I thought I grew out of my I-need-to-apologise-for-posting-so-rarely emo phase, but it seems I didn't, so here I am and my excuses!

As a bonus, if you scroll below, you'll get to hear me venting about my artistic skills and laziness! (the conclusion is positive though)

Bonus vent!

I've been regularly drawing and posting my works on the internet since 2015, and all this time I've only been messing around, desperately avoiding actually studying what I'm drawing, which, uh, led to lots of complexes I have today! (art-wise). It's really hard to force myself to learn, partly because feeling how little I actually know and can draw is frustrating as hell. I keep thinking about how much better I would've been had I started studying earlier, and how far behind I am other people who weren't as lazy as me, etc etc... On top of that, self-studying requires time-management skills and self-control, which I don't have, so I'm really moving at a snail's pace here.

Don't get the wrong impression btw, even though I'm being so critical of myself, I'm still kinda trying to show myself in a better light, meaning I probably do even less than you think. :DD And, as much as I don't want to admit it, I'm trying to manipulate you into giving me compliments and encouragement (...which all artists do, I think? My envy for other artists alienated me from the art community so I don't know what's normal anymore lol)

As a conclusion for this post, I tried to write some encouraging advice for people who feel a similar way, but it ended up being soaked in my own inferiority complex, so the only advice I can give you is: don't listen to me. And be mindful when you listen to other sad artists. But do listen to the kind art teachers on youtube who want you to enjoy every second you spend drawing, who want you to take your time, to see art as your freedom and to let it make you a happy person