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jayceart · 1 year
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Days in Yunmeng
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jazzarray · 6 years
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Riju Production Post
So I’m mostly doing this for my own references (and as a reminder to take more pictures while working on costumes for proper progress posts/threads), but I just wanted to take the time and put together a post on my process and methods while working on my fave cosplay to date, Riju from Breath of the Wild!
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This post will be really photo heavy. And text heavy. Just heavy overall, so watch out on mobile (sorry ahead of time) - 
WARNING for hand closeup in the last image, scopophobia,
First things first, I gathered as many reference images as I possibly could. I went into the game itself and used nintendo’s handy dandy screen shot feature to take some pics. I also lurked around online in various boards and things to see if anyone else had taken some good detail shots of things I had missed. Here are some that i found the most useful:
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Full body shots are always necessary. This one also gave me the bonus of being able to estimate how many coins to put on her skirt as well as a reference for the print inside of the skit
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Much needed detail shots of the armor she’s wearing. I wanted to nail down the shape and dimension of everything as much as i could
And, since I love a good Prop, I had to make the Thunder Helm. The construction seemed maybe not simple but not ridiculous enough that I felt I could confidently reproduce it
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Then I decided to do something I had sort of done before, but not to the extent that I did with Riju. I needed to draw everything out, write what materials would be used and where, how much I would need, the techniques I would use, etc. To save space, I’ll link to the post where I uploaded the four pages of breakdown I did for her --> here
I started on her probably later than I should have, around late Feb, March of this year (the con I debuted her at was in May). And then I messed around and didn’t get started on her as soon as I could have even after all my materials were bought.  Speaking of which, let’s do a quick materials breakdown and where I got stuff
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I bought about 3 yards of a slightly see-through, light weight black knit from Joanns. I was also able to find a heavier cotton blend printed fabric that, from the wrong side mimicked perfectly the pattern on Riju’s inner skirt. 
I drafted my own patterns. The top was essentially a slightly bigger sports bra. The skirt I think I just kinda wrapped the fabric around myself and had my sister cut the angle I wanted. I used that piece to cut the inner lining of the skirt.
I hand painted the design on the top with 3d fabric paint. Some of the colors had to be mixed, particularly the gold. And i had to mix them multiple times bc I couldn’t finish it all at once lol. That was a pain. 
JSYK, you can mix fabric paint with regular acrylic and it’ll still be just as flexible.
I stretched out the top on a cutting board I had and held it there with wonderclips lol. Bootleg, but it worked
This was also my first time working with bias tape! It’s kinda rough in some sections but it gave the top a really nice finish, i think. I also added some lil shoulder straps on with the rest of the tape I had, just for added support.
Jewelry, Belt, Armor, etc Everything not fabric was craft foam of varying thickness. Everything was either primed with glue/water or was coated with a few layers of plastidip. The detailing on the chest and belt pieces were done with 3D fabric paint
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The only pieces not foam or fabric are air dry clay and hot glue casted gems. I made my own silicone mold with pure silicone + corn starch + a bit of baby oil. I think I used oven bake clay for the negatives and just filled those babies with hot glue. Sanded down the sides to get the defined lines I wanted and painted them with nail polish. 
The air dry clay pieces coming off of the chest armor  were strung together with more invisible thread and kinda shoddily held together with hot glue. But It Worked, Okay?
Everything that needed to be put on that wasn’t clothing (chest armor, jewelry pieces, belt, the petal sash looking thing) was strapped purely with velcro. 
The shoes were just a thrifted pair of black heels and I painted the lines on with Angelus brand leather paint (this stuff is godly and a little goes a long way)  
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Here’s the base of the front of the helm unpainted. 
I used 8mm eva sheet foam and 8mm dowels the from TNT Cosplay Supply as well as some basic 2-6mm foamie sheets from any store with a craft sections (I think i got mine from michaels? and some backup 2mm sheets from walmart)
The helm was a bit odd to pattern. I spent a lot of time doodling out shapes in my sketchbook. I made some v elementary templates out of poster board and had a Lot of re-working, especially with the slightly curved base of the front of the helm, the actual mask part. I knew it had to be two pieces  because trying to make it one would make the curves at the top wrong potentially. It also gave me a good guideline for the midline of the helm itself for coloring.
