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a-fistful-of-charms · 7 years

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I was tagged by the lovely @skytlake ! Thank you! Sorry this took so long. I’ve been super busy with work <3.

1ST RULE: Tag 9 people you want to get to know better

2ND RULE: Fill in the categories

APPEARANCE: I am 5’0ft (152 cm) with shoes on. So I’m pretty short, which leads to quite a bit of teasing from friends and coworkers. I have long Ariel red hair that is naturally wavy and goes down to my lower back and pale bluish gray eyes. My complexion is very fair, and at times I feel I resemble a ghost. I blame this on the fact that I spend countless hours in a lab doing research and working on papers. I don’t get out during the daylight much haha. Like Jimin, I also have really small hands which I get teased about a lot at work - and whenever they do a supply order for the lab, they have to special order extra small gloves just for me.

I wear glasses on a daily basis and lose them at least once a day and then am unable to find them again, because I can’t see to find them! Couple this with being accident-prone (things have a tendency to break around me), it’s usually a bit disastrous when this happens.

PERSONALITY: I have always been on the shy side and am very easy to make blush. My default defense mechanism when nervous is to laugh or crack a joke (usually a lame one) in hopes of distracting attention away. However, when I am around people who I am very comfortable with, I am pretty goofy and like to make people laugh. I’m also a huge nerd about anything math/science/gaming/comic related.

Despite being introverted, I work in the medical field in the ER as a nurse – and when on the job it’s like I become a whole new person. My personality pretty much does a complete flip – I’m confident, good at what I do, and don’t take crap from anyone (it’s weird, I know, considering in every other aspect of my life - I'm the definition of a 'wallflower').

Seeing an animal or person in need is my kryptonite and I simply can’t turn anything away. Whether it is a person, dog, cat, snake, bird, you name it and I’ll try and rescue it if needs help. Wanting to care for people is very deeply set in my bones and I get tunnel vision in my pursuit of this. Sometimes to the point of neglecting myself and becoming ill because of it or injured. I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve and prefer to give rather than take.

ABILITY: Not only do I love to read, I am an extremely fast reader. I can read multiple 500+ page books in one sitting. I floored my professor once, as he didn’t believe I could read that fast and retain the knowledge. I also really love math and science and am quite good at it. My favorite being Biochemistry - and am working on my phD in it right now along side my MD.

HOBBIES: Art, reading, music, and photography are huge passions of mine. My ideal day is to be curled up someplace reading a good book, making a mess while painting, playing the piano, or going on long nature hikes and rock climbs to take wildlife photos. I’m also pretty nerdy and love not only video games, but anything to do with science. One of my newfound hobbies over the past year has been boxing and I LOVE IT. I train a few times a week with a personal MMA trainer and can proudly say that I’m starting to see some nice lady muscles on my arms and legs. One day I’ll have lovely lady abs...one day!

EXPERIENCES: When I was 10 years old, I broke my tailbone by trying to prove to my crush that girls could do anything boys could do. So I jumped off my roof, onto the trampoline, with the intention of bouncing off the trampoline into the pool. Well. I missed the pool. On a more a serious note, alongside being a nurse, I am also a paramedic - and am tactically trained along with trained for disaster relief and have had to act on it on a few occasions. I’ve done multiple swift water rescues along with rappelling down cliffsides for rescue. I also got my firefighter certification when I got my paramedic, however, I never put it to use...because let's face it? I’m 5’0ft nothing. If I ran into a burning building to save somebody, they’d probably just laugh at me and take their chances with the smoke.

MY LIFE: I currently live in Arizona (USA), but am originally from Livorno, Italy! As for a life, I really don’t have one. I work two jobs, one being a full time job. I also am a student and am working on my MD and PhD at the same time. In my ‘free’ time, I do a lot of medical volunteer work and also take care of my mama who is ill. I tend to spend what little quiet time I get working on art and listening to music. I guess one fun fact is that I am a proud mama to an almost 5’5ft python named Kaa! She’s such a sweetheart! I hatched her myself from a clutch of eggs my professor thought would not make it. I like to joke that I know parseltongue after the sorting hat put me in Slytherin (totally not mad). She’s a very suiting familiar!

RELATIONSHIPS: I am in committed relationship with an amazing guy whom I love to death. Not only does he put up with my eccentricities, but he also accepts the fact that I have been mentally dating both Ji Chang Wook, Kwon Jiyong and more than a handful of other idols and actors for years.

RANDOM STUFF: Italian is my first language and English is my second. I am fluent in Latin as well even though I rarely get to use it. I also can read and write in Korean along with understand it when it’s spoken. I just have a harder time speaking / shy about speaking due to my pronunciation. My mom’s best friend is Korean and they have been friends since before I was born, by all rights, she’s my aunt in everything but blood. So I grew up with her always talking to me in Korean and playing alongside her children who are still among some of my best friends now that we are all adults. Next summer, I am even going home with them to Jeju for a few weeks and am super excited, as I haven’t been back to Korea since I was really little!

