What a performer you are Luke Hemmings

I still can’t believe they went with 5SOS5. Like I don’t hate it. It’s just disappointing. Even though CALM is self titled as well it is a beatiful title imo. 5SOS5 sounds like not a real title.

Okay, now that things have settled in my brain a bit, I think we set ourselves up for disappointment with the analysis and symbolisms here. And look I don't hate 5sos5, I made this last year when we got that little video of them back in the studio.

And I also made this one after the Zack Sang interview.

But like since them with complete mess and all the talk about the creative process and all that we kinda ended up expecting too much. It's the expected name. It's their 5th album. You don't really get that chance many times as artist. They rebranded to go by 5 seconds of summer after a long time with a logo that said just 5sos. 5sos is who they are and they were probably discussing this for way longer than any of can imagine to a point where they felt like it was the right call. Michael did said he wished they hadn't self titled yet to self title this one.

I get the disappointment cuz I too wanted something more. What? I don't know. I'd love to see some of the other names they were considering. But like it's okay.

If this is the last time- Calum Hood

A/N: first 5sos fic! Calum hood x y/n. Y/n’s gender is female for this fic, it just made it easier to write, my apologies to anyone it might upset, but you can always request. based off of If This Is The Last Time by LANY. Feel free to correct any mistakes! i don’t know if anyone will like this, but i do soooo.

https://open.spotify.com/track/3bsRMvQja4huvPWo1S5ONc  

NOT MY GIF

plot: Entries for y/n’s last diary/book.

2077 words. * marks song lyrics 

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y/n’s diary:

(June 8th 2081) There's nothing better than the support of your family, so imagine having been admitted to the hospital and having every person you’ve grown to know as family waiting for you to leave the hospital. We knew it was coming, that one of us would have to go, but we didn’t know who and when. It’s me and soon. I’m not afraid though. My family’s strong, I know they are. Today he told me I looked beautiful, like he has every day of our life together, but it felt different. It was like a reassurance that no matter what, he meant his vows. Everything felt different today, even the simple touch of his hands while he drove me to the hospital.  Especially the way our children said they loved me this morning. I’m ready. There's no point in fighting the cancer, it’s too far along and I'm far too old.

*I know we're gettin' old*

(January 15th 2082) It had begun after the boys last tour, the realization that we were no longer as young as we used to be. Our children started high school and y/s/n starting his own band, following in his father’s footsteps. y/d/n was too, but she had taken the football/soccer approach. They were good at it too. y/s/n having the same beautiful voice as Calum, but preferred the drums. He learned from a young age, he never really stopped admiring his uncle Ash. Which was really Ashton’s fault, almost spoiled him as much as Luke did y/d/n. Luke never got the girl he wanted, so he treated her as if he was one of his own. All the boys did, but Luke was like a second father to her. Which didn’t help with the Cake rumors during touring.

*the lines on our hands have changed, But you still look at me the same*

(September 29th 2082)  My life has been amazing, maybe not from the start, but from the moment I laid my eyes on Calum Hood, the past didn’t matter. Nothing matters, nothing but him. Well until my  children of course...and then my grandchildren. He stood by me for all of it and I love him for it. He promised forever and that's what we got. There's nothing I could ever do to repay him, or at least in my eyes. 

*Hey, mom, guess what? You're really tough.*

(November 15th 2082) This is for my children, I hope you’re reading. I love you, I'll always love you because there’s no way not to. From the moment you were both born to the moment your children were born, I was amazed by the amount of growth possible. I hope one day you’ll have the same joy I did watching your grandchildren being raised by the amazing creatures you created. I hope that one day when you pass, it’ll be surrounded by the ones you love.  Thank you for giving me the opportunity to love you, I don't know what I did to deserve you, but I'm very grateful. 

*And I know you did all you could. Just to make sure my life was good*

(December 25th 2082) It was worth it, all of it. The pain, the tears, the blood. My life is complete.

*Sorry for the fights and the tone of my voice, Sorry for the nights when I made the wrong choice*

(January 1st 2083) Not a lot of people know, but Calum and i’s relationship was almost torn apart when our children were in high school. It had nothing to do with them of course, but life for Cal had been stressful. He had confessed he felt like he had no purpose now that he thought his career was over. Of course it wasn’t true, but he was like a bull in a china shop. After many nights of hushed fighting, y/s/n had gotten into it. He had convinced his father to start therapy and got him into football/soccer again. From then on, y/d/n got him to become her team's coach and he stayed there until retirement, he said he felt complete after retirement. 