Everything was held together with contact cement and shaped with a heat gun. I learned with this project just how pliable even 8mm thick craft foam can get when it’s hot. I reinforced some of the curves by scoring the curves and gluing the cut section back together.
I primed this all with glue/water mix and everything was spray painted that base gold.
I....completely freehanded the non gold sections. I painted the brown of the front of the helm first and then remembered the gold sections going down. I think I tried to sketch out the lines at first and then just went “fuck it” and free handed everything. Took a lot of careful brush strokes and correcting but I think it turned out well.
if you look closely at the pieces with the half question marks on them, you can see where I attempted to correct some lines with hand mixed acrylic and didn’t exactly get the color right lol whoops. It’s only noticable in closeups tho.
The front and back pieces of the helm were held together via velcro. I wanted them to be able to come apart, especially since I knew I was going to travel with it. The whole thing is rather Rigid so it needed some way to be more travel-with-able.
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Close up of the Helm. It was extremely light weight, if only a lil awkward to tote around. I made it way too big so it couldn’t even be worn properly lol.
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Weirdest snail I’ve ever seen
Base wig was Buttercup in Rust Red by Arda . I also got a bunch of their long wefts in the same color as well as their red jumbo braids. I used their tutorial on how to style a Rapunzel wig as the basis for how to do the braid.
I ruined my first pack of jumbo braid hair and had to order more last second. The wig was one of the last pieces to get done. 
As in the rapunzel method, the braid is separate from the base wig and attached with hook/eye closures. It was still really dragging the back of the wig down, but I managed to braid in most of the base hair of the wig into the braid to hide the worst of it. It was so long, it reached all the way to my butt, i was so happy
The styling of the front of the wig was....mostly me winging it again. I knew theoretically what I needed to do -- tease the front bang a bit, add on wefts so that the hairline looked natural. But when I started doing so, I got impatient, like I normally do. To be fair the wig turned out way better than i thought it could given how much of a rush job the hair line and the bump + pinwheels were but hey
Everything got a generous helping of got 2 b glued spray
the side loops were completely separate pieces. I initially intended to sew them into the wig, but it was easier to put on and take off when they were separate
these were fabric hoops i stuffed lightly with pillow batting and, in another rush job, glued some wefts onto the loops. The gold rings were also just craft foam
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 Aside from the lipstick, I didn’t do the best with my makeup as I could have lol
I didn’t properly plan out what to color my eyebrows with. And covering them up was a serious rush job -- I didn’t practice before hand like I should have so I didn’t get them as smooth as I wanted
I also used....regular lipstick as the color, not even a drying matte, so anytime my hands went near my face (which was often bc of the helm, I had to whip out my mirror to do a smear check
The eye makeup was lipstick as well, but a matte one! It’s colourpop, I can’t remember which shade. The lipstick actually on my lips was a cheap drugstore brand I found at a beauty store.
First pair of ears were i think from Aradani?? I can’t 100% remember; there was a booth at Katsu this year.... 
Second pair, bc i lost the first pair somehow, was borrowed from a good friend lol
Now I know how to make my own latex ears so that’ll be what I do in the future
Contacts were from Alice and Rabbit’s Shop
I’ve got a decent amount of (what I would/could have done betters)
I need to figure out a better strapping method for the jewelry. The velcro I used was pretty thick and i found multiple scratches where they rubbed against me all day (a couple of em briefly scarred lol)
I wasn’t able to isolate a good enough image for the sand seal emblum that’s actually printed on her skirt. I might just hand paint it on if I can draw a decent enough template
The back piece of the helm, the band that connected to the circle, was...a pain. Since I was in the heat, it lost its shape pretty quickly when not attached to the front part and having to reshape it caused it to crack quite badly. 
The aforementioned circular piece also wasn’t as securely connected as it could have been (i’m still trying to figure out what I could have done better. Maybe pins or something through the foam?) and I had to rush to the cosplay repair booth when I got to the con to make sure it didn’t completely rip off.
I found two pairs of black heels and neither of them fit well enough to walk in all day! so I would up taking a bunch of photos in the wrong shoes bc I had switched them out and forgotten to put the actual shoes back on lol. 
Practice the makeup!! Practice, practice practice. Especially eyebrow blocking bc mine are pretty thick and bushy and it Did Not work as well the first time lol. 
And last but most importantly: GIVE YOURSELF ENOUGH DANG TIME TO NOT RUSH
i was so hesitant to cut into anything, especially the foam, that i wound up working on things down to the wire, aka friday night before I was set to wear Riju.
