hi pls give me ur game recs 🤍

okay i have a lot of thoughts and i need to just rant about things because i’m sad about it 

i’m going to be completely candid and i hope no one rips my head off for this but i hated the way they portrayed tess’ death in the show. i have loved the show thus far and had really no qualms about it. a few things in the show portrayal of tess that i don’t adapt to my own portrayal but beyond that?! i’ve loved it!! but tess’ death was just...... idk to me i feel like they really skewed with it in a way that lessened the blow that it’s supposed to give because idk in the game it just feels like so much more dire? we really feel the weight of her loss in joel’s reaction and that carries on to the way they move on after it but this was just... i don’t know it didn’t feel as impactful to me which sucks

we’ve been set up in the first episode and the most part of the second episode to see how much joel and tess care for each other, how much they trust each other and, of course, the insinuation that they love each other. i really hated that they made joel a lot colder to her in her death scene than it was in the game, like for him to be the one taking the step back rather than her pushing him back was already something i was like ... meh about. and then the whole “i never asked you to feel the way i felt” line please dear lord why. just why was that necessary. i absolutely hate the insinuation that he didn’t love/feel the same way about her or that she thought that. like bffr in her last moments you’re going to let her think that....... especially when we have seen his immense care for her being shown?? i mean we know how hard it is for joel to trust other people so for them to throw in this little spooning scene and then just backtrack and make it seem like he never loved her is just like a punch in the gut i hated it so much?! i just really didn’t like how he was a lot colder to her overall than he was in the game like... i know it doesn’t have to be a completely true adaptation at all but for them to demonstrate their relationship in this way only for it to end like this just feels really sad/unsatisfying?! i also really wish they had included the whole “come on, make this easy for me” because that one line shows how much he cares about her/how reluctant he was to leave her even if she was already infected ugh man i don’t know 

and please the infected kiss or whatever why was that necessary at all?? i really feel that it was meant to be some sort of shock/horror factor but to me, i genuinely felt like it just cheapened her death so much? to have this weird scene for no reason? i feel like they wanted some sort of powerful image at the end but in all honesty, i think the part where she’s backed up against the wall with all the infected flooding in and she’s struggling to light the lighter and she’s got tears in her eyes was enough of a powerful image without that?? 

i think it’s happening tonight..............

AND ANOTHER THING —

sorry why are we acting like tess is a shit shot???? we all know my girl is NOT a shit shot so why??? the fact that they showed her missing both times she shot at the clickers.... bffr right now like be so real right now please?? and then when she hits the clicker in the neck with the axe but cowers behind it???? BE FUCKING REAL... you know tess would’ve finished that bitch off easy i said what i said

you know i always get the urge to message people and be like hey let’s write let’s cook up something funky!! but i get worried about being annoying or them being like uh..... no thanks...... but then when it happens to me like someone messages me out of nowhere to plot or write my heart goes 💕💖💗💞💓💝💞💖💕💓

name:      cherry!  pronouns:    she/her.    she/her preference of communication:     i prefer disco usually!   i feel like things normally start off on tumblr ims and then it’s a natural progression to discord,   but i also don’t mind just hopping straight in from disco!  most active muse:    currently,   it’s tess because the brainrot is so unbelievably real but @ltdice is always taking up most of my (1) braincell so there’s that too experience / how many years:     god i really don’t know how long i’ve been doing this i mean it’s been so long?!   it’s almost a bit of a blur really but i’m pretty sure i started out when i was around 12 years old so that would be around   ...   12 years now.   holy cow that’s half my life platforms you use:     tumblr and disco!   i’ve been a lot more active on disco lately just because things are a bit busy with work and what not and it’s also just a lot easier / more accessible.   but i am still predominantly on tumblr,   esp with the creation of this tess blog because this has really bolstered my muse to be writing on here!  best experience:      honestly?   i think this past year and a bit has been my best experience on here simply because of the people that i’ve met and gotten close to?   i’ve been writing on tumblr for a really long time and for a lot of that time,   i was writing in groups and we all know that the lifespan of groups is not particularly great so i was involving myself in a lot of stop/start development?   and then when i finally made the switch to indie,   i was definitely enjoying it more too but i also think that the connections i made initially were a lot more surface level and not as meaningful to me in comparison to the connections i have now?   like i truly appreciate the friends i have made on here so much,   no matter how much or how little we chat,   i know that there’s a genuine level of support,  care and connection there?   which has really made my time on here so much better honestly!  rp pet peeves:    oh gosh i don’t know i feel like honestly not a lot actually annoys me on here idk if that sounds weird maybe i just don’t follow annoying people ... lol but i’ve never been a fan of guilt tripping of course,   like making people feel bad if you’re lacking interaction or something when you might not be trying to get interaction yourself?   i also am not a huge fan of,   i don’t really know how to word this,   but i feel like entitlement might be a good word?   like if you follow someone and then softblock them because they haven’t made an attempt to interact yet but you haven’t either?   everything on here is a two way street and i think sometimes people forget that!   you have to put in effort and interest to get it back from others as well.   because i also think maybe sometimes people forget that this is just a hobby and sometimes we’re not always around all the time but that shouldn’t be taken as a sign of disinterest either!  fluff,   angst,   or smut:      honestly i am a sucker for angst i just love?!   being hurt!   it’s as simple as that!   but i also love fluff so much because i think it’s so wonderful to be able to develop and write about the softer sides of relationships/friendships/etc it’s just so sweet!   and smut is totally dependent on the relationship between the muses + the relationship i have with the mun too.   i feel like in past years i haven’t written a ton of smut just because i don’t think i’m really that good at it anyway but in more recency,   it’s been something i’m more interested in exploring if the circumstances call for it!  plots or memes:     both!!   i love chatting about plots like i could ramble all day about plot ideas and dynamics etc,   so it’s something i enjoy a lot!   but i also think memes are a great way to get things started too which is why i always frame my memes in a way that makes it easy   ( or,    i would hope so at least )    for people to use it as a starter if they wish to!  long or short replies:   i think i probably fall somewhere in between long and short,   really?!   but it all depends on my mood as well as the thread itself.   i can definitely write a lot if the situation calls for it best time to write:      if i’m working from home,   i like to write during the day sometimes if i have a bit of free time here and there but i do most of my writing i think in the evenings!  are you like your muses:      in some ways,  yes!   i tend to be drawn to quite chaotic muses so in that case yes because i am very chaotic?!   but a lot of the similarities between the muses i like writing are the fact that they’re certified badasses who can kick your ass and look good doing it but i can confirm that i am ..... not that so 🤍

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if you’re reading this this is your sign to play tlou

hi friends hope you’re all doing okay! sorry for being a bit scarce here, been feeling very very low energy this past week so i’ve just been hiding away mostly!! tlou day tomorrow though can i get a hell yeah 🤍

just thinking about the concept of feminine rage and how intrinsic it will be to my portrayal of tess 🤍