*Life is flyin' by and it's hittin' me now. I hope it's not, but*

(January 5th 2083) Sitting here rereading all of my old diaries, has me regretting not taking the course of treatment. I'm gonna miss everyone. That might be hard to believe considering I will no longer be roaming the planet, but everyone means so much to me.

*If this is the last time, please come close*

(January 12th 2083) It's too soon.

*I love you with all my heart, you know. I don't wanna cry, I'm bad at goodbye*

(January 13th 2083) This is my written goodbye for those who I love. 

Michael you’ve always been my best friend. I appreciate you taking me in like you knew me forever, like I was there with you and Calum throughout school. I'm sorry I didn't give you another niece to spoil, I know you wanted one you didn’t have to say it. With everything in me, I hope you're the last one of us here, I trust you the most other than Calum to take care of our families. If you are, I hope I don't tear you apart, we’ll all be up here waiting for you.

Luke, where do i start, i owe you 30 bucks. You always said that I would go before Cal, you were right. Don't worry, no hard feelings, none of us actually expected it so soon. But you better be there when my first great-grandchild is born. Make y/d/n name them after me. I'm just kidding, although…… 

 Ashton, thank you for being the big brother I didn't know I needed. Thank you for loving my family like your own and for taking care of Cal when I couldn't. I’m coming to join you right now, see you soon brother.

Kristal, Sierra, and kay-kay…...Bye my bitches, see you soon. I'm just messing with you, you better keep your stubborn asses on this planet a while more. I'll be taking care of ashton for you kay.

For the fans, who have loved my not so small family, there will be a 5sos reunion waiting for you when you pass, but not too soon.

y/d/n and y/s/n stick together or you grounded. I love you, I already said everything I needed to say to you, take care of my grandchildren.

Now Calum, i don’t think i need to write anything for you, we’ve always been honest with each other. Don’t come see me until you’ve met our great-grandchild, stay there for a while until you have enough memories to share with me. Hold our children tight, i know i won’t get to anymore. Just because I'm leaving doesn’t mean you don’t get to spend more time with me, I'll be watching you. When you join me, we’ll get to spend more decades together, and just like the first time you met me, you won’t be able to get away

*If this is the last time,Then let's do the things we always do,Like go to the mall and buy some shoes*

(January 16th 2083) My last day before I'm on bed rest, for the rest of my life in fact. y/d/n was determined to take everyone in the family to the mall. I didn’t get anything of course, but I did suggest a couple of clothing items for my funeral. My funeral, that’s weird to think about. I did get Calum a pair of shoes though. His feet will not walk in with the raggedy old shoes he loves so much.

*I don't wanna cry, I'm bad at goodbye. If this is the last time*

(January 21st 2083) Here I am, on my deathbed, writing what will probably be my last entry. Calum on the other bed in the room, of course he had it pushed next to mine. “We haven’t slept apart in decades, why start now.” I hope he doesn’t take it hard, but I can feel it coming. I can feel the pull. Watching the monitors and seeing the numbers change drastically. We've been saying goodbyes for a while now. As much as it pains me to say this is my final goodbye. Goodbye.

*Hey, dad, what's up? Miss you so much

Yeah, the shade of your hair has changed

But I look up to you the same*

(March 20th 2085) y/n asked us to turn her diary’s into a book series, we had, this is my continuation of the last one. y/s/n has promised to keep publishing them after i’m gone. He said he knew how much it would mean to his mother. Unfortunately this is my last entry as well. I will be joining y/n soon, i knew i wouldn’t make it long without her, i was right. They say i’ll probably die in my sleep sometime this week. I have our children staying with me, waiting till I go. I already said my goodbyes to our grandchildren and my brothers. My mother has been gone for a while, I can't wait to see her again. Mali wished me luck and said she would see us again. I hope it’s not too soon, I want her to be there while y/s/n and y/d/n grieve a second death. y/n said she wasn’t afraid, i understand now. Anyways, I guess this is goodbye. 

*Taught me how to fish, taught me how to ride a bike*

(July 25th 2086) Hey guys, it’s y/s/n and y/d/n this time. I hope you enjoyed reading mom, and some of dad's writings. I'm not quite passing yet, but my sister and I thought this last book is not quite done yet. We wanted to add our goodbyes to mom and dad as well. Maybe we shouldn’t write it here, but it feels right. We wanted to say thank you to all the fans who have supported our parents for decades, or even the newer ones. So thank you, you made our parents who they were and in return, made us and our families who they are. We love it thank you. So, goodbye dad. It might be a few decades till we see each other, but we are currently teaching my son how to ride his bike, just like you did me all those years ago, thank you for that. y/d/n is teaching hers to fish, we know it wasn’t mom's idea of fun, but she always did it with us, so now we are doing it with our families.