Take time,especially when doing new things you’ve never done before
don’t be afraid to think outside the box and even reach out to someone, even if they’re a non-cosplayer, for help and ideas because they will probably save your ass (thanks dad)
So here is my little love letter to my Riju cosplay. It’s...admittedly in shambles kind of now. Half of my armor pieces had some bumps or breaks that are repairable but not a priority. The wig is a mess because the back kept tangling on my armor pieces. The band/back of the Helm is also a wreck, cracked to hell and back.
But!! I want better pictures of her, so I want to try and fix her up so I can at least do a decent photoshoot somewhere. I also wanna make a patricia plush! Maybe enter her into a contest??
Only time, patience, and a Lotta Money will tell lol
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Term 1 Project Evaluation
This Don’t Panic project was quite an eye opener for me because it made me realise what i’m good and not good at and the workshops in which we did building up to this project helped me know what techniques I should use within my work and what to possibly avoid. The new skills in which I have learnt in this project is my drawing skills both digitally and non-digitally because I personally am not the best at the drawing and because of that I don’t feel confident in my work if I have hand drawn it from scratch without a photograph as reference to trace over in one way or another, but since starting the course I have learnt new ways to overcome that issue such as tracing over photographs using a graphic tablet on Photoshop or Illustrator or if I have drawn something physically then scanning it in and then using Illustrator to make, expand, ungroup, live paint make, and fill my drawings with colour and this is the method in which I used for the majority of my Don’t Panic project. Another skill in which has helped me in this project is the scanned typography work using the Canon scanners because it was a helpful method to use in terms of moving the paper around on the scanner to create a wave effect in which helped to showcase my fear as it almost imitates the movement of a snake , also I found ways in which to achieve this on Photoshop as well but I found this method much more experimental as you can get good mistakes out of some of the attempts as well and I would really like to use this method again as I found it quite enjoyable to experiment with. 
One of the artist who I was inspired by throughout this project was Tyler Spangler because of his use of imposing bright colours along with monochrome and how some of his work is quite bold in terms of there just being colour and very little monochrome and I liked his overall style with his work, another artist who inspired me for one of my postcards was Eliza Southwood because of one of her illustrations and how it has a chequerboard appearance and I liked this look so I decided to recreate it with a grid instead of there just being different coloured squares next to each other without something to separate them. Lastly I was majorly inspired by just looking at zines and other artwork on Pinterest and previous Don’t Panic pack posters and postcards because I wanted to see how I could make my work stand out in terms of technique and appearance and how I can make my work different without repeating the same thing throughout my work.
I think one of my designs in which worked particularly well was my postcard of the snake shedding its skin because of how detailed it is yet quite simplistic in a way as the background is very detailed with the snake print and it also having different shades of blue in order to create a pattern, then you have the snake itself which is detailed when it comes to the actual snake but for the snake shedding I decided not to have any scales on that because I felt as though there would be too much on the postcard and it would become too overcrowded with the same pattern recurring on the same piece and I think it is my favourite piece of work from this Don’t Panic project. Another design in which I really like is the snake in the centre of the postcard with the Japanese sunset in the background because of how simple the background is but the snake in the foreground is really detailed and was done just using the graphic tablet, also the time in which it took to perfect the detailing on that snake made me appreciate its appearance even more and the style of these two postcards are the type of style in which I like to produce, simple yet detailed.
If I was given more time with this project, I would experiment with different colour palettes along with my finished poster and postcards as I chose my colour palette before I started to put together everything and personally I don’t think it really helps to showcase a fear as it kind of contradicts the meaning because the colours pink and blue aren’t really a fearful colour combination but it can be viewed as juxtaposing the purpose of showcasing a fear, I would also like to go back and add a bit more to the back of my Don’t Panic envelope and add a bit more detail in terms of some information about ophidiophobia and why people fear snakes. One pro of this project was being able to have the freedom in the fear in which we chose to showcase throughout our Don’t Panic pack and be able to use whatever techniques we wanted to without having to follow a workshop and have a specific outcome but a con to this project was being able to come up with ways to try and not repeat the same thing throughout my work such as on each postcard there being a snake, which I tried to avoid but I ended up using sections of snakes to try and make each postcard appear different.
