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gregoftom · 11 months

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alright nero damn

#WHERE do i even start with this ohahnd m #ok first of all TOM why is your voice so fucking low???????????????????? like girl.........#i know he's being quiet but it's also so LOW. so murmuring...... so .... IntimateTM #the way they act so TETHERED to one another. the way greg is like OH YEAH for a second i forgot #i am bound to you. so am i gonna be okay bc are you? are WE?#YOURE GONNA GET CASTRATED ON PAY SHUT THE HELL UP NERO!!!!! I KNOW HE AINT SAY THAT ON ACCIDENT #he's still thinking about nero sporus he hasn't forgotten what he said to greg in that office he still feels the same way #greg is his sporus now and forever i'm suprised he didn't drop the sporus right there tbh #but i think i can keep you girl i KNOW that is all you are thinking about. that is a top fucking priority for you. you want to keep greg #at all costs. your job yeah you want that and all but the Real reason you want it all is to keep greg with you just SAY that #i mean. you did but still #also stop looking at him like that by talos!!!!!! it gets worse by the day i s2g #tom [looking at greg like he's his entire world]: die #ALSO THE WAAAAY HE TOUCHED GREG TWICE AFTER #cant just touch him once huh. touching his face tenderly is NOT ENOUGH i Must touch his shoulder too. more touching. he is mine btw #tomgreg

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coquelicoq · 7 days

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the thing they don't tell you about reading the entire dictionary aloud is that spending that much time caressing words in your mouth may lead you to form sensual, perhaps romantic associations with the act of speech. the words become more fully themselves on my tongue. i use my body to bring them to life. this, too, is yuri

#giggling and twirling my hair at the dictionary: ....and then what #i think i already was like this before i read the dictionary but it's hard to say. i do definitely think of individual words as #my friends or enemies and that's always been true to some extent. but now some of them are also my lovers #new ask game give me a word and i'll tell you what kind of relationship we have #here's a freebie: freebie. kind of obnoxious but doesn't rise to enemy level. i'm just sort of like oh freebie is at this party?#okay i will stand on the other side of the room so that we only cross paths once or twice and maybe kind of #comically grimace at each other in mutual forbearance. no love lost but we do basically respect each other #<-this is not a metaphor for whether i use the word freebie or how i feel when someone says the word freebie btw #it's just like...synesthesia. but for vibes?#fun with words #lecture du dico #my posts

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impossible-rat-babies · 4 months

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me grabbing eyrie and shaking them is it not enough to have gone through four ships by now. is it not enough for you funny man

#first thancred then g’raha and then zenos and now I’m still thinking about redacted #I can’t even mention and expansion or it’s gonna be so obvious #moots can stash this post in a folder and in two months I’m gonna be goofy pool #me furiously filing away things into AU’s before accepting at this point there just isn’t a canon #okay okay haurchefant doesn’t count bc I never really entertained beyond what the plot gave us #and with thancred it turned into a they had sex once or twice in ARR and it wasn’t ever a relationship #even though they did end up with a messy friendship in post HW + ShB of unresolved guilt #G’raha slipped into they worked better as friends tbh #Zenos is a can of worms of you get to au’s funny man #and I’ve been vibing a lot with the one where he dies and there’s a lot of complicated grief for eyrie #and the nebulous status of what they meant to each other #enemies or friends or kindered spirit or the hero and the villain aren’t so different #I am NOT SPEAKING redacted into the world #I’m gonna rotate it in my brain #owen talks #no consistent canon we create what brings joy in the moment #and look back at what we once created with the affection of something that once made us very happy

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roxyandelsewhere · 2 years

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Angels’ trueforms in their most memorable moments [23/?] - Endverse!Cas

