Seriously, what does this bitch have to do before people Stop defending her.
Amber Heard ridicules Johnny Depp for claiming he is a victim of domestic violence in an explosive tape recording, exclusively obtained by DailyMail.com
She says: 'Tell the world Johnny, tell them... I Johnny Depp, a man, I'm a victim too of domestic violence... and see how many people believe or side with you'
Heard adds: 'You're bigger and you're stronger... I was a 115lb woman... You're going to get up on the stand, Johnny, and say, ''she started it''? Really?'
'I have never been able to overpower you... there's a jury and there's a judge will see that there's a very big difference between me and you'
The divorcing couple spoke over the phone in June and July of 2016, with Heard ultimately yielding to Depp's plea to settle out of court for $7m
Their truce crumbled in December 2018 when Heard wrote an op-ed saying she was a domestic violence victim, although not naming anyone
Depp hit her with a $50m defamation suit, saying she implied he was the abuser, which caused him to lose his prized role of Captain Jack Sparrow
In their legal battle, both accused the other of domestic violence and DailyMail.com published a recording in which Heard confessed to 'hitting' Depp
Amber Heard ridicules Johnny Depp for claiming he is a victim of domestic violence in an explosive tape recording obtained by DailyMail.com - telling the Pirates of the Caribbean actor: 'See how many people believe you.'
The estranged couple were barred from talking to one another in May 2016 when Heard filed for divorce and sought a restraining order to escape her 'abusive' A-lister husband.
But the pair continued to clash over the phone, arguing bitterly about who was responsible for the blood-curdling violence that marred their toxic 15-month marriage and accusing one another of leaking to the press, DailyMail.com can reveal.
It's unclear if Heard realizes she is being taped during the expletive-flecked, 30-minute recording, the second bombshell audio released exclusively by DailyMail.com in the space of a week.
You are f**king killing me. Your f**king people are trying to kill me,' complains father-of-two Depp, as he begs Heard to go through private mediation rather than thrashing things out in open court.
'You've turned me into a... my boy goes to school and has kids go, so your f**king dad's a wife beater?'
Tearful Heard denies pushing Depp, 56, 'under a bus' and accuses the actor's associates of circulating details to the press of her arrest record and lurid rumors she was a stripper.
The 33-year-old actress also rejects accusations that she instigated the wild, physical violence that she pinned on Depp in divorce papers,
suggesting a court would be unlikely to take the side of a man over a slender female.
The full list of audio clips can be found in the Daily Mail article.....
Part 2
Do you know I'm a 115, well not anymore, but I was a 115lb, almost 115lb woman,' Heard protests. Adopting a jeering tone, she says: 'You're going to get up on the stand, Johnny, and say, she started it? Really?'
The former lovebirds spoke several times on the phone throughout June and July of 2016, skirting the restraining order by having a family member initiate the calls, according to a well-placed source.
Heard would ultimately yield to Depp's plea to settle out of court, retracting her allegations the following month as the pair announced a $7 million divorce settlement.
Their marriage was 'intensely passionate and at times volatile, but always bound by love,' according to a joint statement issued on August 16, 2016.
'There was never any intent of physical or emotional harm.'
The truce crumbled in December 2018, however, when Heard penned an op-ed for the Washington Post lamenting her experiences as an alleged domestic violence victim, though never naming anyone.
Heard is currently dating her new girlfriend Bianca Butti and was seen arriving at the 4th Annual Women's March in Downtown Los Angeles last month.
The actress has said she is bisexual and previously dated women, including photographer Tasya van Ree from 2008 to 2011.
Depp responded to Heard's op-ed last year with a $50 million defamation suit, saying the 'hoax' account implied he was the unnamed abuser and caused him to lose his prized role of Captain Jack Sparrow.
'Ms. Heard is not a victim of domestic abuse; she is a perpetrator,' his suit alleges, accusing his ex-wife of manufacturing evidence and faking injury photos.
Heard doubled down with a 300-page filing of her own, cataloging the years of abuse she suffered at the hands of 'the monster', whom she met on the set of The Rum Diary in 2011 and married in February 2015.
The actress stood by those claims last week when DailyMail.com published a separate recording from October 2015 in which she confessed to 'hitting' Depp as well as throwing pots, pans and vases at him.
