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dullahandyke · 10 months

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Like getting compliments irl is always so cool bcos like it's easy to be cool online you're detached from your body and you're only showing whatever of yourself you wanna in spaces you choose to be in. Irl I've been called smart n nonchalant n nonjudgemental n confident n logical and it never fails to boggle my mind bcos thr body and brain receiving those compliments r the same body n brain that keep me from brushing my teeth for months at a time. Good 2 know I am not as outwardly a dumpster fire as I could be

#i mean my irls alwaya know im somewhag of a dumpster fire #bcos i straight up stopped payinf atrentiok in school for the last 4 months there n i didnr study #but i think they saw it as '2 cool 4 school so smart she doesnt need to study'#instead of 'literally unable 2 pay attention'#and tbf it was kind of even between the two bur rhe second one was for sure There #ive been trying to internalise the conman philosophy to combat imposter syndrome #^ usually i gwt more 'oughhh im a loser poser square' than imposter bur its there #yknow like 'oh im sich a good conman im so good at tricking ppl into thinking im smart do rhe bare minimum baby!!'#anyway ja. ppl irl think i have positive traits n idk how to reconcile this

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