#add my broken fridge and lack of nutritious food to that lmao
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i think genuinely one of the worst parts of being mentally ill is being too incapacitated to do the things you love and the things you desperately want to do
#this sounds so serious but unfortunately it's just that i am too anxious and scattered to finish out verdant wind even tho i desperately#want to and have been thinking about it nonstop for days#like first my period came and left me in so much pain and discomfort that i couldn't focus for shit#and now i'm in the post-period hormonal imbalance or whatever (idek what it is) that leaves me completely unable to focus and also#extremely fucking anxious for no reason at all#and it just kind of sucks?#especially because my period should be a 4-5 day affair. and if it was just that i think it would be fine#2-3 days a month of pain. sure. whatever#but because of my pmdd or whatever it is. i have to deal with 3-4 days of depression like a black hole. then 2-3 days of pain with 4-5#days of mess and discomfort#and then after fucking THAT i get to be so anxious and scatter-brained that i think i'm dying for what has now been 4 days i think#count all that up.#that's 10-13 days of being fucked over. every month. every MONTH. it's like i only get to experience mental stability half the time#until i'm 50 years old.#i think it would be better if my material conditions were better. because it didn't used to suck this bad#like i think that not having anything Good in my life. truly good. makes every mental hurtle about a million times worse#add my broken fridge and lack of nutritious food to that lmao#add my complete and total isolation#add every other fucking thing in my life#i'm so fucking sad dog. i'm the opposite of hype rn#ugh vent. always venting on tumblr dot com#delete later
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