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danothan · 2 years
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idc if i’ll be 45 by the time it happens, i have GOT to become an lpstuber in my lifetime
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hi i just discovered your webcomic !! i very much love it a lot and i was wondering if yo could maybe clear up the worm's anatomy ? cuz like, one minute they have boobs except its referred to as a he and then it has a dick but its still a queen ? don't get me wrong its insanely cool but if you would be so kind as to enlighten me on the subject it would be very much appreciated !! keep up the good work !!
I’ve been getting a lot of new readers and I think its been a while since i’ve gotten questions about this, so I suppose I don’t mind recirculating some information again. Hopefully i can cover a little bit more of the deeper nuances about worms and their relationship to gender/sex/pronouns that i haven’t talked about before. Its best to keep in mind that pronouns and also body parts (genitals/breasts, ect) arent always indicative of gender or sex. I think this is safe to say this is true for.. even outside of my story.
**SOME SPOILERS BELOW IF YOU HAVENT READ THE ENTIRE COMIC... SORRY I RAMBLED***
Anyway-- In the case of hydragora worms (which ill focus on as they are the ones with the king/queens classifications), their pronouns are not even exactly related to their genders or sex at all! but rather the type of ‘class’ of worm they are. Technically, all worms are able to lay eggs and also fertilize them. there are no “girl” or “boy” worm. Sometimes their rituals with how this process happens are different depending on what kind of worm they are, but they are all able to shape-shift their bodies to look how they want-- well, based on what they eat-- so body parts like boobs and genitals are really just accessories. For some worms, they’re important parts of their body that help make them comfortable, for others they couldnt give a fuck about what is swinging around. it really depends on the individual. Worms can mate without even having any visible genitals just as long as they squirm around in the necessary fun fluids with some sort of .. open.. orifice to absorb it with.... worm sex can be real damn freaky i wont get into it rn.
Back to the pronouns though. What does it mean??? Well, Kings do not actually mean male and Queens do not mean female..Even though we humans generally associate these pronouns/words with male and female! To make it as simple as i can, I try to explain or ask others to think of it like..Kings (he/him) - Typical characteristics: Lazy, Important, Need to be worshipped and protected. Very sexually appealing. Also have mysterious powers. Often have little weird crowns.Queens (she/her) - Characteristics: generally very large, can regenerate, specifically hunt down kings to kill them. Super strong. Generally have cool looking tails for some reason. Very colorful because that is useful for intimidation and showing off how strong they are.Regular worms: want to worship kings + protect them, also desire to become knights. technically speaking-- i would say that the lack of pronouns is the most ‘suitable’ pronoun to describe them. some even casually adopt he/she/they pronouns but usually in the space of interacting with other species. anyway, they’re loyal and subservient. knight worms: the special king-appointed upgrade of regular worms, they often adopt he/him pronouns through this process but it is reflective of their close bond with their king. (the very simple format is thinking the three basic worm genders as LAZY, MURDER and WORSHIP.)
*ok more specific character spoilrs below YOUUUVE BEEN WARNNNED IM WARNING YOOOU ok done warning**
Some worms break from this system and try to reinvent or reinterpret pronouns for their own while still interacting with worm culture/society. A couple examples of worms that do this are Agent Paper and Nail. (although really, its hard to think what worm character in ffak does not do this lol) Paper is a woman wishes to be viewed/treated as a woman by ANY species she interacts with. But! this doesnt mean she identifies as being a queen worm however- even tho she uses she/her pronouns. She just is a female worm. That identity is important to her even if, for a worm, it is far more ‘binary’ way of thinking than worms typically exhibit. Other worms will probably view her as a wanna-be-human or close minded. But just because the majority of worms are very fluid in many aspects of their gender/bodies/identity/sexuality doesn’t mean paper has to conform to this fluidity as well. The idea of a ‘Binary Gender’ for worms is typically very confusing (or an example of someone who is misinformed) to those who understand that worms generally do not adhere to a binary system. Especially for a worm who is NOT trying to disguise themselves as a human and integrate with human society (Aka, like Dylan who mostly interacts with humans and generally tries to remove herself from worm culture/society completely. Dylan does not even WANT to be considered a worm while paper still LOVES being a worm and associating herself with worms. shes just a woman worm. dylan is a woman. just not a worm woman. she will begrudgingly accept she is still technically a worm, but the identity of woman is less important to her and is more just the default of being viewed as a cis lady by humans and dylan is like ‘yeah whatevs’.)Nail is a queen worm, which typically have she/her pronouns, but he goes by he/him pronouns and also is fairly assertive of that. However, this doesnt mean he is a man or wishes to be viewed a ‘Man’ or ‘Male' (specifically) or even as a “King.” its more like... his own interpretation of what he/him means, which is about authority, dominance and most importantly: power. If he would pick a ‘binary gender sort of thing’ (while rolling his eyes bc he thinks its stupid while also thinking its important enough to get annoyed at when people dont respect his pronouns) he would pick being a man and would vehemently reject being viewed as a woman, but in a more deeper level that is not actually how he sees his he/him pronouns as a man thing. (even between being NB/male/female he would still pick man because that just seems ‘direct to the point.’ and satisfying) He also generally rejects the label of Queen worm too, but will begrudgingly or unenthusiastically accept that he is one. He is also considered an ‘odd’ queen because he is very small in stature and generally has muted colors of browns/tans instead of flashy ones. He has been teased at this too that he wasnt QUEEN enough by being so small and puny lmao.
