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#Like usually I cycle between like. joint pain issues. chest muscle injury stuff. back pain. stomach problems. headaches. etc.
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feeling sick constantly in the background all the time is like.. usually negligible-ish.. until multiple various chronic background issues all happen to overlap at once and then it’s like
#Like usually I cycle between like. joint pain issues. chest muscle injury stuff. back pain. stomach problems. headaches. etc.
#There is never a day that I feel totally normal for the most part. but it's usually just little things here and there on and off
#chronic things that seem to flare up sometimes. But then every once in a while it's like the flare ups align and I'll have 6 of the problems
#at the same time and then is AaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
#For some reason it's okay to deal with one or two of these things at any given time. but if I have to deal with like 3+ at once
#or two of the old ones plus one NEW thing I've never had before or etc. etc.
#I just can't even do anything. I run around stressed out of my mind unable to focus on any tasks or do anything but feel bad
#then I cant even play games or do fun stuff becuause my brain wont let me be distracted from fixating on the fact that I feel bad
#It's kind of the same way that it's stressful for me to go into grocery stores because my brain LITERALLY just is not capable of tuning out
#all of the noises and lights and sensory information - so it' gets overwhelming quickly. I also just literally cannot tune out sensory infor
#mation from my body. so if something feels even a LITTLE weird or a LITTLE painful or is even slightly different than usual
#especially if it's overlapping with multiple other 'low level chronic pain' type things then my brain is just like.. being given way too muc
#h information that it still cant tune out and then I can't focus and just walk around in a daze for however long until one of the issues
#goes away on it's own (like joint pain flare ups usually come and go etc. etc.). or until I see a doctor abut whatever the new thing is
#and maybe something they do or say actually helps or etc. etc.
#Idk I have SO SO much I want to do the beginning of the year and so many projects to finish and things to post and schedules I have
#written out for me to get on (like excercising more consistently and etc.) and it's just furstrating for my brain to just be like
#ah.. nope.. we are not doing that. instead we are going to be completely incapacitated by a host of physical issues
#which I think most ''normal people'' would just ignore like ''oh yeah I'll just load myself up on ibuprophen and coffee and energy
#drinks and advil and sleep supplements and this and that'' or whatever but I can't do that it just makes stuff worse. I have to just sit for
#days having a mind battle like 'okay yes we're having these problems.. but we can still like.. do SOMETHING right? we could like.. write
#or draw. or things that don't take much energy'' and brain is just like NO!!! WE CANT!!! BECAUSE!! THING IS WEIRD!!!' and it's like okay
#but thing is going to be weird. there's nothing we can do about thing being weird right now. so we should just focus on something else
#'NO!! CANNOT TUNE OUT THING BEING WEIRD!! lets just fixate on it instead and wander aimlessly from thing to thing never able
#to fully focus on any other task. hee hee''. anyway. hhghh.. sometimes I just get tired of having Various Ailments at any given time
#especially unexplained ones or weird recurring problems that doctors haven't done much about because then it lends to paranoia like
#'what if something is seriously wrong but I just dont know it yet?' which could be the case. I mean hopefully not. but I just hate stuff
#being unexplained. because if there's no clear answer then the answer could be anything. even somehting bad. *** :V
#ANYWAY gghhb... just bothered at the moment. I was going to come here like 'hey maybe I could post some drafts or pictures or something that
#could feel productive!' but.. i dont feel like it. i dont care. too focused on Bad Feeling. just going to complain instead lol
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