just searching my gg grandmothers name on Facebook bc I was bored made me realize the amount of family in the tribe I actually have…. incredibly bittersweet

not to mention two of her works (she was a master basket weaver) which I’m so happy to even just see pictures of

Temporary house for a cat needed ASAP

Hey guys, so I moved down to Merced for school and was not able to take my cat with me. He was staying with my grandparents and my brother, but unfortunately, he is getting evicted (message me for more information on that). My apartment does not allow pets and I could get in serious trouble with my school and landlord if I get caught, so living with me is my last resort. I will be hoping to live off campus without being tied to the school (i’m in on-off campus housing) by the end of the school year, so May of next year. I would be able to take him back then. So about my fat boy:

His name is Helo (he-low)

He’s a boy obviously

He is 10 years old, birthday February 1st!

He’s neutered so he won’t be knocking any female kitties anytime.

He loves to go outside, so he will mostly be out all day if you let him.

He goes potty outside so you would not need a litter box, unless you want one for backup then I can buy one! He will probably sit by the door to go outside though if he has to go potty.

He likes to drink water from the faucet so he will probably jump up on the bathroom sink. This is probably gonna be a hard habit to kick so if you’re not okay with that just shoo him off.

He’s fat....he loves food....

He has a resting bitch face, I promise he’s not mean muggin you that’s just his face.

He loves cuddles and sleep.

He is alright with dogs and children, probably just run away from them or want to go outside.

I will pay for every vet visit, he needs to go back in December for shots.

Okay, outside. That’s the issue. He needs to stay at a house/apartment that allows him to go outside. Can’t be an area with big animals that will eat him please (coyotes, mountain lions, etc.)! And preferably not by any busy streets, he’s smart but I don’t want to take that risk. Don’t necessarily need a yard, he just likes to be outside, but great if there’s grass somewhere. 

Okay, so he’s been living at a house for the past year and a half where he can’t go outside when he wants, so he’s been having pee accidents cause he’s not happy. I strongly believe that will stop if he can live at a place where he has the ability to go outside when he wants. 

This is for California residents, hopefully in Norcal but if someone is willing to foster him in Socal I am down to drive. Please message me if you’re interested or have any advice. Even a reblog is helpful. Under the cut are pictures of my gordito.

Saltiness

It’s pretty boring at work right now. I get headaches from looking at my computer screen too long and my butt hurts from sitting too long. I’m currently listening to Jimmy O Yang’s book How to American as some type of entertainment. Been also checking out podcasts from Asian Boss Girl. I learned that Phillip Wang from WongFu production is in a long term relationship and his girlfriend is part of the ABG trio haha. A lot of the Asian influencers/youtubers/entertainers are collaborating and I’m happy to see more Asian American representation in our media. 

Current projects:

-          Crocheting a pillow. My coworker (40s) crochets and has done a few complicated projects (baby clothes set, stuffed animals, etc). I’ve been looking for hobbies to fill my free time and was inspired by her. For a bit, I thought that I should be picking up more “useful” skills and thought of dropping the crochet idea. But then, I wanted to buy some decorative pillows to match the feel of my new room and thought- why not make my own? I want to crochet a pillow or beanie for Matt, as a healthy way to cope when I’m missing him. I also think I’m more meticulous and create nicer things when I intend to gift the item. It’s day 2 of crocheting and I’m 1/3 of the way complete with a pillow using single crocheting techniques. Once I feel comfortable with making consistent stitches by single crocheting, I can move onto more complicated designs.

-          My room is currently a work in progress. I got rid of the furniture I didn’t want. Next is to purchase a new mattress- the one I have right now is comfortable, but I think it’s more than 15 years old and I’d like it to be more firm.

-          Cleaning out the entire house

-          Hiring people to paint the living room and kitchen and revamping the living room. There is way too much junk. I was extremely tired after I painted my room myself and didn’t want to go through that again lol.

Trips:

-          I booked an entire house in Morro Bay for a family trip to Hearst Castle. There will be around 12 of us. It should be fun. J

-          Mid-September – Hopefully will be in NY!

