I got this tartali doujin in the mail! so excited

C, L, and M? 💕

hello love!!! hope you're well and tysm!! 💜💜 for context (x)

C. what fandom(s) did you start writing?

i started writing for the phandom (dan&phil) actually slkdfklsdfl back in like 2017 ish? not really my thing anymore but i met a lot of wonderful and lovely people and i do still follow dnp lmao

L. favourite fic of yours?

this question always makes my heart hurt alksdfjklsdfjl most recently i feel like my entire heart belongs to this one (x) which is strange bc i'm usually not as heavy a chaeya shipper as i am like kaeluc or tartali (although those obviously did get a huge amount of screentime in that fic anyway lmao)

this is always such a challenging question bc while i don't think i'm really having to choose between every fic i've ever written, i am certainly choosing between a very large portion of them? idk it feels to me almost a little like 'which parts of your heart do you value the most'? and the answer is just...so very many of them? sdfkljsdkl sorry to get all philosophical in this response but that's sort of the way it feels. so i usually take this question as a chance to showcase a fic that's meaningful to me but i feel like didn't get all the attention i hoped it'd get lmao

M. least favourite fic of yours?

oh this is like. okay we're gonna get really serious and talk for a sec abt things i've done that i am not proud of. bc my answer to this one isn't like. 'oh i really don't like how this fic turned out' or 'oh my writing was so bad in this one lmao' it's like. okay, i could get into like. some of the things that were really kinda normalized in the phandom/the people i found myself associated with that i accepted and adopted without really critically thinking abt them because of a desire to fit in and be accepted and noticed, etc etc (not excuses, just explanations) and i wrote a fic abt a very very touchy video that was leaked many many moons ago (back at like early era of yt) that lives in infamy in the phandom. and it was sort of commonplace among some people i followed/associated with to go 'oh yeah we don't talk abt it (but also we kinda talk abt it wink wink)'. and i wrote a fic sort of...using that video as a topic within the fic? it was a short ficlet and i really didn't delve into the vid contents or anything, but looking back on it, i'm actually really disappointed in my past self that i didn't step back and think more critically about the way i was treating something that was very well-known to be a super sensitive and private topic and very personal to dnp. i'm not taking the fic down bc i think it's important to acknowledge my mistakes, and i added an author's note to the beginning talking a little abt all the things i just described here and why i'm not proud of it, and that i hope that anyone who sees it and clicks that fic with the intent to read abt something very personal to dnp reconsiders both the actual reading of the fic and how they engage with the phandom/dnp, where boundaries should lie, etc.

anyway this was probably more than you bargained for, but tysm as always for the asks bellamy!! 💜

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