To backtrack a little, As worms integrate with human society, or even hekatons (which that species also mimics a lot of human society), they will often adopt the ideology and system of how pronouns are used. Or at least, will be forced to process how other species will view them based on the shared language of using the same words, despite it meaning many different things... to not only groups of people but also on the individual level. I think thats an important thing to consider that there are many different dynamics, interpretations and journeys interacting all at once and influencing each other and are constantly evolving and branching out. Even the lines between what is a king/queen/other worms really ARE is blurry because its all on a spectrum of.. various physical characteristics and behaviors.
And to go into EVOLUTION and BLURRY LINES... As we can see with a worm like, Jacket for example... while he is specifically NOT a king, he is also more like a unique blend of features from queens/regular worms and also knights. because he WANTS to be a knight he already uses he/him pronouns despite not actually having a king already and hasnt even gone through the specific knighting process. Jacket sees He/him as words that mean total loyalty to the king. Whoever the king is. And if someone were to try to put him in a specific box of queen/king/knight/regular worm they would be unable to place him b/c he is something else unique entirely. and while jacket uses he/him pronouns i think at the core of it he literally does not give a fuck about language at all, or genders, or labels. those are all nonsense things. he relies only on instinct and desire.
Phew. ok I could ramble on and describe every one of my worm characters, but I’ll leave it at there for now. Crimson is even more confusing bc she is a fucking hybrid human/mandragora worm, using a goddamn hydragora body, and has like 2 other clone heart selves and all this other fucking bullshit. i have been writing this for like an hour. lmao
I hope some of this is communicates at least, its a little difficult to orchestrate and articulate all the levels operating here at once in a simple-to-digest manner. the fun thing about ffak at least is that if you dont want to think about this stuff you dont really have to--although id think it enriches the experience a bit.
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comicteaparty · 5 years
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March 14th, 2019 CTP Archive
The archive for the Comic Tea Party chat that occurred on March 14th, 2019, from 5PM - 7PM PDT.  The chat focused on Sketch Dump by Aleks Stock.
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RebelVampire
COMIC TEA PARTY- THURSDAY BOOK CLUB START!
Good evening, everyone~! This week’s Thursday Book Club is officially beginning! Today we are discussing Sketch Dump by Aleks Stock~! (https://sketchdump.org/)
Remember that Thursday discussions are completely freeform! However, every 30 minutes I will drop in OPTIONAL discussion questions in case you’d like a bit of a prompt. If you miss out on one of these prompts, you can find them pinned for the chat’s duration. Additionally, remember that while constructive criticism is allowed, our focus is fun and respectfully appreciating the comic. All that said, let’s begin!
QUESTION 1. What is your favorite scene in the comic so far and why?
one scene i particularly enjoyed was the scene where its revealed clear as day, no holds bar that Iladyl is a slave. https://sketchdump.org/post/179755402309/sketch-dump-c02p06-i-wanna-hug-iladyl-qaq the way its revealed is so straight forward but so simple really works i think. cause its just treated as a fact of life and that is indeed how it would be for the world.
i also loved the animated shattered screen effect because its both grounded in familiarity yet the way its illustrated kind of gives it that scifi fantasy tech feel that lets you know that nope, definitely not from earth
i also find the scene where Brogod meets Jen to be kind of fascinating. mostly cause i think Brogod is an interesting character since his first inclination is to make contact and help. meanwhile in the "real" world, cause i get the impression of simulation, his brain seems to be kind of exploding. but mostly i like it for the interactions cause its not the first reaction you really expect when meeting some crazy alien entity in a weirdo simulation world of sorts.
