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Young love chapter 3

https://www.tumblr.com/lukall705/739528729734299648/young-love-chapter-1?source=share Chapter one

https://www.tumblr.com/lukall705/740076676409622529/young-love-chapter-2?source=share chapter two

TW? idk

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Sigma POV:

Me and Y/N are walking to the shopping center near our campus. "so what your favorite colour?" i ask them "oh its F/C and F/C" they say and smile at me "whats your favorite colour?" they ask me. "my favorite colour is purple" i say. "i have to say i really like your outfit" i say and they blush a bit "o-oh th-thank you.. i'm not used to people complementing my outfits" they say and look a bit embarrassed. "sorry if i start stuttering, it happens when i'm nervous" they laugh awkwardly. "oh no its okay, i also stutter sometimes when i'm nervous" i try to reassure them.

We both keep chatting until we get to the mall "Lets go to hot topic!" Y/N says happily "Hot topic? you don't seem like someone who would shop there?" i say and it seems like Y/N wants to say something but doesn't. I wonder what they were gonna say.

As we walk in is see Y/N going over to some pretty revealing clothes. "y-you wear this type of clothes..? a-aren't they a bit.. revealing..?" i ask them "i'd rather be slut then basic" they say while pulling out a shirt that says 'cum slut'. "oh.." i chuckle nervelessly. "should i get this one?" they ask "..i mean if you want to.." "oh! I've been looking for a shirt like this" Y/N says and shows me a shirt with hand prints on the chest "there's matching pants for it too!" they say. 'we've been friends for like an hour and they are already this comfortable around me?' i think 'well at least they are having fun, right? thats the only thing that maters'

"also i forgot to ask but what country are you from?" i ask them. They look at me before answering "Finland, i'm Finnish"(or whatever country your from) They keep looking at stuff in the store.

A few hours later: (still sigma's POV)

As we both walk up the stairs Y/N starts talking "I'm sorry you have to carry my stuff" They look embarrassed "it's really no problem, i'm glad i could help" i smile at them while they open the door to their dorm.

"take off your shoes please" they say and i take of my shoes "my room is right over there" they point at a door.

"oh, Y/N you're back" i hear a voice say. I look over to the couch and see Dazai and Chuuya cuddling while watching some movie. Y/N just ignores them both and walks over to their room. "hey Sigma!" Dazai waves to me and i wave back awkwardly.

"Just put the bags over there" Y/N points to a corner in their room. "wow, your room looks nice" i say and look around "thanks" they say. I spot some drawings on their desk "did you make these yourself? they look really nice" "oh, yeah i did and thanks" they smile "your quite good at drawing clothes, you know. you could become a clothing designer one day" as i say this is see Y/N's smile get wider.

Y/N pulls out a picture book from a backpack. "hm? whats that?" i ask them "its a photo book, sometimes i do small modeling shoots for fun" they say and give me the book "wanna see?" they ask "yeah" i say and open the book.

"i'll go change while you look through it" Y/N says and goes into the bathroom. 'wow these look really nice' i say while looking through the pages. suddenly some photos catch my eye. its pictures of Y/N with different colored hand prints all over their body. 'oh' i think.

Y/N's POV:(TW?)

I'm standing in front of my bathroom mirror looking at my arms with the words 'i'm so disgusting' repeating over and over in my mind. 'why am i this disgusting?' 'its no wonder my past boyfriends left me' 'i fucking hate myself' 'i should just die' 'i bet Sigma is just pretending to be my friend so he can leave like everyone else did' 'i'm so fucking fa-' my thoughts are interrupted by a knock on my bathroom door.

"are you okay in there Y/N?" Sigma asks from outside "you've been in there for 15 minutes" he adds '15 minutes?' "i'm fine! i'm coming out in a second" i say and quickly wrap bandages that are the same colour as my skin around my arms to hide the scars.

I see Sigma looking at the bandages but doesn't say anything about them. "I need to go back to my dorm now, its getting kinda late and i don't want Nikolai to lock me out again" Sigma says and scratches the back of his head. "oh thats fine" i smile and i walk him to the door.

"see you in class tomorrow" i say "yeah" he smiles and i hug him. "bye" he says as he walks out the door and runs over to his door.

When i turn around i almost scream as i see Dazai and Chuuya standing right behind me. 'HOLY SHIT' i think as they both stare at me. "w-what are you two doing?" i ask nervously. "Is he your boyfriend?" Chuuya asks and looks at me suspiciously "what!? No! we're just friends!" i say "yeah, sureee. just friends" Dazai says in teasing voice "we're not dating!" "okay okay, clam down" Dazai says.

"also, whats with the bandages?" Chuuyas asks me and i freeze up 'fuck' "none of your business!" I yell and they both look shocked that i yelled at them. "sorry" "its okay, i shouldn't have asked" Chuuyas says.

all three of us stand there in awkward silence. "so.. you wanna watch a movie or something with us?" Dazai asks "yeah sure" i say wanting this awkward silence to just end already. The three of us make our way over to the couch and i sit in the corner of the couch a bit away from them. "what should we watch?" Chuuya asks "a horror movie" i say "Yeah, but what movie" He says. "Terrifier " I smirk "okay" Chuuya says while putting on the Movie and getting comfortable under a blanket with Dazai.

