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gynecologistmsfrizzle · 1 year

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older butch lesbians, living happily as butch women, who say “if I were a kid now I would have been a trans man instead of a lesbian” are a whole lot closer to being trans— not ‘potentially’ trans, not ‘might have been’ trans, but really, actually, literally, trans, in their present lived experience, she/her and all— than they are to being transphobic. but I don’t think any of you are really ready for that conversation.

#I saw a video on YouTube where this older butch was chatting with a transmasc guy #and she said ‘you know if I were young now I probably would have transitioned’#and he said ‘why if you were young? it’s not too late’#and she chuckled and said ‘oh maybe I dunno’ sort of brushed it off #and i was sort of like. well it made me kind of sad.#i think in everyone’s rush to denounce transmisogyny we have completely lost sight #of the fact that the lesbian community’s trans elders include an awful lot of ‘cis’ butch women.#it’s like. it’s just fucking weird being a ‘cis’ butch with Quite Significant Dysphoria #who went on t for a while and presents very masculine and is planning on top surgery #and looking at these super feminine trans guys on tiktok who are read as cis women by everyone who sees them #who don’t want medical transition #and to think that I know much much more about what it is like to be transsexual—#and in some ways about what it is like to be transgender— than they do #and that DESPITE that there is no room for me in trans spaces unless I go back to using they them pronouns #I dunno. It’s just really lonely. I was talking to a transfem friend of mine about this the other day #& she mentioned something about political versus internal concepts of gender that really vibed with me #I can’t summarize it here but. Yeah. Anyways. Lonely.#rhi talks

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