-          End of October-Early November – London/Madrid

Socializing: I am going to happy hour tomorrow with some work friends and extended work friends to celebrate a birthday. Next week is my other work friend’s birthday so that should be nice too. I met a Teochew girl who works across the hall from me and is a fund manager. She is the same age as well- mom is from Cambodia and dad is from Vietnam. We got lunch once so far and sitting/eating with her felt pretty comfortable. We’re both shy but we understand each other because of similar backgrounds. I was the one who initiated the lunch- I was telling Matt how I felt like a guy asking a girl out. When she took long to respond to my email invite, I was slightly becoming anxious haha. She texted me a picture of a bottled drink from trader joes that I had recommended to her and said she’s trying it. I felt happy about that, because the majority of work friends (at least for me) don’t make it past surface level friendship. Making new friends really does feel like dating sometimes lol.

Lately, I’ve been feeling weird about my friendship with B. I’ve been friends with her for about a decade now as we met in high school. I think the majority of our friendship, I have been the therapist for her relationship problems. I liked feeling needed and enjoyed helping her out through tough times. She really liked that I was a rock and always there for her. I thought she was always there for me too and was dependable for the most part when I needed it. She broke up with her last boyfriend a few months ago and decided to “be single for a year”. This was the first time she made this type of statement. However, she is dating around a lot, for the fun of it I guess. She would tell guys her feelings although it is clear they do not want a relationship and she said she doesn’t want a relationship either. She goes through men quickly and becomes enamored quite quickly. We hung out a few weekends ago for hiking and I was pretty upset at the way she handled things. Initially, it was supposed to be a hangout with me and her. She suggested hiking. I asked if my friend Stephanie (who she is semi friends with) can come along, and she agreed. Then B made an entire facebook event out of this hiking event and invited 10 other people without asking me first. So I was like okay. The day before the hike, nothing was really confirmed about the time, meeting location, plans to hang out after, carpool situation etc. I had to follow up with her a few times during the week but would get submissive responses. And I’ll think, I didn’t even invite these people, and yet I’m doing the work of planning it and making sure things run smoothly -__-. Anyway, the day before, she tells me P is sick so she won’t be coming along, and says A and M are meeting at my house at 8. She also asks me the day before if she can sleep over at my house – to which I said sure, that would make organizing way easier. However, she changed plans saying that she will sleepover at her parents house because she invited her mom and sister and they’ll be joining as well. Well, the next morning, she tells me she slept over at her dates house and will be late- that she will go pick them up on the other side of town then come over. I woke up at a little before 8 because I was expecting people to show up at my house. One dropped out morning of, the other didn’t respond to any messages or calls. So I was like great… Then B was running 1.5 hours late or so, and I told her I’m not feeling it anymore. She comes to my house anyway! And she didn’t end up going to get her mom or sis because the sis didn’t pick up the phone/was still sleeping… I asked, well did you tell her a time? She couldn’t recall. So basically, of everyone she invited, none came through. I was pretty upset with her that day, one because I felt she was inconsiderate, and two because she still showed up even though I said I wasn’t feeling it anymore. That day, i drove us all the way to Malibu (that was the original plan, and I didn’t want to back out of doing that), and got myself a parking ticket because I parked next to a fire hydrant unknowingly.

After that day, I was and am still kinda salty about that. However, I treated her out for her birthday and made sure she had company (which doesn’t really matter because she had a date later that night). She left for a two week study abroad trip to Scotland two weeks ago. Maybe 3-4 days before that, our mutual friend (more so my friend) asked about a DVD that I had lent to B. I messaged her to see if she could look for it before leaving on her trip and preferably asap, before she leaves. “I’ll look for it asap” she said and I never heard back even after I sent a reminder. Her Taiwanese ex whom she was with for 2 years used to complain about her to me when they were fighting. I read through his vents recently and now I’m starting to see that side of her. Basically, she cares about her happiness above anything and she’s not very aware or considerate about how her actions affect the people who she seemingly loves or cares about. Selfish behavior but is very sweet and nice to her friends. I remember when she first got her bunny, Leo. Her and her ex were raising him. She used to say, I love Leo so much, he makes me so happy etc. However, one time, she was flying out to norcal and was in the process of moving out of her apartment and left Leo there in the emptied apartment. The landlord had to message her to get Leo out. Because she was pressed for time (bad time management, really), she called me to try to save the situation… “Connie, can you take care of Leo”. I said no. So what did she do? Leave Leo in the car for a day and a half as she made her way to the airport. Luckily he survived but that is not cool and kinda reflects how she is able to treat those that she “loves”. They say people come and go, and I’d be sad if she really does exit out of my life as I’m pretty integrated into her family as her “best friend”. I don’t know.

