#also probably why Vhaeraun feels like so much of a crutch to him | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

illithilit · 3 months

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That moment when you realize that Mourndax is so flippant about everything bc ofc he is. Man's barely had any agency in his life under his parents' control, and he's less than five years removed from that. He hasn't exactly had time to learn how to make decisions of his own, and acting like you don't give a shit what the outcome is, or that you've simply changed your mind about it for no particular reason is a lot easier than admitting to still remembering how much the leash hurt when pulled on.

#the moral of the story is I will gut you if I need to; I will carve my way out with only my teeth // Mourndax headcanon.#all the world will be your enemy and if they catch you they will kill you -- but first they must catch you // Vhaeraun headcanon.#also probably why Vhaeraun feels like so much of a crutch to him #he's a control figure even if Vhae doesn't actively control him #but the idea of letting someone else make his choices feels safer #meanwhile I'm so sure Vhae's perspective is knowing that feeling full well and wanting to help dig Daxie out of it #bc while yes there are plenty of things you can say about Vhaeraun #he does actually care a LOT about his followers #he's canonically one of the most responsive of any deity #ALSO I think the fact that Vhae ISN'T controlling Daxie and being more of a guard rail to grip onto #while he figures out his shit and or at most gives nudges in certain directions #is legit why Daxie's as attached to him as he is #sort of like the whole father figure I never got to experience / son I never wanted type deal #also ALSO as a little thought on Vhaeraun???#while I haven't actually decided how I'm going to view what happened between Lolth and Corellon #there's something SO intrinsically hurtful about helping your mother escape from her husband #and then she goes and forges a society built upon hating and diminishing a piece of what you are #like before the point he turned on her Vhae was nothing but a loyal son to her #even if I'm so sure her choices were more reactionary towards Corellon than anything to do with him I just......#idk how you wouldn't take that extremely personally. that shit's devastating fr

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