*Taught me how to love, how to treat a woman right. Life is flyin' by and it's hittin' me now*

(September 6th 2086)  y/g/d/n here, i asked mom if i could write something as well, just wanted to thank my grandparents for everything! That's a lot to thank for, I know, but I forgot before they passed. I also wanted to inform them that I finally started college, makes me think of what they would have done if they were here.

*If this is the last time, please come close

I love you with all my heart, you know

I don't wanna cry, I'm bad at goodbye

If this is the last time

Then let's do the things we always do

Like go for a drive or watch the news

I don't wanna cry, I'm bad at goodbye

If this is the last time*

(May 7th 2090) The last entry of the last book of my grandmother’s series. It’s y/g/s/n for your information. The last written update, it’s been years since grandma wrote in this book, but she got what she wanted, uncle Michael truly was the last of the bunch. He’s here waiting for his turn, but he did what was asked of him….and Luke. My first child wasn’t named after grandma, but when we were having our second Michael jumped at the opportunity, he’s holding y/n right now. He said she looks like a young grandma, so i guess it’s fitting. He’s on his way to join our family right now, I'm the last to say goodbye. I know you probably heard it a lot in this book, but thank you guys for everything, we love you.

Voicemails - Peter Parker

Summary: Something happens to Y/N, leaving Peter heartbroken. He leaves a series of voicemails that show him slowly getting over Y/N, and how her absence has affected him.

Warnings: Swearing, Kinda sad

Word Count: 1945

A/N: I’ve had this written for awhile and just decided to post it. I’m aware it’s not the best so bare with me and how badly I set it up. It’s set up in voicemails so there’s not really any description which might be boring so I’m sorry! Please comment your thoughts and feedback, I’ll even take criticism because I really need to know if my writing is good or not. This was inspired by a 5SOS imagine like this so if anyone knows it, link me! Thanks for reading and please request!

“Hey! You’ve reached Y/N Y/L/N! Sorry I can’t get to my phone right now! I’ll call you back as soon as I can! Thanks!”

October 2nd, 7:38 PM, 1 New Message:

“Hey Y/N, it’s Peter! What movie do you wanna watch for movie night tonight? We could watch a princess movie I guess,but only because you’ve been wanting to forever. Okay bye. Oh, and also, I love you. Bye.”

October 2nd, 7:56 PM, 2 New Messages:

“It’s Peter… Again. I went to the drug store and got some candy for us. I got your favorite, Skittles! I’m on my way over now. Bye.”

October 2nd, 8:03 PM, 3 New Messages:

“I just wanted to let you know I’m here… Y/N can you at least text me I’m kinda starting to worry? You always answer your phone…”

October 2nd, 8:07 PM, 4 New Messages:

“So I climbed up to your window, and you weren’t there, and I knocked on your door, no answer. Please Y/N answer or something I’m really freaked out… I’m gonna try calling your parents.”

October 2nd, 8:39 PM, 5 New Messages:

“I’m starting to look around the city… Maybe you lost your phone and this is just a big misunderstanding? I got your parents involved, who got the police involved, so please don’t get mad at me, I’m just seriously worried. Love you.”

October 2nd, 9:55 PM, 6 New Messages:

“Hey Y/N. I don’t know why I keep leaving you voicemails at this point. Maybe you can hear them, I don’t know… I-I just wanna tell you I love where ever you are, I won’t stop until I find you okay? I’m so sorry.”

October 3rd, 4:34 AM, 7 New Messages:

“Y/N, I can’t sleep. You’d always be here for me and you’re just gone. They say maybe you ran away, but now they’re trying to track your phone. Please be okay. I love you.”

October 3rd, 8:04 PM, 8 New Messages:

“I can’t go to school today, not without you there. They said once it’s past the 24 hour mark it’s unlikely that we’ll find you again. I’ve already been out the past 2 hours looking for you. I don’t k-know what I’d do w-without, you Y/N. We all just want you home…”

October 3rd, 1:56 PM, 9 New Messages:

“It’s Peter, but you probably knew that. I got your sandwich today. I don’t know why I did, I knew you weren’t here. When you come home I promise you’ll get your sandwich, your skittles, and we can watch all the princess movies you want. I’ll never let you walk alone, and I’ll give you lots of cuddles, and I’ll come over every night. Y/N, I miss you so fucking much and it hasn’t been a full day. I hope it doesn’t come to a full day.”

