so i got bored one day and was like “hey, what if I gave JGY lots more hats?” and this t’was the result

just a thing from my bf and i rp.

*pierre sits at his table as he writes letters again and has just finished alexs and he grips it tightly and he takes a breath and he starts to sends the letters out. one to Jane's one to Rose.  one to erin. one to david flyn and Maria one to Alex and a few other places like one to morgue and one to yin before he stands up and he gose to his old ROM and sits in the bed and grabs a pill bottle and he grabs a pencil shapner and breaks it and he takes a breath putting in ear buds that blast music and he takes a little bit to clean and Sharon the blade and he shakily give to press it to his skin then stops * if I... if I do this... Alex would be mad if I live... probly think it's another guilt trip.. i-i just wanted to help him in a way he like.  he was sparing with Noah and I.. I thought that be helpful if I did it with him to... *he hangs hid head and chokes on air 1 3:28 PM2 fighting tears shakily * if I do this... I can't live... it's selfish right? I'll just hurt more then helping huh? well Alex already wants to leave *he says and looks at his laptop having been looking at the siquity cameras listing and watxhung* I... *HD looks St his swift and makes a fist and starts to make a deep cut into his arm* I just need to stop fucking up... *he chokes and then takes some of the sleeping pills and he dose the same to his other arm then lays doen*  3:42 PM*alexs note :   Hi alex... if you are reading this then i... im an idiot and im abiut to do something stupid. What i did... yestersy.. was a fucking mistake yes i wanted to soare. But i though it woukd help you. I shoukdbt have ssid anything. If it seemed like a guilt trip.. thats not what i trying to do.. i see how it seemed like thst and im sorry. If yoyr still reading.. thenaks . But youbdonr need to if you dont wanna. Flyns right.. dymo me.. i ove you but all im doing is hurting you ... and i dont wanna. And what i just did. Probky will hurt you more: but you can just inore it... rember.  That... i love you .. and i want whsts best for you... im so so sorry.. *his hand writtjng getting shakiky and sloppy* i dont know how to end this... but all my money gose to you...  i wont need it.. im so sorry i sucked you into my shit when you didny need it. Go find adrisn family... live a good life alright? I love you.. and this isnt ment to be some 1 3:47 PM2  guikt trop.. or for you to have pitty on me..  spit on my grave if wish.. but im glad i ment you.. and im so so rry i helped the girl. I should hsve helped you.  And judt. Ignore her i guess..  i dont want tjis letter to end.. but.. im running out of room lol... yeah... i love youalex.. im sorry for the shit i  jave done. And i... if i live. I hope you can forgive me.. if not. I understand and ill just... lesve you alobe... * it ends in a cursive signiter of pierres  with a smile fave sticker nect to itI ( all out of bofedem.  3:51 PM( he snapped them to send them. so he snapped alexs note to Alex.  4:34 PM( more of alexs note cause I can ) *behind it is another one starting the same * I didn't know what one to send.. God I just cause so many problems . dump me already Alex.. if I live just dump me. I do nothing good for you! .. I try but I just fail every time... Ur the only person I can't seem to understand .. WWHICH SUCKS YA KNOW!? I never know what to fucking do. but I try... I did... but I just make you mad and annoyed and ugh! I should have just ignore the damn girl huh? I should have... I should have... God this all sounds like a major guilt trip... I hate myself lol... if you even make it to this one congrats. I'm probably dead now... gods I love you Alex... but I just always mess up.. I don't .. I'm just not what you need in life.. you need someone better than me. some one who can help you and care for you... I thought you would want to spare with me. I save said you may not hate it and I wanted to help and I thought it would but i jus1 4:41 PM2 made it all sound  like a huge guilt trip... I threw my phone when driving out of anger and sadness ... I wanted to stay but I felt if I did it make it all worse.. Ur probably .. No not peorobly  ... maybe i dont know. mad at me. annoyed. pissed as fuck yet sad.. I was watching the cameras.. The combo of you and flyn.. he's right... if they find me... and I love somehow ... just dump me when I wake up... he's right... it's better for you to go be happy and without my shit .. I just.. I'm just so sorry. tell yuko I'm sorry... give him a hug for me. tell abrus I'm  so sorry... I hope you live a better life without me.... I do love you Alex. with all of heart and soul I love you.. *his writing im this one sloppy and the pepper kinda wet and ink kinda messy from tears * if ... i dont know... idk... i dont care... I'm aat my old home... probly dead now.  I probably regret it and adrien  is kick my ass cause of it.. cause I left you... I love you-end-