@zozeephan @xtellasilver @confessionsofashyfangirl I don’t really know a lot of people...so I picked a couple of people I follow who I think are really sweet - and I would love to learn more about.

#me #about me #this took forever #i'm so lame

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sweetheart-minnie · 7 years

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Summary: All about Minnie this time!!!!! :DD This is what I did today instead of replies and then I wonder why they build up on me xDD

Trigger Warnings: Death nothing descriptive at all though

ORIGINS & FAMILY:

Name: Minerva Marie Muysken

Nickname: Minnie. Everybody calls her that!!! Half of the time that’s just how Minnie introduces herself she hardly ever uses her actual name. Dodger calls her Mins.

Reason for name: Her mother was very into soap operas haha and the main lead in her favorite soap opera was named Minerva hence Minnie’s name

Birthday: February, 28th 1994

Age: Twenty-Three

Gender: Female

Place of birth: Swynlake, England

Places lived since: She has lived in London for about three years after the death of her parents because she was sent into the foster care system. She was then given to her Aunt who lives in Swynlake so she returned back.

Parents’ names, backgrounds, occupations: Melanie and Michael Muysken. Both parents are currently deceased. When they were alive though, Michael was a neurosurgeon and Melanie was an elementary teacher. Melanie and Michael met when Michael started off his residency in Spain. During that time he met Melanie when her mother had to come in for surgery in the hospital he was a resident for. It was history from there and then Michael brought Melanie over to Swynlake.

Number of siblings: None

Relationship with family (close? estranged?): Minnie’s parents are dead. :((( When they were alive though she had a very close relationship with them both!!!

Happiest memory: Her happiest memory would be when her mother would believe that she was this awesome opera singer and go about singing in the house. Minnie and her dad would always end up blocking their ears and hilariously laughing at Melanie.

Childhood trauma: Yeahh Minnie had a couple of these. For starters, Minnie was witnessed to her parents’ death. It was a car accident in where she had been the sole survivor and in being so she had to watch her parents die, even though she had tried her best to keep them alive (but she was only ten then). Then she had to live in the foster care system for a couple of year and for the icing on the cake she was legally given to her Aunt who was an angry alcoholic along with her husband.

Children of his/her own?: None

If so, relationship with their mother/father?: N/A

Age he/she gave birth/became a father: N/A

PHYSICAL

Height: 5’ 5”

Weight: 130 lbs

Build: Slim

Nationality: Spanish from her mother’s side who was born in Spain and English from her father’s side who was born in England.

Disabilities (physical or mental, including mental illnesses): None.

Complexion (freckles, acne, skin tone, birth marks): Minnie has this kind of like beautiful tannish type skin and doesn’t really suffer from acne. It isn’t even because she’s on top of her skin, like skin care wise, she really kind of isn’t haha she just got lucky it seems.

Distinguishing facial features: I’m not sure if this technically counts buttttt I’m going to say her hair!!!! Ughhh Minnie has such gorgeous haiiirrr!!!!! Her hair is very long and pretty thick so she has this volume of beautiful brown-black hair!!! So pretttyyy.

Hair color: Brown-Black

Usual hair style: For the most part, Minnie’s hair is always up. More times then not it’s up in the typical messy nurse-bun that for some reason ends up looking cute even though it’s a messy bun haha. Other times it’s a ponytail, but again it’s not this gorgeously intact pony tail, it’s this super swiftly done one that has random strands coming out for which, Minnie tends to tame with headbands. When she does go out though, she leaves it all gorgeously loose.

Eye color: Dark Brown

Glasses? Contacts?: None

Style of dress/typical outfit(s): Minnie is more of a comfort person when it comes to her style of dressing. Her clothing tends to be more on the simple side. She loves jeans, will happily place some on with a t-shirt and call it a day. She does love summer dresses too. Honestly, anything that makes her feel comfortable that’s what she likes. When she’s working though, she’s in scrubs so she’ll often be caught in that since she tends to work a lot.

Typical style of shoes: Anything that is flat!!! haha. Most of the time she’s in sneakers because of her job, but she loves flip-flops and sandals when she isn’t working and the weather is warm enough. She loves boots too, particularly her Uggs.

Health (is this person usually sick? or very resilient?): Minnie is pretty resilient. I think with working around the sick as much as she does it helped to strengthen her immune system. At the same time because she works nights and that screws the body up pretty badly she’s on top of taking vitamins and eating somewhat healthy so that it could make things easier for her.

Grooming (does she/he wear makeup? shower daily? wear only clean clothes? pluck her eyebrows?): When it comes to cleanliness Minnie is very clean. She like hand sanitizes every where she goes, and when she comes home from work in the morning she has this bin on the side of the door where she takes off her scrubs as she comes in and places it in there. All that is done so that she doesn’t bring in the germs from work and then she has to go take a shower hahaha. She isn’t hugely into make-up like at all and the most she really does is mascara and eye-liner. Sometimes lip stick.

