// I wish ta do smth tonight on here but struggling with writing, so like this and specify some muses/a fandom on either end, and I'll send ya some asks!

also that post being said , i'm just gonna be quiet for awhile ! ic and ooc :) i'll pop on ic sometimes ofc i'm not abandoning anything and i love joshua more than life itself , but i'm going through adjustments and therapy and my chronic flareups are kicking my ass so i'm just. i've realized i've been stressing about my activity a little bit and i'm gonna stop. im just gonna get to responses ic and ooc when i have the time and energy, but i wanted to say that so that u guys don't think i'm just being a jerk... i'm not purposefully ignoring anyone, my energy levels are just sooo low and im trying to focus on my classes and health more than anything

LIKE THIS FOR A STARTER FROM JUGHEAD JONES the IIIPLEASE LIKE THIS STARTER AND I WILL GET TO YOU ALL. xoxo I have different verses for Jughead Jones, so if you want to tackle into one of them let me know ! And we can discuss something. 

 Serpent Verse. Preppy Verse. The Hunger Verse. Vampire Verse. Spiderman verse ( BUT ALSO YES HELLO NEW YEAR , MEANS FRESH START. I think I found a way to balance life + Tumblr life. I have missed you all so much, and missed writing as well. I guess I always try to pile up a lot on myself, which lmao.... oh fucking oh well it's my red flag. But ignoring that, I just gotta remind myself this is for fun, for creativity and to meet amazing people who become part of your life, one way or another. So yes, this is a fresh start for a starter call, it doesn't have to be ANY of those verses you see up there... we can always plot on something new, or hell... whatever. But yes please give this a like if you wish to tango with my Jughead. )

Ya girl adopted a cat

Meet Yuffie.

Like for something short. Multi's please specify muse or narrow it down <3

I can try this maybe, you can like this for something small in the askbox !!

Don't like that)

I have a kitty now! His name is Marcel and he has heart on his leg ^^

Blog Notice!

I will be heavily sporadic/potentially low activity as i have recently gotten news about my mom's condition that is. alot! and i am going to be prioritizing irl shit for the time being. i may be around especially for escapism shit but for right now i will be limited to discord and even then i may be spotty. Figured I'd let y'all know!

I finally beat the game for myself ! I had watched @otlaw stream it for me when it first came out , but playing it myself definitely brought about so much more wonder and intrigue to the world and characters for me . I have a lot of thoughts about how I'd like to run this blog and general canon divergences that I wish to piece together for the sake of ease of access for all of my writing partners ! this certainly is not all of them , but they are the ones i've given greater thought to thus far . this is a long post , by the way . . . oops .

triggers mentioned as follows :

parental abuse ( mother , specifically ) , religion , suic*de alluded to but not specifically mentioned , possession

first , i'd like to touch on joshua's relationship with his parents .

his relationship with elwin was a bit more strained than the game let on , or how i imagine the relationship between elwin and clive . i think elwin put a lot of pressure on joshua ( intentionally , or nonintentionally ) and forced him to live in a bubble of burdensome expectation . i think he dearly loved his father , but the yearning for his approval oft made their connections rocky . i don't think they had many heart - to - hearts , but i do think joshua admired him . he loved him , of course , but i don't think he felt safe or appreciated around him , and i don't think they knew much about each other beyond the surface level and their inherited family dynamics . his ' inner voice ' section states : ' i don't want to disappoint him . . . '

his relationship with anabella was complicated . anabella made him feel protected , like he had someone who should ( not 'would' , necessarily ) care for him , and he relied on her heavily . she was the parent he looked to most to care for his needs , but unbeknownst to him , she did not care for many . her interests were always self - serving , but as a child , joshua was blind to it , and when he wasn't , he'd simply deny it in the favor of giving her the benefit of the doubt . because he loves her . as his ' inner voice ' section states : ' she can be scary , but it's only because she loves me . ' we can see in the scene that causes her death how joshua just wanted to save her . he wanted to help her . he believed there was still a chance that things might turn around , while jill and clive simply look pained that he gave her the chance and she betrayed it . again . i believe it was a common theme for them growing up . joshua being anabella's defender . not necessarily speaking up on her behalf , but making excuses to make sense of her behavior . i believe he often read between the lines with everyone , and everything . and still does . and there is certainly more to their relationship and the things she does and what he learns that i think about during his time with the undying , but that's for another post and another time .

on the subjects of his relationships with others , i wanted to point out specific variations that i will be adopting into my portrayal with my affiliates ( of these characters listed ) exclusively and a lot of this is stuff we have plotted out together and discussed .

CLIVE ( @otlaw ) : joshua and clive's relationship has so much nuance to it . they were brothers who were raised in a toxic family environment with very different experiences between their parents , the realm , and their expectations . they love each other so wholeheartedly and dearly , but it also does not undo the tragedy of their pasts , nor the tragedy of the night of flames . they are brotherly in the way that they are so aware of each other's flaws , but so aware of each other's strengths as well . certain jealousies plague them , and their guilt in regards to each other seems unending . they are full of love , but they are so riddled by the bitterness and blight ( figurative and nonfigurative ) of this world and the ways their lives have affected not only themselves , but each other . their paths are so closely interwoven . if i can recall , clive is the only person on their side that we see joshua get explicitly angry with .

