Memoir
After a certain hour buildings don’t make sense.
Lights from across the street
resemble nothing, my footsteps
knocking on uneven stones, not bothered
by their own discordant melody. I would see
different people in different rooms,
hunched over desks or gazing out at traffic,
a phone nestled in the carapace
of an ear, mouths
shaping words that have no meaning
other than the small importances we give them.
To see my life before me
would be to know the end of fear. Walking home
on damp pockets of road, every lane
drenched in its indifferent perfume
of rain and dirt, I could be so smug
as to find comfort disconcerting,
catching glimpses of whole,
unharvested years
quietly burning in the shadows of a life
still running its race for relevance.
Somewhere in the middle
there is adventure, maybe even love,
and on nights when everyone leaves early
my body aches with an inertia
of past indulgences.
What now? Only a record of
undeserved kindnesses: a casual nod
from the cafeteria waiter, an overladen sky
keeping from release, new interns
grinning in a glass elevator,
things that wait for the night to end.
-- jerrold yam
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Memoir
After a certain hour buildings don’t make sense.
Lights from across the street
resemble nothing, my footsteps
knocking on uneven stones, not bothered
by their own discordant melody. I would see
different people in different rooms,
hunched over desks or gazing out at traffic,
a phone nestled in the carapace
of an ear, mouths
shaping words that have no meaning
other than the small importances we give them.
To see my life before me
would be to know the end of fear. Walking home
on damp pockets of road, every lane
drenched in its indifferent perfume
of rain and dirt, I could be so smug
as to find comfort disconcerting,
catching glimpses of whole,
unharvested years
quietly burning in the shadows of a life
still running its race for relevance.
Somewhere in the middle
there is adventure, maybe even love,
and on nights when everyone leaves early
my body aches with an inertia
of past indulgences.
What now? Only a record of
undeserved kindnesses: a casual nod
from the cafeteria waiter, an overladen sky
keeping from release, new interns
grinning in a glass elevator,
things that wait for the night to end.
Jerrold Yam
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TRINITY
When she feels one isn’t enough for bargaining,
or if the task is so wildly magnificent she
assumes independence to be insincerity,
my sister and I troop to her room, back-up soldiers,
kneeling together on the bed where her
body perseveres, lifeless, at night. The words
come unnatural to me, tiredly graveling
over my mouth, each vowel
hardened from the clay of my lips, as if
painfully sculptured for the air to receive. Then
it is my sister’s turn, sounds pouring
off her light, cavernous body and
off the largesse of her youthful heart as
easy as talent. I wonder what
makes her so genuine in the face of people,
even the ones we live with, or
especially the ones who have brought us
violently into this world. I seek
out her tiny, iridescent
paper heart, like pure crystal, and
press it to mine as my forehead now lies
seared to the thumbs of my clenched hands. When my
mother speaks, her voice easing off
to surround us whole, all I see in the mineral dark
is a three-pointed star, a diadem
of faith, made with pliable metal
limbs of mother, sister, self,
our heads pointing like compasses to the hollowed
core of a soul, of souls that
ache after a family.
JERROLD YAM
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Symbal Magazine Giveaway: Jerrold Yam's Chasing Curtained Suns and Scattered Vertebrae
Symbal Magazine, the official NUS publication is giving away a signed copy of Jerrold Yam's Chasing Curtained Suns and Scattered Vertebrae, in conjunction with an upcoming dialogue with the author.
Born in 1991, Jerrold Yam is a law undergraduate at University College London and the youngest Singaporean to have published two full-length poetry collections, Scattered Vertebrae (Math Paper Press, 2013) and Chasing Curtained Suns (Math Paper Press, 2012). His third collection is forthcoming in early 2014. (http://jerroldyam.wordpress.com/)
To enter, visit Symbal Magazine. Giveaway ends 20th August.
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Geyser by Jerrold Yam
Jerrold Yam captivated us with this descriptive poem. Enjoy!
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Geyser
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Few things sadder
than your inconsistencies.
First, a quandary of rocks
scattered in jest, each smeared
with their own handwriting.
Second, no place to call
a sanctuary, no one there
without taking you
for granted. Third, an occasional
burst of remonstrance to show
you are alive, buried
in melancholic soil. Anything
that is beaten is impressive
while it lasts.
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Born in 1991, Jerrold Yam is a UCL law undergraduate and the author of Scattered Vertebrae (2013) and Chasing Curtained Suns (2012). His poems appear in more than fifty journals and anthologies worldwide. He is the youngest Singaporean to be nominated for the Pushcart Prize.
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Fences by Jerrold Yam
So I was back in my room, heaters
tingling with responsibility, and I
could hear someone fighting with
somebody she loved, over the phone,
perhaps that boy who mailed me
greetings of sheepish glances each
time I caught him leaving her room.
Two months ago I would never have
recognized her voice, how adamantly
it rebelled against the walls to dump
stories on me at three in the morning.
If I knocked, there was a chance I’d
see her naked and in tears. So I didn’t.
But there was enough suspicion that
we had too much in common, the way
siblings would hate to acknowledge;
maybe she too had closets plugged
with cardigans and colourful socks,
or two pillows embroidered with
syrup from fertile strangers. One day
I realized I couldn’t read the footsteps
of my neighbours, each burdened by
their own private histories, the carpet
sometimes thumping hysterically at
wee hours. Surely they left kettles
to singlehandedly battle the cold.
Surely our lives were accelerating
with purpose, encased in sacs of
concrete rind, heaters pumping
contrapuntal secrets, the winter air
not bothered by anything in sight.
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Lanterns are exaggerated faces. Be quick
to judge but slow in remonstrance. See
the fruit bowl stepping into a
trompe l'oeil?
Follow its lead. Stub your pencil out.
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from "PICASSO II" by Jerrold Yam
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Acquaintance // Jerrold Yam
Sometimes, when the earth prepares for rain, I think
of having a child. Like me
it shall not know, gathering life at another’s expense
as cloud from lake, how cells become matter,
how generously it lowers into being. And on nights
when the weight of achievement bears
down on its furs and wires, the cord
like a ladder tucked away to keep
from tripping, it may recognize who
seeks behind grace, patient plougher
sifting a harvest of arteries. No prize on earth
will be equal to dust. Turning,
its soil is renewed, bone panelled like oak
and pliant walnut, seconds before birth
he holds it, in love’s toothed harrows, and runs.
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