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Talk To Me

A/N: I am holding a popsicle while I type this XD anyways @reservethesun I am so sorry this took so long to get out! I really hate creative droughts!!! But here it is! Thanks so much for requesting these two! I love WinTeam so much! I really hope you and everyone else who reads this likes it! <333

Summary: Team has some insecurities that fills his mind as he watches Win study. It’s not long before Win catches on and quickly squishes the thoughts that plague his boyfriend’s mind as he reminds Team how much he truly loves him.

Word Count: 2435

Lying back on Win’s bed, Team tried to focus on the game he was currently playing on his phone but found that his sullen gaze kept landing on his boyfriend, who was at his desk, his nose buried in notebooks as he studied. Ever since Win had entered his final year of university, Team found that his boyfriend seemed to run himself into the ground with how much he was focused on his studies and classes, the time the two could have together getting shorter and shorter as Win’s exams got closer and his graduation was right in his reach. Team knew he should be happy for his boyfriend since it was not easy to get the high grades that Win had, but for some reason, Team couldn’t stomp out the dark feelings he could feel rising in his chest as his brain began to overthink like it tended to do when he was under stress.

“Hia...are you almost done? It’s getting late and you’ve been hunched over that desk since we got back,” Team asked, trying to keep the heavy whine from his voice as he stared at the red ‘game over that was’ blinking on his phone. Closing out the game and letting his phone drop on the bed, Team turned on his side as his boyfriend mumbled something illegible, his eyes not straying from the notebook that had his attention for hours now. Letting out a huff, Team pushed himself up and threw his legs over the bed, feeling the cheap carpet below his toes as he stood up, slowly making his way towards Win. “Hia…”

Not quite noticing Team’s tone of voice, Win let his eyes turn away from the notebook, its paper getting crinkled from how hard he was holding it as he took in his boyfriend, finally noticing an odd look in the younger male’s eyes. Moving his gaze from Win’s as he noticed the way he was observing him closely, Team perked up slightly at the sound of Win putting down the books and packing them up, placing them in a neat pile in the middle of the desk. Rolling his neck and groaning when it cracked, also making Team wince, Win pushed himself away from the desk and gave his attention to Team, who still refused to meet his eyes, feeling guilty for pulling his boyfriend away from his studies when he knew how important it was for Win to pass and graduate. As if he could tell what Team was thinking, Win sighed and stepped closer, poking Team’s forehead and grinning when the action caused Team to yelp and glare up at him.

“Team...I’m sorry if I’ve been preoccupied but whatever you’re thinking, don’t. If it’s about my studies, it’s okay. I need a break anyways,” Win explained, reaching out so he could tuck a piece of Team’s bangs behind his ear, gently cupping his cheek as Team tensed and gaped like a fish out of water. Chuckling at the look he was receiving, Win rubbed the back of his neck and winced when his muscles protested the movement, making his boyfriend snap out of his daze and shyly reach forward, his fingers threading through Win’s bleached strands, carefully pulling out the hairband and letting Win’s hair fall from the tight confines his Hia had kept in since they had woken up this morning. Leaning into Team’s touch, Win closed his eyes and took a deep breath in, feeling the way his tenseness of his body relaxed into something that Team could see as fatigue, the dark circles his boyfriend had under his eyes a clear sign that what Team could see was true. “I’m going to go shower...want to join me?”