inprnt | society6 | redbubble | ko-fi

#TOOK A WHILE BUT I FINALLY FIGURED THIS ONE OUT!!!#spn #spnart #spn art #mine.caro #trueforms #spn fanart #castiel #okay so. i'd said MONTHS ago (maybe even over a year?) that i saw trueform endverse!cas as being shaped like the flayed skin #that michelangelo painted as a self portrait in the sistine chapel. as an answer to someone asking me if i'd ever do endverse!cas even #anon i hope you're still out there. i finally did it!! but back then i said i only knew that and i had to figure out the rest #bc i saw endverse!cas as being twice fallen. once from angelhood and the other from like. humanity. toppled over to somewhere else #and i couldn't figure out that second fall or how to turn everything about endverse!cas into more Images #and then i thought. i've been doing the fall from angelhood as the change from geometric to 'freestyle'. flowy if you will #what if that second fall is from abstract to figurative. things being more literal and whatnot. and i checked if other trueforms backed #this up. samandriel being tortured does. the vitruvian man on a cross and such. cas in the rapture and the translation glitches #can count for this. so that's what i went with. and so you have the flayed skin as the core. the flowy shapes of a fall angel as a cloud #around it. and bursting from it. piercing through like knives. you have the arms of a basket star #there is the eyehole with the Wanting hands like in my bloody valentine. but just an EYEhole and with less hands. gripping the flayed skin #but the Wants are more in the shape of a basket star here. wide open and static. waiting for whatever falls from the water above them #(google them btw. they're cool. Ophiuroidea). i think there's also something hannibal-antlers about it #now a part of endverse!cas is also being contained in a human body but i couldn't do that like in the rapture. and i kept thinking How #is it about animals and natural things from the translation glitches being constrained. predating each other? smth smth insular ecology?#until i realized. it's not about biology it's about physics. the key to it is FALLING out instead of SPROUTING out #less life more resignation. but it had to be things that are naturally falling down bc stuff like dead animals would be doing the #same thing i hate when nature documentaries do. there are stephen jay gould essays about it but tl;dr anthropomorphization of morality #so i went with hanging plants. i thought about also having falling feathers but that's more cas Becoming endverse!him #here the feathers already fell long ago. what else. there are some patters from cas before but less so and melting-clocks'ed #and the eyes were referenced from those weeping virgin mary statues.like pearls on strings #and i think thats it for this one! it'll be up on the stores soon

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itspileofgoodthings · 9 days

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Nina and I are unfortunately like dynamite and gunpowder. something happens and we’re just like oh yeah? You wanna go? Let’s go! Meet me in the ring bitch!

#part of our power is the insane SPEED and then reconciliation of our fights #we forgive and communicate as fast as we fight #but there is no one in the world who makes me just SAY the shit I shouldn’t say than her #like she just. she herself is so fast and so blunt and so ruthless and so bullying and so LOUD #that it fires me right up and it’s like okay well FINE the gloves are off #but then it makes me anxious after like. did I say something TOO hurtful #Nina and I always joke we have the RANGE #because for all of my we’re the struggling married couple of sisters #we also have times where the fun and exchange of ideas is flowing #and this ability to say and hear things to/from each other that most people don’t/can’t?#like. the level of rock-solid trust is SO high. but equally high is our wildly differing personalities and worldview #so there isn’t anything quite like it and it can be confusing from the outside #like I HAVE to meet her in the parking lot because she’ll be being the WORST #but also she thinks I am being the worst #but anyway I do hate when a fight seems like NEW territory #and then I always worry that I have done irreversible damage #I can hear Nina in my head mocking that very idea because she is so tough #and mocking the anxiety of me being like nothing can ever be okay again #but life and certain subjects have been traumatizing in the past year #so idk what is safe exactly right now #I am FULLY rambling and having a million thoughts at once #but yeah #SORRY FOR SWEARING #twice

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running-in-the-dark · 2 months

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normally I'm not a fan of clip show episodes buuut I'm really enjoying the ones in season 6 of Night Court.

not just because of all the Dan stuff but... okay only 99% because of that.

also "not sleazy but ethically questionable in regards to women" - oh Daaan 🙄

#by far the best part is seeing all his pretty suits #and when his hair was longer and shorter :3 #and more or less grey :3 #very cute #and he's sooo awful 🥰 very nice summary of why I love him (unfortunately lol)#he's so funny. he's so so stupidly funny #it's nice to know that there's things that can overcome my insane morality issues #ooh this character did a not great thing once? hmm yeah the brain can't handle it sorry.#this man is the worst? horrible awful terrible not good ever in any way? yes please :)#it's a mystery why he gets a pass (it's because I find him insanely attractive and he's so fucking funny and it's simply too much)#(no seriously it's because I was already obsessed with him before I started watching the show and obsession is stronger than the issues so.#that makes it okay!#because yes I have to justify this to myself! can't just like him! I've got to fill out a form for my brain every time I accidentally think #about this :) hmm can we like him... no we can't... but WHAT IF...)#anyway whatever I just watched both these episodes twice lol #personal #night court #dan fielding #also. not relevant but he's definitely gained weight over these six seasons and. I'm only mentioning that because. I like it soooo much. 🥵#he looks so good. ugggh #it does not matter but. I like it.