"I would love to be tied up like that by Chuuya~" Dazai says as we get to the scene where Art tied a naked woman upside down. "i think you should watch the whole scene before saying something like that" i say while drinking water "what do you me-" i watch as the colour drains from Dazai's and Chuuya's face when Art starts to cut the woman's body in half from her crotch.

"Art is so baby girl! he did nothing wrong! hes just a silly clown!" i say after the movie is done "WHAT!? HE JUST KILLED 9 PEOPLE!? WHAT DO YOU MEAN "HES SO BABY GIRL"!? ARE YOU CRAZY!?" Chuuya looks at me like i just killed someone. "Crazy!? no! i just think Art is hot! hes so dreamy!" i say "You're even worse then Dazai!" Chuuya yells "huh?! what do you mean by that?!" I yell in a surprised voice.

"I MEAN THAT YOU ARE MORE OF A DISGUSTING FREAK THEN DAZAI"

When i heard his words i completely freeze up 'they think i'm a freak?' the words hurt me more then i let show. the words ring in my ears 'i'm a freak' 'I'M A FREAK!?' it feels like time stopped and i have no idea how long i sat there not saying anything 'do they not like me!? do they not wanna be my friends anymore!?' its all my fault' 'why am i like this!?' 'i hate myself' my thoughts are interrupted by Chuuya.

"Are you okay Y/N..? you look a bit pale.." he says and both him and Dazai look at me worriedly. Chuuya waves his hand in front of my face "hello? you've been sitting there for 15 minutes, are you okay?" he asks worriedly "uh.. yeah, i just don't feel well, i'll go to bed.." i say and get up from the couch. Dazai and Chuuya both look at each other "i think you might have hurt their feelings.." i hear Dazai say to Chuuya while i'm getting myself some water. 'did he really mean what he said..?' i think before going to my room.

After getting ready for bed i check the time. '00:26am'. i see Sigma sent me a message 'Goodnight Y/N, i think Nikolai and Fyodor are gonna stay up again so i hope they don't keep you up and if they do just tell me and i'll them to be more quiet:)' i smile a bit while reading it. 'goodnight' i send back and put my phone on my bedside table.

A few hours later i wake up and check the time on my phone '4:23am'. i'm feeling like absolute shit right now, it feels like there are hundreds of thoughts running through my head right now. And for some reason they are all of my negative thoughts. i feel tears start to form in my eyes

'why am i so useless?'

I think to myself.

'Why can't i control how i feel? why are my emotions such a pain in the ass?' i start to silently cry into my pillow hoping that i don't wake up Chuuya and Dazai who are sleeping in the room next to me. 'What's the point of going on if everyone thinks i'm a freak?' my tears start to stain the pillow under me.

~(Flashback)~

"You're just a stupid freak!" My mother says. "You're a good for nothing child!" My mom yells again "you should just die for all care!" i had just tolled my mom about my problems. the disgusting things i feel. I wanna cry right now but no tears are coming out.. i just feel ..empty.. i feel nothing as my mom yells at me for how much of a freak and how disgusting i am.

~(end of flashback)~

"i think i need to go out and get some fresh air.." i say to myself while getting up from my bed and putting on some clothes.

I walk through the dorm as quietly as i can so i don't wake up Dazai and Chuuya. i put on my shoes and walk out into the hallway. I see that its still a bit dark out side through the window at the end of the hallway.

As i walk up a set of stairs to the roof of the building i start thinking about my life. 'I don't see any point in living anymore, everyone in my life thinks i'm a freak' i think.

When i open the door to the roof i feel a cold breeze hit my face. It feel quite refreshing actually. i walk over to the fance near the edge of the building and climb over it. 'i think this is where i'll end this life of mine..'

I pick up my phone and bring it to my ear. "..hello..?" i hear Sigma's tired voice say on the other end of the phone. "..Are Nikolai and Fyodor making to much noise? i can go tell them to quiet dow-" "no need to" "..huh..? why..?" "they aren't the thing keeping me up" "..okay.:" i hear Sigma yawn "..where are you right now Y/N..? i can hear the wind" "i'm sitting on my bed with window open" i lie "oh okay.." i can hear that hes really sleepy.

"so.. why did you call me..?" he asks "i just wanted to say that i'm not feeling to well so i might not make it to school tomorrow" i lie again "..oh okay.." "goodnight Sigma" "Goodnight Y/N.." As i hang up the phone i feel rain drops hit my face, "do i even want this..?" i ask myself as i close my eyes preparing to fall.

"Don't do it" I hear a deep voice say from behind me. I turn around and see a man in his late fourties to early fifties with white long hair standing under an umbrella. "but what's the point of going on..?" i say in a broken voice "There's nothing left for me to live for..." i feel tears start to form in my eyes again.

"it may feel like that right now, but it does get better. this isn't the right choice" he says while looking me in the eyes. "..why should i believe that..?" tears start to run down my cheeks "..when everyone sees me as a freak.." i start remembering all the times my mother called me a disgusting freak. "whats your name?" he asks "..huh..? its Y/N.." i say "its nice to meet you Y/N, my name is Fukuzawa" the man says.

"Now tell me Y/N, are you sure you want to do this or is it because you feel like you deserve this?" he asks and i stay quiet. i have no idea how to answer him, i don't even really know myself.

'is this really what i want?' i think as my tears blur my vision.

