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missycolorful · 1 year

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I posted 811 times in 2022

That's 811 more posts than 2021!

158 posts created (19%)

653 posts reblogged (81%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@areus-in-a-little-cave

@antimony-medusa

@elbowreveal

@simplepotatofarmer

@lesbianwilbur

I tagged 781 of my posts in 2022

Only 4% of my posts had no tags

#fan art - 216 posts

#fanart - 159 posts

#philza - 145 posts

#emduo - 79 posts

#technoblade - 70 posts

#lore discussion - 47 posts

#ranboo - 43 posts

#wilbur soot - 43 posts

#tommyinnit - 42 posts

#dsmp - 33 posts

Longest Tag: 122 characters

#when really tommy's tragic story is written by this kid in his late teens who was a theater kid and wants you to subscribe

My Top Posts in 2022:

People who try to call c!Phil a hypocrite… I don’t think they know what the term means. Or at least, how hypocrisy works.

So c!Phil killed his son, after c!Wilbur committing terrorism and convinced his father to help him commit suicide. And thereafter, months later, c!Phil blew up and committed terrorism on that same nation. On the surface, these actions do come across as contradicting and hypocritical. So what’s going on here then, if not hypocrisy?

c!Phil, in all he does, simply wants to help, because his beliefs are set in trying to do what he believes is right. It’s why he killed his son; after seeing the destruction, after hearing his son say “It’s what they want” and not knowing his son only has one life, c!Phil thought it was the right thing to do. He was just... wrong. One thing to note is that his disconnect from everyone else, all the mortals with short lives compared to his immortal years and experience, makes his views of right and wrong vastly different from the others. Not necessarily bad or good. Just different.

So what about blowing up L’manburg? What about his beliefs there? The thing is, at first, c!Phil helped rebuild L’manburg after Wilbur destroyed it. He tried bonding with the people there. For example, should he have killed cWilbur, and then shortly after, like a day or something, just went to destroy L’manburg out of nowhere, that’d be hypocritical. Because there would be no sign or show of any change in his ideals here; he just be doing exactly what he killed Wilbur for doing. And hypocrisy comes from holding certain standards/beliefs for others, but not being able to meet them yourself. As such, his belief it doing what’s right would be contradicted, because he’s destroying land he initially tried to help.

However, where the lore stands, he had nothing against these people or its government and thus did not see reason to its destruction. He trusted L’manburg, to a certain point, thought it was fine. He wanted to assist it in starting anew. He has seen many empires rise and fall; he knows this process. He knows there is both destruction and rebirth in nature and life. So Phil has no qualms with government in general, really. That is, until he sees with his own eyes how it is corrupting and hurting its people, as he has seen many times before. Until the president admits to stealing from his citizens for his own gain, until he gets placed on house arrest and is forced to watch his friend be executed without trial, until the only connection he could see between Wilbur and his spiraling is the government. All signs that another kingdom needs to fall, by his own hands. And that is when he takes action, however drastic it may be. Because he believes that is what is right.

Things changed in those few months between these two things he did. A lot. Phil changed. New L’manburg changed. And he saw it, experienced it all, all of the worst of it. And that’s the biggest thing to focus on here, in differentiating what cPhil did as him being a hypocrite from him following through on what he believes in: change. For both Phil and the country he resided in.

cc!Philza himself said that despite these contradicting actions, c!Phil had his reasons. That’s not cc!Phil saying he admits to c!Phil being a hypocrite, and I’m vague posting about tweets I’ve seen, yes, but it drives me up the wall how people put words into others’ mouths. He NEVER said that, ever. He simply said c!Phil has his reasons for the way he went about things. Not perfect reasons but reasons that c!Phil thought best nonetheless. Where in cc!Phil’s explanation does he say his character’s a hypocrite??!! I think it’s wild to twist a cc’s words just for one’s benefit, thinking they are finally valid in their horrid misrepresentation of a character.

Phil wants to add meat to his lore so people can understand those reasons, but me and many others already do. And for antis to try and say this is points against him and his fans are wrong because HIS FANS, WE ALREADY KNOW THE REASONS and we know why his actions aren’t hypocritical. They make sense, they are a sign of change in his character, as well as his environment that caused him to think over his views on New L’manburg.

There’s that well known video analyzing cPhil where it describes him as "Philza, the angel of death, is what happens when you break a good man” (which cc!Phil totally approved of, btw!!). It perfectly explains his actions and who he is as a character, yet... people just don’t seem to care. Just because you have a bias against him and don’t give an ass about his lore does not mean that those reasons were not there in the first place. They always have been, and his fans know that. We just hate when people misread c!Phil’s character and say things about him that just aren’t true.