Overall I found this project really successful because it helped me realise where my strong and weak points are when it comes to this course and it’s helped me know where I need to practice in order to improve on, I think my favourite part of this project was the Don’t Panic part because of how much freedom we had on what we could do even though it took me a while to think of what fear to showcase as i’m known as being quite indecisive when it comes to doing something like this. I also really liked the Zine photobook production because of the freedom in which we had when producing that but the difficult thing for me was being able to use the same photo for the whole book as I wanted to give myself a challenge instead of using multiple pieces of my work and in the end I really liked the outcome and the overall process in making it.
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These are some of my favourite workshops in which we have done so far. Firstly I really enjoyed the glitch workshop because of how I got to edit some of my favourite photographs in which I took when I went on holiday to Paris and I got to enhance them like the one shown above of the Eiffel Tower which I personally think is my favourite outcome I have done so far, the reason I think this is because of how the colours of the glitched Eiffel Tower go really well with the monochrome background. I also liked the Little White Lies workshop because this is where I first used the graphic tablet for this type of drawing along with using carbon paper for the first time and I really liked the technique of repeating the title in the background and I used this method in my Don’t Panic poster. Then lastly the Don’t Panic project was definitely a favourite as I got to use whichever methods I felt as though I was strong in and didn’t have to worry about not being proud of my work.
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However, there were workshops in which I didn’t like because of the final outcomes or just the process and the work itself. Firstly the doodle art workshop wasn’t a personal favourite because of how all over the place it was in terms of it being random which I didn’t like and I felt as though its quite childish in terms of appearance and I feel as though if I was given a specific theme for it it might have been more successful, then the workshop I really didn’t like was the Luke Dixon one because I really have a passionate hate for drawing people, specifically facial features, because despite practice I have never been able to master major detail like this and when it came to the actual work I didn’t like a single part of it and I really wasn’t proud of the outcome. Then surprisingly I didn’t like the architectural workshop because I found that my work was a bit too random and I think if I could do it again I would put more thought into it and plan ahead on what i’m going to do.
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toddmichaelrogers · 7 years
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Letter to You
All in due time
I am obsessed with the concept of time. When I read an article about light moving across time and space to reach us from distant galaxies, and how...what we are viewing in those distances may have already passed into death thousands of years ago, it gets my dick “Super Mario 2 (Japanese Version) hard”.
I think about equations of time v.s growth on a nearly daily basis. I am obsessed about it.
Some may feel possessed
I myself obsess about it
My youngest brother was born twenty-two years ago. His name is Ben. This week, he came for a surprise visit by telling me he would be here and then allowing me to forget. The added bonus was we got to celebrate his birthday together. That night, I drove him and his friends and Kelsie around (they may all be kids to me, but Kelsie’s been my brother’s partner for longer than I’ve known my own). We spent the night at a false speakeasy, and a giant championship pool hall, empty but for a few of us. As the night ended I drove the kids up to a hill called love circle, where a year ago I had imagined killing myself (I had a concussion, it’s cool).
In the car Michael, this kid I had not seen in a decade, popped in a song that maybbbbe three people in the world might have known. It’s a B-Side which could only be known to someone such as myself, someone who cares entirely too much for a half-forgotten Scottish 1980s group. 
“Is this fucking Big Country?” I asked. And then both parties continued asking in astonished voices if the other if they enjoyed the same band, until Michael ripped his shirt open to reveal a 1986 tour tee. “What the fuck?!” I screamed. And then preceded to tell him that Spell Saga was inspired by this band’s music; there was no need to explain what Spell Saga was to the kids in the car, they had seen the card game and its stacks of packages sitting in my living room.
The game has continued to haunt me. The rest of the packages will be sent out sometime in the next 30 days, and the manufacturer will be paid up for services rendered in the next week. That is about 1500 days since I decided to pursue the project, and over 800 days since the Kickstarter worked and we knew it was going to go to print. 
Sometimes people write very frustrated messages online wondering where their packages are, but the comments that mean the most to me are the ones where people are nice hahaha. No, I shouldn’t laugh, it’s haunting. Trying to do something right and trying to handle your own mistakes in public is about as nerve-wracking and humiliating as anything since 7th grade.