I feel the rain soaking my clothes and hair as i cry. And after a few minutes i climb back over the fence. I see Fukuzawa opening his arms and i hug him. its the first time in forever i feel comforted by someone. Fukuzawa rubs my back as i cry and suddenly i'm a 6 year old crying into my mothers chest, but this time i'm actually getting comforted and not yelled at.

Fukuzawa stays still until i'm done crying, he stands there listening to me vent about my problems not saying a word.

"..Please don't tell anyone about this.." i say while whipping my tears away. "i won't, now i think you should go back to your dorm and get some rest, you have school tomorrow" he says and pets my head.

We both walk back down the stairs in silences until i ask "how did you know i was up there..?" i look at him waiting for an answer. "i happened to be walking to the roof to enjoy some fresh air and saw you" he answers. "oh.."

When i get to my dorm i open the door "goodnight Mr. Fukuzawa.." i say and he nods. i close the door when i see him starting to walk away. I quietly walk back to my room hoping Dazai and Chuuya aren't awake.

When i sit down on my bed i check the time '4:56am' i yawn as i put my phone down on my bedside table again and lay down in bed.(after taking of your wet clothes ofc)

As i lay there i start to think about what would have happened if Fukuzawa didn't stop me. Would i be dead? would be suffering in pain just wanting to die? would i have changed my mind? all of these thoughts are flooding my mind until i eventually fall asleep.

The next morning i wake up with a pretty bad headache and groan when i get up from the bed "jeez.. i don't feel like going to school today at all.." i say while going into the bathroom to brush my teeth.

After brushing my teeth i put on my uniform.

(You can chose which ever one you like. also ik that most colleges in japan don't have uniforms but just pretend this college has them)

As i look at myself in the mirror i see my chubby belly '....' its one of the things i hate about myself but can't get rid of no mater how much starve myself.

I pick up my bag and walk out of my room and see Chuuya and Dazai standing in the kitchen talking about something. I walk over to the coffee machine to make coffee and notice that Chuuya has a guilty look on his face. "Good morning Y/N!" Dazai says in a happy voice "hm.." i hum in response as i drink my coffee hoping it would keep me awake.

"Did you sleep well last night?" he asks and i nod "oh yeah, also the principal asked me to give you this, its your class schedule" he says while handing me a piece of paper "thanks" i say while looking over it 'Okay so i have P.E first then math, then social studies, then lunch, then English, then music, then science'

"P.E at like 7:30 in the morning on a Monday?" i look at them both 'thats gonna be hell and i only got like 3 hours of sleep' "P.E is your first class? You must be really unlucky, Mr. Fukuchi makes all of his students run like 23 miles if you have him in your first class" Chuuya says 'yay how lucky i am' i have a bitter look on my face.

"whats your first classes?" i ask them "we both have social studies as our first class" Chuuya says 'Lucky motherfuckers' i check the time on my phone and see its 7:24 am "i think we should get going its already 7:24" i say and they nod.

As the three of us run so we won't be late for class i suddenly remember something "wait! i don't know where the P.E area is!" i yell "you have to go to the back of the school to the changing rooms!" Chuuya yells to me as he and Dazai run into another hallway to get to class.

When i get to the back of the school i start panting and see the other students already ready for P.E "You're late" i here a man say "Sorry! its my first day here! i had no idea where i had to go!" i look up at him and i see him glaring me down. i gulp

"Fine since its your first day i'll let it slide" he says while playing with his mustache "huh" i look dumbfounded "Now go change into your P.E clothes before i change my mind" he says "Yes sir!" i say and run into the changing rooms. "and the rest of you start running!" he yells at the other students.

"How the hell does this even count as shorts?! these are basically panties!?" i say to myself as i walk out of the changing rooms. (TW? for what comes next)

When i start running i feel some people looking at me. When i look around me i see a lot of other girls who are much skinnier then me looking and pointing at me while giggling. 'why do i have to be so fat..?' i hate it here this was supposed to be a new start for me but its almost just like the life i had back home. i feel like i want to cry.

"Jeez, just let them be alone! what did they do to you?" i hear a young woman's voice say. i look at where the voice is coming from and i see a pretty woman with short black hair and a butterfly clip in it.

"oh, wait i get it! you guys are jealous that they look better then you!" She says and smirks at them "What!? no!" one of the girls say and look pissed "then what is it?" the black haired woman says "its.. its umm.." the girl can't give good reason as to why they back talked me and leaves with her friends.

"are you alright?" the black hair woman asks me "y-yeah.." i smile at her "Yasano" she says "Y/N" i say back and she shakes my hand.

The rest of P.E is spent by me and Yasano doing the run and chatting.

After i come out of the changing room after changing back into my uniform, i start to look for my math class. while walking i accidentally bump into someone "ah, sorry!" i say to them. The person i bumped into just glares at me not saying a single word "s-sorry.." i say in an embarrassed voice. i quickly rush away from embarrassment. i keep running in the hallway until i see a familiar face "Sigma!" i yell and he turns around. (i almost had a fucking stroke trying to write familiar)

"Y/N! so you did make it to school, i was worried since you didn't answer my massages" he smiles at me "oh, i think i was just feeling like shit because of the lack of sleep last night" i lie. "also do you know where room xoxo is?" i ask him "Oh i was just about to head over there right now since i also have math class" he says and we start walking.

After math, me and Sigma go to the cafeteria to eat lunch. after getting our food we go to sit down at a table with Nikolai and Fyodor.