khkddn
im not done reading through the archive but i really like the scene in the beginning where the lights are flickering, it looks so cool
RebelVampire
yes i think the lighting effects are pretty cool. especially cause of how its animated because the animation kind of feels like the world is glitching. which fits with the whole world we see jenna in later
ezzy
i also like the beginning scene with the séance. just nice to see the characters fucking around. it really gives you the sense that they've known each other for a while
khkddn
it's a great artstyle overall, love it
ezzy
same!
khkddn
yeah i liked seeing the characters interacting too during the seance, some good moments there(edited)
ezzy
i love any sort of multimedia webcomic but the use of animations is rly good
it makes the world a little more vibrant
RebelVampire
yeah i agree it is really great to see the characters kind of just being them. no life threatening quest. no world to save. just a silly seance thing as an excuse to get together, hang out, maybe get some food later. i think it was a good way to introduce them since it gave more breather time to get to know them.
ezzy
i like the little hints that there's more to the characters, like that dudes scar
RebelVampire
yes or some of the subtle looks passed between certain individuals. it was interesting to see a little back history at play that we dont get to know about yet
ezzy
it really makes you want to read more
khkddn
all caught up now! definitely agree w @RebelVampire about the scene revealing Iladyl is a slave. a few pages prior to that i think lyral says something to the effect of "i stole you" which i didn't understand at first but once it got to that page i was like ohhhh
RebelVampire
haha i kind of suspected from that line but it was one of those lines that makes you go "hmm maybe not"
and then the story said nope, it was the worst thing you could expect
khkddn
harsh, harsh reality
RebelVampire
although im really curious about what gave it away. like i assume the horns or something, but im not sure what about them announced "slave over here everybody"
khkddn
i think it was the horns, since there is a panel focusing on them when those people say to leave the slave alone
maybe the hair color too but idk
RebelVampire
QUESTION 2. At the start of the comic, we’re introduced to a slew of colorful characters. Which of the characters shown so far caught your eye the most? What about that character in particular interests you? Further, which of the character dynamics intrigued you the most? From what has been shown so far, especially of the human cast, what do you make of everyone’s relationship with each other? How do you think this devil summoning ritual began, and why is everyone simultaneously showing up and being grumpy about showing up? What do you make of every character’s choice of sins, and in what ways do you think that might come into play later?
ezzy
i like jake and jen a lot, mostly based off their designs
RebelVampire
while brogod definitely interests me, i think the character who caught my eye the most was Jake. Of all the humans he seemed the most down to earth and cool. that and of all the characters jack couldve called at the beginning, he calls jake. and that really makes me want to know their past relationship history cause who you choose ot call first is pretty revealing.
ezzy
i think there's a lot of things being set up for the future and i'm rly interested in seeing where it's going
obviously these are characters who've known each other for a good while and have their own rituals and inter-relationships
the devil summoning is being done for the sake of ritual rather than anyone (besides jackson) caring about the results
so i guess it will be interesting to see why it worked this time and how it will shake up their relationships now that its worked
RebelVampire
yes, definitely. cause if this doesnt test their friendships, nothing will XD
there definitely is a lot of character stuff being set up though
i think from the opening scene the character im most worried about sin wise is allen. cause allen chose sloth and life and while jake played it off as him just being a millenial, umm, yeah. i mean you dont pick life as a sin for nothing
which since allen is the one with the scar
maybe hes got a serious case of survivors guilt
and survived something horrific
khkddn
im really curious about that scar, since it seems like he makes a bigger deal of it than anyone else
RebelVampire
yeah especially when it really isnt that bad of a scar
so theres gotta be emotional ties to it
and not just vanity
since vanity is a sin and was not the one he picked
ezzy
oooh i didn't make the connection between the scar and the sin he picked
khkddn
if there is a connection, it could go multiple ways. maybe it was a situation where he got the scar through inaction, or maybe something happened to him that made him a more passive person
RebelVampire
that could be too
that would combine it well with sloth
the character dynamic i think i want to know most about is blake and ana. cause of this page https://sketchdump.org/tagged/comic/chrono/page/13
there are so many ways to read that conversation and that look
khkddn
oh that's true, i didn't notice that the first time reading through
ezzy
(can i just say i really like the composition of that page)
RebelVampire
yes, i love the visual flow on this page, the slight animation, and all the shot choices. it was a really good build up for that look
ill also point out blake wrote love as his sin
so that is a blush
khkddn
the was blake is in the second panel vs the last panel are super different. if it's related to why he picked love, then i wonder why he and ana haven't haven't seen each other in a while (based on the "long time no see")
RebelVampire
ok wait. im rereading this and the papers are sin and sacrifice. so love isnt the implied sin but what blake wants to sacrifice
so is it like...ana is his ex hes still in love with but he wants to move on?