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rubys-domain · 8 months

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fuck, what if the reason i'm winning my 50/50's is because hoyo doesn't want me to have tighnari

#⇢₊˚⊹ 🩷∥ruby∥yo，ide yo !!#i'm joking obviously. this isn't a serious post #i mean i'm definitely not complaining about getting an early lyney #but that goddamn fennec fox is taking way too long to come home #on my alt i've decided i'm not gonna finish tighnari's story quest until i get tighnari #so that whenever i have the urge to play around with his kit i can just go into his quest domain #i was planning to do the same for lyney. but now i have him so i don't need to anymore #thank god #why didn't they let us try albedo in his story quest #that is an actual travesty #now i have to wait for another fucking fayz trial or whatever to get to use him again #(assuming i don't get him in his rerun)#now i'm kinda torn tho #i already have lyney on the alt. so what should i do on main. should i keep pulling? or save for venti?#even though i have him on the alt i still want him on main damn it #eh fuck it. i'll keep pulling. i should have plenty of time to get /a/ 5 star out of this banner at least，assuming high pity #at least i won't be as sad not winning the 50/50 cuz i already have him on the alt #and then it's all in for venti babyyyyyyyy #(okay MAAAAAAAYBE 4 star pity once or twice in the next banner to try for freminet like i said. but otherwise，all for venti)#(or albedo. whoever gets rerun first)

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deadlittledogs · 1 year

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If ur ex friend reached out to rekindle your friendship would you?

She just texted me today when I was at work. I ended up crying for most my shift. She wants to be friends but she thinks I’m asking for too much. She doesn’t feel any regret towards how she’s made me feel and even expressed that she couldn’t take the situation seriously and therefore couldn’t respond to my hurt appropriately. She doesn’t think she’s done anything wrong (ever) and if she fails to meet any of my needs or doesn’t support me in the slightest it’s because she’s ‘just some guy’ and needs to focus on her own life. She wants to be friends but on HER terms and seems satisfied being the only one ‘getting something’ out of this relationship. It doesn’t really matter to her how happy or unhappy I feel, as long as I am technically ‘there’, ya know?

She continues to reject my own rejection and instead, after I continually attempt to sever the tie, tells me I’m basically acting irrationally and she loves me and we’ll talk later when I’m ‘ready’ for it. It makes me feel insane, sort of.

I just don’t understand…. what this is….. what is this? We’ve both taken on such odd personalities with each other. These conversations have warped us into something terrible, I always end up going on heinous, horrible rants, so overtaken by my own pain and grief I start lashing out wildly. She acts so cold, so uncaring, like my emotion is nothing more than a small stain at the edge of her sweater. She takes the time to spell out her laughter and mock me for what I have to say. She denies, denies, denies. I tell her I’ll spit in her fucking face for it.

I don’t know what to think anymore. The conversation made me feel so humiliated, worthless, needy. So disrespected and like I was nothing but an extra creepy bug beneath her shoe. I still want to believe she’d change and do better because I miss her in my life so dearly but I think there’s something seriously, seriously wrong with her mentally. People don’t just act like this. People don’t treat other people like this unless they have serious fucking issues. I refuse to engage with her until she can stop being a fucking BPD cow.

