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#and hannah what i told you about my mum saying certain people have magnetic auras THAT WAS ABOUT HIM
hella1975
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9 months
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sometimes i think about the fact my grandparents literally overnight just cut us off and im like. how did u even do that. does it torment you
#eeaao's 'how did you let me go so easily' moment. like i dont let myself even THINK about this too often
#bc i immediately beat myself back with the 'if it's hard for you then imagine how hard it is for mum. her PARENTS cut her off'
#but like. idk. my nan i couldn't give less of a shit about which is something i always find so interesting
#bc even as a child with NO basis for it or any understanding of her behaviour both past and present i still wasn't Comfortable around her
#like children are smart actually. i just Knew her vibes were off and i Knew my mum was weird when she was around
#like i truly dont think i ever loved my nan even when she was a very frequent part of my life
#but my grandad? i ADORED him. id see him multiple times a week and he's the kindest man ive ever met
#and hannah what i told you about my mum saying certain people have magnetic auras THAT WAS ABOUT HIM
#like i cant actually put into words what it was about him but people just wanted to know him and spend time with him
#but he was weak and let my nan walk all over him and when push came to shove he chose her and now ive not spoken to him in 3 years
#& i KNOW he loved me. he thought the world of me like it's a bitter unspoken thing between me & my sister that we KNOW i was his favourite
#he used to buy me egg butties at agricultural shows when my mum said no and specifically ask for two eggs
#he used to sit and eat his soup with me when he came over to do work at the house
#he used to play with me. he used to smile all the time. i can so clearly hear the way he'd go ''iya [my name]' with his proper rural accent
#or how he'd tell anyone who would listen 'she's tough as old boots that one'
#and i could make him laugh like NO ONE else could and he'd light up and go 'give over' and he genuinely enjoyed my company
#i KNOW HE DID. and i havent spoken to him in 3 years. he'll be dead soon
#and i cant talk to my mum about it bc it's her DAD it is so much worse for her and i cant talk to my sister about it
#bc she wasn't close with him like i was and she just shuts the conversation down and those are the only two people
#who know my grandad and know what he meant to me so im just here like. he literally stopped speaking to me overnight
#i stopped hearing from him i stopped meeting up with him im so so angry with him the love is still there i dont know where to put it now
#why couldnt he stay. why did he pick her when she's a loveless void of inhumanity. why werent we enough
#hella goes home
#my grandparents on my dad's side are also not in the picture funnily enough but idgaf about them. she got that grandparentless swag
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