In the meantime I’ve taken all those worries and embarrassments and pushed them into the next Spell Saga release (Deck 1.5 The Under Sky) which may or may not work, we’re about to find out in March. The concept and design are so ridiculous and in depth that I’ve been forced to finish the entire thing before playing it at all--something I have not done since Spell Saga 4.0 was finished to show at Gen Con back in 2011. The whole thing could be rendered nearly pointless if the game isn’t fun to play--but then again, how can you know? Countless hours of Photoshopping and weird little doodles for an unknowable outcome. If that isn’t the official theme of Spell Saga, or indeed, everything I make, then I don’t know what is.
Speaking of time, games, and 7th grade (and as was mentioned in previous correspondence) this Autumn, after twenty years of waiting, I will be releasing a card game I started making in 7th grade. The illustrator is my friend Weshoyot, who just sent me the final pieces this past week. This is after we began working on it together 9 years ago! My god, I know this blog has a sort of theme running through it but even that takes me aback, (it also takes me a-straight-back, to 2009, when I was getting married to my first wife, designing EPIOCH instead of planning a wedding, and about to start work on both The Novel & Spell Saga...what a fucked up year…)
The novel I started still continues, and work goes well, actually. Yes it’s been 8 years, but after forcing a second draft on New Years day of 2016 I have now arrived, one year later, into new territory. Most of last year was spent agonizing through a muck of the same few chapters. It was almost nerve wracking to pick it back up, after a month’s rest, and knock-out another two new chapters without a hint of friction.
I was talking to my brother while he was in town (we always have the same talk and he hates it, but I always push it) “why aren’t you making things” I ask him every visit. I know he wants to. And I can’t speak for him, or rather, I won’t but I think there’s this perfectionist thing that hits in varying degrees. (I’m speaking more about myself then him, right now) I’ve read that  perfectionism is linked to depression, and alcoholism--this idea that things need to be a certain way, or they aren’t worth it--when really, that’s not true at all. 
Things just need to be as good as you can make them at the time, and then finished. I spent most of last year stuck on the same songs, and the same chapters, unsure of how to move forward, yet sure they had to be brilliant or cool.
But, I’m not either of those things. I don’t know how many passes I think will bleach the uncoolness out of something, but it doesn’t work. There’s something to be said for taking one’s time--and of course putting something away and rewriting it is definitely in everyone’s best interest...but still, finishing things as best you can is important.
I was talking with Meagen the other day about this, about how we as human beings tend to think if something is not hard or time consuming that it must not be good--that a novel should take ten years and not, say two. See? I even wrote the word “one” there and had to erase it. A novel? In a year? How drab.
We as artists don’t believe in ourselves, and pretend that putting time into a project will make it that much more special--or even better, waiting forever to start it...Fuck the fuck outta that. Make it and be embarrassed and move on. Just make it as best you can.
I am afraid of many things, including the new chapters I just wrote, because they happened quickly. But that is how art appears! It boils up like feelings because that’s what art really is. The craft is in getting past yourself to sit down and start the thing past your own fears. The craft is in making it sound good. the craft is in finishing it. I hope my brother starts making things, and I hope I start making things quicker.
The last day he was in town, I put on the pants I bought when I was 22. They were my favorite pants to write in for years, lasting through a full marriage and into a new one. A pair of 2005 women’s jeans so old the crotch is ripped out (my dick hangs like a cotton bulge). I looked at myself in the mirror, decided against them, and picked out another pair of pants for the evening. It was President’s Day, and my band EFFORTS was about to play our first show.
I had spent three weeks wanting to vomit every time I thought about it. But the date on the flyer appeared and with it, our last practice before loading our gear. By the end of practice I was too hungry to be nervous, and Zach, Geoffrey and I arrived at the venue to drink.
Meagen appeared, worried about a friend of ours. We stood in a parking lot across the venue and I tried to console here, it had been a rough couple of days for the both of us.
Last week was Valentine’s. I spent the night before the holiday of hearts holding our dog, Ellie, as her heart began to fail. It had been three years since the doctor told us she would die any day, and now it seemed the curse had come to claim her. I whispered nice things into her ears as she melted across my chest, and then we both feel asleep. 
I dreamed she could talk, and she told me she was hurting. And then she transformed between a young girl and grown women, back and forth again as Meagen and I held her. At the end of the dream she told me to look up at the ceiling to see what death looked like for dogs; it was a dance of shadows and light that made no scientific sense, but I understood all the same. When I awoke Ellie was staring at me, alive and well, he heart has since settled to normal.
