the terror is crazy because eps 1 through 6 you're like okay why should i care about any of this. and then from ep 7 onward you're literally wailing because of tragic instrument of colonialism old man lead poisoned scurvy riddled frostbitten gangrened pussy. and there's no remedy

Guess who's crying so badly? Me.

forgot why I didn't watch the first ten minutes of barça games

Guess who decided to walk into a door right before her day off

me, reading fanfic: yaaay :) this is so fun i am feeling so many emotions right now! why don't i do this more often?

me, after it's over:

"Oh so this is just like a harder and more mature pokemon fan game. This isn't so bad" and other thing said moments before the horrors hit.

I forgot what its like to be interested in someone

No more dreaming of the dead as if death itself was undone No more calling like a crow for a boy, for a body in the garden No more dreaming like a girl so in love, so in love No more dreaming like a girl so in love, so in love No more dreaming like a girl, so in love with the wrong world - Florence and the Machine // "Blinding"

oh my GOD

i want to write a april + the turtles christmas fic what am i doing????

fuuuuuuck I"m gonna have to level everything to 60 for the makai titles huh?

It just occurred to me that, i have eaten dirt/soil before. When i was smol. No wonder cakes that imitate small patch of soil and grass/flowers really kill my spirit. I also ate branches and tree barks, i was smol and, curious i suppose, and the branches *looked green and inviting. So Yule log cake is like. Hnnnnng why would u want that.

I can recall the taste and textures of soil and sand and not sure what organisms in my mouth. And their smell.

I can do sliced yule log cakes. No problemo.

"life doesnt get better, you just get stronger" does NOT include ages 11-17. life does in fact just get better from there. those years are dogshit. like, you do get stronger but its mostly just a factor of not being 11-17 anymore. positive thinking helps but it doesnt fix whatevers going on at 15, you have to brute force through that one raw

i have so much rage in me one day i think i will explode. i dont think i know how to forgive as much as i know how to forget

Israel telling it's citizens to edit wikipedia pages to "preserve the truth and sanctity of Israel" has got to be a new level of desperation.