OK, Im gonna make a new blog to put my dumb oc drawings & posts on, so if thats been something you've at all been interested in, u can follow me over at @evilevilevilevilnotevilevilagain

I have GOT to get myself off of instagram, so im gonna TRY and make a commitment to post on the blog instead when the urge overtakes me.

Also maybe like, share writing & music inspo & just have somewhere to ramble abt ocs/story ideas cus I don't really have anyone to torment with it to such a degree. And unfortunately I just think abt it far too often,,,,

(also was wondering if maybe making a fresh blog would be better than bloating this one w all the super old followers n all that...... wud maybe make me less embarrassed v_v; its cringe when youre an almost 30yo adult doing this silly shit, n theres people seeing it who arent in the same boat,, but its also hard to make it into anything more substantial than just the sillies in my own void..... )

(...so maybe if its a specific space carved out just for that with similarly minded people, itd feel less discouraging...)

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ANNA!!!! anna i miss u 😢😢😢 

real talk tho i do miss talking with you !!! like a lot!!! i know you’re probably so busy with irl stuff and i dont fault you at all for anything, i should be taking the step to reach out to you and i just wanted to say that i love you a lot!!! i consider you one of my friends, and i want you to feel comfortably with reaching out to me if you ever want to or have the time or just whenever yknow!!!

youre such a sweet bean and your company is genuinely enjoyable and i LOVE plotting with you and writing with you!! it’s just a joy and a really all-around good time to spend time with you and just chill, talk and play ykno!!!

i hope next year we can have more opportunities to talk and play together!!! im always here for you and my discord is ALWAYS open and available for you if you ever wanna chat!!! <3333

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tbh i just dont understand how people can like sumhow make friends thru twitter or tumblr??

like im not dissing it. ive been wanting to make friends cuz most of my irl friends arent like gamers or into other stuff as me :( i thought socializing on the internet wud be a lil bit easier but its not.

like, at least a yr ago i decided to join a mc server, ( it was poppin at first but now its ded skskk ) ig i made “mutuals” but idk if they like talking to me or not. idk if they wud consider me as a friend?? like theres this girl where we go on the server sumtimes when something new gets updated. but idk if she enjoys going on with me or likes me. so usually when i want to get on, i dnt message her cause i know shes busy and im also not sure if she likes me. like ig im so afraid of rejection, failure, and being annoying. like ive been on the server and i pretty much still havent made a single friend, ive made mutuals ig but not like , friends :/ like i dont talk to anyone occasionally ykno? like its a rlly sucky feeling,, ive even tried twitter and i have no clue how u do that. and i just wish i cud be normal and not be dumb and annoying and awkward and shy :/