You know what's really rubbing salt into this wound? There is a recent Try Guys upload where because Alex is supposed to be getting married, was featured in a video where the guys had to purchase bridesmaid dresses and their engaged staff and respective partners had to select a winner for best outfit and that person was effectively to become their bridesmaid pick.

Ned literally wore a bridesmaid dress, for FUN, FOR the employee he cheated on his wife with, whom is also ENGAGED, AND had been creating content around her upcoming wedding on the channel as well. What. The. Fuck.

[Edit: Now that we know Ned and Alex have been together since at least December 2021 (when Alex's partner found pics + vids of them on her phone and asked Ned to back off--he did not), and the video mentioned above came out in February 2022...

I'm at a total mindfuck.]

[Re:Edit: Just found this on twitter...it just keeps getting worse

ok @minetteskvareninova & @caleblandrybones as promised here's everything i can find on the filming of heaven knows what & the whole "pretending to be homeless" thing. surprisingly after not finding any of the old articles i remember reading in my reblogs the first mention of it i managed to find was actually in a more recent interview i was just reading for funsies & didn't expect to be relevant here:

Though he has no formal Method training, Jones harks back to that tradition – especially in this era of actors as bland, gym-pumped corporate ambassadors. He was recommended to intensity merchants the Safdie brothers for the role of Ilya, the blade-hurling junkie in their 2014 heroin memoir Heaven Knows What on the basis that: “He will do what you need him to do in terms of immersing himself.” He hit the New York streets to understand the vagrant’s life. “I was panhandling a little bit and made $150 in a day.” You suspect there may have been the odd Landry Jones fan among the donors. He didn’t, though, as some have speculated online, go as far as shooting up as part of his preparation: “I worked with Malcolm McDowell [on Antiviral] and he told me: ‘You don’t need to do that shit. You can just be an actor.’”

this interview doesn't really get into his experience staying on the street but is kid of like a precursor to the experience that i found interesting bcus i'd actually never read about their first time meeting before:

So you met him in person for the first time when he arrives for the shoot? Josh Safdie: Yes. His agent asked us to put him in a fancy hotel and stuff. We rolled up to the hotel [that first night].

Ben Safdie: Everybody [from the cast] ended up staying at that hotel soon enough.

Josh Safdie: Yeah, he had a lot of people in that room. Everyone from the street was in his hotel room, they were throwing bottles out the window. So, we pull up to this stoop, and he was sitting in front of the hotel and asked immediately, “Why am I staying at this hotel?” And we were like, “Well, because your agent said…”

Ben Safdie: He said, “I thought you guys were real.”

Josh Safdie: “I thought this was going to be like a real situation. Where are Ari and Ilya staying?” It was about five degrees out, and I said, “Well, because it’s so cold, they stay at this Internet café on Eldridge.” He goes, “I’m going there.” I said, “Well, let’s hang out first.” We took him over to Sean’s house, and we watched a bunch of movies. And then I dropped him off back at his hotel and said, “Tomorrow I’ll introduce you to Ari and Ilya.”

But he didn’t go back to his room. He went and found the Internet café and got time on a computer, and stared at Ilya, the real Ilya, while he was passed out. He had known what he looked like, so he just stared at him and watched how he slept and everything. Arielle wasn’t there that night … Then the next day, I introduced him.

Ben Safdie: That first meeting, we were all sitting at a McDonald’s, and Caleb was just kind of witnessing Ari and the real Ilya. He was very careful not to say anything or do anything — he was just watching them. And, for me, that’s when I realized that he was going to be able to do it, because of the way he was watching. Every once in a while he would say something; he knew what to say to get Ilya on his side, not that it was phony in the slightest — he just knows people. That’s what you’d hope from an actor. He would say things and slowly work his way into the world.

also "At this point, Caleb was fully in costume, looked a lot like Ilya. He showered once, the entire shoot, maybe. He smelled horrible." lmao the dedication.

this one also isn't the one i was looking for where they actually talk about his experience prepping for the role but it does get mentioned:

Benny: I heard that on Contraband he got arrested and cost production a lot of money because he was sitting in jail for three days. For Heaven Knows What, he was upset that we gave him a hotel room. He wanted to stay on the streets immediately with everybody. He’s like, “If I’m going to be playing a kid on the streets, I want to be living with them.” Eventually, he found them and hung out in the streets. But when they found out he had a hotel room, everybody went back to his hotel room and he kind of fit in perfectly. You could see him observing and understanding everything.

i SWEAR back in like 2015 i remember reading another interview where they actually talked directly to caleb about his time filming but i cannot fucking find it & i've dug through literally every interview i was able to find for this movie. also totally disregard what i said in my tags earlier about "wasn't it filming for this when he met katya" bcus once i used my brain cells for 2 seconds i realized that doesn't make any sense timeline wise so it wasdefinitely a different time he looked homeless ig (lmfao???) bcus i distinctly remember him saying she thought he was homeless & didn't believe he was an actor but i will be attempting to dig up that interview later rn i need a break from looking at screens bye

"Poor Unfortunate Souls" by Pat Carroll and Disney

5/06/2023

Day I added song: 10/27/2019

Song Rating: 10/10. The best Disney villain song (excluding "Hellfire," which I will be getting to one day). The beautiful vocals of Pat Carroll set this song apart.

Nostalgia Rating: 1/10. I used to love this song and had really good thoughts of it, but as of very recently this song has taken on a very negative connotation.

As a theatre kid, I spend a lot of my time daydreaming about performing musical theatre songs on stage. "Poor Unfortunate Souls" is a song that has been on my radar for a very long time, but my vocal range simply didn't permit it for the longest time. As I've worked on my vocals, however, I've gotten to a point where I could feasibly sing this song. Unfortunately, my last opportunity to sing this song before the school year finished was taken away from me.

I've always liked the villain songs from Disney more than the hero songs. Partially because I think their lyrics and darker tones are more appealing, but also just because I think the concept of a villain song is so much more intriguing.

Heroes sing "I want" songs, songs about the dreams they hope to achieve and the goals they hope to accomplish. Ariel sings about wanting to go to the surface, Anna sings about wanting to leave the castle and find love, Moana sings about wanting to leave her island (a lot of songs about women leaving their houses I guess).

Villains sing "I am" songs. Songs about who they are and what their ideals are. They don't need to sing about how they want to marry Belle or how they want to become the king because they know it is going to happen. They are so sure in themselves that they don't waste time trying to convince the audience what is best for them because they don't need that validation, and I think that's very powerful. And Ursula is the queen of confidence.

Throughout high school, anyone who's ever given me the time of day knew how much I adored this song and how badly I wanted to sing it... unfortunately, for the longest time it just wasn't an option for me. Someone who especially knew how badly I wanted to sing this song was my SECOND high school ex, Taymer. While we were together I would often talk about how much I loved this song and how I couldn't wait to one day perform it.

The opportunity finally arose, as our final talent show is just around the corner. As I excitedly began my preparations to finally sing the song, I couldn't wait to finally perform it for an audience. It'd make one of the last memories of my senior year a good one, as many others haven't been. And then when I went to sign up for auditions, my heart sank. Because Taymer had signed up to audition first. With this song.

It just hurts when someone does something that doesn't directly involve you and yet you know they did it just to make you suffer. Especially since I am on the board of judges that decides on auditions, so I couldn't even pretend that the whole event wasn't happening. And I couldn't just sing the same song he sang, because then I'd look like I was trying to steal his thunder.

Maybe I'll get a chance during college, or maybe I'll just forget about it entirely.

Still an excellent song, though.