(This is the lunch:3) "This looks so good!" i say. "I've been waiting for this the whole day!" i say. While i start to eat i see Nikolai is nagging Fyodor again. "No Nikolai, we can't get a 3rd rat" he says in his heavy Russian accent. "oh yeah, i never got to ask, but are you Russian?" i ask Fyodor "sorry if that sound stupid or rude" "You are right, i am Russian" he says and gives me a gentle smile.

Dazai POV:

The both of us sit down at a table with Atsushi and Akutagawa after getting our food. While eating our food me and Chuuya see that Y/N is eating with Nikolai, Fyodor and Sigma, adn it looks like they are having a lot of fun. I see Chuuya glaring at them. I know how much he wants to say that hes sorry to Y/N but he doesn't have the balls to do it in front of other people.

While watching them i see Y/N smiling and laughing, 'they look kinda cute while they are happy..' i think. i feel a bit annoyed that Y/N is hanging out with them and not us 'wait.. am.. am i jealous..?' Seeing Y/N so happy kinda makes me happy too..

I notice how angry Chuuya looks "hey, Chuuya~ what class do you have after this?~" i ask "Math why?" he looks at me a bit calmer now. "oh i was thinking~ maybe we skip class to, you know~" i say with a smirk and Chuuya blushes a bit. Chuuya sends me a message 'fine, but only because i have to relieve stress ' i smile and text back 'okay babe'

After lunch the both of us sneak away into a bathroom. I pin Chuuya to the bathroom wall as we make out "Fuck i love you so much..~" i whisper into his ear as i pull down his pants. i bend him over the sink "be a good boy and try to not make to much noise, okay?~" i whisper in his ear and he nods. "j-just start already.." he moans out. "fine~" i say as i pull down my pants. i slowly push my hard cock into his hole "a-ah~" Chuuya moans into his hand. "you.. you can move now..~" he pants out as i start thrusting. "ah~ D-dazai~ please faster~" Chuuya begs and i start moving faster. "Ah!~ Ah~" Chuuya moans as he grips the sink "what's wrong baby?~ is it to much for you?~" i say as i take his cock into my hands and start rubbing his sensitive tip "Ah!~ dazai~ please let me cum!~" Chuuya has tears in his eyes from the overestimation. i bite the back of his neck "not yet pretty boy~" i can feel myself getting closer to cumming. I put my hand over Chuuyas mouth and pull his head back by his hair as he whimpers "you wanna cum pretty boy?~" i tease him. "Mhm!~ Mhm!~" he nods with pretty tears falling from his eyes.

"Cum then~" i whisper into his ear and flip him onto his back. "Come on baby~" i say as i thrust faster and pump his pretty cock. After a few seconds he cums all over his belly. "AH!~" Chuuya moans as he cums. i pull out of him and pump my cock until i cum on his belly to "ngh~" i groan as i cum.

I kiss his tears away "you did so well.."

Y/N POV:

When i get to my music class i only see one face i recognizance. 'thank god!' i think as i walk up to Nikolai. "I'm so happy that i at least know one person from this class" "Y/N! I'm so happy that one of my friends is in this class!" he says and hugs me tightly.

While me and Nikolai hug i see Dazai and Chuuya walk into the room, and Chuuya's legs seem to be shaking a bit?

I see Chuuya looking a bit annoyed when he sees Nikolai hugging me 'whats his deal?'

When the teacher comes in she start explaining that we have to dance a dance, and to get a partner. "Y/N! be my partner!" Nikolai whines "i was just about to ask you to be mine.." i chuckle.

After school is over i walk back to my dorm. (i'm to lazy to write what happens for the rest of the school day so just use you imagination)

When i get back to the dorm i plop onto the couch "man.. this day was hell and its only the first day.." while laying on the couch thinking about what i should do i hear the door open. I see Chuuya and Dazai walk in.

I get up from the couch to get myself some water. after getting my water i try to go to my room but Dazai grabs my hand to stop me "..Y/N.. Chuuya has something to say to you.." he says. "okay.. go on.." i say and stand face to face with him.

We both stand there for a few minutes in silence while Chuuya avoids eye contact. "..Y/N i'm sorry for calling you disgusting freak.." he says while scratching the back of his head. 'for some reason it doesn't seem sincere..' i stand there for a while before speaking "i'll forgive you.." i say and look down. "i hope we can be friends.." he says. "yeah me too.." for some reason the though of us only being friends hurt me.. i don't know why tho.

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(i need some feedback, was the y/n to dramatic? was this to early for some angst? or was it just fine)

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xo-cuteplosion-xo · 3 years

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okay here me out

A touch deprived reader but that's not all 😀

They don't understand emotions well.

Like can you do something with bandages, angry ginger, kinda furry friend. (Haven't requested him before XD)

Just like a reader who is crying but doesn't understand the tears a,d is all confused and just gets attention and their just like wtf but end up liking it and crying more as t&ey try to explain?

Emotionless ? | Dazai, Chuuya, Atsushi x normally emotionless crying reader |

Hope you like it friend. I’ve also decided to call me followers peeps :) So you are now a peep.

Dazai-

He’d never seen your face in anything but a single emotion, numb.

He never saw you show shock, surprise, joy, love, not even amusement.

Even he grasped some emotions. And he considered his ability to be the perfect description of himself.

He’d known you since the port mafia days.