"I'm sorry that I didn't, uh, uh, hit you across the face in a proper slap, but I was hitting you, it was not punching you. Babe, you're not punched,' Heard says on the tape, recalling an incident the previous night.
It's understood that she and Depp routinely recorded conversations consensually during the breakdown of their marriage, paving the way for yet more bombshell recordings to emerge.
The latest audio clip published by DailyMail.com begins with Depp imploring Heard to reach an out of court settlement rather than waging war in public.
It appears to have been taped at Depp's end of things and the conversation has already begun when the audio supplied to DailyMail.com begins.
'I've been through the f**king hurt. You've been through the f**king hurt. I love you more than anything in life,' he tells his soon-to-be ex-wife.
'I do not want to go into a f**king court with you. I do not want to f**king tarnish your name... I want this to be done peacefully, between us.
'And if you don't like the way that mediation is going, take me back to court kid. Cause I can't. 'This is the last f**king chance Amber. This is it. Once I file those papers we don't turn around man.'
Heard insists, however, that it's Depp's team who are refusing to mediate, refusing to sign a gag order and leaking damaging stories about her to the gossip site TMZ.
'Everything has been a defensive move because I'm being called a liar and a gold-digger,' she says.
'And I am not lying about any of this s**t, and I am not after a dime of your money.'
Depp suggests the pair should write a 'mutual letter' declaring that the divorce will be settled privately.
'Listen to me,' he warns the Hollywood beauty. 'Defending yourself by throwing someone under the bus is not going to look good.'
Heard fires back: 'It's not about that. It would not be about me throwing you under the bus.
'You know what it would be? It would be released through documented people, coming on the record, and, having the protection to do so, that haven't had yet.
'It would be eyewitness statements. It would be evidence. Tons of it. And it would be through years.'
Heard goes on to ridicule Depp's doubts over the facial injuries she turned up with at court when she applied for the restraining order on May 27, 2016.
She also claims to have a trove of incriminating texts, paraphrasing a message to her publicist Jodi Gottlieb ahead of an appearance on The Late Late Show with James Cordon: 'I think, I've had accident, um, I think I may have, I busted my nose and two black eyes tomorrow'.
She tells Depp: 'No one is going to believe that one of the two alternatives, that I'm in a fight club or I've been getting, going through hair and makeup. . .through all these years where I have corroborating text messages between people that match those dates of those time stamped validated photos.'
Heard warns Depp that her lawyers are urging her to make a formal police statement, saying that a criminal prosecutor told her it was 'most solid evidence, case of domestic violence case we've ever seen'.
She declined to do so, however, because she did not want to hurt Depp further,
Heard says, complaining that their public spat has already led to her receiving death threats.
The blonde actress also denies that it was her who rang the cops during the May 21, 2016 dust-up that took place the day before she filed for divorce.
Depp was accused of hurling a cellphone in Heard's face at their downtown Los Angeles loft but two LAPD officers later said in a deposition that they found nothing to suggest a crime took place.
The actor-musician reminds Heard about an incident in which his building manager, Travis, had 'to come up and f**king pull me away from you' though it's not clear which incident Depp is referring to.
Heard also refers to Depp's security guards, 'who by the way,' she says 'have said to me multiple times that I am going to get killed.'
She adds: 'I'm sorry because the last time it got crazy between us I really did think I was gonna lose my life. And I thought you would do it on accident.
'And I told you that. I said oh my god, I thought the first time.'
Depp replies: 'Amber, I lost a f**king finger man, c'mon. I had a f**king, I had a f**king mineral can, a jar, a can of mineral spirits thrown at my nose. '
Their exchange seems to refer to a violent incident that took place in Australia one month into their marriage in which Depp suffered a severed finger.
He claimed his then-wife 'went berserk' when he asked her to sign a 'postnup' agreement, hurling a Vodka bottle at him which shattered on a marble counter-top and ripped off the tip of his finger.
Heard maintains in court filings, however, that Depp cut the digit off himself during an argument while he was 'drunk and high on ecstasy.'
'You can please tell people that it was a fair fight, and see what the jury and judge thinks. Tell the world Johnny, tell them Johnny Depp, I Johnny Depp, a man, I'm a victim too of domestic violence,' she says on the tape.