Wed NOV 20

Hi crew!

Today was nice solo day of tiding and blessin scarves. I cleaned the vaccum filter bag and shes purrin again.  Very few people came through with the rain. The shop fared very well -- but please pull the back rug out of the back storage to get some sun tomorrow I left it out. Whoops!

There is another bin of scarves ready to be knotted and measured. The Bordeaux are all knotted but I didn’t get to laying them out and measuring / checking the inventory. They are mostly lights.

It goes without saying but we need to have a big inventory count day - and will need someone to go to storage asap with the list. Let’s schedule an overlap shift and crush that with Tori. She wasn’t in today.

M went over the children’s book shelf display with me again -the feedback we have to keep a more keen eye on that shelf. It was overstocked with books we have a lot of and it had books that we only have two of. When training new staff lets make sure they get it too. 4-5 book max is the general rule, it’s about the psychology of making it appear like a best seller, easy to grab. When a title is down to 1-2 we have to move it to the suitcase or ladders. 

Additionally we spoke about the right way to back stock the closet so he can know what to reorder when.. It’s much better now so maybe we should take a picture for our SOP . I know for me it’s something that I don’t necessarily do right the first time when we rec so many books and new products, so it was on me to go back and fix it or pass the task.

HOLIDAY REORDERS:

Yeppie cards came in hope you guys like what I ordered for the holidays -- we totally have time to place another order if we think we need more!! Please barcode and take pics of new cards / cards that are missing pics. Thanks!

sage and copal are coming in any day too.

Megan is going to try and send us more glass art pieces but she is in NORcal now looking for a studio to crush out of...

We should inquire with Andrea to schedule her for an overlap shift when she can meet with Maddalena to place a reorder of her new line its gorgeous - check out her website!

Looking forward to having dinner with you all tomorrow evening!!

Cheers,

Kath

Sober October Day 3 & 4

Day 3 went OK. I had a good morning training session but I was just full of anxiety the rest of the day.. or maybe I shouldn’t call it that because it’s not that I was anxious in a worried-sense but like the physical feeling I call anxiety. There has to be a word for it. Just a sense of discomfort I guess. Josie asked me to paint so she came over and I made my first acrylic painting. I actually kind of like it I’ll post it after this. But the whole time she was over I felt uneasy. Not that it was her but I just couldn’t shake this feeling. Didn’t go train at night instead I went to the beach with Steven Yi and Trevor. In hindsight it was fun but I still felt pretty uncomfortable the whole time. I just wanted to be home and make music. We hit a couple of bars and it was OK but I don’t think I would do it again. All I wanted to do was play the music in the car. I was watching people having fun and drinking and even today Joe and Francis had a couple of drinks and I was thinking about the way I would never really drink with Susan.. only if I felt a social pressure from other members of the house or my friends. I see now how it must’ve sucked for her. Maybe it made her feel unimportant? Or like I didn’t want to have fun with her? But I guess I shouldn’t dwell too much. I think maybe I’ll start drinking for family and friend events after this month. I had quite a bit to drink at Joe’s bbq last month and it was pretty fun, I was just slumped. But yeah point is I couldn’t shake this feeling. And then today Lisa told me Susan was back in town before she left to Hawaii, and at first I thought wow maybe I felt it y’know? I found the skirt she’s been missing (the day before), and I considered texting her about it but I talked myself out of it. Kinda funny though how those things lined up. And the feeling I had too. But today I went to Fowler’s Museum at UCLA with Steven Joe Francis Lisa and Keenan and it was pretty cool. Walked around south coast plaza (I think?) Ate Din Tai Fung. The mall reminded me of UTC. I thought about how I used to enjoy going to the mall with her but then at some point I started to just feel uncomfortable and began to not like it. I can remember walking around and looking at things with her, and also at some point shifting to “the boyfriend” who’s just sitting and waiting on his phone. Dumb. But anyways after that we saw Joker and honestly I wanted to go home but I don’t regret it, it was fun to spend time with everyone and see the movie. The delusions that the Joker had in the movie made me rethink the whole idea of this “feeling” I have/have had about me and Susan. It made me feel like a creep kind of if I’m being honest. Like maybe I’m just delusional. I rethink some of the things I’ve said about her to my friends, esp to Lisa and my mom, and I wonder if I seem crazy? I thought I was pretty level headed about it but the movie fucked it up for me. Idk. At the same time it’s a funny coincidence y’know? I find the skirt, talk myself out of reaching out, feel like shit the next day in my gut only to find out that she was in the area. I mean I do feel like I know what I’m talking about but the movie put a grain of skepticism in my head. but whatever. Maybe I’ll tell her about the skirt when she gets back. Lisa told me Susan isn’t really sad “yet” (if it will ever come) and that made me kind of sad at first but that’s the selfish reaction. The selfish desire is that maybe she’ll miss me at some point and give me a chance buuuut honestly it’s good that she isn’t feeling bad. Maybe a bit numb but not negative. Idk. Even if I had a shot I’m still in full bum mode!!! Nobody wants that shit. Gotta get a job ASAP. Only the Amazon delivery spot responded to me so I’ll call them on Monday. Feels weird to let my thoughts out more because usually I’d keep all of this in my head but yeah ANYWAYS the point is Day 3 and Day 4 have gone pretty well. There was a cycle of “oh fuck I don’t wanna be here” to “ok it’s not so bad” to “ok it was fun in the end but I think I realized I should just stay home and not feel obligated to go out”. So today (Sunday) I’ll just chill and clean. Organize my room and make at least a song. It’s 3:19 as fuck rn. Definitely need to work on sleeping earlier still. At least this is kind of productive.. or so I tell myself. I have a tournament in 13 days so that’s exciting at least. Might fuck around and drive to NorCal for WSOJJ as well. But I won’t have a coach out there. Idk. I can think about it some other time. Getting hungry rn so I’m gonna make a lil casein shake and sleep. 