“Hia!” Team grumbled, shooting him a warning look as he pulled his hair slightly, smirking at the gasp Win let escape his lips, letting the strands go as Win pouted and rubbed at his head. Nodding towards where he knew the bathroom was, Team crossed his arms against his chest and arched a brow as Win huffed but did as he said he was going to do, making his way towards the room. Giving Team one last look that had his boyfriend rolling his eyes, Win slumped in and closed the door behind him. Letting out a sigh as he let his arms fall back down to his sides, Team listened for the shower to start and when it did, Team fell back against the bed and stared at the ceiling in thought. “...should I tell him what’s on my mind...or will he see it as me just being immature and needy…”

Not quite knowing how long he was stuck in his thoughts, Team finally came back to the world of the living as the bathroom door opened and his boyfriend strolled out, removing the towel around his waist as he passed Team, dropping the damp fabric on Team’s face. Hissing at the feeling of a wet towel on him, Team ripped the towel off his face and sat up, wanting to snap at Win but found his words leave him as he noticed the way Win was bare and digging through his dresser for a pair of shorts. Didn’t he have any shame?! Quickly darting his eyes away from the sight of his butt-naked boyfriend, not liking the way his cheeks were starting to get warm. Hearing the tired chuckle from Win, Team grumbled and tossed the towel in the direction of the hamper, not caring if it landed in it or not. Finally slipping on a pair of shorts, Win ruffled his hair with the towel he still had around his neck before he flopped on the bed next to Win.

“I swear, you’re a child,” Team grumbled, smacking Win’s hands away from the towel as he took it in his own, gesturing for Win to come closer to him. Letting a sleepy grin rise on his lips, Win scooted closer to him and slumped up, relaxing into the touch as Team tried to keep his touch gentle enough. Taking in the unusual tense silence that his boyfriend gave off, Win kept his gaze on the sheets below him, not really liking the way Team had nothing to talk about. Closing his eyes, Win thought back to the look on Team’s face when he was trying to get his attention earlier, knowing the expression to be something akin to loneliness and pure sadness. Letting out a heavy sigh, Win knew they had to talk about whatever was bothering his boyfriend, so he slowly reached up and held Team’s hands from where they were placed on his head. “Hia...what’s…?”

“Team, I can tell something’s on your mind. What is it? You know you can talk to me about anything right? I promise I’ll be serious,” Win softly mumbled, shaking the towel off his head as he finally got to meet Team’s gaze. Feeling the way Team’s hands grew tense in his, Win scooted closer until their knees were pressed together and they were face to face, making it almost impossible for Team to look away from him. Swallowing the lump in his throat, Team nibbled on his lip as he tried to find a way to explain himself to his boyfriend. How else was he going to say that he let his mind get to him and make him insecure about their future as a couple? Staying patient as he gently rubbed his thumbs against Team’s knuckles, Win squeezed his hand and offered a soft smile. “I’m here for you no matter what, okay?”

“Hia...I’m...I’m scared, okay? I know that you’re working hard to ace your classes and that it’s really important but I’m terrified that you’ll get caught up in graduating and slowly forget about me. I mean, we sat in this room for hours and you never once looked at me or took a break to spend time with me. I’m afraid that after you’re done with everything and you’re out of university, you’ll forget about our relationship and I won’t mean anything to you anymore and it just...would not leave my mind!” Team whimpered out in one breath, his voice cracking as his feelings began to become too heavy for him to carry. Letting go of Team’s hand as he leaned back in awe, Win took in a deep breath through his nose as he tried to unravel everything Team had admitted. Biting his lip as he kept his gaze on his boyfriend, Win took in the way Team’s body trembled every now and then and how he kept his eyes lowered, his fingers playing with a loose thread on his sheets. Not liking the silence that grew around them even more, Team sniffled slightly and clenched his eyes shut tight. “Don’t get me wrong Hia, I am so proud of you! I’m just being so fucking selfish…”

“Team, don’t start! You are not being selfish!” Win snapped, his voice harsh enough to make Team let out a watery gasp, his attention finally leaving the thread in his fingers so that he could meet Win’s eyes in shock. Reaching out and wrapping his arms around Team’s waist, Win pulled his boyfriend closer until he was practically in his lap and Team’s legs were around his waist. Cupping Team’s face firmly as he pressed their foreheads together, Win made sure that Team was looking right at him as he took a deep breath and pressed a soft kiss to his lips, trying to display all the love he was feeling for his boyfriend into it before he pulled away, both of them breathing in each other’s air as their eyes remained in contact. “Your feelings are valid! Your fears and doubts are valid even if they are not true. It’s my fault for making you feel this way. I should’ve been checking on you instead of ignoring you and letting your thoughts fester like this.”

