#❀ fragrance in thaw (ooc).
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after 5 long months ive logged onto this account. ive cleaned it up of any cluttering posts. i feel a lot of regret for how ive handled certain things and for how harshly ive always treated myself. i had tried to be optimistic on this blog, you can see it, but deep down i was miserable. this isnt a sob story post, it is more of an update and analyzing myself too. because to analyze me back then and me now is to see growth as a person.
tbh i was struggling with a lot of things months ago and even relapsed in things i wouldn’t have imagined i would have. this isnt for validation at all, i like writing things publicly like this, like a note for myself? idk.
i know i would make comments about my mental state back then “how it got better” but that was never the case. it was temporary.
to be quite honest, i will get into the real real gist of it. i had moved out of my parents place like in october of 2022. living with my family has always been stressful, i wont go into that though. my roommate was an incredibly selfish and two-faced person. there were red flags but i either hadnt noticed or ignored them. she was a complete pos, imo, and even reveled in being one. she was even gross and her sister who also lived with us was also gross. i feel bad for her cat bc she wouldnt clean the litter box that much until she wasnt so “depressed”. i am honestly not sure, i put quotation marks bc honestly i feel that she was just lazy as fuck. she was one of those girls who followed trends and went out clubbing a lot and had lots of hook ups. i dont know man, maybe i seem like an asshole but ive struggled with depression since i was a kid and still find energy to clean my cats litter box. granted, i have better coping mechanisms and thought processes and am just in general in a better place mentally but idk i love my cats to death and feel like a dickwad when i even go a couple of hours over with cleaning their litter box. she also didnt try to help with her cat becoming obese basically and stuff, so yea. sorry for the long tangent, my roommate was a dickwad.
after moving out of that hell hole (i wasnt apart of the lease so it was p easy), i think i moved out beginning of february? well, situations happen and i move out of parents place with my bf at the end of february. place ends up being fucking infested with bed bugs and the landlord lady was a bitch and so yea. i moved in and out like 4 times in the span of november 2022-march 2023 i think? tbh, that was all pretty stressful. but i think the good thing out of it was my cats are indoor cats now and i love taking care of them.
while cleaning my posts of clutter, i had a wave of nostalgia both good and bad. it wasnt that long ago but it feels like it. i loved rping hu tao and i think a lot of the reason as to why i could never rp with a lot of ppl was because i was harsh to myself and held myself back. i felt like i didnt properly convey hu tao’s portrayal and compared myself to other hu taos. it is easy to compare because it isnt your writing or portrayal. i could look at myself, be a harsh critique about my looks, but at the end of the day there could always be someone out there that sees things differently. in a more positive and less judgemental light, ig. i also had and still struggle with social anxiety. it has gotten better and perhaps it has helped that ive learned to be more understanding of myself like i am with others.
i love hu tao as a character and always will. and id love to come back to her! but tbh i have fallen out of the game and havent been playing it. i havent played the event including hu tao. i am not sure yet if i am going to make such a commitment to rping again but looking back at the posts made me feel a bit happy. i kinda like how i wrote her, i liked interacting and being goofy.
so, there is that, i guess.
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huxiao posted by the official paimon account on weibo oh my god
cute and powerful lion dance duo!!!!
#( mhy just admit they're canon already sjhdf )#( hu tao has enough enthusiasm for the both of them just look at her!! )#°◦.｡.◦· ʚῖɞ | fragrance in thaw | hu tao#°◦.｡.◦· ʚῖɞ | guardian yaksha | xiao#°◦.｡.◦· ʚῖɞ | ooc
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pls like this post for a starter. i will make them one liners most likely.
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Love as beautiful as dawn
Pairing: Shakespeare x MC
No of words: 1K
A/N : It's been sitting in my draft for a long time. And also, sorry if it feels a bit ooc for Shakespeare. This story is from Shakespeare's POV.
Plot: It's their one-year anniversary following their declaration of love.