about me game

I was tagged by @paulsons <3 yay!

Were you named after anyone?


Nope

When was the last time you cried?


Five minutes again when I️ finished the book Little Fires Everywhere. Why did Mia have to leave!!!

Do you like your handwriting?


It’s the worst!!!! It’s small and scratchy and looks like a first graders.

What’s your favorite lunch meat?


Salami

Do you have kids?


Let’s all be thankful the answer to this question is a no.

If you were a different person, would you be friends with you?


Duh

Do you still have your tonsils?


No. One of my first memories was being on the hospital to get them removed.

Would you bungee jump?


Oh god I️ probably wouldn’t want to and then I’d make myself jump anyways to prove something to myself.

What’s your favorite cereal?


Special K

Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?


People do that????!

Do you think you are a strong person?


Yes.

What’s your favorite ice cream flavor?


Peanut Butter Cup and Half Baked and Mint Chip and Coffee

What’s the first thing you notice about people?


How they present themselves. Body language.

Do you use sarcasm?


Too much so.

What’s your least favorite physical thing about yourself?


All my cowlicks because it makes doing my hair ten times more stressful than it needs to be.

What color pants and shoes are you wearing right now?


Black and brown.

What are you listening to right now?


Nothing :((

If you were a crayon, what color would you be?


This question is too abstract for me.

Favorite smell?


A campfire

Who was the last person you talked on the phone with?


My mom

Favorite sport to watch?


Tennis. Team Federer 🇨🇭

Hair color?


Dirty Blonde

Eye color?


Blue

Do you wear contacts?


No

Favorite food?


Tamales

Scary movie or comedy?


Comedy

Last movie you watched?


Citizen Kane

What color shirt are you wearing?


Gray

Summer or winter?


Fall and Spring.

Hugs or kisses?


Hugs

Book you’re currently reading? 


I️ just finished my book now I’m lost I️ don’t know what’s next!!! send suggestions asap

Who do you miss right now?


My college friends and Dana and Thelma and my family in Sacramento and my sister in Tanzania

What’s on your mouse pad?


A picture of me with my cousin and my aunt Margie. They gave it to me six years ago when I️ left for undergrad.

What’s the last TV program you watched?


The Mary Tyler Moore Show

What’s the best sound?


A teacher saying class is cancelled

Rolling Stones or The Beatles?


Rolling Stones

What’s the furthest you ever traveled?

Argentina first and then Germany

Do you have a special talent?


I️ can carry a tray in one hand and plates in the other?

Where were you born?


NorCal

everyone who made it to the end of this list is tagged ;)