Jewelry? Tattoos? Piercings?: The standard two piercings on her ears. Minnie does have her belly pierced as well. She currently doesn’t have any tattoos, but she wouldn’t be opposed to getting one in the future if she finds one she likes. When it comes to jewelry she just wears a necklace and stud earrings. With her line of work wearing gaudy type jewelry isn’t the best.

Accent?: A British accent.

Unique mannerisms/physical habits (bites nails, talks with hands, taps feet when restless): When Minnie is nervous she bites the inside of her cheek. Tell her anything super sweet, compliment her, or make her embarrassed she instantly blushes. When she gets worried for some reason she becomes physically abusive hahaha nothing super horrible she just hits the person for making her worried.

Athletic?: Ummm no not really. I mean she’s constantly on her feet for work and she works, over eight, twelve, even sometimes sixteen hour shifts. She also walks her cat, but other than that, that’s about as athletic as she really gets.

INTELLECT

Level of education (high school drop out, undergrad BA/BS, PhD, MD, etc.): Minnie has a Bachelor’s degree in Nursing. She got it from good ole Pride University. She knew what she wanted to be as soon as she enrolled. On top of her bachelor’s degree, she has gone through numerous certification programs so that she’s able to basically be floated to any unit available in the hospital.

Level of self esteem: Uhhh probably half and half between a low self- esteem and a good self-esteem. Minnie at times can get insecure, jump to conclusions, not think she’s as good and as pretty as she actually is. At the same time, she knows she’s a great nurse and actually likes herself, so it really is like half and half.

Gifts/talents: Minnie is an awesome baker!!!!! And a cook too she’s cooks really good. She can sing as well (I hc she has Selena Gomez’s voice hahaha), but not many know that about her as she doesn’t go publicly singing around.

Shortcomings: Let’s seeee she’s too nice. I know that doesn’t look like a short coming, but Minnie is the kind that will allow herself to get ran over if it means it benefits someone else. She would easily place herself last to help anyone and everybody. It’s hard for her to say no, because she always wants to be there for people, so often times people would abuse that sweetness.

Style of speech (loud, mumbler, articulate, etc.): Soft and light. She’s not exactly like very articulate with her speech, unless explaining a procedure at work, or a course of treatment.

“Left brain” or “right brain” thinker?: I feel like Minnie is a good mix of both. She’s not a crazy left brain person but she’s not a crazy right brain person either.

Artistic?: Nope. Haha

Mathematical?: Yes! She kind of has to be good with her math skills since she’s constantly converting and calculating to get the correct dose in medications.

Languages? Just Spanish because her mom taught her how to speak it when she was young.

Makes decisions based mostly on emotions, or on logic?: Emotions. Definitely emotions. She can get insecure and overthink things and then she ends up acting on that. At work though, she leans more on logic depending on the facts presented to her about her patient.

Neuroses: None

Life philosophy: Have courage and be kind. (Wow her’s is so purreee)

Religious stance: She doesn’t have a particular stand

Cautious or daring?: Sorta both to be honest. She can be cautious about certain things and if anything she’s probably more cautious than she is daring, but she does have her daring moments. Those tend to pop up most whenever she’s around Dodger haha.

Optimist or pessimist?: Optimist!!!!! Oh my gosh too freaking optimistic

Extrovert or introvert?: Extrovert

Level of comfort with technology: Very comfortable!!!

RELATIONSHIPS

Current marital/relationship status: Taken

Sexual orientation: Heterosexual

Past relationships: Ughhh Minnie has a shitty relationship history. Most of it consist of her being cheated on because once her boyfriends at the time realized how sweet she is they thought it easy to go right ahead and cheat. Her first serious boyfriend who she had fallen for, he had made a bet with his friends that he can take Minnie’s virginity. He did fucking ass-hole she gave it to him because she knew nothing about the bet. Eventually she found out and of course she ended up with a heart break. So yeah, Minnie has a horrible track record.

A social person? (popular, loner, some close friends, makes friends and then quickly drops them): Minnie is such a social butterfly!!!!! She loves talking to people, would say hi to anyone, smile and laugh. Making friends is probably one of her favorite things to do. She just loves being around people.

Most comfortable around (person): She’s very comfortable around her co-workers, has a great friendship with Dr. Sweets. Minnie though is the most comfortable around Dodger.

Oldest friend: Ummm probably anyone who has lived in Swynlake like their whole life like she basically has haha

SECRETS

Life goals: She kind of completed one. She became a nurse just like she has always wanted to be. She got out from under her Aunt and her husband’s roof which was something else she desperately wanted. She wouldn’t mind settling down in the future, find someone she’d love to spend all her time with. She’s a bit of a romantic like that.