'And I, you know, it's a fair fight. And see how many people believe or side with you.' Depp cuts in: 'It doesn't matter; fair fight my a**.'
Heard replies: 'Because you're big, you're bigger and you're stronger. And so when I say that I thought that you could kill me, that doesn't mean you counter with you also lost your own finger.
'I, I'm not trying to attack you here, I'm just trying to point out the fact of why I said call 911. Because I was, you had your hands on me after you threw a phone at my face.
'And it's got crazy in the past, and I truly thought I need to stop this madness before I get hurt.'
Seemingly stunned by his former flame's version of events, Depp can simply reply: 'Oh my god.'
He reminds his ex-wife that she will have to repeat her allegations under oath in court.
'Do you believe all this Amber? Do you believe all this,' Depp asks.
'Yes, the f**k, yes, yes,' Heard replies.
'Do you believe you're an abuser? he asks. 'Do you believe you abused me physically?'
Heard replies: 'Do you know I'm a 115, well not anymore, but I was a 115lb almost 115lb woman. . .have I ever been able to knock you off of your feet? Or knock you off balance?
'You're going to get up on the stand, Johnny, and say, ''she started it''? Really? I have never been able to overpower you that's the difference between me and you. . .and that's a difference, that's a whole world, and there's a jury and there's a judge will see that there's a very big difference between me and you.'
Depp finally seems to lose his cool when his ex-wife accuses him of spreading rumors she was a stripper, snapping: 'I will f**king see you in court.'
He adds: 'You don't want to make f**king nice nice? I'm trying. I'm trying.
'But you know what? I loved you for so many f**king years but you know what? You didn't exist. You don't exist. You're not there. You're not there.
'You are a f**king made up thing in my head. And I can't believe you are doing this to me.'
The 31-minute recording ends with Depp saying he needs a moment to himself before a door can be heard slamming in the background.
Heard has thus far failed to have her ex-husband's defamation case thrown out or moved from Virginia, where the Washington Post is based, to California. However she did succeed in having it pushed back from last December to August of this year.
Depp's attorney Adam Waldman confirmed the recorded conversation took place while Depp was subject to a restraining order but said Heard initiated the call.
'Ms Heard delivers a chilling message to Johnny Depp any real abuse survivor will instantly recognize: Nobody will believe you. So you better do what I want,' Waldman told DailyMail.com.
'Ms Heard may continue to masquerade as a 'survivor' but the audio tape speaks for itself.'
Heard legal team offered a radically different perspective when provided with a transcript of the tape recording by DailyMail.com, complaining the recording was taken without Heard's consent and was also 'doctored'.
DailyMail.com has decided to publish the audio in its entirety so readers can form their own opinions.
'The latest recording provided to the Daily Mail continues Mr. Depp's ongoing efforts to abuse Ms. Heard,' her spokeswoman said.
'On the transcript of this recording (which notes that it is only a portion of a longer conversation), Ms. Heard repeatedly makes it clear to Mr. Depp that he was physically violent and abusive, that she feared for her life, and that even Mr. Depp's own security guards told her that if she stayed in the relationship, 'she was going to get killed'.
'What is most important on the tape, however, is not what Mr. Depp says, but what he does not say - not once on the tape does he deny Ms. Heard's statements about his violent attacks and the damage they caused, including her broken nose and black eyes.
'In fact, Ms. Heard specifically recalls that during a portion of the conversation not provided to the Daily Mail, Mr. Depp asked Ms. Heard whether she was recording the call and when she answered that she was not, admitted that she was not lying about the fact that he had abused her. As a result, Mr. Depp's use of this doctored recording at this time is not only a fraud and a crime, but an act of desperation.'
Amber Heard's spokeswoman provided the following statement from Dr. Laura Brown, a trauma expert and former president of Society for the Psychology of Women:
'Abuse is attempting to control a victim by any means necessary, including pushing this kind of news story. It is not unusual for victims of physical and emotional abuse to respond by acting to defend themselves.
'But because intimate partner violence is about coercion and control every bit as much as it is about acts of violence, abusers often respond to these acts of self-defense with attempts to reassert control.
'They do so through attempts at coercion, which often include projecting accusations of abuse at their victims for having had the audacity to attempt to defend themselves.
