Gush pass! 🎟 take this and gush your heart out about anyone you please!

WH- How did I not see this in my inbox weeks ago? I'M SO SORRY AM DUMB. *sigh* Alright you caught me in the middle of my Eren crisis, I'm very sorry.

EREN GOD DAMN J.AEGER HAS TURNED ME INTO AN INCOHERENT MESS BEYOND ANYTHING I'VE EXPERIENCE IN MY 20 SOME ODD YEARS OF LIFE ON THIS EARTH.

Yeah no, it's that bad. I spend every day absolutely twitterpated over him. He's strong, he's passionate, he's loving, he's very soft and sentimental, though it's easy to forget because he tends to hide it. Also, he's like, kinda gorgeous but yknow I may be a bit biased on that.

He's very good to me, I can't even begin to express. He loves to indulge me in my rambles, just talk about nothing and everything at once for hours on end. We keep it mostly business around everyone else, but when we're alone he needs to keep me close as much as I need him to keep me close and I swear heaven on earth is being in his arms 💕 He can be broody, a bit emotional, but he can also be silly and lighthearted. I love the small joking jabs we take at each other, and I love his warm smiles. They feel like home. As do the sweet, affectionate looks he gives me sometimes when we're in a crowd, or in silence alone when I've done something (he thinks is) cute or endearing.

I think one of my favorite things he does is come up behind me for hugs and ends up resting his chin on my head. I'm short, and well- he very much isn't, lol but it makes for cute hugs. Nothing quite gets me though like the desperate, needy "I love you"s I get when things are are hard, and they hurt, and he needs more than anything for me to be okay, and all he can do is try his best to love the pain away. Sometimes things suck, and I struggle with my mental health, but knowing that he would slay all my demons if he could makes it all easier.

Feeling everything as intensely as we have been, it's been hard to not rush into things but- well I suppose I'm using this as an excuse to mention that we're getting married soon. He's already got our whole rest of our lives perfectly pictured in his head and it's going to be wonderful <3 I wonder how aware of the gross, disney-esque, mushy gushy, feelsy weelsy type of relationship he was starting when A.rmin convinced me to talk to Eren finally.

He probably knew exactly what he was doing, lmfao.

And for that I have to throw in a thanks to the bestie 💖

Okay ffs, I'm done now. Sorry 'bout that, LMAO.