So Meagen and I were already wound up when some really bad shit went down for a friend. I tried to console Meagen across the street, minutes before the soundcheck. I was already hot in my leather jacket, but I kept it on because the homemade arm band was tied around my right limb. The arm bands were an idea I had floated by Zach months ago and, black for mourning, with our logo, the crucibolt emblazoned upon it. I had sat down sometime between my dog trying to die and the show to make the both wraps at home using ribbon, velcro patches and iron-on sheets cut carefully and branded by my wife’s straightening iron. (i. have. never. been. cool.)
Meagen asked if I was nervous, and I said yes. Then, we walked into the venue to smoke and drink some more, Geoffrey and I both having quit tobacco except for rare occasions and the first-show-ever exception.
I waited 32 years to perform music--it still feels like a daydream that was never actually supposed to happen, but at the same time, if I’m being honest, events were always leading to this. It feels like I pulled off a miracle that was always going to happen.
On stage we were surrounded by a dimly lit room, filled with lots of people we knew. I didn’t know what to do so Zach instructed me from his drum kit on what to say to the sound guy. Then we launched into our newest song, “6 pack, nice abs!(stinence)” and I immediately heard my own vocals for the first time ever. It was an awful shock. But that feeling was overwhelmed by the rush of sound screaming out from behind me as I stared down at what my fingers were doing and sang as well as I could.
It was Zach’s idea to start with “6 pack”. I had spent two years planning for this moment, certain (god-damn-it, certain!) that when I got to play this shit live, the band (whoever that would be, there was no band, barely any songs, a pipe dream), we would start the show with the opening track of the album “everyone will leave and you”, but two hours before the show Zach said we needed to open with  6 pack, it, and it was agreed. Plans are just plans, sometimes real shit needs to happen.
Here’s a video of it.
We got through the first pre-chorus, and then I was almost smiling as we launched into the second verse
Some may feel possessed
I myself obsess about it
By the end of the song I was already sweating from the stage lights and the leather jacket; and the way I was screamed, stooped with the guitar strap across my shoulder, I felt myself nearly black out several times, a moment that would continue throughout the show.
It occurred to me afterward the opening lyrics were written while driving down the very same street the bar was on, near-as-exact to a year ago as I drove to buy airplane bottle liquor while texting my Father in an AA meeting.
Dad’s on his way to a meeting
I’m on my way to the store
And there I was, holding the guitar I grew up pretending to play, the cherry-red-heavy my Father let me borrow as he left for California, a son who had never written a song, asking someone he didn’t know very well for a guitar they never used anymore. 
He used to write little songs
He don’t write nothin’ no more
Then, the song ended and I heard people yelling and applauding. without looking up, Zach clicked us into the next one and we slammed through another two minute punk song about feelings (the boys and I recently decided to call our genre mid-punk, as we are so damn old compared to ‘dem kids’). It was during this one my head started to get away from me, that I began to realize I was, somehow on a stage and not in my imagination, and I had to grip the guitar pick tighter and focus on what I was doing. That is how insane it felt. And then, at some point during the set, stage lights started to jump and bounce everywhere and the surreality lifted into some sort of mega-dise of everything I had ever wanted.
My favorite part of the entire show was turning to Zach & Geoff between songs and laughing before we launched into whatever was next. Here was the set list, lest we ever forget:
6 pack, nice abs!(stinence)
everyone will leave and you
may you absorb all evil
the bridge song
better off without you
I saw a pale horse
west coast
ash to dust
word waster
vera
Everything ended with me singing a song I had written about a time 5 years ago when Meagen and a friend--the very same one I was consoling her about--were playing Super Mario 2 (Japanese version).
I’ll never be as happy as I was
On those Winter nights
After the show ended, Ben walked up on stage to give me a hug and congratulate me. “I can’t believe you just watched me play a show!” I shouted. I hope he noticed how perfect it was not, as I sure did.
It is so important to just go for things, and fuck up, and not be perfect, and then try over, and over, and over again. When it comes to art, you can do anything you want (if you’re meant to do it). And why would you want to do it, why would you dream about it everyday, if that dream wasn’t meant for you?
Work hard. Fuck up. Fix it. Let go. And finish.
That’s my plan, over and over again, and somehow, it looks like it’s starting to work. If you’re waiting for a package, I hope you have it by the time you read this. And if you’re ever in Nashville, I hope you can see EFFORTS play a show.
-mE.
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