Dreams: Minnie kind of got her dream. She has always wanted to be a nurse and that’s exactly what she is. She pretty much wanted to help people, much like her dad did.

Greatest fears: Constantly getting hurt because she has such a shitty relationship past. Her parents are already dead so there went that fear.

Most ashamed of: Hahahaha okay sooo one time, which was her first and last time, Minnie got like plastered drunk. She had gone out with some friends after a bad break up and they were all drinking. Well she got plastered drunk, and Minnie gets pretty flirty when she’s drunk. The next morning she finds herself in some random stranger’s house and realized she had a one night stand. Minnie has never gotten plastered drunk after that hahaha.

Compulsions: Minnie practically has to hand sanitize where ever she goes. If she enters a place she quick hand sanitizes her hands, before she eats she washes them, any where new she takes out a hand sanitizer and sanitizes her hands.

Obsessions: Pastries!!!!!!!!! Minnie will love you forever and a day if you give her a pastry!!!!! Any kind!!!!! You’ll have her jumping up and down with excitement.

Secret hobbies: Cooking and baking because Minnie loves doing both. She sings too so that can be another hobby for her.

Secret skills: Sooo Minnie is actually really good at picking locks looool. It was something she got taught back when she was in the foster care system.

Crimes committed (and was he/she caught? charged?): None, Minnie is a complete sweetie :D

What he/she most wants to change about his/her current life: If Minnie could change anything it would be that her parents never died. She would love to have them alive with her, but she knows that that can’t be the case.

What he/she most wants to change about his/her physical appearance: I don’t think there is anything Minnie would really want to change about herself. I mean she shouldn’t she’s gorgeousss.

DETAILS/QUIRKS

Night owl or early bird?: Night Owl

Light or heavy sleeper?: Light

Favorite food: Junk food hahahaha. I find this hilarious because Minnie is a nurse and she knows that all that kind of food is bad for you!!! But, she can’t help herself!!!! She has such a horrible sweet tooth she loves all sorts of sweets!!!!

Least favorite food: Spicy food!!! Yeah, Minnie is HORRIBLE with them!!! She can’t even eat a buffalo pizza, her tongue can’t take the heat.

Favorite book: The Secret by Julie Garwood

Least favorite book: Anything that has to do with economics or buisness things she doesn’t like!!!! All of that bores her to death

Favorite movie: The Princess Bride

Least favorite movie: Drama movies. Too much drama bothers Minnie she just stares at the movie and/or show and is like .....really???

Favorite song: As It Seems by Lily Kershaw.

Least favorite song: She’s pretty much like Georgette with this one she doesn’t like very heavy Heavy Metal. She just hasn’t been able to get a taste for it.

Coffee or tea?: Coffee. It should be tea considering she lives in England haha but she can’t live without coffee it really helps her with her job

Crunchy or smooth peanut butter?: Smooth

Lefty or righty?: Righty

Favorite color: Ughh, Minnie loves her pink too hahaha, but she also loveeesss red!!!!

Cusser?: Nope. Minnie doesn’t curse at all, not even when she’s really angry.

Smoker? Drinker? Drug user?: Casual drinker and when she does drinks she has taken to making sure that someone is always with her to act as a sort of chaperone so that she never gets herself into a one-night stand again hahaha

Biggest regret: I would’ve thought that it would be the same as her biggest shame but nope. Minnie’s biggest regret is wanting to have a tenth birthday party, because it was in wanting that party that her parents had to get birthday supplies for and that’s what they were doing when they all got into the car accident that took their lives.

Pets?: Meeeeppp Minnie has a cat!!! It’s a tuxedo cat named Figaro whom she is absolutely IN LOVE WITH!!!! He’s her prince charming mhmmm. She calls him that all the time!!!!!

#knowing minnie #two down still got a whole bunch others to gooo #headcanon

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tayegi · 7 years

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Equilibrium is blowing my mind 😮😮😮 I never expected jungkook to suddenly turn into some possessive psycho jerk 😨😨 I really hope he gets his shit together. What the flying f*ck 😱😱😱 In fact It'd be cool if Jin suddenly showed up with food and The OC leaves that chaotic relationship for food 😂😂😂😂 EVRYONE WOULD PICK FOOD OVER RELATIONSHIPS. right ? Am i the only one lol *cries*

AHHHH THANK YOU AND EVERYONE ELSE FOR THEIR LOVELY ASKS!!! IT’S GOOD TO KNOW THAT PEOPLE CAN HAVE HEALTHY, NON-PROBLEMATIC REACTIONS TO GROSS, CONTROLLING MEN!

Anonymous said:Sorry for being late to the party lol, but I just read the new update of Equilibrium and I felt so fucking anxious and scared for the oc. I don't know how in the hell, some ppl find jungkook's actions hot when he is literally being psychotic and obsessive. Especially the part when he told her 'You'll regret it', he's basically threatening her there. It's obvious the whole relationship they have is toxic af and it only seems to be getting worse as time passes. Apart from that, have a nice day!

