes with the punctuation marks. it starts out purple (with a red outline to foreshadow his future and stuff), but then that eventually inverts itself when he sees the lights of las nevadas. (and quackity's question mark is much more red than q's, although the purple outline is still there, just less noticeable.)

the first person narrative boxes are red, while the captions are purple. again, this stands for the divide between q and the sky gods, since the sky gods are in control of the story, while q is (for now) in control of his own thoughts. wine red is more of quackity's own color, while purple is also the color of the sky gods. so when it's just q's thoughts, they're red, to distinguish him from the sky gods, and also to maybe hint at him becoming more like quackity in the future.

also, i didn't get to do any frames showing his forearms besides the first panel, but just know that q rolled up his sleeves as soon as he realized he was in a desert, as he wanted to avoid getting more hot than he had to. i thought it was important to draw him in a long sleeve shirt though since his bruises were most likely covered up when he met soot.

i know the lights look kinda purple in panel 8, but i swear they're pink, the blue sky just makes them seem more purple. quackity isn't being blasphemous, i promise.

every single red thing in this comic was drawn using the same colored pencil, to show how important quackity is in las nevadas, as well as q's story.

visual foreshadowing and color symbolism: *exists*

me: oh man, this shit fucking slaps

thanks for making it all the way to the end !! i hope you enjoyed it, because i spent wayy too much time thinking about and making all this stuff to not share it with y'all :p

as always, any interactions are very much appreciated ^_^

#thaw #fanart for a fanfic #the house always wins #c!quackity #dsmp #dsmp art #my art #thaw!quackity #thaw!q #thaw fanart #tw swearing #thaw analysis #long post

8 notes · View notes

incarnateirony · 5 months

Text

fdsjkhfjdsh TODAY I GOT A MESSAGE LIKE HEY SUP MIN, THOUGHT YOU MIGHT LIKE TO KNOW HOW ABOUT YOUR EX BEING NUTS AND THINKING SHE CAN FUCK WITH US. JOHN TOLD ME THE GUY THING AND I SAID YOU WERE ALREADY AN HONORARY GUY ANYWAY WHO CARES ANYWAY NOT SURE WHY SHEA DECIDED TO SOB STORY ABOUT YOU TO ME WHEN SHE WAS THE ONE THAT BLOCKED ME TEN YEARS AGO WHEN I REFUSED TO TRANSPORT CZAR HAZMAT OUT OF STATE FOR THE LAST TIME SHE FUCKED YOU OVER

yeah. pff. yeah.

Did he intentionally steal a few techniques of hers, realized she only had two valuable ones, and screw her in a way I'd normally ethically disagree with? Yeah. Is it very funny? Also yeah.

man I didn't even ask for that, she's just been that big of a cunt for a decade running that everyone keeps coming for her while she tries to villainize me and I hear about it after the fact.

Like. How stereotypical of her is it. Whether the cheating/plotting ex girlfriend or cheating/plotting ex wife arc these years apart. To try to run to the guy's gamer bro friends and do this shit only to realize nobody believes her or wants her drama like years late. Why? Because she already burned out, abused, and overdemanded of those men for no logical moral reason they need to help and no other imperatives for them to do what she wanted or-else.

When I told them how bad she shit talked them for years some months ago, I didn't even KNOW she'd been so brazen that, around 2014 when she FIRST bounced on me and I blamed MYSELF, that when the guy she brought in to the houses we were browsing to buy instead of me turned out to be a useless sack of shit couch potato like everyone including me warned her, then trying to harass my friends into driving across the country to pickup her own mistake and blocking them if they don't, and she really thought she could manipulate these same people. Oh holy fuck me.

Shealyn Bonds, you are not the main character of life.

You can't even channel your own inside joke for branding your pagan shop, you have to steal mine. Stop.

god. by the end it was corban realizing I was an artist and us just talking about art anyway. I just hadn't drawn in 12 years for misc life and disability reasons but like "OH, THIS IS FAMILIAR, I'VE SEEN THIS" "Yeah. Cuz I drew it in like 2012 and used it as a CC/TK profile picture then one day Shea vomited high saturation color on it and called it painting it." "RIGHT" "Yeah anyway, I hear you're not allergic to using AI as an art tool so here's my base work and what I've been morphing it into since I can't handle full art anymore with my hands" "BADASS"

Yeah. He's been using AI to increase his output. He's been making money hand over fist. And john ofc as every day like... we have a daily gc and she tryin

"Mmmmm yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaa she tried to do some native american scrying with her ancestors over discord or something." "Oh, what, Hermes, the actual god of communications and business and technology shit, couldn't tell her? What's this all over her website. I wasn't aware Chief Great Great Great Grandpa felt like waking up for your zoom call." "Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaah. It was... weiiiiiiird... and not like... mystical weird... I've been on video with you, and you don't even charge. I know weird mystical. This was like. Weird facebook" "hey buddy remember who that art piece is even of?" "No?" "My In Character rendition of Hermes, who by astral was that thing, and by day was a musician named Aaron Eema?" "Kind of?" [pulls up his like 2010 website with the Rumpocky joke on it] "Yeah bro I plugged a really weird real life channeling story that confused everyone on there and then she lifted that for her brand name." "Jesus christ, that's shameless." "Can we try 'hermballs' instead?"

0 notes