You were one of the many feared people among the mafia, known as the emotionless angel of death. You even killed subordinates who stepped from line or messed up.

You had changed, but it was near impossible to tell. There was a little more light in your eyes. They weren't as dead now.

So imagine the shock of the former mafia executive when he spots your grip on your phone loosen. When it fell to the floor and your head tilted to the side, he was up from his chair to turn you to face him.

The pure shock would at first scare him.

He’d move away watching as you blinked and touched your cheek over and over trying to form words only for those light whimpers to leave.

He’d hesitantly approach you. He wasn’t all that good with touch and comfort, but he knew you needed it.

At first, your body would be rigid, and he’d argue with himself. Unsure if you wanted him to let go.

It was weird to see your eyes open in shock as you moved your hands to wrap around him.

It was even weirder when you dug your head to his chest and rubbed it on the fabric as if this was something new.

The tears fell faster as you held onto him. He ran his hands over your back as you cried.

“Please… don’t leave me Dazai.” his heart nearly combusted with your words. He’d never heard such desperation, fear, and sadness mixed in your voice.

“I…” how could he promise that he wouldn't? He was one day going to succeed right? He’d leave this world. “For as long as I live… I won’t” he was careful with the wording, but it seemed enough.

As your body relaxed and you pulled away, his hand cupped your cheek.

Once more your eyes widened before they fluttered shut. When you pressed to his touch with a soft hum, he wiped the stray tears with his thumb.

Were you… touch starved? He knew what it felt like to crave affection from somebody. He too basked in this, but he knew the feeling. He got what he needed from his pestering. This was more fulfilling though. The warmth of your skin on his hand was like touching heaven.

The more you leaned into the small touch, the more he wanted to just hold you until you could smile.

That’s what he did. Until the smallest of light jumped into your eyes as they opened, until that feather of a smile popped on your lips, he held onto you like he was your life-line.

Chuuya-

Chuuya is used to seeing your stoic expression and the drained voice when you talk to him.

He was not ready to deal with you showing emotion.

You were joining him for a drink and without even being all that drunk you looked down at the glass and tears just fell.

It took him some time to process this. His head would tilt as he watched you sniffle.

He realized what was going on before you did. “Are you crying?” he asked seeing the water land in puddles beneath your chin.

“What’s that?” Chuuya would dead-pan at you. Trying to figure out how to explain an emotion to somebody who clearly had no understanding of how emotions worked was… difficult.

“It’s the reaction to being sad?”

“What’s being sad?”

“What you are right now.”

“I don’t understand it?”

“Of course you don’t…. I… just come here, damn it.”

“Why?”

“I’m just gonna show you what happens when you're sad, stupid dumb-ass!” he’d shout a little.

Another emotion you would likely never get. Why did people get angry? Why did they shout? Was there a point?

You walked to him with your head tilted trying to get the tears to stop. “Am I sad?”

“Well yeah? You’re crying so you're sad. It usually feels like your chest is all heavy and your head gets a little cloudy. You might wanna lash out, drop to your knees, blame the world, idk, there is a lot that happens when you're sad. It happens to people because sometimes it’s how you just stay sane.” he would explain the emotion as he pulled you down.

When he holds your back to his chest you’d freeze in shock.

He would hesitate and almost let you stand back up.

When you lean back slowly touching his gloved hands he’d keep you close. Removing one of his gloves, he'd let you hold it. “Soft.”

“Tch.”

You stayed like that for a while before slowly bringing his hand to your face. Putting it against your cheek you began to cry more. The feeling was nice and it filled your chest with a weirdly light sensation. “My chest… it feels light.”

“Happiness.” Chuuya would mumble.

He set his chin on your shoulder enjoying the physical contact.

It had been a while since he’d had somebody so close to himself.

He’d eventually find a way to cuddle. He’s big on cuddles.

It would confuse you at first but you would learn it was nice.

Without much thought, you would snuggle close trying to gain as much physical touch as possible.

He’d hold you like that until you stopped crying.

Out of trust and loyalty, he doesn't press for answers, he simply waits until you're ready to talk.

If you are never ready, he waits for you to leave the cuddles.

If you don’t leave the cuddles, he'll stay until the bar closes or until you two get tossed out, or have to work.

Atsushi- (forgive me if this is bad…. I don’t really pay enough attention to the kitty)

He’s so used to seeing nothing from your face when he’s caught alone with you crying, he's just shocked.

Then he’s scared. He had no idea how or why this happened to you.

Despite the tears, you still look really emotionless. He can’t tell if you're sad, in pain, or happy.

He’ll probably awkwardly waddle around before nervously asking if you were okay.

When your voice is nothing but whimpers, he fears he made you more upset (poor kitty)

He’s good with comfort, but he had no idea how to comfort somebody who rarely shows emotions.

His first reaction is to do what Dazai has done with him a few times. He rubs his hand in your hair.

When it shocks you he backs up.

The moment the touch left your chest felt heavy again.

This time you take the initiative and grab his hand, placing it back on your head.

He looks at you confused before rubbing your hair again.

You feel a comfortable tightness in your chest as well as a small warmth in your cheeks.

You try to put a name to it recalling the definitions of emotions, but it falls under too many.

Eventually, Atsushi would sum it up. The best way to comfort you was to let you know whatever you were holding in or hiding didn't have to be done alone.

The best way to do this (in his thoughts) is to pull you into a hug. It’s more than awkward, and he’s really self-conscious.

