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oflgtfol · 1 year

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that thing my SM said is still irking me so badly i guess bc it echoes concerns from my friends and family and even my own insecurities and has roots in what my depression over the past few years has robbed from me and so to hear it now from my fucking michaels store manager of all people it’s like oh fuck off. Completely fuck off

#brot posts #delete soon #this is literally sending me on a downward spiral tonight i was doing so good but now since she to #told me that im like going insane #especially bc its based off something i told to him in a passing (private!) conversation when just us two closed together on wednesday #like you take something i barely mention in passing and then talk about it behind my back in such a back handed insulting way #and hitting me right in the depression-based-insecurity thats been bothering me forever now #its just so. this completely derailed my night lmfao #im glad my manager told me and she said shes texhnically not supposed to since yknow im a normal employee and shes a manager #but she was like. i consider you a friend and so im gonna tell you anyway #and she was saying how like mean spirited it was and how she and the other managers were mad he said that bc they all like me #and like thats i appreciate it but im like #its not even what he said like it wasnt hateful it was just. mean spirited and lowkey insulting #and the fact it is something ive been struggling with now for so long makes it feel like. painfully true #instead of just oh fuck him hes wrong like its hitting me right in the insecurity like i hope to god hes wrong but what if hes right #so i spent my whole last 2 hours just saying to myslef. if hes right. im killing myself for real #and its like why am i getting suicidal over what my fucking michaels store manager said like girl its MICHAELS #but its also like GOD HE GOT ME RIGHT IN THE DEPRESSION #HOW DID YOU KNOW THAT WAS MY WEAK POINT !!!#im just. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH

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