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havegaysex · 6 months

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It's nice not having to give my dog eye drops every 4 hours and waking up after only a few hours of sleep because he needs antibiotics in his eyes.

At the vets on Tuesday she seemed really surprised that it healed as much as it did from Thursday to Tuesday

And here I was beating myself up for missing two doses of his medication over the week. Obviously it's okay that he missed those two doses because his eye is healed mostly and now the vet said I can do the eye drops only twice a day, I'm probably going to do it more than that but it's so nice not having to do it six times a day

I'm still waking up at 4:00 in the morning though

#I literally gathered all of the money I had for the vet visit Tuesday #she said if there wasn't enough healing she was going to make a serum from his own blood and when I was looking it up it sounded expensive #And then the vet visit was the cheapest visit I've had in over a year #So I can have my little cushion of savings for the next medical problem my dog has #Or my cats that live with my mom #but it's so hard for Elliot to leave to house that he's going to have that dental that he's on the wait-list for #Whenever the time comes for that #other than that he is probably not going to leave the house until he dies #So it's mostly just my geriatric dog I have to be prepared for #My mom said she can help sometimes but after our last phone call I really don't want to ask #She's been crying a lot this last year or so because of how little she has for retirement #And I know she doesn't blame me for her being poor #But I do #I blame myself because it was the legal bills to keep custody and decision making over me that drained her #She had a decent retirement before my father destroyed her and she had a college fund for me #My father has said to me that he had "$100.000 before the court battles but it's his endless unecessary motions that ran the legal bills up #He decided it was more important to screw my mom over then to be a decent father and a decent human and save his own money #She had to skip a mortgage payments and lose her house and declare bankruptcy over it all to keep me #She borrowed money from her parents when she literally had no other options #to this day her sister says it doesn't matter what the money was for #but that my mom is lucky because she borrowed money from her parents and my aunt didn't get any money from parents #It was to keep me out of my father's hands so it does matter #My mom works so hard at a shit wage bc she needs the health insurance #She may never be able to retire because of my father bankrupting her #I can't ask her for help with my discounted bc I'm so poor vet bills #She's trapped in a dirty house and can't get out bc of the trauma #She can barely afford the maintenance the expensive things like having people come and trim all the trees so branches don't fall and #Collapse the roof of her house #That was such a tangent #I'm so fucking tired

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