When he sees the way your body relaxes and presses to his body, he'll blush but also know he’s doing something right.

He won’t move or anything afraid of messing up or hurting you more.

When your tears stop, he'll smile kindly as he always does. “Feel better?”

When you look at him and think you decide that you were feeling something close to happiness right now. The light flutter of your heart leads you to try and copy his smile.

He’s shocked but chuckles at how you could be cute.

He’ll get flustered after that crosses his mind.

You recognize that one from shows and you don’t understand why you suddenly copy that expression.

You both end up moving from the other, spurting words before bowing simultaneously.

When you giggle you’re shocked with yourself and press a finger to your lips. He’ll smile kindly once more.

“You should show emotion like this more. I think it’s really uh nice wh-when you… you, uh nevermind!”

“I think… I think I’ll try… since Atsushi-Kun asked so nice I’ll try.” you were back to emotionless again but the feeling you had felt, you held onto them as he waved to you and left.

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hi!! idk if u celebrate Christmas but can u do headcanons of Dazai, Chuuya, and Atsushi receiving surprise gifts from their s/o while they too have prepared something for their s/o?? ty love xx 🍒

a/n: hi, mon cheri! i loved this request so much. it’s so cute and i absolutely adore christmas. lmao i thought it would be really fitting to post this on christmas xd merry christmas🖤 i hope you enjoy reading this🙈

i feel like dazai doesn’t really see the point in celebrating holidays, but he can’t help the soft expression that appears on his face whenever you show your excitement for them. it’s absolutely fascinating to dazai. the desire to contribute to your excitement was unshakable.

that’s why dazai started to put thoughts into christmas. what could he do to make it extra special for you? it was the first time the armed detective agency member truly cared for christmas.

this man actually started to do some research on christmas. he read things about decorating christmas trees, baking gingerbread- but somehow that didn’t do it for dazai. your significant wanted to surprise you with something that you could treasure and hold on to- a surprise gift?

more research followed. dazai knew what you liked and he made sure that his gift matched it. but again, he wanted to give you something more meaningful.

the first thing you saw when you opened your eyes on the holiday was dazai. he wore an easeful smile while holding a present in his hands. with the most soothing voice he would say: “merry christmas, love.”

dazai almost let out a laugh when you pressed him against your body. instead he smiled and dazai felt a wave of peace covering over him. he couldn’t wait to give you your second present. before he could think about it any further you surprised him.

a present- for him? you hadn’t mentioned anything about presents and your behavior hadn’t changed. dazai still felt the shock in his veins yet he recovered quickly and started to act like a tease. dazai felt his heart pause when he saw your present. whatever you bought for him it touched him. “thank you,” dazai whispered while looking at the present. then he looked into your eyes and got hit with this overwhelming feeling for you. dazai couldn’t hold back anymore and kissed you passionately.

however, dazai still had one present left. he took you out for a late night walk to see the christmas lights at the end of the day. dazai already had planned the entire route so you’d see the most beautiful ones. he stopped at one point and told you teasingly to close your eyes. he whispered lovable words in your ears when he put the necklace around your neck.

“could you do something for me, y/n?” he placed one of your hands on the drop necklace. “i want you to get reminded how you’re the most important person in my life every time you see this, hold it. could you do that for me?”

i feel like chuuya would really enjoy christmas and the atmosphere it brings with it. chuuya would be so excited. he loves to spoil his significant other and christmas is the perfect opportunity to do so.

chuuya has been planning the presents he wanted to give your for a very long time.he always pays attention to what you say, but now he was extra observant. chuuya wants to really show you how much he loves to have you in his life.

the port mafia member went all out. he would buy something that matched your interests and even made sure you got presents that led you to self care. he only wants the best for his significant other. however, there was another thing that the ability user wanted to give. he wanted to give you something that would remind you of the special bond between the two of you.

chuuya would wake you up by planting kisses on your face. your cheeks, your eyebrows, your lips- he couldn’t stop smiling. even though the man was really excited to give you the presents he had bought, he wanted to take his time and show you how much he loved you. after all, it was christmas.

chuuya couldn’t help but smirk and tilt his head when he saw how happy you were with your surprise gifts. he found your reactions precious- it reminded him why he loved to spoil you so much. it filled him with pride and happiness.

when you announced that you had something for him, too, chuuya was taken back. “for me? that’s so sweet, babe. you shouldn’t have done that” he raised an eyebrow and carefully observed the present you had put into his hands. whatever you bought for chuuya he couldn’t feel more loved. one of his arms got wrapped around your waist and dragged you into his lap. “it’s beautiful, babe,” he says between the kisses which he plants on your neck and collar bone.

after that chuuya couldn’t wait anymore to give you your last present. he explained how he designed it himself and how he sees this as a symbol that you’ll be connected no matter what. chuuya shows you the rings and immediately you can see both of your tastes back in the design. tenderly chuuya shoves the ring around your finger. you grabbed chuuya’s ring from his hand and touched his hand. chuuya felt his heart stutter when you shoved the ring around his finger. his heart wasn’t used to so much love.

atsushi really wanted to do something special for you this christmas. he only didn’t know what. that’s why he turned to dazai. the words ‘surprise gifts’ immediately caught the weretiger’s attention. a gift- atsushi smiled. yes, you would like that.

