#❪ ⠀ * ⠀ ─── ⠀ 𝙸 𝙺𝙽𝙴𝚆 ( 𝙰 𝚅𝙴𝚁𝚂𝙸𝙾𝙽 𝙾𝙵 ) 𝚈𝙾𝚄. ⠀﹕ ⠀ char. study. ⠀ ❫
🥲 i love the idea of bucky going back to his roots , remembering his family , his culture , indulging himself into books and music and always ever the student
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this week's thunderb.olts spoilers below but ,
scopophobia tw /
jdskfgh aside the fact that they made bucky look ... a lot more younger ( or maybe it's a reflection of how much time he's lost in the war and everything else ) , that bucky did try having a sense of normalcy.
he tried not dwelling in his past ( and in some ways , he doesn't so much anymore ) , he tried what it was like being more like a regular civilian , but his mind is just constantly racing because it's all it's been doing for decades. thinking of contingency plans , having eyes on the back of his head , keeping track of safehouses , potential threats and just a large network of people he's keeping an eye on before and after becoming the new revolution.
like the guy's dreams are horrific : ( devil's reign )
that and including dreams he's had during ww2 ( captain america and bucky #623 )
and there will be some good days for sure !! there will definitely be some good days where he feels like he can rest , sigh , sleep a little more easily. i mean he's said it himself , that “ every time things are finally stable ... finally good ... something happens ... to wreck it all. “ ( captain america #616 ) after his not guilty verdict in court. he does really think that the trajectory of his life is going to be the next fight , the next battle , the next war ??
... explains his aversion to a lot of relationships / the idea of starting a family. he just doesn't think he can do it , not in this life anyway. he's happy helping others , and though he would like to be the quiet helper ( the advice giver , the guy who helps patch you up , the backup ) , he firmly believes that there's a lot of more fucking work to do before he can even taste that. to be the quiet helper is probably the closest to normalcy he'll get in this life , and he's definitely working hard to gain that peace , he's still at least hopeful in that reality.
: ( side character to main character to side character again bucky. but i am just happy he has the trust and the ability to rely on the thunderbolts for now. and alpine , always.
i'm rambling but i think these thoughts have been in my head for some time ! i'm happy to see that bucky has someone he can share his brain with.
it's onto the next mission for bucky , because HELLO ?? HIS TARGETS ??
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i've said this on my archive, so i'm bringing it back: pls don't forget that bucky would lie to your muse if he needed to :')
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: ))) the way i have too many thoughts and not enough time. “it’s all i’ve thought about for months,”
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do yall?? notice how bucky sometimes. holds his breath when your muse is tending to his wounds …
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concept living in my mind rent free? just tws [undercover] as bucky and the shift from bucky to tws with every passing moment. the visible change.
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𝚆𝙷𝚈 𝙳𝙾 𝚈𝙾𝚄 𝙷𝚄𝚁𝚃?
BECAUSE YOU CANNOT HOLD FREEDOM: the sky is only air. the ocean is only water. the only freedom you will ever have is breathing, drawing this air again & again & again & again. you have to exhale, and it costs you something - you have to quench your thirst and it comes back again - there is nothing solid in being free, it is not a status to be achieved but an action to do. free is an active status, and you worry you'll somehow forget. there are people who would control you. there are orders you could obey. you keep coming back to take this next breath, your own part of the forever-freedom of the sky, but sometimes you think to hold your breath. it is deceptively peaceful underwater. you don't know if you would notice it if you started drowning.
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ARE YOU A SOLDIER, A POET OR A KING?
A KING: "there will come a ruler whose brow is laid in thorn smeared with oil like david's boy" duty. strength. resignation. you were told to do things and you did them. the world is something that was put into your hands and that you must deal with - so you will. you have a rigid back and steady hands, either metaphorically or physically. is it nature or nurture ? you don't know. you are tired of being steady. you dream of feeling alive. not that you aren't, but, sometimes, it's hard to remember that there is a heart between your ribs. your love is where you breathe. come on, breathe. in. out. it starts now. art: st catherine of alexandria, guido reni
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can you imagine a time where bucky feels safe enough to ramble on about something? something strange that happened to him some day, or something he remembers or something new he’s experienced, or HIS INTERESTS ?? just bucky losing track of time, but in a positive way ... is making me all soft
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𝚆𝙷𝙰𝚃 𝚃𝚈𝙿𝙴 𝙾𝙵 𝚂𝚈𝙼𝙿𝙷𝙾𝙽𝚈 𝙰𝚁𝙴 𝚈𝙾𝚄?
THE NOCTURNE: THE RISE: there is a darkness which has tormented you, and the genius lament burdens you, but fear not ... you are the pull of the tide and the light of the moon on a winter path. you are the soft notes which increase in intensity till the pianist pours over the keys with such passion it can only bring tears to your eyes. you cannot do things halfway though you yearn for it, and you envy those blessed with blissful ignorance, but in the end, you know you'd not have it any other way -- you are the rise they are afraid of till they cannot look away. / YOUR SONG: nocturne in c minor by chopin
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♡ nbd, just thinking about all the different cultures bucky or tws would’ve been exposed to. the changes in his voice when he’s speaking particular languages. how much his long island brooklyn accent comes out when speaking english ... how warmer his tone gets when he’s speaking romanian. what he tends to talk about ( or NOT talk about ) more in other languages ... this is DEFINITELY not an invitation to teach him new things, nooo ... 👀
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it brings a certain type of mood, just. bucky doing regular things, just seeing him do grocery shopping ... picking up food for him and alpine at the grocery store, stopping at a sandwich place he likes, being in his apartment and there’s still laundry to be folded. like how his apartment smells like probably coffee, or there’s a small bunch of dried lavender taking up some space in the bookshelf he bought himself ... sticky notes that remind him to water the plants, or some list, leftovers in the fridge. dishes drying, whatever it might be ... aside from all the weapons he keeps hidden throughout the house ... ( and the notebooks he still writes in ). or even just bucky out doing holiday shopping bc tis the season
... but also there are just too many choices of cereal in grocery store shelves, it’s kind of overwhelming.
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just thinking of how well bucky falls into the role he thinks he needs to be in so quickly, so easily ?? how his countenance softens, how easily he can fake a laugh, his voice warming up, or just thinking of the verse where we have tws acting as bucky, just made to believe that he was in deep cover for years 🙃
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it all seems a little too familiar somehow ... hmm ... ofc he keeps some fighting styles / techniques from his time as tws. when he has to
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another day, another moment spent thinking about how easily bucky would lie to your muse if he thought he needed to / thought he should. could be small, telling them that he’s fine or that he’s not bothered by something or him just hiding what he’s been up to. entire missions, letting them in on just basic details or something different all together :’)
because of that one scene in tf/atws where he’s just “👀 i... didn’t do anything.” ayo, sometimes he chooses to be a bad liar. for one reason or another. or, on a somewhat unrelated note, just the idea that bucky takes what people think of him and uses it to his advantage? there’s plenty of people, i’m sure, that don’t know about his code words not working anymore... and a handful of other things people know about him or tws. playing to people’s expectations so that he can find a way forward or out.
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“does steve know you’re here?”
bucky: “if this conversation goes how i think it will go, steve’s better off staying the hell away.”
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