khkddn
hm that would explain them not seeing each other
RebelVampire
yes and the awkward response from blake
ezzy
oooh
RebelVampire
if life is allen's sacrifice, then thats even worse tho and stands to reason that hes probably guilty of inaction
QUESTION 3. Within the comic, an “innocent” devil summoning seems to go horrifically wrong. What do you think exactly happened to everyone involved? Why did this summoning go so awry, and why did none of the other attempts before have the same results? How does all this tie into what Brogod was doing regarding summoning and translating? Did Brogod somehow cause what happened to the human gang, or were both sides victims? Also, why was Brogod found unconscious and barely breathing after making contact with Jen? What’s even going on with Jen? Lastly, do you think Brogod is okay and, if so, will Brogod try to make contact again?
I do think Brogod was responsible for why everything went awry. Cause its like he was trying to summon the summoner which probably created an extreme magical paradox
ezzy
my guess is that the two "summonings" happening at the same time is what caused everything to go all whoopsy-fucky
khkddn
i think the previous seances never worked because each time, there wasn't someone like brogod on the other end doing their own seance
it's weird that brogod got all messed up but the humans didn't. maybe it's because there was one of him and seven of them?
RebelVampire
i assume brogod got messed up more from making contact with jen
rather than the seance itself causing it
like had he bailed and said "no lets not talk to this person" he mightve been fine?
ezzy
i think the thing with jen is like... either happenning in his head or he's like projecting his conscious to another plane and thats why he's fountaining blood
RebelVampire
yeah
i got the simulation impression
like brogod was tapping into another world
another world i would not be surprised was purgatory or something
whereas the humans got physically transported
simulation world also cause last i checked human eyes dont glow blue like that
unless jen was secretly a cyborg all along
khkddn
im trying to figure out what jen is saying in the non-translated parts.... too hard >_>
RebelVampire
by process of elimination i believe jen was the one who chose to sacrifice limb, so i hope that thing brogod put on her doesnt have long term consequences
khkddn
sacrificing limb sounds pretty straightforward in terms of making it literal, wouldn't want to pick that one
the only non-translated part i think i understand is the one on this page https://sketchdump.org/tagged/comic/chrono/page/32
p sure she's saying something about his tail
RebelVampire
makes sense
i can read "That's a
but the rest i cant figure out
im really curious why brogod seemed to have all those translation bug things as the thematic colors we keep seeing to represent each character
khkddn
they also flew away into the void (i think they did, he tried to catch them) so im wondering where those lil things went
RebelVampire
i mean the most likely conclusion is to the other characters
considering in the latest page we can confirm emily made contact
and clearly the language barrier would still apply without help
ezzy
yeah, it would be silly to have the characters run around without being able to speak the language
so thats a neat solution
RebelVampire
also interesting. cause magic shenanigans must be at work
i do think brogod is gonna be fine and be back again to figure out wtf is going on. cause i think after he wakes up he might realize he had something to do with it. or hell make contact with jen and gleam info about their situation and go "whoops"
ezzy
im really curious about what's gonna happen lmao
RebelVampire
QUESTION 4. As the comic has only gotten so far, there’s a lot of speculation to be had about the future. Do you think the human gang will ultimately get back to their homes? At the very least, do you think they’ll at least be able to find each other given they all seem to be quite separated? How do you think Iladyl will be involved with the plot considering his friend seemed to have located Emily? Why is the friend interested in involving Iladyl in the first place? Do you think everyone else has made contact with someone like Emily and Jen? On a different note, what about the world interests you the most right now? Finally, in general, what sorts of conflicts, events, or anything else are you hoping to see or think might happen?
so in line with the topic of sin and sacrifice earlier, im really concerned ana is gonna die. cause thats one way to sacrifice love
ezzy
i feel like they'll be separated for a long time and will have to deal with their relationships while being apart and thrust into a new and foreign situation
you know, like college
RebelVampire
yeah i dont think theyll find each other anytime soon. although the characters who know them may find them. like maybe brogod will find Iladyl's friend and they can chat about their alien friends. but i assume the humans are kind of like in pockets where they cant make contact with each other until theyre out in the actual physical world where there isnt a white void everywhere.