October 4th, 2:44 AM, 10 New Messages:

“Y/N, they found your phone… That’s why… That’s why I stopped calling. I just really needed to hear your voice. It was with some guy, but they said he had nothing to do with you. He probably found it and stole it. Y/N, I went out and followed the guy. I questioned him as spider-man, and he was honest. He didn’t know where you were. I’m sorry I couldn’t protect you. I love you.”

October 4th, 3:37 PM, 11 New Messages:

“I went to school today. I had to keep my mind occupied, but I feel like it only kept my mind on you more. I noticed the absence of you so much, and Ned did, too. You weren’t there to help me with my English homework, and you weren’t there to tell me that I looked cute in this blue sweatshirt. It’s the one you’ve always loved. I don’t know why I bother calling. Maybe in a way you can still hear me. That sounds fucking dumb this is fucking dumb why did you have to leave!”

October 5th, 8:06 PM, 12 New Messages:

“I went to school again today. People kept coming up to me and saying ‘Oh Peter, I’m so sorry’. But they’re not sorry. They never knew you. They didn’t know like I did. I found myself walking after school and I ended up in front of your house. I climbed up to your window, and went inside your room like you were still there. Sorry if that’s a little creepy… I just.... It smelled like your favorite perfume, and your homework was there on your desk, waiting to be finished when you got back from wherever you went. The necklace I got you last year isn’t in it’s box, so I’m assuming you’re wearing it… I feel like a piece of me is with you in that necklace… That sounds fucking dumb I’m so sor-”

October 6th, 7:44 PM, 13 New Messages:

“I just wanted to hear your voice again… Do you remember that time, when you found out I was spider-man? I’d just saved you from the creepy guys, and you totally recognized my voice… I’m sorry I wasn’t there to save you this time. I love you.”

October 7th, 5:46 PM, 14 New Messages:

“I guess this is a daily thing. I’ve never felt like this I mean… I know my Uncle Ben died, but I don’t know if your dead or alive or where you went. I don’t know if you’re hurting, if you’re calling out my name, praying that I’ll come and save you… Maybe it would be better to know you’re dead than to just know you’re out there; dead or suffering. But maybe it’s not. I would give anything to hold you just one more time.”

October 8th, 7:16 PM, 15 New Messages:

“I spent the whole day looking for you. I don’t know when that’ll stop or when these phone calls will stop. You’re just… gone and I can’t get over it. It’s been a whole week since I last saw you. It was Saturday, and we were studying for some dumb English essay that I’ve probably bombed. I wish I had held you that night, and told you just how much I love you. I wish I had told you how I’d never let you go, and that maybe one day… We’d be together forever. I’ll never stop looking for you, I’ll never stop loving you, Y/N.”

October 9th, 8:23 AM, 16 New Messages:

“I’m just about to look for you again. Ned suggested we watch a movie or something but all I wanna watch is a fucking princess movie with you. Your parents called me and told me a few minutes ago they’re emptying out your room. Can you believe that? It’s barely been a week and they’re trying to erase you? I tried to tell them to wait, so I guess that’s what I’m going over to do.”

October 9th, 10:12 AM, 17 New Messages:

“Hi… When I, um, got to your house, your parents handed m-me this letter. God, I must sound like such a wreck right now. You wrote a month ago, and I guess you never gave it to me. Maybe you forgot to, or maybe you had it for a situation like this. It said that you loved me so much Y/N, and you always felt save. You loved our movie nights, the way we did our homework together, how I’d always make you feel better with a cup of tea, a-and how you believed in me as spider-man, always… You had said one of your best memories was me telling you just how much I loved and how beautiful you were, at our fourth date, the picnic… But I think my best memory is this. Finally seeing, on paper, that you loved me, and just how much.”

October 10th, 3:56 PM, 18 New Messages:

“Today, they started selling homecoming tickets, but I know there’s no way in hell I can go to that. I was supposed to take you, and I’d buy you the prettiest corsage, with your favorite yellow roses… God, I’m rambling. When your parents went through your room, I found my old gray Star Wars sweatshirt. The one you loved so much and you’d always wear it… I told them to keep it, I couldn’t take it away from you. I took a bunch of your things… and it was the weirdest crap, too. I took that box of the necklace I gave you, just in case it ever needed a place to go whenever you came home. I took your favorite perfume, and I took your school notebooks, and I took-k our movie blanket, along with the lipstick you had worn the last day I saw you. I remember that day vividly. You were the prettiest you’d been. Your hair was pulled up into a sweet, curly ponytail, and you had been wearing some red flowy dress. You had on some peachy pink lipstick, and I know because it was your favor-”

October 12th, 4:57 PM, 19 New Messages:

“I didn’t call you yesterday, but that’s only because I tried my hardest not to. I will never love anybody more than I love you, Y/N. God, it sounds so weird saying your name… It feels weird. I j-just… Can’t believe this is happening. You’re actually gone now… I’m starting to get used to the fact, and I can’t believe I’m getting used to the fact that you’re not coming back.”