Shakespeare's POV :
I woke up from a deep sleep and realized that one of my arms was feeling numb and heavy. But I smiled as I looked at the person responsible for my arm's condition. She was still asleep and had her arms wrapped around mine own waist.
I pulled her closer to me and kissed her softly on the forehead as she began to move in her sleep.
She wished me good morning in her sleepy voice, which was a melody to my ears. I couldn't but greet her with yet another kiss, on her rosy cheek this time.
I caught a whiff of her hair's fragrance, which reminded me of the sapphire oceans mother Earth hath covered herself with. It felt like a comforting hug from mother earth.
I am always awestruck by her fierce persona. She hath thawed all of my façades I had been hiding under with all but sheer desperation to hide mine own fragility.
“What are you thinking about Will?” her question got me out of my head. ‘I was thinking how wonderful it feels to wake up beside you, the maiden I love the most.’ I wanted to tell her. Yet, I shook my head, telling her it was nothing.
LATER THAT EVENING:
‘Twas our first anniversary since we professed our love for each other. I wanted to create a little surprise for my beloved maiden. I told her to get ready as quickly as possible. I told her to wear the dress that was kept in her room. After sometime, she came wearing the dress.
I was astounded by the beauty that graced in front of me. She looked nothing less of an angel. My angel. Anyone ought to fall in love with her. Her beauty was so radiant that even the goddesses might feel jealous of her. Even the brightest stars in the sky would pale in comparison to the light radiated by her.
I held her hand and led her to the carriage that’s been waiting for us and we left for the ballroom where comte has organized a celebration for us.
A mother gotta celebrate all the firsts of her children regardless of age after all.
One look at her is enough to take my breath away. I could never get enough of her beauty. She looked at me with the orbs that are as deep as the oceans yet as bright as the shimmering diamonds.
I came back to my senses as she hooked her arms around mine and exclaimed, “Hey!, Earth to William!” She waved her hands in front of me. I looked at her confused but soon broke out into a series of laughter upon seeing the amusing sight in front of me. She was huffing at me but that looked like a cute pout to me.
We mingled with the mansion residents for sometime and soon enough, it was time for a ballroom dance. And I nudged her softly, extending my arm towards her. “My dearest Ladybird*, Will thou accept this man's humble plea and dance to this melodious music? "
(*Ladybird- this word was used as an endearment word in Shakespeare’s Romeo and Juliet)
Her smiled as she accepted my extended hand as she curtsied. The soft piano music waltzed through the room and so did we.
I was above the moon when we were waltzing. Each second seemed like an eternity and ‘twas at this moment that I wished the heavens would never end. But god forbid for the moment had eventually come to an end.
I heaved a disappointed sigh and she chuckled at my disappointment. But I was excited. For I had more in store for her.
When the time seemed appropriate, I went to MC and whispered in her ear, “ May I steal you away for some time milady?”
She was probably flustered at my proximity but it was all worth it. (You’re so mean Shakespeare, using her flustered state for your amusement??) . But she accepted it anyway. I led her whilst holding her arm to the rose gardens that were blooming and were painted by nature in blood red and the moon hung high up in the sky. She looked around the place as her eyes took in the beauty of the place around her.
She looked at me with a surprised look on her face and grinned all of a sudden. At that time, she looked like a fairy amidst the vast garden that has descended onto the earth. The moonlight further added beauty and made her look like an ethereal being. I pulled her close to me gently and brushed her hair locks behind her ear.
Her cheeks turned deep red as I leaned down to kiss her softly. We sought comfort in each other’s arms as we stay there embraced for such a long time it felt like an eternity.
I withdrew from her hug and bent down on one of my knees and took out the ring I had bought for this moment. She let out a small gasp and her face told she was waiting eagerly for me to proceed. I showed her the ring and took her left hand into my hands as I spoke,
“My fair lady, wilst you be the heroine of my story where the stage is set by the thread of life itself? Shall we create our own story, my muse?”