Anonymous said:OMG EQUILIBRIUM 11 Omg I still have goosebumps, like Jungkook was being so fucking possessive it scared the shit out of me. Even tho It was a shitty move for the oc to not attend his graduation, she still could had attended but that phone call... I don't want this to turn into some creepy murdering fanfic LOL. Ughhh Jungkook what is even going in your mind? I'll be looking forward to the next chapter! xx :)

Anonymous said:Dude, you did such a great job at writing o/c's anxiety in this chapter. I try not to be bias toward her, but it's really hard since the story us in her pov. I got seriously grossed out by JK, man. I was so uncomfortable with the whole morning ordeal. 😩 And his threat at the end?? I know it's a story, but I had my friend-instincts kick in and I just wanted to shake her and be like "PLEASE LEAVE THIS RN PLEASE" (1)

Anonymous said:(2) And I'm curious about how Jimin would react if he knew how JK was acting. He has this idea that JK is a perfect boy, but if only he knew...But, at the same time, they all have this distorted view of one another, huh? We see Jimin as Mr. Perfect cause that's how o/c sees him. I guess it goes into that whole "unreliable narrator" thing? I'm just writing what thoughts the chapter has provoked. I absolutely love how u pay attention to detail in this story!! Awesome job as usual, mane 😊🙆

Anonymous said:Jungkook needs to take a moment to realize how miserable and uncomfortable the OC is like my goodness. Things have gone waaaaaay downhill. Especially for the OC. Also Jungkook actions are just kind of creepy??? And just like so unhealthy. I know it can be really hard to get out of a relationship, and she still loves Jimin and all, but the OC needs to just get out of there.

Anonymous said:omg jk is becoming such a possessive creep like reading the last part gave me chills tbh. they all need to realize that this relationship is v toxic and dip out of it. i kind of expected this to become what it is from the beginning but you still added twists to it that caught me off guard, thanks for being a great writer lu

Anonymous said:oh man that last chapter. just really fucking scary.... i went back and reread the end of ch.10 to recap and it makes me wonder how far y/n's willing to go for what's "worth it" in exchange for her own personal well being. because fuck, what jungkook is exhibiting is extremely concerning. as always your writing is amazing! thank you for using your free time this way, i'm sorry people are being gross and rude. you don't deserve that kinda shit, lu :(

Anonymous said:I genuinely love how you describe the OC as a trapped bird, and seeing how Jungkook reacted to everything is actually causing me to fear for the OC's well-being. I just want her to exist the whole relationship and just hook up with sunshine, can do no wrong hobi instead of the possessive junglecock and the passive Jimin :/ just my thoughts. But you're an extremely talented writer and your PhD is more important than smutty fanfic, so take all the time you need

Anonymous said:Ok first of all what the hell at ppl asking u for quick updates cuz ive lived with phd students they literally have a never ending to do list and im so amazed at ur ability to find time to write unbelievable. U go girl. And 2ndly, the claustraphobia u mentioned that oc was feeling. That was so detailed and even i felt like i was in her place. And jk..uve characterized his possessiveness so well and i got so mad forgetting this was a fictional character i was ready to throw a chair

Anonymous said:eek jungkook is making the equilibrium relationship so unhealthy somebody punch him

Anonymous said:Jungkook makes me so uncomfortable and I can actually feel the claustrophobia that OC feels .-. Overall, really excited for the next parts and can't wait to reread to see if I can find more theories. Thanks for the new chapter!

Anonymous said:ch 11... HOLY FUCK SHE NEED TO GET OUT JK IS LOONEY!! you really know how to make a story really good dude. super excited for updates!! i'm really curious about jimin's thought process about all of this. you've given a really good insight on kook and oc but jimin is still a little hard for me to figure out, i assume that's coming soon? i feel for oc, i want to protect her and tell her she's stronger and smarter than all of this. she's worth more than all of this craziness!!! GIRL POWER!! lol

Anonymous said:Holy fucking shit everything is so messed up in equilibrium like !! I love it and at the same time i cry because of the way you describe the oc's feelings I SWEAR I CAN FEEL IT TOO HOW DO YOU DO THAT? I can feel everything, my heart is pounding so fast now. Im so into it and i just want her to run away from this toxic relationship and take care of herself first like i know she loves jimin to the core but she is more important my heart clenches at every exquisite word you writE THANK YOU SO MUCH

Anonymous said:The story is really great I love how original your writing is I don't even see the characters as Jm an jk Which allows me to see how disgusting they all let themselves be treated in the relationship, a lot of the times I feel like readers are blinded by the image of an idol it changes their perspective honestly even if it was just one person who was lying about loving the other it would still be just as horrible I'm really curious as to what's even going on and how you are going to continue it❤️

ahmie-cat said:I feel so sad for the oc in equilibrium. Jungkook don't own nobody! How dare he claim ownership on the oc! I will fight him any day! I'll fight for the oc's freedom rights. Lols, just kidding... But really all of the characters are so sad...