#like I’m genuinely was not asking much from her lmao #I just want to be an active part of her life that’s literally it #and anytime I’m like. you break promises. you don’t spend any time with me. you disappear for months and months.#she’s like ‘yeah we’re normal friends now ur expecting waaaaay too much okay. we aren’t dating lol’#like wtf are you talking about 😭😭😭#I swear to god I swear to god it’s because she had a falling out with her old best friend and they managed to reconnect #and now they reconnect a couple times a year to catch up #and that’s what’s she basing this off of lmao #and like with them that dynamic makes sense #but it wouldn’t make sense with me???#AND SHE DOESNT GET THAT #she thinks I should just be cool sitting at home alone all day while she does whatever #and she only needs to see me once or twice a year #??????????#i’m like naaah get fucked #I didn’t agree to this shit lol #if she wants it that way good for her cuz now she gets nothing!#swag!

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bmpmp3 · 7 months

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although i guess a point to me being genuinely kind of offline is i once had a job interview and they asked me what i would make as reels for their corporate instagram and i had to ask them what reels were

#i applied to that job by accident and i didnt realize it was a social media manager position until like i was already in the zoom call #(this was like in 2020 or something) (in my defense the job posting was vague)#i didnt know what reels were!! i didnt know. i hadnt used instagram for more than like 20 minutes before orz #that job interview in general was a little painful i felt so so bad for the interviewers #i knew theres no way i could get the job nor did i want the job once i realized what it was #so i was just like okay sure heres a quick little practice interview then so i didnt mind #but i imagine those poor interviewers. imagine u get a candidate for like. a chef position. and they dont know what a knife is #they asked me if i used twitter much and i was honest and said not since a little bit in 2014 for a class project #they asked if i used instagram and i said once or twice. also for school #facebook? anything? not really. technically tumblr and dA and such but i wasnt gonna tell them that part LOL #also sorry im suddenly really chatty at midnight. i had a bunch of homework to do and i just finished #so now ur getting all the thoughts i wanted to blog about while writing some discussion posts about class topics hjkfdsjgdklfsgsfa

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frozenambiguity · 1 year

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Don't get him wrong.

He absolutely adores being in the company of the Dawn Winery's owner himself. Moreso when it becomes ever so rare these days. But there is a single trait Kaeya never manages to overlook. Sometimes Diluc has certain speech patterns that just...

Ah. How can one even describe it?

“Rain... If only it could cleanse the corrupt souls of this world...”

Or

“Some use the wind's whistling to drown out the sound of their crimes.”

Or even

“For dawn to come, there must be those who dare to pierce the darkness with their light.”

Straight out of an edgy adolescent film.

#{{ kaeya vc: diluc are you all right man.......... }}#{{ kaeya vc: okay batman we get it but??? }}#{{ kaeya vc: what has your solitary journey done to you.... what is this ahsfjhajf }}#{{ kaeya vc: it's clowning diluc hours <3 <3 <3 }}#【 ic | fool you once; fool you twice. 】

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anonymusbosch · 9 months

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[edit to blank post: she's home now and doing better]

#my grandma is in the hospital for the third time in I think a little over a month #different thing each time #the first two were things with expected recovery and this one is a We Don't Know.#I'm hoping not to get The Call from my mom. the call that says buy plane tickets and bring your suit #i really hope she's okay #the last three times I tried to talk to her I mostly couldn't #once my grandfather talked over her a lot #twice she couldn't answer bc of breathing problems #i just.#yknow i get it when people say they're praying for someone because sometimes what else can you do? what else can you say #negative

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ahalliance · 10 months

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i feel like ten and martha jumped immediately to that best friend stage where you’d trust them with your life and your ugliest and most vulnerable moments without actually developing a relationship that would naturally amount to that first . like that first bit for most friendships came after lmaooo

#which is why their relationship is strong and true and deep yet also a fucking mess 💀#they saved each other’s life n then ten’s subconscious took it as a cue to start trauma dumping #he’s trying his best okay .#jay rambles #dw.txt #10.txt #marthaj.txt #it’s interesting bc with rose their relationship had time to naturally develop #she didn’t get all of the doctor’s flaws at once or all his qualities at once #she rly got to discover him as a person over a long period of time. twice #martha saw his best side and fell in love with that + the jump in their relationship which i was describing which made the whole thing messy #donna’s rly interesting bc she speedran the doctor’s whole character in the Christmas bride ep #like all of the doctor’s good and bad (with a bit more emphasis on the bad) got condensed into one adventure #so she KNEW what she was getting into lmao #and their relationship was able to truly bloom from that honest introduction she got

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