I knew involving myste in this sidalia fic because of the timeframe & setting was going to be an emotional gut punch but I am well and truly spiraling over alia trying to console the inner childlike grief that she hasn’t pieced together is of her own making and the fact sid is helping and protecting it solely because alia wants to help said child and maybe a little that he was a traumatized child who grew up into a protector of traumatized children