'It is not unusual for the perpetrator of intimate partner violence to try to use the self-defense responses of their targets to claim the mantle of victimhood for themselves.
'This is classic DARVO- Defend, Avoid, Reverse Victim and Offender – the construct developed by Dr. Jennifer Freyd.
'When society and the media buy into these false abuser narratives, they are enabling the perpetrator to re-abuse the victim. We should not be fooled by a DARVO narrative.'
From the audio conversation..
'You're going to get up on the stand, Johnny, and say, ''she started it''?' Amber Heard and Johnny Depp clash over the phone during divorce
JOHNNY DEPP: But I'm telling you now, if I file, if they file the f**king papers tomorrow, which means the s**t I've got to file before we go to court on Friday, if they file those papers, first of all, it's very bad for both of us.
AMBER HEARD: Well, your people are not going to file anything that's bad for you, trust me.
JD: No, no what you're saying, you've got to do something to protect yourself which means throwing me under the bus for the, some video about me beating you?
AH: Not me. I have to respond. I mean I'll have to go and pursue, no I'll pursue the whole course of action, because here's what you don't understand. If, if we do this, and basically will know. I called my lawyers and I said why aren't we negotiating now, what's going on, where are we, and they're like everything's under court.
JD: No, they won't settle. Your agents won't settle. Your lawyers won't settle baby. I'm telling you.
AH: We want to mediate. We even have a mediator, found a mediator and everything. But that was all worked out. But the thing that Laura [Wasser, Depp's attorney] wouldn't agree to, she did not want to agree to a mutual gag order. That's the problem, she doesn't want the gag order, why Johnny? Why? Why wouldn't she? Why wouldn't she want both parties not to talk about this in the press?
AH: I just want you to know. I'm not doing anything and have not been doing any move. Look it up, the timeline. Nothing was on the offense. Everything has been a defensive move because I'm being called a liar and a gold-digger. And I am not lying about any of this s**t, and I am not after a dime of your money.
JD: It's hurting You. It's hurting You. And it's hurting me. But the worst f**king thing is (unintelligible). Do you want to go to court Amber? Seriously? Do you want to go to court with this? I'm offering you an opportunity for us to make this finish in peace. Peaceful, man. We walk away. You go do what you gotta do, I go do what I gotta do. I, I, I've been through the f**ing hurt. You've been through the f**king hurt. I love you more than anything in life. I do not want to go into a f**king court with you. I do not want to f**king tarnish your name. I do not want to f**king tarnish. I don't want nothing. I want this to be done peacefully, between us. And if you don't like the way that mediation is going, take me back to court kid. Cause I can't. This is the last f**king chance Amber. This is it. Once I file those papers we don't turn around man. I know you hate me, and I know you whatever, I'm telling you now, there's no call, it doesn't need to happen like this. Please, for f**ks sake trust me man.
JD: Continuing through court is going to end up nothing but bad for you, and for me. It's just going to be bad. In any case, no matter whether we ruin each other or not, it's going to be f**king heartbreaking, it's terrible. Let's write a mutual letter that says look, in lieu of what's transpiring out there in the world with all this f**king crazy s**t, we have decided to take this private. We're not going to go to court, right now, over this. We are going to try to work something out, together. And then at least, at the very f**king least. I know you want to respond, and I know you want to defend yourself. Listen to me. Defending yourself by throwing someone under the bus is not going to look good.
AH: I'm not. It's not about that. It would not be about me throwing you under the bus. You know what it would be? It would be released through documented people, coming on the record, and, having the protection to do so, that haven't had yet. It would be eyewitness statements. It would be evidence. Tons of it. And it would be through years. And it would be unbelievable. Unbelievable, um, to imagine that either I'm (a) in a secret fight club, or (b) I've had um...
JD: A secret what?
AH: A secret fight club. Or that I have been plotting to do this for three years, and, while taking pictures of it, and documenting it, just saving it up for the right time when I'm not asking for any money and have nothing financial to gain from it. But no one is going to believe that. No one is going to believe that one of the two alternatives, that I'm in a fight club or I've been getting, going through hair and makeup or going through makeup through all these years where I have corroborating text messages between people that match those dates of those time stamped validated photos of either corroboration between people hearing us.