October 14th, 9:36 PM, 20 New Messages:

“I’m in the the bathroom at school right now. They’re clearing your locker out. I took your stuff for you, but its just your textbooks and your book. I opened The Notebook, your favorite, and you had all these scribbles inside, and doggy-ear pages. Some pages had fallen out, and some we’re just gone altogether. It was falling apart, but it was yours…. I-I’m falling apart, but I’m still yours.”

October 21st, 10:59 PM, 21 New Messages:

“Homecoming is tonight. I didn’t go. I couldn’t. Instead, I stayed home and I watched Beauty and the Beast. I know it’s your favorite. You’d always beg me to watch it, but I never said yes. So I’m watching it now, but it’s not the same because you’re not here. I miss you much.”

October 31st, 1:01 PM, 22 New Messages:

“Happy Halloween, Y/N. I know our plans were to dress in matching costumes, so I went to the store and I got them for us. I know I’m fucking dumb but I can’t let you go. I finally started going out as spider-man again 7 days ago, but that doesn’t mean I got over the guilt of not being there to save you. They’ve already given your locker away and everyone’s already gotten used to your absence. I haven’t, I don’t think I ever will. It’s been 30 days since you disappeared. I want to be happy, Y/N. I do. But I don’t think I can do that anymore, not without. Maybe I’ll be okay eventually, just maybe. I know you’d want me to move on, and ask out Michelle or something, but I only want to be with you. I’ll wait for you. I’ll be here for when you decide to come back. This has been one of the hardest months of my life. I love you, Y/N Y/L/N. And I always will. Love, Peter Parker.”

“. . . We’re sorry, you have reached a number that has been disconnected or is no longer in service, if you feel you have reached this recording in error please hang up and try your call again.

