#UGH SOOOO STUPID. even if it’s just going to get food or something. literally debilitating it’s horrible it like freezes me in place | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

werebutch · 2 months

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Ok goodnight I’ve been anxiety ridden over seemingly everything the past week or so to the point where my TUMMY won’t stop HURTING for ONE MINUTE the whole time. I’m scared I’m so scared of everuthing I’m scared

#my hrt appointment is on tues I’m scared. math I’m scared. socializing I’m scared.#will I ever stop feeling like I’m going to die whenever I hang out with people. like I thought this was stupid kid stuff but genuinely #makes my blood run cold sometimes just thinking about it. like I’m sooo special enough to be hated that much. get over urself. OMG #but I can’t. I think my problem is that I’m kind of a control freak and I have NO control over how people perceive me. not really #UGH SOOOO STUPID. even if it’s just going to get food or something. literally debilitating it’s horrible it like freezes me in place #being alone gets rid of the fear in the moment but I’ve been feeding that for like a couple years now. and the more I do the worse it gets #UGH.#I know the only way out is through but I’m gonna whine about it the entire time. why the hell is it so stressful for me.. even if I know #the person really likes me.. -__-

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