AH: All of that won't be me throwing you under the bus, that will be evidence, in the case. Which I will have to, it will be criminal as well, because I cannot go on Friday and file without filing a police statement first. And the only reason I haven't filed a police statement, which has been used against me by the way, every day, and the only reason I won't do it, haven't done it, is because I don't want to hurt you and that means it goes out of my hands and every, we had a third party guy, a third party prosecutor come and a criminal lawyer come, and they went, the problem is hearing from you like your biggest struggle, this is just, is that it is the most solid evidence, case of domestic violence case we've ever seen. And if you get this over to them or any part of it they will prosecute him. And I felt like, I would never want that. For you. Because I don't even, it's hard for me, I don't even call myself, like, in my head it's hard for me to even accept any sort of victimdom, ever. And I don't want to hurt you.
JD: I understand. I understand. And I don't want to hurt you either. I'm only going to say this. I love you. I love you. I've always loved you. And I know that, look, you do whatever you feel you have to do. I'm telling you now it's a mistake to go to court. If you want to go to court, we'll go to court. I would rather take care of it in a different way, I think it would be very good for you, and it would be very good for me. But you know what?
AH: I've been called a liar.
JD: Baby, you know what?
AH: And I've been called a golddigger.
JD: Baby. Baby. Amber, I didn't call you those things. I didn't call you those things.
JD: It's been going on too long Amber and we've got to stop this. It's got to stop it.
AH: I don't know how to get my reputation back.
JD: We write a letter together. Saying that we are going to take this out of the public eye. Saying that we are going to try and work this out on our own. Saying that the media has created such a f**king hateful storm that it's sickening. That we love each other. And that we want to make sure each other's OK. Have we had fights in the past, have we had this or whatever, f**k it, whatever, they already know all that s**t, it don't matter. Here's the deal.
AH: Oh, it matters. I have been, I have been, you have no idea, every ounce of my credibility has been taken from. And done so in a dishonest way. You know.
JD: Amber, the abuse, the abuse thing is, is we've got to deal with that, yeah. We've got to deal with that Amber.
AH: We don't have any way of, my credit, It's my credibility.
JD: Then why did you put that out there?
AH: I did not. You forced me, your team, forced me to by going on the offense.
AH: Well I'm sorry. I'm sorry because the last time it got crazy between us I really did think I was gonna lose my life. And I thought you would do it on accident. And I told you that. I said oh my god, I thought the first time.
JD: Amber, I lost a f**king finger man, c'mon. I had a f**king, I had a f**king mineral can, a jar, a can of mineral spirits thrown at my nose.
AH: You can please tell people that it was a fair fight, and see what the jury and judge thinks.
Tell the world Johnny, tell them Johnny Depp, I JOHNNY DEPP, A MAN, I'M A VICTIM TOO OF DOMESTIC VIOLENCE.
JD: Yes.
AH: And I, you know, it's a fair fight. And see how many people believe or side with you.
JD: It doesn't matter, fair fight my a**.
AH: That's exactly. Because your big, you're bigger and you're stronger. And so when I say that I thought that you could kill me, that doesn't mean you counter with you also lost your own finger. I, I'm not trying to attack you here, I'm just trying to point out the fact of why I said call 911. Because I was, you had your hands on me after you threw a phone at my face. And it's got crazy in the past, and I truly thought I need to stop this madness before I get hurt.
JD: Oh my god.
AH: And I never think about myself that way. I never defend myself that way. I never see myself as a victim.
JD: There's also Travis coming to get me, there's Travis having to come up and f**king pull me away from you.
JD: You're going to have to do this under oath too you know.
AH: I will because the unfortunate part is I can talk about all of this.
JD: Do you believe all this Amber? Do you believe all this?
AH: Yes, the f**k, yes, yes.
JD: You believe I'm an abuser?
AH Yes.
JD: You believe I'm an abuser?
AH: In May, In December, in, in April
JD: Do you believe you're an abuser?
AH: No.
JD: Do you believe you abused me physically?
AH: Do I physically believe, I mean do I believe I physically abused you?
JD: Yes?
AH: Do you know I'm a 115, well not anymore, but I was a 115lb almost 115lb woman and you have the capacity...
JD: That's not the question. That's not the question.