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Masterlist

answers for @sproutingpeach (sorry it took so long had to do it on mobile when nobody was watching) 200: My crush’s name is: helen🌸 199: I was born in: 2000 198: I am really: relaxed 197: My cellphone company is: verizon 196: My eye color is: green 195: My shoe size is: 7 1/2 194: My ring size is: 6 or 7 193: My height is: 5'5" 192: I am allergic to: witch hazel 191: My 1st car was: 2003 silver honda accord 190: My 1st job was: haven’t had one 189: Last book you read: milk and honey by rupi kar 188: My bed is: queen sized and vv comfy 187: My pets: jyn and andy 186: My best friend: dally (@justloveselfushlove) 185: My favorite shampoo is: idk 184: Xbox or ps3: xbox I guess 183: Piggy banks are: alright 182: In my pockets: earbuds 181: On my calendar: vacation this week 180: Marriage is: not necessary 179: Spongebob can: shut up please 178: My mom: is problematic 177: The last three songs I bought were?: I don’t buy songs, I’ve got spotify 176: Last YouTube video watched: some random vine compilation i think 175: How many cousins do you have?: 4 174: Do you have any siblings?: yes, 4 173: Are your parents divorced?: no 172: Are you taller than your mom?: yes 171: Do you play an instrument?: I’m learning piano 170: What did you do yesterday?: mini road trip and swimming [ I Believe In ]
 169: Love at first sight: no 168: Luck: no 167: Fate: no 166: Yourself: sometimes 165: Aliens:sure 164: Heaven: no 163: Hell: no 162: God: idk 161: Horoscopes: not really but they’re fun to read anyways 160: Soul mates: nope 159: Ghosts: no 158: Gay Marriage: of course 157: War: no 156: Orbs: no? 155: Magic: no [ This or That ]
 154: Hugs or Kisses: never been kissed so I'd have to say hugs 153: Drunk or High: high 152: Phone or Online: online 151: Red heads or Black haired: both i can’t decide 150: Blondes or Brunettes: brunettes 149: Hot or cold: hot 148: Summer or winter: summer 147: Autumn or Spring: autumn 146: Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla 145: Night or Day: night 144: Oranges or Apples: apples 143: Curly or Straight hair: straight 142: McDonalds or Burger King: McD 141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: milk 140: Mac or PC: mac 139: Flip flops or high heels: depends on the situation, i like both 138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: sweet and poor 137: Coke or Pepsi: coke 136: Hillary or Obama: obama 135: Burried or cremated: buried 134: Singing or Dancing: singing 133: Coach or Chanel: chanel 132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: who?? 131: Small town or Big city: big city 130: Wal-Mart or Target: target 129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: ben stiller 128: Manicure or Pedicure: manicure 127: East Coast or West Coast: west coast 126: Your Birthday or Christmas: Christmas 125: Chocolate or Flowers: flowers 124: Disney or Six Flags: Disneyland 123: Yankees or Red Sox: idc [ Here’s What I Think About ]
 122: War: unnecessary 121: George Bush: did 9/11 120: Gay Marriage: please legalise it everywhere 119: The presidential election: trumps not my president. 118: Abortion: pro choice 117: MySpace: no opinion 116: Reality TV: don’t watch it 115: Parents: good idea, poor execution 114: Back stabbers: they did it for a reason 113: Ebay: no opinion 112: Facebook: my safe app, flip to it when parents are around 111: Work: fine i guess 110: My Neighbors: annoying 109: Gas Prices: better than they can used to be 108: Designer Clothes: unnecessary 107: College: wish it wasn’t a social requirement 106: Sports: don’t mind watching (sometimes even enjoy it) but hate playing 105: My family: big and loud but still good 104: The future: let’s not think about it… [ Last time I ]
 103: Hugged someone: I don’t remember, a couple weeks ago?? 102: Last time you ate: half an hour ago 101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: May 100: Cried in front of someone: a month or so i think? 99: Went to a movie theater: a week ago 98: Took a vacation: rn 97: Swam in a pool: last night 96: Changed a diaper: 3 weeks ago 95: Got my nails done: 2 years ago 94: Went to a wedding: 8 years ago 93: Broke a bone: 5th grade 92: Got a piercing: 8 years ago 91: Broke the law: never 90: Texted: half an hour ago [ MISC ]
 89: Who makes you laugh the most: helen 88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: my kitty 87: The last movie I saw: the amazing spiderman 2 86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: meeting helen irl 85: The thing im not looking forward to: starting school again 84: People call me: on the internet-ry irl-raveyn or rave 83: The most difficult thing to do is: get along with my mother 82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: never 81: My zodiac sign is: sagittarius 80: The first person i talked to today was: my dad 79: First time you had a crush: kindergarten probably 78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: nobody 77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: idk 76: Right now I am talking to: helen 75: What are you going to do when you grow up: be happy hopefully 74: I have/will get a job: my first job be grocery bagging 73: Tomorrow: hanging out and to softball game 72: Today: I'm bored af 71: Next Summer: idk 70: Next Weekend: idk 69: I have these pets: one kitty one puppy 68: The worst sound in the world: cotton balls rubbing together 67: The person that makes me cry the most is: my mom 66: People that make you happy: my gf and internet friends and my siblings 65: Last time I cried: last night (watching a movie) 64: My friends are: the i love them 63: My computer is: nonexistent 62: My School: online 61: My Car: older but good 60: I lose all respect for people who: are assholes 59: The movie I cried at was: amazing spiderman 2 58: Your hair color is: bleached 57: TV shows you watch: Grey's Anatomy and Brooklyn 99 56: Favorite web site: tumblr.com.hell 55: Your dream vacation: Greece 54: The worst pain I was ever in was: when i had a broken nose and sneezed 53: How do you like your steak cooked: i don't like steak 52: My room is: cozy+aesthetic 51: My favorite celebrity is: Priyanka Chopra 50: Where would you like to be: with my girlfriend 49: Do you want children: no 48: Ever been in love: nope 47: Who’s your best friend: dally 46: More guy friends or girl friends: i have one guy friend, one girl friend, one nb so it's an even mix 45: One thing that makes you feel great is: when my hair looks good 44: One person that you wish you could see right now: helen 43: Do you have a 5 year plan: um no 42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: not a concrete list but a ideas 41: Have you pre-named your children: I've thought it 40: Last person I got mad at: my mom 39: I would like to move to: New York 38: I wish I was a professional: ??? [ My Favorites ] 37: Candy: Reese's pieces 36: Vehicle: idk 35: President: obama 34: State visited: California 33: Cellphone provider: Verizon i guess 32: Athlete: Serena Williams 31: Actor: Andrew Garfield 30: Actress: Priyanka Chopra or Amanda Seyfried 29: Singer: the weeknd or halsey 28: Band: fall out boy 27: Clothing store: idk 26: Grocery store: Fry's 25: TV show: Brooklyn 99 24: Movie: the breakfast club 23: Website: this one 22: Animal: all of them 21: Theme park: Disneyland 20: Holiday: Christmas 19: Sport to watch: baseball 18: Sport to play: none sports aren't allowed look at me 17: Magazine: teen vogue 16: Book: Althea and Oliver 15: Day of the week: Sunday 14: Beach: idk 13: Concert attended: 5sos 12: Thing to cook: chocolate chip cookies 11: Food: burgers and fries 10: Restaurant: Fuddruckers 9: Radio station: 97.1 8: Yankee candle scent: idk 7: Perfume: idk 6: Flower: daisy 5: Color: blue 4: Talk show host: idk 3: Comedian: idk 2: Dog breed: lab 1: Did you answer all these truthfully?: yes