the next question was: what should he get for you? atsushi had some ideas of his own, but a spark of insecurity hit him. would you really like it? he went to yosano for advice. atsushi listened carefully and felt much more confident in what he wanted to give you. he was so excited that he could hardly wait to start.

atsushi couldn’t stop smiling when he was working on your presents. he couldn’t wait to see your reactions. the only thing atsushi could do was hope that you would appreciate it- and maybe love it.

atsushi smiled when he saw your eyes opening at christmas. “good morning, y/n! i have something for you.” atsushi squeezed the presents he had bought for you and suddenly his cheeks turned slightly red. atsushi shyly looked at the ground before he handed you the present. your significant other watched your reaction sharply when you held a framed picture in your hand of the two of you together.

atsushi’s eyes widened when you announced that you had a present for him, too. he thought it was the most sweetest things that anyone had ever done for him. whatever the present was; he would treasure it with his whole heart. atsushi still was a little shy with physical contact, yet he put a finger under your chin and planted a soft kiss on your cheek. “thank you very much, y/n. i absolutely love it.” so much softness was heard in his voice that you could feel his love right in your bones.

“i still have one present left. i thought it would be- uh, very nice to wear together.” atsushi put a necklace around your neck with a ring through it. “i wanted to originally only buy the ring, but-” atsushi looked at his human hands, “that wouldn’t work really well.” your significant other tried to put his own necklace on. however, he failed. it was you who did it. atsushi felt heat running through his veins when he felt your skin brushing against his.

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youcantdodoublesuicidealone · 4 years

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The end of the story . . .

❝Chapter 1: The day that I meet you ❞

bace on the dead apple movie

[ Osamu Dazai x reader ]

❝ Prolong ❞

Notice : [ C / E ] = color Eye , [ H / C ] = hair color , Long chapter , I suck at fighting scene (T___T) , bad grammar

Dazai Osamu P. O. V

[ 5 : 0 7 A. M Yokohama City ]

Flashback ❀

" oh before I forget dazai -Kun & Chuuya - Kun, there was a case about two of my men commits suicide with a bloody knife & shot with a gun, but I believe this is the person that did this " ��the person who was talking to me and Chuuya was the port mafia boss Ogai Mori. Ever since I join the port mafia I was trying to find my reason to live but still didn't find it my reason to live sadly.

Mori grabs files and puts it on his desk which that case some paper to fly off. the raven hair man grabs one of the files with a picture a girl with long [ H / C ], her [ C / E ] is like a sunset, her pale face is like the moon I turn around to see Chuuya who was blushing a smirks on my face & turn back to the Mafia boss. " anyway when you boys were daydreaming about this mission for tomorrow, this girl names [ Y / N ] [ L / N ] or some people call her the Dragon only heart." Mori expenses more detail about her and her relationship with Shibausawa even about her ability plus a bonus she killed about 230 people with her ability !, and her parents die or should I said disappear. The mother hasn't come home & and the father as died in an alleyway. It

After the meeting... Dazai was still daydreaming about the girl form the meeting. An unfamiliar feeling came to him. Is this... Love that he is feeling right now?

Hehe... It's funny how a girl can have a good [ C / E ] crystal, and a wonderful. [ H / C ] . , I wonder what her likes and dislikes. I snap out of my daydream with a familiar loud voice " oi! dazai are you are ready to go ! " said the ginger hair boy. Oh, I forgot he was there. A smirk on my face " Ooooo chuuyaaaaa I know you like this girl too ~. " I said in a tested voice. Chuuya ends up blushing by my words, I can tell he was pissed/flattered about it. Oh boy, this is going to be a long day.

" WHAT NO, I DON'T EVEN LIKE HER YOU MACKEREL! "

" OOO COME ON SLUG STOP ACTING LIKE TSUNDERE AnD JUST AMITY ALREADY! "

End of the flashback ❀ • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • Nobody P. O. V [ 7: 5 2 P. M Yokohama city ]

The day has finally come.... the day of the dragon head conflict. Gun was firing with the other members of the day of Dragonhead. The other members shot back that cause the port mafia members killed or every Death.

𝙏𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙣𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩 𝙗𝙚𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙞𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙨 𝙘𝙤𝙣𝙘𝙡𝙪𝙨𝙞𝙤𝙣 ~

It was a full moon, the cloud was a dark purple color, and hearing a gunshot in the air. Hearing Heavily breathing was coming out of a Male who was running on the street in a straight line holding a gun. He stopped at the end of the street and turn to the left. This man is named was Oda sakunosuke. A man who doesn't kill also one of the gifted people. he had reddish hair, his blue eyes are like the ocean also what he wearing was a Tan Coat & a black shirt.

Oda was looked at the dead body all ever the street. " this is sickening " he mumbles. All the port mafia members man was all dead in the ground. Hearing a couple of gunshots in the background, a loud one sound but this one and sound like a... Baby crying. Oda flicks when he heard the baby crying. He ran to the baby and find their parents died in the ground too. Poor baby was the only one who survives the attack. Oda pots his gun always in gentle hold the baby. The baby girl kinda clams down a bit. He sighs of relief and said " your lucky to be alive in this situation " " odasuku " a male voice from an earpiece [ A / N: IDK what are there called them (╥﹏╥)] oda Replied back " Dazai we're are you ? " the other man on the phone was Dazai Osamu the youngest members on the port mafia.

