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hoziersredguitar · 1 month

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I miss old tumblr in the sense that i could complain about board exams and worrying about not getting enough to be eligible for my medical entrance test and i'd have summoned half the indian side of tumblr to sympathize

#im in sm stress #if i dont score above 75% im not eligible for my neet exam #which im planning to take a drop year for #and its gonne be both expensive and emotionally taxing #and i have to give THIS years neet exam too #for reasons #im not in the clear until may 20 #adulthood is a scam #And that is well BEFORE i even start preparing for neet #well before i even have to consider the possibility that i might not get in #im pretty much using this post to vent in tags #its like 4 am #and im stressed. scared. everything #its really difficult just existing w adhd and mental illness #much less studying #and neet is like highly competetive #the cutoff goes so high #i want to get out of this city #and be safe and actually be alive for once #a big part of me will shrivel up and die if i stay #and this is the first time i've actually wanted smth for real #tentatively and doubtfully #but wanting still #and idk if i'll make a good doctor or if i'll fuck up and have it all blow up in my fsce #overthinking basically #im worried im not. capable of doing this #anyways desi tumblrinas where are you😭😭😭😭

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