#I hope she'll get the happiness she deserves soon ππππ
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Slumber Island takes my breath away with every new chapter... and it's so good!
I still have so many questions and I can't wait to get more answers...I try to stay patient π
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Poor y/n, the horrible nightmare came back after she and Loki had this wonderful intimacy, it makes me so sad. But unfortunately what was done to her through her "friend" won't heal overnight.
"You considered him a friend, he promised to take care of you, then why was he hurting you"
This is not a friend, this a monster and he did something that is worse than murder: to rape her multiple times is a horrible crime and he condemned her to live with it. She needs not only to heal, she needs justice too. Fortunately Loki is there for her and I'm sure with time she's able to heal and close this case one day.
I have the bad feeling that this monster is going to show up again...and talking about justice for y/n, hopefully Loki can give her the strength to fight for her own and to fight this battle...she has to because only then she can feel strong, confident and self-determined again. Loki will give her the feeling of safety to do so (and I hope he won't let this "friend" go unharmed). She's really blessed with him π
Her wake-up status is absolutely understandable but it also made me very sad...for both of them. In her status she just wasn't able to show him a different reaction, she thought it's him and not Loki.
Loki treats her always with understanding and compassion... it really touches my heart every time...he's unbelievable and to good to be true. How can I not love him π₯Ίπ₯Ί
"Darling listen..." he got off the couch in an attempt to comfort you but it only scared you more. He will hurt you. You didn't want him to hurt you anymore.
"...I'm begging you, just goooooo" his eyes teared up as he looked at your broken state.....maybe what happened last night triggered something... he wanted to comfort you, he really did but knew better than that so he vanished..."
How she clutched the shawlπ₯Ί... she wanted Loki around her but at the same time she wasn't able to see what was still the aftermath of the nightmare and what was reality.
....you were far away from that place and that monster, he would never harm you again, Loki would protect you lik-. As soon you thought about him you felt immense guilt and regret....you treated him as if he was the one who had hurt you.
I get it but she shouldn't feel guilty... Loki understood her, he would never blame her for her behaviour. He knew what triggered her.
...why was he even tolerating you? Would he even want to see you again? He didn't deserve that treatment after the night you both had shared.
"I'm sorry...I never wanted to hurt you...I'm sorry "
Loki wasn't any better, he heard you apologising and his heart only broke into tiny little pieces...he wanted to hold and to comfort you but he didn't want to hurt you or scare you even more...
This made me cry, it's so sad ππ. But there's hope she'll make it, overcoming her trauma and being together with Loki...
"I can't...I don't want us to...get intimate again"....but he understood your stance...
It wasn't that you didn't want to do it, you wanted it all and you wanted it again but he didn't deserve to be treated how you treated him this morning. And you knew it would happen again. You'd never be undamaged again.
I'm sobbing π π’ π€§. She wants him to do the opposite of what she really wants. I'm happy that he sensed the truth behind her words...and how respectfully he is again.
...as much as he wanted to read your thoughts and learn your actual reasons behind the decision you had taken, he knew better, it would have been unethical.... your mind was the one thing you had under control and he didn't want to take that away from you or break your faith you had in him.
"And it's alright...I'm still going to be here however you need me sweetheart "
He always let her be in charge, she makes the rules, he's so selfless, supportive and protective...how much I love him for that.
Yes, she will make one step forward and then two steps back, it's a long process but everything will be fine one day. She will be able to close that door.
I need to add some more of my favourite parts because they touched me deeply:
...since you had seen him last, the angrier you felt with yourself. You missed him desperately, you missed his touch.
...but Loki has been so good to you that last night you forgot everything but him, the intimacy and the sexual nature of the act you performed on him didn't feel suffocating, it didn't make you feel violated, it felt liberating instead. (!!!!)
You were able to replace those awful feelings with his touch, with his sounds and with his scent then, you thought you had taken a step forward but everything was still the same now. You'd never heal.
Little did she know or I should say, realise. She already made big steps forward, she needs some more time, the healing process includes partial setbacks, and her strategy how to get over her past is very good. And she's well aware of her growing feelings for Loki. On the one hand she feels humiliated by her act that morning and on the other hand she wants nothing more than his arms wrapped around her.
...what are you feeling? It can't be love, right? It sure can't be. He was a god for god's sake. You can't be in love with a god.
And again in the night he and his house are there ... her light in the darkness, he'll never let her alone, he promised it. Both need each other so much but its not the right time in that night. I can't stop thinking about Loki's punishment getting longer with every time he stays with or around y/n π₯Ί
Now let's talk about Nat's birthday party. Her eyes teared up when y/n gave her the apple pie so she was touched by this gesture and remembered former times...π. But so many things are fishy...does she know about the poisoned drinks and food (it's so good that Loki is there and made everthing safe for y/n)? Can we trust her? Why is she playing along with this cruel game? Would there be consequences for her when she won't do it? Why does she wear jewellery, dressed up like a...queen? It seems to me she wanted to say something and wanted to behave differently but isn't allowed to do so ππ€. It seems like Clint and Bruce have some kind of power over her.