" I have a feeling I know what you're up to, but you need to run. " Dazai continues taking " it's going to be safe there for long " than the other person spoke up "Oh Piss off, scrub "

A motorcycle pass oda and the baby . " oh hey, chuuya. You're in the range of the enemy and take some bullet and die, thanks ." Dazai really wants chuuya to die on this god damm mission.

" Shut up " chuuya was about to lose his cool to his ' partner'.

Chuuya was almost got hit by an ability user but he da. " Damm gifted " yep he's a bit pissed about that. The ability user uses all its energy to take down chuuya. But it didn't work. By using his ability called " Upon the tainted sorrow. " the motorcycle was glowing a light red color & stick to the building. The ability user shot his Electric power to try hitting the motorcycle that chuuya riding.

" He thinks he's the shit," Chuuya said with a grumpy his word when he looks at the person.

Meanwhile with Dazai ~ ♥︎

The dark brown hair boy was sitting on the ground wearing handcuffed. A gun was pouting at the sild profile of dazai " It would have been more amusing if you'd been struck by lightning and killed. " said dazai. A puff of smoke but puff being blow away when a familiar finger " Shut it, Dazai " it was chuuya.

[ Y / N ] [ L / N ] P . O . V

[ 8 : 0 0 P . M ]

" So you telling me I have to stand right here and protect you. , " I said with a ( bit ) annoying a pot my katana on the ground and turning around to looking at my ' father ' Who was starting at his jewelry. " well isn't my fault you been training all week for this event is it, princess ?" Shibusawa said who is still starting his red ruby & a violets blue jewelry & started whispered " It'll be mine " keep saying it three times. Jesus, I hated when he does this but then I just get used to it. I was wearing this nice white dress with cliffs.my dress go to my knees. The neck part was getting annoying. " it won't be mine " Oh God here we go again. Click ... Click .. Click

Hear the fire is burning. He probably burning those papers that I was writing. I sighed and looking at the ground. " are those jewels are all real? " a male voice I shot my Head. To see a boy with a brown wave hair, his bandages right eye & bandage on was top to the bottom, His left dark brown eye is like chocolate. Also, he was wearing a black coat over his shoulder a white shirt with a black tie . And there was an another next to him. He had short ginger hair. A choker around his neck, hat on his head. Black Gloves cover his hand. By what he wears a black Jacket, white shirt, and black pants. The brown hair male took a look at me a started smirk at me. " He could have made a beautiful woman really happy~. " My cheeks started to heat up. Father is mattering one last word " It won't be mine " dropping the last jewelry on the fire and then dropping the bag to the ground.

He clasps his together and giving that looks at me "Princess you know what to do. " I sigh. Grabbing my katana form and attack the one with the bandage.

Dazai Osamu P . O . V

[ 8 : 1 9 P . M ]

Shit, she coming for the mean. A Swing forms her attack at me but I dodge it. I look at chuuya who was going to come bet her. I had to stop him. " Chuuya go-ahead and used your ability " I yelled at him. his eye widen he yelled back at me, " Are you Crazy! " " just trust me ". He used his ability, And markings appear on the cheeks and to the bottom. Chuuya cloth being riping off. The wind bit up. The [ H / C ] girl drops her weapon, her eye like look like she was seen a ghost. This is my chance. I grab her waist and move closer to my chest. Corruption, huh? I saw it on my mind. I step away to get some were safe still holding the [ H / C ] girl close. I could hear chuuya screaming. Next, the thing you know the building that Shibausawa was bowl up. I grab chuuya hand a used my ability " No longer a human ."

[ ? ? ? P . O . V ] [ 8 : 2 4 P . M on the roof top ]

I could see the building bowl up. My white coat was blowing waving though the wind . Heh I was to late to join the party. We'll meet you again soon The dragon only heart.

[ Dazai Osamu P . O . V ]

[ 8 : 2 5 P . M Yokohama city ]

After the experience of the building. I ask [ Y / N ] if she started at my apartment for the night. To my surprise she yes! If chuuya now about this will be the end of me. Also I have get new cou

A few years of waking to Dazai apartment. [ Y / N ] feel something warm. She never had any feelings for a long time. She feels safe with Dazai & chuuya. But there was the other feeling that when she with Dazai her cheek turn pink. And her heart skip a beat when she with him.

" well we're here " I opened the door for [ Y / N ]. " you can make your self-" I my word got cut off by [ Y / N ] hugging me. " thank you for saving me," she said with a smile. I hug her back. " no problem belladonna." I said smile a bit . . . . . . . . . . . . Days have passed. [ Y / N ] told dazai about her ability. And how dangerous it is. It came to the collusion to not join the port mafia. Each day and chuuya came to the dazai apartment to see how's [ Y / N ] doing. • • • • • The day that Oda dead. Dazai was planning to confess to [ Y / N ]. But [ Y / N ] end up the confession to her love with him in the first place. Later at night dazai quite the port mafia and took the [ H / C ] girl so they can become lovers & started in a new chapter for their life together. . . . . . . So , they can have that ever happy ending..... . . . . . . . Five After a few days people started to commit suicide.. nobody now why ... but only one new what is going on . And that person is name [̸Y̸/̸ N̸ ]̸ [̸ L̸ /̸ N̸ ]̸ .̸

❝ chapter 1 : the day that I meet you end ❞

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A / N: in the next chapter there will be more details about the reader's ability! :'D also here some fluff with dazai

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