JILL ( @glacierites ) : screw what square enix did to jill and joshua for real . first amenity : when joshua first awakens with jill at his side after the 5 year skip , he does not simply brush her aside . he blinks awake in a steady realization of who he is with and why he is where he is , but does not presently realize that it is jill who is kneeled beside him . he is transfixed on helping clive , as he gets up to try to save him , but when jill calls his name , he recognizes her immediately . his eyes tear up and he tells her he will return , before priming and flying forth . joshua and jill have a lot of nuance as well , but get along better than clive in joshua in terms of their similar personalities . they spent a lot of time together as clive trained and sparred and share many sacred memories , secrets , and inside jokes with each other . also . he hugs her before they leave for origin . he gives her the moment with clive of course , but i'll be damned if he will hug dion and mid and not jill . he loves jill . that is his family . that is his sister .

JOTE ( @tutelaris ) : jote and joshua are so much deeper and more complex than canon lets on for me ( and prince , but let me not put words in his mouth , haha ) . jote became a trusted companion of joshua's as she was one of the few among his age group and helped to nurse him to health during his five year coma . after awaking , jote as beside him most every step of the way . she helped him with physical therapy and comforted him ( when he had no choice but to let her ) through regaining tragic memories and the nightmares of his past . they shared many deep moments together as he learned to reconstruct who he is as a person , and she learns that she is indeed a person ( as this is how joshua treats her , not just a subject to the phoenix ) . they are comfortable in silence with each other , but they also share secrets with one another , sacred moments and memories , and exclusive behavior and remarks . i like to think that when clive and jill around the two of them they're like 🤨🤨 also note that while i do ship with prince's jote romantically , joshua and jote do not act on romantic feelings for each other until joshua returns from origin in his joshua lives au verse ( which i will expand upon in a future post ) .

*** i also want to note that i am COMPLETELY open to writing with duplicates of these characters and developing separate plots aside ! i am not exclusive to anyone and would love to explore more potential dynamics !

and now for something completely canon divergent that i just think would make things much more interesting : joshua can commune , at times , with the phoenixes of eld , his forefathers . he has always been in touch with his powers , but truly awakened to the phoenix at age seven , two years before the remembrance ceremony . during the awakening to the fullness of his power , he entered a vision - like , dream - like state where he was held in a center room within his mind ( reminiscent of the ruins at phoenix gate ) as his forefathers granted him advice and gave him warnings of the future and what the power of the phoenix truly entails . they spoke much on the healing , and protector aspects of things , solidifying his resolve to one day become a person who can protect the people he holds most dear . but really , to protect everyone he is able . i like to think that they can speak to him , but he cannot speak back , and they only speak through his mind in these visions , when the calling becomes extremely important . it does , however , take a physical toll on his body , oft knocking him from his feet and sending him to his knees in confusion and slight agony and pain .

on the subject of communing with spirits and perhaps , gods : i'd like to think that joshua housing ultima inside of his body did things not just to his body but to his psyche as well . i don't think ultima ever possessed him by any means , like , joshua was always in control of his body and his actions ( illness(es) aside ) , but i think he'd see pieces and fragments of the fallen , memories of ultima's in his dreams , and random glimpses of the fallen and origin .

and while we're talking about 'religion' : i think " the founder " or the man who founded the twins , became someone idolized and almost worshipped over time . he became a legend that was voiced into a god by centuries of cult - like religion that eventually became regionalized as a mass understanding of his sanctity and their gratitude toward him . i think this is why they often use him name in exclamations similar to ' by the [gods]* ' , ' thank the [heavens]* ' , or simply , ' founder ' in a sigh of relief . ** could be substituted with the way they use ' founder ' .

GILTLION; is an independent, private & selective rp portrayal of Sabnock Sabro from Mairimashita! Iruma-kun. Penned by Nobu. (21+ | she/her | MST) May contain darker themes. {verses/crossover/OC friendly} read pinned carrd before interacting. NOT SPOILER FREE

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Ya girl hit the big 3-0 today happy birthday to me I feel old

t.oby s.tephens is so JonCon to me. I literally cannot picture anyone else.

Sorry, I haven't really gotten any motivation to be on Tumblr. I've been busy with work among other things. I'm going to get a new and better job position but this also means learning new things and my head is so full. Other good news is that I recently closed things off with therapy, SO FINALLY after 3 years of intensive conversations, I can leave that chapter of my life, and just.. move on. ^^

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Time to get ready for work. I will be replying to drafts throughout the day at work. I want everyone to know that you are all perfect the way you are, beautiful and are special. Also don't forget to hydrate before you ... hookrate? I tried.