Anonymous said:Honestly in the earlier chapters i really liked Jungkook but now hes just scaring me. The way the OC reacts to all his actions is so relatable thats exaclty how I would feel in her situation. This is crazy I dont even know how this fic would end I love it so much

Anonymous said:I was the anon who recommended you watch wfkbj and I'm so glad you like it!! :) ALSO the latest chapter of equilibrium was so good oh my god;; it's just ramping up like tenfold and while I was reading it sometimes I just had to stop and take a breather bc of all the tension lol. Honestly I don't even know how the oc is dealing with jungkook rn bc his behavior would chill me to the very bone I would have to get out !!! Anyways as always thank you for updating

Anonymous said:ah goodness, it was autocorrect that changed jungkook to jongkook! maybe next time i'll just use jinglebook to refer to him instead thens ahahahah. "goodness gracious, jinglebook is hella possessive that i'm actually really scared for y/n :s"

Anonymous said:GIRL THANK YOU FOR UPDATING OMG IM SHAKING IN MY CHANKLAS JUNGKOOK IS SO DELUSIONAL AND I WISHED OC WOULDVE BEEN STRAIGHT UP WITH HIM AND LIKE IDK NOT MILK ON HIS CRAZYNESS IM JUST SO ANXIOUS TO SEE WHAT HAPPENS NEXT SORRY FOR TYPING IN CAPS

Anonymous said:So, uh. Equilibrium Jungkook is fucking terrifying....

Anonymous said:I hope the oc in equilibrium leaves the relationship. It's so unhealthy and I feel like she might develop some type of mental illness or just be very stressed and anxious if she continues the relationship.... It's just a fanfic, but man, i'd hate to be in her position... I feel like crying Lols. Is this what you intended?? Haha.... It's really good so far I'm looking forward to what happens next. I feel like there'll be a good moral to the story. *Fingers crossing.

Anonymous said:Damn wtf jungkook behavior is freaking me out 😳 "you'll regret it" like wtf crazy people say shit like that

Anonymous said:jkzldlzlldz TF IS HAPPENING I'M SO CONFUSED JK IS CRAZY WTF OMG

Anonymous said:the characters in equilibrium seem to have never been in an actual proper relationship so the fact that they seem to have lasted this long is by sheer miracle. It's also probably why their worst aspects are even more apparent like jk's obsessiveness (which btw yikes boy yikesss) they literally all need to walk far far away from each other cause they a mess but I do wonder who's gonna be the first to do it cause it's all so complicated now, sorry for rambling I just love this fic so much!!

Anonymous said:What the ever loving monkey fuck is wrong with Jungkook. See, i was okay with him being jealous of Jimin because that's normal. I was moderately okay with OC agreeing to Jungkook's terms because she wants to stay with Jimin. I AM NOT OKAY with his sociopathic tendencies and how obsessive he's become. I think he's mistaken OCs genuine kindness for romantic interest at one point. And the thing that scares me the most is how Jimin seems to have no idea what's going on right under his nose as well

Anonymous said:Bruhhhh jungkook is legit fucking scary but the story itself is amazing and complex im gonna reread it right now

Anonymous said:Equilibrium is getting really interesting!! I'm kinda worried tht ppl read sentences like "Even a domesticated pet needs a taste of freedom" in context with her just /looking/ at jimin and think 'oh how romantic' tho. In every scene between her and jk u can practically feel her discomfort and fear and his possessiveness and how he's abusing her. I would normally stop reading a fic like tht bc I don't like it when the ppl are written like that bc they are real after all but I'm super hooked (1/2)

Anonymous said:(2/2)now and I am also really curious as to if and how they all are gonna get out of that situation or if jk kills her before they can just bc she takes care of a literally puking-everywhere-bedridden jimin. I'm also curious how Jimin is gonna act towards y/n now that they're alone and if he even noticed the toxic stuff that's happening between her and jk or if he didn't even notice bc jk kept him "happy" (idk how else to put it) so yeah. Keep up the great work!! Have a nice day xx

Anonymous said:GURL YOU NEED TO RUN FAST AND YOU NEED TO RUN FAR. It sucks that Jimin doesn't like OC romantically, but he's just using you to stay with JK. But JK... that shit is gonna hit the roof soon soon and it ain't gonna be pretty @.@

Anonymous said:Hey Lu, thanks for taking the time to update again~ Regarding the story...Jungkook is incredibly terrifying, like I had to step away a few times as I read because I just want the reader to leave so badly. I wish she would just be like "peace out". Everyone should just leave this situation and say "peace out". Even though I know the feelings are so complicated between all of them, it's just such a shit show on fire :( . Well done on setting everything up though. The tension is insane!