AH: Have I ever been able to knock you off of your feet? Or knock you off balance?
JD: You started. You started these things.
AH: You're going to get up on the stand, Johnny, and say, 'she started it'? Really? I have never been able to overpower you that's the difference between me and you.
JD: Why did you try?
AH: And that's a difference, that's a whole world, and there's a jury and there's a judge will see that there's a very big difference between me and you.
JD: You cannot automatically, you cannot think that it's just my side. You are f**king killing me. Your f**king people are trying to kill me. You've turned me into a, my boy has to go to school, my boy goes to school and has kids go 'so your f**king dad's a wifebeater'? You don't think about that Amber.
AH: You don't think also my family, and all the death threats? Me and every single person in my immediate circle of friends and family is getting also matters? And you don't think I, you don't think I?
JD: Death threats?!!
AH: Your people put this out. Why, why, why, why did your security go on the record and lie? Why, that's a proactive measure. Why did your divorce attorney get to file for divorce period? At all? Second, why did she have to go and leak to TMZ? Why if you wanted it private, is TMZ being fed information literally by Laura Wasser and Marty Singer every step of the way? My, my my my arrest records. Who put that in the media? The rumors that I was a stripper? Or, of course I can expect that. I've known every step of the way, every single step of the way everything you give 'em.
JD: I give 'em? I give 'em? That's it. I give 'em? I'll see you in court. No. I'll f**king see you in court. I will f**king see you in court. I never f**king said that. I never told anyone that. You f**king trusted me with that and I never f**king told anyone that. And you know what, Amber?
AH: Thank you.
JD: This is not, no, this is me. This is me saying I tried. And thank you. And I will see you in f**king court. You don't want to make f**king nice nice? I'm trying. I'm trying. But you know what? You, I loved you for so many f**king years but you know what? You didn't exist. You don't exist. You're not there. You're not there. You are a f**king made up thing in my head. And I can't believe you are doing this to me.
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The Upper Hand: Jefferson x Reader {Part 7}
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Hamilton -- Modern AU (Law School)
Jefferson x Reader
2,026 words
Part 7! I’m just gonna say sorry now... Another filler chapter that didn’t turn out how I had planned. Better chapters will come soon, including the reveal of who the reader has been staying with for the last couple of days.
Thomas stares at the blinking curser at the top of his Word document, his mind anywhere but the 10-page paper due tomorrow at 11:30am. Knowing that the ringer is on full volume, he resists the urge to check his phone. If you contact him, he will definitely hear it.
Three days without a word from you, no answer to the dozens of phone and text messages he had sent to you. Messages like,
Saturday, 11:45am: Y/N? I understand why you’re not picking up. I just wanted to apologize for my behavior. It was childish and immature and I can see why you’re so upset. I regret my actions and words toward Hamilton, for your sake. Okay, well, please call me back so I know you’re okay. Bye.
Saturday, 4:26pm: I guess you’re still not answering your phone. I’m just calling to apologize again. I’m sorry that I hurt you. And I’m sorry about your dress. You looked so beautiful in my favorite color.
Sunday, 3:58pm: Y/N, please answer. I miss you so much, and I’m worried. I can’t believe I messed this up. You deserve so much better than me. But… please, Y/N, give me a second chance. I…I need you.
Monday, 7:19pm: I know that I should just take the hint and stop calling, but you weren’t in class today. Are you okay? I took notes for you in Washington’s class and emailed them to you. And, just in case you forgot, our presentation is this Thursday. I understand if you don’t want to speak to me, but we have to finish our project. So if you won’t call me to talk about us, then please can we discuss the presentation? Bye.
He feels incomplete without you around, like he lost an important body part and all that’s left is a gaping hole. He hadn’t realized how much better his life was with you in it. Your laugh had the ability to brighten his whole day; when you glared or rolled your eyes at him, he could only think about how cute you looked. He finds himself thinking about the way you always tightened your ponytail when you were getting serious about something, or how you nibbled on your lower lip when you were deep in thought.
A knock at Thomas’ open bedroom door jerks him back to the present. James Madison stands in the doorway, solemnly holding a bowl and spoon in one hand. He looks Thomas over, his scruffy, unshaven beard, his unkempt hair sticking out in more crazy directions than usual, his sweatpants and baggy shirt. Never has he seen Thomas so un-put together. Y/N must really be doing a number on him.
