you are not gonna be able to guess what lucky circumstances I managed to accidentally get myself into this time lmao I secured myself a spot at a nude drawing class without even knowing it was a nude drawing class. it’s absolutely fantastic tho! the class is usually super popular and spots are hard to get so I was really lucky

Hello hello!!

So an update!! I know this probably pointless lol considering how often I’d be like oh yeah I’m coming back!! and then I don’t or I do but very briefly. But I’ve been thinking on how exactly I want to approach this since I have been away longer than I wanted to and have left quite a few people on read..

I think I’m at a point where I’m just permanently socially exhausted. Well not permanently as in forever, but just until I can really get a lot of personal stuff worked on. And well.. my social exhaustion is the biggest reason why I tend to avoid this site now despite really and I mean REALLY wanting to be active. In fact, I still pop on to like posts every now and then. I’ve got stuff dated back from August that I really need to reblog!!! So I think what I want to try to do is make it clear that I’m just not available much anymore for talking. And try to keep it on the low. Due to that toxic friendship I had, its left me to the point that even just simply seeing the fact that I got a message can stress me out. I know its not that person anymore since we no longer have contact with each other, but the memories of it, the experience of it all, rushes back to me. And then I feel guilty if I’m active but not responding (since lots of times I’ve noticed, I get spammed with messages if I’m active by a bunch of people and then I get drained like immediately and then I avoid the site and then the guilt builds back up... ah!). So again, I think I’m gonna have to put up some boundaries in regards to talking to people because my social exhaustion sucks in so many ways lol even more so with how crazy these last few months has been for me on a personal level :(

But as for being active. If I find myself disappearing but saving up likes to reblog, I’m gonna try not to spam so badly (if its a big build up anyways). I think either tonight or just sometime this week, I’m gonna go and finally reblog some of the older posts in my likes and then wait a few days or something before I do it again. Once I’m caught up, I’ll try to return to normal activity or something idk

Also for my art.. I’ve been feeling better about it but I haven’t really gotten anywhere in the improvement department yet. I might start drawing again since lately, I’ve been dying to do something (tho I’ve gotta be careful now ‘cause I’ve got carpal tunnel lol) but I think for the time being, I’ll be deleting my art blog. With how little I’ll be posting, I just don’t see a point in having one (plus right now that blog has embarrassing ranting posts so since I’m still paranoid about a glitch that would delete all my blogs if I delete one, I’m gonna wait until tomorrow or later this week to delete it lol). If I do post art, it’ll just be on here or my cartoon blog or something idk. But yeah an update. I still love this site and I miss it immensely and twitter is just a cesspool where its hard to find good people or even content of some series. So I’m trying to make a comeback!!

(also I’ll be posting a more summarized version of this post on my cartoon blog since I know I have different followers there. so if you already read this, you can ignore the post there to lol)