She gave me the widest smile I had ever seen in my life. My heart skipped a beat as my gaze landed on her carefree smile. I can never get used to that smile, I thought.
“Of course, I will my love! I love you the most! We shall continue creating the most beautiful love story the world has ever seen. For the rest of our lives. ”
She took my hand and placed a kiss on the back of my hands. I held her hand and we together looked at the star-strewn sky.
I thought to myself then ‘ Me, someone whose smile hides the secrets like the darkest nights, and her, whose smile eclipses the brightest star in the sky, together create a stage where our love blossomed will be as beautiful the dawn itself.’
#ikemen vampire#ikemen vampire shakespeare#ikevamp shakespeare#i'm sorry if it sounds so cliche#but i am a hopeless romantic#and an ardent nature lover#so all my descriptions are filled with nature >///<#ikemen vampire fanfic#ikemen vampire fluff
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testing + tag dump
#ic; foul legacy#ic; the listener#ic; skyward sonnet#ic; kreideprinz#ic; dawn#ic; fragrance in thaw#verse; undetermined#verse; main#verse; the abyss#verse; 500 years ago#ooc; bonnie speaks#kamera; pictures#asks; ic#asks; ooc#submissions; ic#submissions; ooc
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like dis post for a starter~?
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the end
Dearest followers, I know I haven’t really been on in the past two months. I apologize. I’ve been honestly trying to figure out what I want in life. How to cope with life and the illnesses I face. Perhaps it doesn’t quite matter much to really post this message but I rather do so for the tiny chance some may be awaiting my return.
I’ve decided I am not returning to roleplaying. Not that it isn’t a nice hobby but there are many factors in my decision making. I’ve ultimately decided its more of a waste to try and work on such a fruitless hobby. Everyone around me has either been burnt out or nobody wants to write with me. I’m not trying to garner pity or anything, it is the pure truth.
I’ve loved writing Hu Tao a lot. She is a fun character to write and study. I felt on several occasions me and Hu Tao have similar personality traits. I loved making memories on here and discord and the people I have met. But things change, I always thought of myself as somebody who could wait for long periods of time. In the end, it is more beneficial for me to let go and pursue bigger ambitions of mine. You may wonder, “Paint, this is quite literally just a tumblr RP blog and those last sentences were a bit too deep for the context?”, but that message isn’t just for tumblr RP but a message for others to read and think. Stop waiting on others who wouldn’t wait on you. Get up and do what makes you happy. You can truly only depend on yourself!
I won’t delete my blogs for the sake of memories. And who knows, maybe you will look back on this post and find a spark of motivation to do you.
All of this played a bigger role in my life and thus I shall close this chapter of my life.
Have fun roleplaying!
#❀ fragrance in thaw (ooc).#please next hu tao blog#realize hu tao has 100% lemon demon energy#his songs give me those vibes of her ya know#wacky quirky wuirky#ancient aliens my mind is a cave
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...like this for an inbox call~?
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Hey guys, tbh I wanna write but I recently moved and the wifi situation is wacky. I'm afraid to do anything on mobile cause I'm afraid of the graphics being humongous or smthing. Will have to do a test post soon!
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Hu taos bday today°
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@adventurouswind
( Congrats! You got this, the otp shall be strong! 💪 ✨ )
yessss! thy otp shall be strong!
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welp, when i get the mora & books my otp will be official muahahaha!
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updated rules a bit red parts are updated. just clarifying things
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what if hu tao has a harem
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im going to take this time to just play genshin with my buddies.~
feel free to hmu or perhaps like this post for a plotted starter? maybe ill remake my promo or smthin... i forgot to rewrite that modern au, thankfully after work tomorrow im off around the afternoon.~
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to do list:
inbox call for @/visiocorx
starter for @/visiocorx on multi and hu tao (chongyun and hu tao and albedo and sucrose)
plotted (?) starter for @/debtofaloneyaksha
reply to @/lentlilly ask (tsarista and hu tao)
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