Anonymous said:Ugh I honestly want to slap Jungkook so hard. Possessive little shit.. As always your writing is amazing. Thank you for the update.

Anonymous said:OC, JIMINS DICK ISNT WORTH AN ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP GTFO THAT SITUATION GIRL IM SCREAMING

Anonymous said:JEONS FUCKED IN THE HEAD. HE WAS CUTE AND ALL AT FIRST BUT THEN IDK GIRL, I FEEL SORRY FOR JIMIN AND OC. I DONT EVEN KNOW WHATS HAPPENING ALL I KNOW IS I LOVE THIS AND I CERTAINLY LOVE YOU! IS HE PSYCHOTIC THO? FEELS LIKE JEON WOULD KILL ANYONE WHO DARE TO TOUCH OC..

mirajoey said:MY GAWDD!! Jeon Jungkook has gone mad😱 i pray for oc's safety

Anonymous said:i am terrified by jungkook's actions and NOTHING in this whole damn world is going to excuse what he is saying and doing in equilibrium. WHERE IS YOONGI DITCH THEM ALL Y/N AND GO FOR YOONGI. and today, i have been going through some really misogynic shit today and it felt so freaking uncomfortable and i was so angry and kind of frightened...i do not know how y/n is able to act like a normal person with jungkook around who is being very possessive and psycho-like

Anonymous said:When I first saw you updated Equilibrium I almost yelled "IMMA BUST MY LEFT NUT" (I was really excited lol) and now I'm lying here in a puddle of emotion really scared for the OC lol. I adore your writing so much, thank you for writing these xx

Anonymous said:JEON YOU CREEP. Man this is all such a disaster BUT I LOVE TO WATCH THE DRAMA UNFOLD. Anyways it was a great chapter and I am so e x c i t e for the next part to start. You da best 😆

Anonymous said:This is what your writing does to people, this is literally the only time I've ever dislike Jungkook that much in a fic. I wanted the OC and Jungkook together, but now I really thing all 3 should go their separate ways. Jungkook's possessiveness is getting too much, it's too obsessive. I feel sorry for her, but at the same time her own fault as well. As for Jimin who knows he may not be as oblivious as we think ?! He is using the OC to get with Jungkook in the first place.

Anonymous said:Equilibrium OC should just pack her fckin' bags there is no happy way out of this one

Anonymous said:(1/3) Right before I read this I watched this British PSA music video about abusive relationships, where a pregnant woman was choked to death by her boyfriend as she was trying to leave him and I feel like these people who romanticize these types of relationships forgot that this actually happens IRL. This happens to real women and men and some of them don't make it out alive. And when they try to defend it by saying "it's just a story, it's not real" it's very real for some people.

Anonymous said:(2/3) And the fact that the OC is having trouble sleeping and feeling this anxiety. And the that Jungkook didn't fell any sympathy/empathy for Jimin while he was ill, it just doesn't sit well with me. And the OC isn't innocent either. So afraid to shatter what's left of the already crumbling illusion she's built up. The need to keep the fantasy of this relationship with Jimin that I'm not sure existed outside of her mind. I really do enjoy this story and how you portray the characters.

Anonymous said:(3/3) The isolated relationships between the three of them is very realistic. I've seen some of my close friends go through similar situations. And it's hard to get out once you're in.Anonymous said:I cant believe anyone in their right mind is sympathizing with Jungkook in Equilibrium?! The way he is with Y/N makes me so uncomfortable, esp with his “You’re all mine” crap and being so “in love” with her when all he wants is to have her under his control even tho he thinks it’s love. Jimin too, the way he’s down to have Y/N in the relationship since JK wants her but she wants Jimin.. also I’m glad ur fanfics exist since they can give some girls a perspective on what’s NOT okay and NOT love

Anonymous said:' And if I find out you let someone else touch what's mine... you'll regret it' - I kept on reading this over and over but each time it makes me cringe more, the fact that he constantly calls her 'mine' is so fucking off, like as a kookier Stan in rl , I felt really bad for jungkook but now I find it so hard, this relationship is taking a big twist that I did not see coming and it's getting abusive real quick.

Anonymous said:(Cont last) I stood firm in my decision. On the last day that we talked, he finally understood why. It was only then he realized his mistakes, only then did he cry & apologize for everything. He tried to convince me to give him a chance but the time for that has already passed. We are officially over. I loved the guy, you know? and deep down, I know there's good in there. But I can't risk my heart and soul anymore. I'm sorry this has gone out of topic, I just needed to get it off my chest.

Anonymous said:(Cont.) When he got mad at me for one minor thing, he will accuse me of cheating and call me demeaning words. Our relationship was always on his terms. I was always the one apologizing & making an effort to make him happy. I paid for all our dates. Just wow, I'm stupid. After a fight early Feb, I got tired of it all. I broke up with him and that process took 7 fucking days in which he tried to convince that my reasoning was wrong and that he was right. My gut feeling was telling me to leave.