Shaking his head as he took in what Win had said, Team tried to break their intense gaze but failed when Win saw through his plan and brought his face back towards him, not letting him do what he wanted. Swallowing the lump in his throat as he felt the telltale burn of tears trying to form in his eyes, Team opened his mouth but closed it, no words coming to mind that he could possibly say in this moment. Noticing the way Team was shocked into silence, Win sighed and brought him impossibly closer, releasing Team’s face so one of his hands could thread into the back of his hair, tucking his head into his shoulder so that his face could be buried into the warmth of his neck, their chests pressed tightly together. Blinking into the skin of his Hia’s neck, Team bit his lip to hold in a shaky breath before he circled his arms around Win’s waist, holding him just as firmly as Win was holding him

“I’m sorry, Hia…” Team whispered, his voice still thick with emotion but a small smile beginning to form on his lips as Win’s fingers kept threading through his hair, bringing an unspoken comfort to him that he knew Win understood. Shaking his head slightly, Win pressed a soft kiss to Team’s temple, burying his face into Team’s shoulder as his free hand rubbed circles into his boyfriend’s back. Feeling his cheeks warm, Team was slightly glad that Win couldn’t see it, even though he knew he could probably feel the temperature change since his face was still stuffed into his neck. Rocking them side to side for a few moments, Win gently pulled away, keeping Team at an arms distance as their eyes met again, the saddening emotions he could see in Team’s eyes finally fading into something that looked like barely hidden love. “I...I love you…”

“I love you too, but there’s no need to apologize, Team. Next time, just talk to me when and if you’re feeling like this, okay?” Win whispered, offering a smile to his boyfriend that made Team give him one of his own, a small yet shy one that had Win’s heart thumping hard in his chest. Grinning even brightly, Win ruffled Team’s hair and cackled when Team let out a shriek, whining adorably as he tried to swat at his hands. Squeezing his cheeks, Win blew out a snort when Team just grumbled and glared playfully at him, his arms crossing against his chest before a yawn suddenly made its appearance, making his boyfriend look even more adorable than he already was. Letting go of his cheeks with one last squeeze, Win pushed his hair out of his eyes as he glanced at the time, wincing when he noticed how late it truly was. “Come on, let’s get to bed. It’s awfully late and we both have swim practice tomorrow. The last thing I need is to have Dean on my back for making one of our best swimmers perform poorly.”

Biting back a snicker at the thought of seeing Dean scolding Win, Team just rubbed his eyes and nodded, shifting to remove his day clothes and letting them stay on the floor, not noticing the way Win was watching him with pure affection making its appearance in his gaze. Removing his shirt so that he was just in a plain white muscle tank, Team yawned again and crawled back on the bed, immediately snuggling into the spot Win had opened for him. Waiting for Team to get comfortable, Win leaned over and turned off the lamps, bathing the room in darkness as he buried himself under the light sheet, not having to wait long for Team to cuddle towards him, his arms wrapping themselves around his waist as he laid his head on Win’s chest. Holding him just as close, Win leaned down and pressed a kiss to Team’s forehead, snuggling his own face in his boyfriend’s hair.

Feeling a sleepy smile making his lips twitch up, Win knew that Team couldn’t hear him, the younger male already fast asleep against his chest, his breathing faint and even, signaling he was truly asleep. Letting out a soft sigh, Win let his eyes flutter shut as the promise of sleep began to lull him, the warmth of Team’s body against his, making it easier and easier to just sink into a comfortable unconsciousness. Pressing another lazy kiss to Team’s head, Win finally let himself drift as one last thought slipped free from his lips.

“I love you so much.”

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