James walks to Thomas’ desk and hands him a bowl of mac ‘n’ cheese. Surprisingly, Thomas places it beside the laptop and wordlessly nods at him. James has never seen Thomas leave mac ‘n’ cheese untouched.
“How’re you doing?” James asks quietly.
Thomas lets out a half-grunt, half-snort. “I think I lost her.”
“You’ve never lost anything before.”
“This is different.” The taller man leans his head into his hands. “She has a mind of her own. I can’t just make her do what I want.”
James chuckles. “That’s good for you. You need someone who can stand up to you.”
“But she’s gone. I’ve called her more times than I can count, but she won’t pick up. I barely got a chance with her, and I blew it.”
“I think that when she’s ready, she’ll contact you. She seems like she needs some space.”
Shaking his head, Thomas looks up at his friend. “I’m afraid that if she has too much time, she’ll forget me.”
“She could never forget you, Jefferson. You’re unforgettable.” James motions to the bowl of rapidly cooling mac ‘n’ cheese. “Now eat something. You’ll feel better.”
When James leaves, Thomas takes a bite of his favorite comfort food.
Suddenly, his phone rings, startling him into almost falling off his chair. He recovers quickly and grabs it, reading a number he doesn’t recognize, and answers.
“Yeah?”
“Jefferson?” a masculine voice asks.
“Yes. Who is this?”
“Hamilton.”
Thomas’ voice turns cold. “What do you want?”
“I know I’m the last person you want to hear from, but... have you heard anything from Y/N?”
“She made it pretty clear that we were done.”
“So, no?”
“Nope.”
“Shit.”
Thomas’s heart quickens. “Why?”
“It’s just that nobody’s heard from her since Friday at the restaurant. Laf, Herc, and Laurens haven’t gotten any messages, Peggy hasn’t seen her. Complete silence.”
Thomas grips the edge of his desk in panic. He hadn’t even stopped to consider that you could be in any danger. A sickening guilt gnaws at his stomach. What if you had been kidnapped? Or had gotten into an accident?
“Look, Jefferson, we’re going over to her apartment to look around. Hercules hopes that we can find some clues as to where she’s gone.”
There’s a pause, muffled arguing in the background followed by a muttered, Dammit Laurens!
“Laurens says we need to invite you, if you want,” Hamilton grumbles. “I’ll text you her address.”
“All right.”
The line goes dead, leaving Thomas sitting in stunned silence. You could be in serious danger, but there’s nothing he can do about it. He feels so helpless. Forcing horrible images of you in danger from his mind, he slams the laptop shut, forgetting the paper in a heartbeat. You are his first priority.
Fifteen minutes later, Thomas arrives at your apartment. Lafayette answers his knock at your door, wordlessly letting him enter. Hamilton is sitting on your gray couch, scrolling through your laptop with laser focus. Laurens is looking through some unopened mail on a side table. Hercules Mulligan and Peggy emerge from the hallway.
“Toothpaste and face wash are gone,” Herc announces.
“Looks like she took an overnight bag or something,” Peggy adds. But there’s a lot of clothes on the floor, so it’s hard to tell what she took.”
“She tried on nearly everything in her closet getting ready for her date with Jefferson,” Laurens informs, looking up at Thomas as he enters the living room.
Hamilton glares at Thomas but returns to his work when Laurens nudges his arm. “I don’t see any email confirmations for major purchases, like plane or bus tickets. I think she’s still in the city.”
“Who else could she have gone to stay with?” Thomas asks. He doesn’t know you well enough to conjecture about this.
The group congregates on the assorted chairs and couches in your living room, silence falling as everyone thinks about your other contacts.
“I think she had lunch with Aaron Burr once,” Peggy murmurs thoughtfully.
“That doesn’t mean she’d go stay with him, though,” Laurens interjects.
“Have you heard back from Angelica?” Hamilton asks Peggy. He avoids Thomas’ eyes and his body is turned away from him. Thomas fights the urge to roll his eyes. How immature is this guy? Still involved in a petty fight while his friend is missing?
“She said she hadn’t heard from her.”