Anonymous said:just finished reading ch 11... yikes. like YIKES. oh my, I'm honestly very worried and scared for the oc. reading it actually made me anxious and nervous lol. that relationship is a nightmare oh sweetie no, she needs to leave asap

Anonymous said:(Cont. Part 3) I felt caged. I always had to inform where I was, who I'm with, are there guys going to be at the event I'm going to. If there were guys, he didn't want me to go. I couldn't even get a regular update from him where he was and couldn't check on his phone. As I said, I was being stupid. I tolerated all of his bullshit. When you're in an abusive relationship, you won't realize it immediately. He'll come off sweet and only wanting to protect you and your relationship.

Anonymous said:(Cont. Part 2) to the red flags he showed early in the relationship. He didn't want to me talk to any guy who wasn't a family and asked me to delete all the guys in my Facebook account. Stupid me did so because I believed him when he said that "It's not because I don't trust you, it's because I don't trust the people around you." I stayed loyal to him but he was always paranoid that I was cheating on him. When we broke up, I learned he was talking to lots of girls that's why he was so paranoid.

Anonymous said:I got curious and read Equilibrium. All I can say is whoa! The anxiety and fear that I felt was so visceral; it made me fill ill. I've recently broken up with my ex, who was like that - subtly emotionally and mentally abusive. I am fairly young, naive, and inexperienced in relationships. I had a low self-esteem. Growing up I felt that I was unattractive and no one would like me. He was the first guy to really pursue me and I guess I was so hungry for love and affection that I turned a blind eye

Anonymous said:oc's anxiety is getting worst in equal... 😞 i hope she gets out soon. i agree, SEND IN MAMA JIN! lol kook is getting crazier each chapter i'm getting scared for her well being 😟☹️😦. SHES WORTH MORE THAN THIS CRAZINESS!! 💔 side note, thank you for sticking to it, i know it's not easy. and thank you for updating. i always look forward to your work ❤

withlove-sydney said:Tbh I was worried that this story was gonna take a disturbing turn after jk revealed that he was purposely trying to keep jimin away in chpt 10 and this chapter just confirmed how toxic he is. I agree with that other person tho I'm glad that you're the one writing this because I trust that you won't try to romanticize this at all. My ex was really possessive like jk and its not cute or sexy at all. I ended up so scared of him and when I see similar things in fics it gives me chills...

btsninetyfiveline said:I just want to say thank you, thank you, THANK YOU for the relationship you're portraying in Equilibrium! It's soooooooo important to have stories that show abuse and possessiveness in an unhealthy light! I'm so tired of these "you looked at another guy for 5 seconds in the club so now I'm gonna take you home and show you who you 'belong' to" narratives. It's so important to address and educate young girls on signs of an emotionally manipulative relationship! 💕

Anonymous said:Hi Lu :) how are you? I love how you put out your stories unexpectedly, its always a pleasant surprise. Chapter 11 is so well-written (like all your work ofc).You set up the suffocating atmosphere perfectly with images and metaphors, like Oc's suffer is so real. I am really concerned about oc's mental health... in this chapter we see that she isn't in a good place and I am scared of what is yet to come. Thank you for your hard work. xo

Anonymous said:After reading chap 11, i feel so bad for the oc. Even reading about jk's possessiveness/threats makes me feel suffocated ;-; Though I'm excited for what's going to happen after he leaves for his trip hmm.... once again thank you for the update, Lu! :-) I'm really loving the pace of the story so far.

anonymouspseudonymous said:There's this anon that said "this ain't your ordinary fic where they all compromise and be happy" and i cannot agree more. Although, even if I get it that people hate JK for being cray, you have to punch Jimin as well hahaha idk man this is fucked

Anonymous said:I'm reading ch11 of equilibrium and the part where she wants to touch jimins face but jungkook has a tight grip on her wrist restricting her from doing so is so symbolic of their relationship and how she wants jimin so badly but jungkook is holding her back from him almost keeping her hostage in a way. Anyways I really enjoyed this part it gave me goosebumps so thank you for sharing your work with us even though you don't have to! You owe us nothing so I appreciate everything you give us💓💞💖💕

Anonymous said:I'm glad you don't tolerate the bullshit that jungkook isnt as bad as the protagnonist. People need to hear that that shit is toxic and manipulative. People are brainwashed into thinking it's romantic and okay. When it's absolutely not. No the protagonist isn't free of fault but she isn't being obsessively creepy.

Anonymous said:I think people tend to gloss over the fact that it IS an obsession (unhealthy and actually rather terrifying) and not actual "love" because they like the idea of someone doing anything to stay with them. But even in wanting to stay with someone, there have to be limits. You shouldn't end up losing yourself to someone if they want you as a person, not as just an object or a way to get what they want. There is a line between devotion and obsession, and people seem to ignore that all too often.

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