200 things you put in my ask

I'm just gonna answer these because I'm bored 🌸 Copy and Paste this to answer these 200: My crush’s name is: Lucas
199: I was born in: America
198: I am really: Tired
197: My cellphone company is: StraightTalk (I don't have data rn)
196: My eye color is: Brown
195: My shoe size is: 9 
194: My ring size is: Idk
193: My height is: 5"3
192: I am allergic to: Nothing
191: My 1st car was: Don't have one
190: My 1st job was: Going to find one in December 
189: Last book you read: It Gets Worse: Shane Dawson
188: My bed is: Comfortable and Warm
187: My pet: I love him, he's my favorite (he's a 14 year old Dachshund)
186: My best friend: Is amazing
185: My favorite shampoo is: Pantene, turquoise DreamCare 
184: Xbox or ps3: Xbox
183: Piggy banks are: Emtpy
182: In my pockets: Always have headphones
181: On my calendar: Is pretty empty
180: Marriage is: Cool, and should be equal for everybody. Love is love 
179: Spongebob can: suck my dick
178: My mom: Gross
177: The last three songs I bought were?: Last Young Renegade (album), The Black Parade (album), and Vices and Virtues (album)
176: Last YouTube video watched: Tyler Oakley's entire channel
175: How many cousins do you have? Too many to count
174: Do you have any siblings? 2 older brothers, 1 younger
173: Are your parents divorced? No
172: Are you taller than your mom? No, but I'm taller than my dad
171: Do you play an instrument? The trumpet, and I want to play the piano
170: What did you do yesterday? Went to Point Sebago (lake resort) with my bf for a class field trip [ I Believe In ]
169: Love at first sight: Sure
168: Luck: No
167: Fate: No
166: Yourself: No
165: Aliens: Yes
164: Heaven: NO.
163: Hell: NO.
162: God: NO.
161: Horoscopes: yes
160: Soul mates: yes
159: Ghosts: yes
158: Gay Marriage: ofc 
157: War: yes
156: Orbs: no
155: Magic: no [ This or That ]
154: Hugs or Kisses: Hugs
153: Drunk or High: High
152: Phone or Online: Online
151: Red heads or Black haired:
150: Blondes or Brunettes: Brunettes
149: Hot or cold: Cold
148: Summer or winter: Winter
147: Autumn or Spring: Autumn
146: Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla
145: Night or Day: Night
144: Oranges or Apples: Apples
143: Curly or Straight hair: Straight
142: McDonalds or Burger King: McDonalds
141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: White Chocolate
140: Mac or PC: Mac
139: Flip flops or high heals: Flip flops
138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: sweet and poor 
137: Coke or Pepsi: Pepsi 
136: Hillary or Obama: Obama 
135: Burried or cremated: buried
134: Singing or Dancing: singing
133: Coach or Chanel: neither
132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: who
131: Small town or Big city: big city 
130: Wal-Mart or Target: target
129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: Adam Sandler 
128: Manicure or Pedicure: manicure
127: East Coast or West Coast: east coast
126: Your Birthday or Christmas: Halloween
125: Chocolate or Flowers: flowers
124: Disney or Six Flags: six flags 
123: Yankees or Red Sox: red sox [ Here’s What I Think About ]
122: War: world war 3 is coming soon
121: George Bush: caused 9/11
120: Gay Marriage: shouldn't be debated
119: The presidential election: gross
118: Abortion: pro-choice
117: MySpace: too old
116: Reality TV: okay sometimes
115: Parents:fucking hate them
114: Back stabbers: burn in hell
113: Ebay: cool 
112: Facebook: only use for messenger
111: Work: I need money
110: My Neighbors: don't talk to them
109: Gas Prices: too high
108: Designer Clothes: too expensive
107: College: need to go 
106: Sports: want to play soccer
105: My family: hate them
104: The future: hope it doesn't exist [ Last time I ]
103: Hugged someone: yesterday
102: Last time you ate: Thursday (it's Saturday)
101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: today
100: Cried in front of someone: long time ago
99: Went to a movie theater: long time ago
98: Took a vacation: April 