It is NOT hypocrisy for your ideals to change. It is NOT hypocrisy to execute actions you seemed against prior, simply because new experiences have changed your point of view. Awareness and the will to change your opinion is not hypocrisy. c!Phil is a flawed and complicated character but no I will never say he is a hypocrite. Because he just isn’t.

245 notes - Posted June 9, 2022

Btw, I never wanna hear from Philza that he's bad at RP ever again. His voice, when c!Phil was mourning c!Sam, mourning the man he knew and respected, even if this man was no longer who he once was. The pain is near tangible when he's saying "This will be the first and last time I visit this godforsaken place," because being there, seeing Sam like this and in a way confronting what Sam has done to himself, is complete agony. But even in his grief, he knows who he is. The Angel of Death. And his warning "I will not hold back against you" is quiet yet unwavering, fierce. cc!Phil's acting is phenomenal, and I hope he knows that.

He still feels such anguish when he loses people, and especially so when they're trying to fight against something that cannot win, against someone he will never turn his back on. Because after all this time, he cares. Even with whatever Sam had done, Phil still thought about the good man Sam had once been. Because if there's anything to know about Phil, it is that he remembers. And he remembers forever, because that is his burden and his blessing.

And in just these few minutes, cc!Philza expresses so much of his character, who he is, what losing someone means to him, and how he lives on. And all his character did was stand in front of a box, and speak.

306 notes - Posted November 2, 2022

"You were looking for someone that you can be friends with for a long time."

... This is before c!Phil met c!Technoblade. For who knows how long, Philza was seeking a friend to be by his side for a long time. And he had come up empty, enduring years of watching dear friends die within a blink. It's such a lonely little cycle to endure by yourself. The weight of immortality sits heavy over Phil's chest.

c!Sam knew this, and he tried, he tried to be that person. He wanted to be that friend who made the cycle easier to bear. Was even willing to cheat Death Herself. Except he... can't. He's just another person caught in the cycle of inevitability, of being so plainly mortal. And Phil watches, again. And again and again.

Until one day, there's a piglin warrior, who proudly proclaims, "Technoblade never dies!" And at first, Philza scoffs.

But the years pass, centuries pass, and Technoblade bears scars, not wrinkles, on his face, and he can definitely still fight a bunch of orphans with ease. Best of all, he eggs on Phil for being such an old bird, presses his back to his as they fight armies in a well practiced dance, promises him the world. And for the first time in years, Philza can breath.

313 notes - Posted November 3, 2022

Fucking... all of this Techno lore... my heart hurts. I'm glad Technoblade's character was pretty much completely with his story, but even knowing that is just sad.

c!Technoblade is off wandering and overthrowing other governments now. You can't convince me otherwise.

404 notes - Posted August 4, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

It really is heartbreaking to see that message about Technoblade, and how he had known it was severe for much longer than we were aware of. But it is so fitting for him to do that. To wave away the severity of his situation, because he’d rather make people smile.

It’s common as is for people to try to hide conditions this bad from people, because, well, they don’t want to be looked at with pity or fear or nervousness or what have you for the rest of their lives. Because as soon as others, friends and family and loved ones, know the time bomb is ticking, they can’t help but act differently. It’s natural, it happens, it’s really hard not to, honestly. But it also hurts, because many will treat those who are dying as fragile and someone to fret over. And a lot of people just don’t want that, even it it IS a natural response. They want to enjoy the life they have left without being looked at differently.

This is even more so for Technoblade. A widely well known content creator with a fanbase who genuinely loves him. If we knew, we’d be paranoid, we’d be panicky, we’d start mourning before anything happened. And he never wanted that. He wanted to make us laugh, to make people smile, not cry. So he didn’t really let people know, because he wanted to make whatever time he had left count. He continued working, helped give a lot of money to charity, he tried so hard to continue storylines on the Dream SMP and bring in the lesser known creators into it.

He continued to make us and his friends laugh and smile and have a good time, until he finally wrote that last message to us, and still made us laugh even in his final goodbye. Because it’s what he loved to do. And as upset as I am that he was way worse than he initially expressed, I totally get it.

Thank you, Technoblade.

856 notes - Posted September 20, 2022

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#2/5 biggest posts being about techno's death... oh :(#i appreciate my lore stuff being well liked tho #i always worry about being like annoying or something so that's nice! :)#also nearly 1/5 my posts being about philza yeah that's expected #long post #honestly not bad considering I made this blog halfway thru the year lmao

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