HMM HEY idk if anyone has asked you this yet but pls tell me abt alec’s mom & his relationship with her as a human !!! and then possibly his current perception of her looking back + his views on maternal figures now. does he appreciate them, does he shy away from them, etc??

                            character development  // always accepting *!

first I wanna stop n saw a special thank you to jess who I love and adore beyond the stars. like ur an amazing friend and person but also I got so emo when I saw this bc ur legit the only person who regularly and frequently puts in effort to show me you’re interested in Alec and appreciate him and it genuinely means the world to me. now! mothers.

alec adored his mother. they lived a very simple life back then and so there wasn’t much more to their relationship beyond just loving kindness and a warm home. there concerns barely extended beyond the plot of their very small cottage. he doesn’t remember her beyond the feelings he had for her anymore but he does know that he loved her immensely. he would often wake up early to pick wildflowers for her. she always put the twins to bed even when they were older, making sure they were together and safe before she could sleep. she’d tell them that no matter what they always had each other and they should never hold back on loving on another, never let hate or anger get between them. she’d reassure the twins that the villagers were in the wrong when they persecuted them, but had enough sense to show them how to stay discrete. she didn’t know her husband came from a long line of witches, but she didnt for a second consider rejecting her children for their magic. she loved and fought for them until their dying day. she died being beaten to a bloody pulp by the crowd that strung up and torched her babies in front of her; Alec and Jane saw it happen while they burned. unfortunately Alec has a fresher memory of that than most other thoughts of his mother. the trauma and proximity to his transformation made it easier to remember. beyond this all he has left is the knowledge that he loved her like he does Jane: unconditionally, healthily, properly, truly. she was the only other person he loved. 

looking back, she’s a murky memory. he knows that aro would have seen her in alec’s memory when it was still fresh and because he was a vamp when he saw it, aro can recall it with perfect clarity. he’s asked him to describe her and even depict her in drawings and paintings so he can remember. for a century or two, aro pacified him by telling him that seeing her and holding onto her memory would impede his grieving; of course, this was just his method of letting Alec’s allegiance to anyone outside the volturi decay. but after some time, he did have a portrait of her commissioned, but it never really satisfied Alec. he couldn’t be sure it was accurate and the idea that he couldnt recall her on his own upsets him to this day, he keeps her portrait in his room along with a smaller version on his vanity. its all he has to remember her by beyond vague feelings of unconditional love. her face is lost to him. the only other memories he has is the memory of the night he died (the colors and faces have long bled out) and a memory of lying beside his sister, going to bed with their mother sitting beside them, all three of them laughing.

when it comes to maternal figures, alec doesnt necessarily actively seek them out, but sorta sees them in a lot of the women in his life. this is actually part of why, despite his bisexuality, its hard for him to form romantic connections with women. he so often sees them as maternal figures instead. most notable are the volturi wives. he spends hours of each day in the tower where they’re forced to stay. only Jane spends a similar amount of time with them; everyone else barely visits them. he loves to spend time with them up there and bring them news of the world changing and talk for hours about his practice with the piano and violin, or with hunting/his power, etc. but his favorite activity is when he gets permission to take them out. he will spend hours strolling around the rose gardens, his arm in theirs, and just talk with them. its his favorite place in the world and he loves to be alone with the wives and let them spend a moment of peace with their adoptive son in the gardens. 

when it comes to other mother figures, Alec is very sympathetic and appreciative of them. of all the Cullens, despite having no real interest in her, Alec would probably kill Esme last. knowing she acted as a mother to the others really softens Alec to her but in actuality, its just his unspoken desire that no one else watch their mother be killed as he did. if it ever came down to fighting the cullens, he’d petition aro to kill her last, or only before Carlisle. if it didnt happen that way, he’d blind the ‘kids’. he doesnt do it because its right; he just doesnt like his trauma being repeated. it makes him feel powerless.

tl;dr: Alec has been drinking his Respect Women Juice since 799 ad. and loves his mother like no one else. he sees her in other mothers and has a very high respect and love for mothers but nothing compares to his own mother, or the little memory he has of her.