Talking about playing games... I like how y/n is playing games with Steve.
"Oh the cheater right?" You looked at him as he said that, you remembered telling him that the last time you were here....
"Wait how did you know that? I have never told you about him being a cheater" you watched him go pale as a ghost...
She also plays her cards right during the dinner (thankfully with Loki's help)...and what is it about Bruce? Can I punch him in his face pretty please? Soo bad for him that his or the plan, to poison y/n, doesn't work...(*sarcasm off*) ππ
But why do they still want to poison her? To make all plans (whatever these plans are...sacrificing y/n) work now?
For me it felt like I had seen a different y/n at the party. Still scared but also confident. And I like to see it.
I'm still wondering about this:
Why a birthday party when it isn't Nat's birthday...or did they celebrate the anniversary of the day when she survived and was ...reborn?(a second birthday so to say)
....you had to find out why he was so scared of the house, Minola was they reason you knew that but why? Even Loki haven't told you the complete truth just yet.
The woman y/n had seen before on the market and who served the food at the party, Marjorie, Bruce's wife with the judgemental glare in her eyes, the uncomfortable silence when y/n wondered about why Phil wasn't invited, everyone looking at her but also at least one person averting their gaze...everything here is spooky.
I'm so glad that Loki is always by her side to save her.(I really love the imagination of him looking like a supermodel ππ...it has to be this gif π
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It's so cute how she's concerned about Loki. Did he eat, was he okay, was he missing her as much as she was missing him...of course she has fallen in love with him...and how could she not?
He wasn't attainable, it was impossible ... time will tell...
What is the most important thing in a relationship, no matter if it's an established or a new one? To talk to each other and I'm glad that they talked after the party. And I expected nothing else than exactly this reaction from Loki.
"Hurting me darling? You felt terrified when you woke up...I knew something would prompt that reaction after the night we shared" his face warmed at the imagery, and so did yours, it was a beautiful night.
Aahhh, why are they so cute, and she already made little steps into the right direction π₯Ίππ
"...don't give that wretched scamp such a power darling.....Those wounds would take time to heal. It's never that easy now is it?"
"But I don't want to disrespect you like that again and again..I don't want to annoy you or make you leave..I need you "
"Oh sweetheart, you did nothing of that sort you could never annoy me....I am not leaving, not going anywhere not unless you want me to.."
...he was there for you. No questions asked, no conditions imposed, he was just there, selflessly and wholeheartedly
Well, I'm crying again now π₯Ίπ₯Ίππππ...I can't handle so much sweetness and love πππππ
π...they're too cute together.
She isn't damaged forever, again she tried to turn a bad memory into a good one, to replace it with a further intimate situation with Loki... she wanted him on top of her, shirtless π³π³...WHAT A BIG STEP FOWARD...it's the worst situation for her she could ever imagine and she thought she could never do this again...and look at her...she can...with Loki everything seems to be possible for her because he gives her safety, trust and consent.
"Every time you feel scared or lonely in life, just remember that you have me darling, you have a god who'd never allow anyone to touch you ever again, not without your consent. I would never let anyone harm you and I promise you that my sweet sweet princess "
Those shiny orbs looked at you with such sincerety, there wasn't an ounce of malice or fakeness in them, he was so pure and he was your god.
Queen, what are you doing to me? I'm going to die...π³π₯Ίπ₯°ππ€π»β°οΈπ€£
And at least, the cherry π on top:
You weren't pondering over whether you were in love with him or not, there weren't any doubts or confusions anymore.
Attainable or not, you knew you had fallen for a certain god, madly and truly.
Yep, that's right, my pretty god...little me in Germany...I'm dead π΅π
You did it again, Queen, an amazing, wonderful chapter, everytime you put me on a rollercoaster of emotions π’ again and again...and I'm here for it π₯°. Can't wait for the next chapter.
I love you sooooo very much, my Queen π...and sorry for this much too long comment but I can't help myself, I had to do it ππ
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I am deceased. Reason? This ask. I love how you are able to see the little things I put in there π₯Ήβ€οΈ
The monster got out unscathed and it's also one of the reasons she's unable to move on, she got no justice, the hospital tried to prove she was insane after that ordeal, then her mother died, it' was just too much at once, she tried to move on by coming to this place and then that happened π€
Thankfully she have someone she can trust fully
This y/n has lost a huge part of herself after she got cheated on and the accident, she can be bold and sexy, she just doesn't feel the confidence anymore, hopefully a certain god can help. Next chapter we will see a different side to both of them π
The way Loki is just there for her also makes her feel as if he has to be there and help her, she thinks he's doing it just as a favour..being a benevolent god and all, she doesn't think he's into her like she's into him.
That was a huge step for her and much needed too because the intimacy cant grow deeper and further if she's not able to replace that horrible mental image that keeps haunting her.
Natasha is being very weird but why? We will find out soon π
You're the queen of accurate gifs π€£ the last one is my favourite though π€ I'm so glad you're enjoying this story so much, you have no idea how happy it makes me ..love you π
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