ezzy
they'll probably have to reevaluate their relationships under duress and will be different people by the time they see each other again
RebelVampire
yes, definitely. i mean not even their relationships. theyre gonna have to evaluate themselves cause they all seem to be early 20s or younger with exception to jake who seems to be working at a hospital
tho exception in the sense that im not sure what his job is there
ezzy
the description does say 2 teens and a number of young adults
i wanna say five but i cant fucking count
RebelVampire
i assume most of them are around jack's age
again minus jake
cause it really depends on what jake does
cause if hes a nurse or doctor or something hed be a lot older cause med school takes a long ass time
ezzy
if hes a nurse he might be younger i think(edited)
because nursing school doesnt take as long
RebelVampire
true. but tbf jake could also be some sort of genius and did the whole college thing at 10. hes mostly just the wildcard i wont put eggs into the basket
on a different topic, i bet the others are not having as great as time as jenna or emily. cause i will be surprised if they all manage to meet someone who legitimately wants to help them
ezzy
my guess is that theyre all within 4 years of each other
it will be interesting to see if they all have like... a demon counterpart to play off of
RebelVampire
i think thats plausible, just all their demon counterparts might not be the best of ppl. like knowing slaves are a thing in this world makes me think one of them is kind of destined for it
ezzy
yep
RebelVampire
the bit of world im most intrigued by is from this page https://sketchdump.org/post/174655505354/sketch-dump-c01p24-minor-seizure where brogod gets mad about almost damaging the most priceless artifact in the palace. cause i cant decide what hes talking about, although i assume its the lighter. and if so, wtf happened in the world that its the most priceless artifact
alternative could be talking about the computer, but considering technology seems rampant idk
khkddn
it does look like an ordinary lighter, but who knows
(ordinary lighter w blue fire, that is)
ezzy
hmm the computer says something about a gift and lyddal(?) also mentioned a soul gift
maybe its a soul lighter
lladyl lmao
RebelVampire
hmm that could be
but now that tells me why the friend probably wanted to get Iladyl involved
maybe Iladyl's soul gift is something that will help
with emily
COMIC TEA PARTY- THURSDAY BOOK CLUB END!
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painandselfhatred · 6 years
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life is too stressful the pharmacy im forced to use is fucking with me i cant get the accutane even after i did everything they said and they wont give me my needles for t which i NEED cuz i cant use the 18g again it doesnt fucking work and i still havent gotten a job and the only jobs i can get sound awful and make me wanna kms and the thought of having any kinda job rly makes me wanna kms and i crashed my parents car which they needed cuz my moms car got ruined and so now they only have one and im stuck in a shitty abusive home and i dont think ill ever be able to survive on my own i cant do anhthing right im going nowhere with my life i cant make myself go to even community college and i cant handle talking to people like a normal fucking person and conflict terrifies me and all my dreams are either dead or ive given up on them and i never follow through on anything and im just a useless worthless waste of space and so maybe i really should give up. my head is constantly fuzzy and im always forgetting things and getting distracted and i cant remember anything from before highschool and i get random flashbacks and panic attacks constantly and i can never think straight and im constantly fucking DISSOCIATING and its just getting worse and worse and im in constant pain but nobody believes me or wants to help and i cant handle being an adult at all and everyones constantly harrassing me about getting a jpb or going to school bUT I CANT OK I CANT I FUCKING CANT LEAVE MW ALONE and i just feel so absolutely hopeless and worthless and anything i say i wanna do i never follow through on i havent even started that webcomic. my datemate doesnt actually love me theyre just pretending and even if they do im a disgusting jealous fuck who doesnt deserve such a good person like them. and i dont even know who or what i am i dont understand anything and im barely here anymore. i probably could get on disability but sinve im forced to live with my parents they wont pay me shit and also i have no idea how and nOBODY WILL HELP ME CUZ NOBODY FUXKING LISTENS. im so hopeless nothing i do matters bcuz i never do anything and i just dont deserve to be alive i cant handle existence i feel so trapped ill never be able to live on my own i couldnt even figure out what to do when getting in an accident i cant handle anything i feel so sick of myself i cant do this im a worthless excuse for a human being. im utterly disgusted withmyself and my body i feel like a freak and awful and obnoxious and annoying and the flashbacks dont help even tho i dont even know whats happening during them and i feel so detatched from my own fucking life like whats even the point. i need a job to leave but i cant handle any job so i cant leave and i cant even find a job that will hire me i cant do anything right and even if i did ill probably want to lill myself before i even start or within the first few weeks because im just that hopeless. im giving it a week to get better and if it or i cant improve im going to kill myself this is it i cant take it anymore i cant take the hell that is my existence. altho i might do some stuff right now because i cannt handle this
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