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#and as an added bonus the only therapist i've ever seen in my life used to call my panic attacks ''pseudo-panic attacks''
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#welcome to another installment of: angel spits out all his thoughts about autism cause if he keeps them inside his head will explode
#in today's episode: is it possible that my ''panic attacks'' have been autistic meltdowns all this time?
#then answer is maybe!
#ok so i was watching this youtube video from channel I'm autisticn now what? (check it out it's great!)
#and meg was talking about the different types of autistic meltdowns and how they might manifest
#and then in the comments people were discussing autistic meltdowns vs panic attacks and how cofused they used to be about them
#and that got me thinking... there's a big thing that needs to happen during a panic attack for it to be a panic attack
#and that is anxious thoughts... many people talk about fear of death during panic attacks
#and that was never my experience. I don't feel like I'm going to die when I have these ''attacks''
#they feel painful and like i'm completely out of control but my head is quite clear in that regard
#i always thought it was because i don't think dying is like The Worst thing that could happen to me so maybe that was why
#and it never ocurred to me that it could be an autistic meltdown because i always saw those as ''little boy hits his head against the wall'
#(horrible i know) but it's more than that! (plus i sadly started self harming when the ''attack'' is too bad so not i fit that idea lol)
#it's the uncontrollable crying. the throwing anything you have at hand across the room. the not being able to utter words
#(other than ''no'' in my case) it's the complete lack of control
#and that fits so much more to what i experience! i even related to meg's personal anecdote about a meltdown she had as a child
#being separated from my mom made me go into full panic modes as a kid and that was seen as a tantrum but it was more than that to me!
#and as an added bonus the only therapist i've ever seen in my life used to call my panic attacks ''pseudo-panic attacks''
#because even she felt it didn't quite fit in the description (not that she was a good therapist so i can't put her as an example lol)
#but anyways... yeah every day that goes by i'm more and more convinced I am autistic and it scares me to fucking death
#because of the way my mom reacted when i first raised the question. so yeah this is for nothing lol nothing will change in my life
#¯\_(ツ)_/¯
#angel talks
#personal
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