“Didn’t she hang out with George Eacker and Charles Lee at one point?” Lafayette asks.
“Freshman year,” Hamilton mumbles, clearly irritated at the mention of those two. “She told them that she was from Nebraska, and they told the whole school. She was so embarrassed.”
Hamilton glares at Thomas, as if to say Doesn’t that sound familiar? Thomas clenches his jaw, feeling new regret for the way he treated you.
“There’s no way she’d even talk to either of them,” Hamilton states definitively.
The group falls silent once again. No one has any answers to the one question everyone is thinking in their minds. Hercules suggests another sweep of your bedroom for any overlooked clues, Peggy and Lafayette following him down the hall. Hamilton stays with your laptop, reading through old emails and attempting to log into your bank account to check your credit card activity. Laurens stays between Thomas and Hamilton, acting as a buffer between the two explosive characters.
Thomas feels so useless. He sits in a floral patterned armchair near the window—unbeknownst to him it’s your favorite chair—and skims the books in your bookshelves. Many classics, Jane Austen, The Aeneid, Odysseus, Charles Dickens. A few mystery books, a handful of period romances. There’s a big section on history, especially World War II. A small book with a tattered, well-worn cover catches his eyes, and he pulls it off the shelf. Harper Lee’s To Kill a Mockingbird. He flips casually through the pages, skimming highlights and annotations you’ve written in the margins. One page catches his attention.
“The one place where a man ought to get a square deal is in a courtroom, be he any color of the rainbow, but people have a way of carrying their resentments right into a jury box.”
This passage has been highlighted and underlined. An annotation in pink pen is in the margin.
Justice should be blind to any human-created prejudices, including color, nationality, sexuality. Lawyers should disregard these differences when representing clients and remind the jury to remain impartial, for the preservation of justice.
Thomas finds himself nodding in agreement with your note. It’s such a powerful, yet simple statement that he’s never really thought about before. Racial tension has always been an issue in this country, and the courtroom hasn’t been immune to it. Thomas remembers reading To Kill a Mockingbird in high school; he found himself being inspired to go into law because of Atticus’ passion for racial justice in the courtroom. He realizes that this book inspired you as well, another thing you two have in common.
The HamilSquad returns to the living room, gloomy expressions revealing their lack of success in your bedroom. Peggy grabs her coat and shoes.
“Guys, I think we should split up and check any places we think she might be,” she says, jangling her car keys in her hand. “Hercules and I are going to check out Angelica’s and our apartments.”
“Lafayette and I can call Burr and see if she’s at Alex and I’s apartment,” Laurens volunteers.
This left Alex and Thomas.
“Someone should stay here in case she comes back,” Alex says.
“I can.” Everyone looks at Thomas warily, but he ignores it. “Madison will call me if she shows at my apartment. I want to be here.”
Hamilton’s eyes narrow, but Laurens’ gentle hand on his shoulder stops him from arguing with Thomas. “Fine. I’m gonna go contact a friend, see if he can help me with her laptop. But I’ll be back to keep an eye on you.”
Thomas nods in surrender. The two men who need to apologize to you the most will be waiting if you return to your apartment. While the others put on their coats and jackets and tersely say goodbye, he wanders into your kitchen for some food. Not eating for twelve hours has really taken a toll on his stamina.
You have a lot of frozen premade cookie dough in your freezer, so he pulls out a roll. The fridge has sandwich fixings and a pitcher of strawberry lemonade, which he also takes out. While the cookies bake, he makes a turkey, tomato, and lettuce sandwich, hungrily consuming the nourishment.
After he rescues the cookies from almost burning, he checks his watch: 2:17am. No wonder he’s so tired. He grabs a cookie from the tray and wanders into the living room. He’ll sleep on the couch; hopefully Hamilton will be quiet when he comes back. But when he lays down, he realizes that he’s too long for the couch. Either his feet and half of his lower legs or his head and shoulders are lying off the edge.
Exhausted and frustrated, he gets a sudden idea. He stumbles into your room, taking a moment to appreciate the decorations—it’s very you—before tiredly tugging off his shirt. He tosses the shirt onto the floor and tumbles face-first into your bed. The pillow smells like you, he sleepily realizes as he pulls the blankets over his body. Within a minute, he is asleep, his mind filling with dreams of you.
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