97: Swam in a pool: April
96: Changed a diaper: haven't in a few years
95: Got my nails done: April 
94: Went to a wedding: 8 years ago
93: Broke a bone: 8 years ago
92: Got a peircing: haven't yet 
91: Broke the law:all the time😉jk
90: Texted: a few seconds ago [ MISC ]
89: Who makes you laugh the most: Lucas
88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: free internet and shampoo
87: The last movie I saw: the rings
86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: seeing Lucas on Monday
85: The thing im not looking forward to: graduation on Wednesday 84: People call me: by my last name
83: The most difficult thing to do is: talk to people
82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: never, don't have a license
81: My zodiac sign is: Sagittarius
80: The first person i talked to today was: Becca
79: First time you had a crush: 5th grade
78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: best friends
77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: yesterday 
76: Right now I am talking to: myself
75: What are you going to do when you grow up: play in an army band, become a doctor or a lawyer
74: I have/will get a job: in December 
73: Tomorrow: sleep and YouTube
72: Today: sleep and YouTube 
71: Next Summer: hang out with friends and sleep
70: Next Weekend: not doing much 
69: I have these pets: dachshund
68: The worst sound in the world: high pitched screaming
67: The person that makes me cry the most is: my parents
66: People that make you happy: Lucas, Brooklyn
65: Last time I cried: a long time ago
64: My friends are: Lucas, Brooklyn, Patrick, adara, Alyssa, lexi, becca, 
63: My computer is: non-existent 
62: My School: leaving middle school soon, and going to a boarding school for high school this upcoming year
61: My Car: don't have one
60: I lose all respect for people who: lie to me
59: The movie I cried at was: Forrest Gump 
58: Your hair color is: dark brown 
57: TV shows you watch: ahs, bates motel, OITNB, Shameless, the fosters
56: Favorite web site: Tumblr, YouTube
55: Your dream vacation:
54: The worst pain I was ever in was: losing friends, 
53: How do you like your steak cooked: I don't like steak 
52: My room is: semi-clean 
51: My favorite celebrity is: Shane Dawson, and Dan and Phil, and Brendon Urie
50: Where would you like to be: With my best friends
49: Do you want children:NO.
48: Ever been in love: yes
47: Who’s your best friend: Lucas, Brooklyn
46: More guy friends or girl friends: guys
45: One thing that makes you feel great is: Lucas, and YouTube
44: One person that you wish you could see right now: Lucas
43: Do you have a 5 year plan: no?
42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: no
41: Have you pre-named your children:I don't want them 
40: Last person I got mad at: Becca
39: I would like to move to: far away from here
38: I wish I was a professional: musician or doctor [ My Favorites ] 
37: Candy: Swedish fish
36: Vehicle: Mercedes 
35: President: Obama ? Idk I don't like politics
34: State visited: Florida or Massachusetts 
33: Cellphone provider: straight talk
32: Athlete: idk
31: Actor: Shane Dawson
30: Actress: Shane Dawson
29: Singer: brendon Uris
28: Band: Panic! at the disco, 5sos
27: Clothing store: hot topic, zumiez
26: Grocery store: Walmart, target 
25: TV show: rn, Bates Motel
24: Movie: any horror movie directed by James Wan
23: Website: Tumblr, YouTube
22: Animal: penguin 
21: Theme park: Funtown Splashtown
20: Holiday: HALLOWEEN 
19: Sport to watch: idk 
18: Sport to play: soccer maybe?
17: Magazine: idk
16: Book: dear Evan Hansen 
15: Day of the week: Friday 
14: Beach: none of the above 
13: Concert attended: P!ATD
12: Thing to cook: idk
11: Food: idk
10: Restaurant: idk 
9: Radio station: Q97.9
8: Yankee candle scent: vanilla, or coconut 
7: Perfume: vanilla or coconut
6: Flower: hibiscus 
5: Color: black
4: Talk show host: Shane Dawson 
3: Comedian: Bo Burnham
2: Dog breed: Dachsund 
1: Did you answer all these truthfully? Yes