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hi i’m gonna be deleting this blog soon and moving everything to @swiftfiles so if you wanna be mutuals follow me there <3

Fox Mulder is absolutely insane. He's delusional he's an insomniac he has an oral fixation he's mentally ill he has no friends he's a porn addict he's a poor little meow meow and sososo in love with his coworker. He also has a big coat and a lot of ties.

Can you imagine if we had an episode with flashbacks of toddler Mulder. Like I’m already a simp for his grown-ass self but seeing him as a small little boy, little toddler Fox I would actually have melt into a glittery pile of pink goo 😩

horrifying realization that they casually had a baby named fox running around

The X-Files: Max (4x18) // Closure (7x11)

THE X FILES | Kitsunegari (5.08)

I’m homesick (Homesick - Noah Kahan)

Orestes, trans. William Arrowsmith // The X-Files, 2x2

The funniest thing about the x files has gotta be mulder’s expense report. Just imagining some poor fbi accountant being like “what the fuck do you mean mulder flew to Hong Kong??? Who approved this???”

Then you were frozen. And I remember I hugged you until you were not frozen anymore.

most people can agree that the x-files mythology episodes devolve into nonsense pretty quickly, but i still like to watch them anyways because there's a good chance my friends the lone gunmen show up

oubliette (o͞o′blē-ĕt′) a dungeon, the only entrance to which is through the top [from the French oublier meaning to forget]

Fox Mulder in Oubliette (3.08)

thinking about that creepy doll that mulder saved after his mother died, then wrapped in “baby” paper so scully would have a present to open, and how it probably belonged to samantha (or at least was played with by her) and how by the time he had to go clean out the house, IVF had already failed and he had no real reason to keep it. but he did, of course he did, just in case.

one thing that stands out to me about the IVF arc is the way that, for as much as i make fun of her for asking her coworker if she can have his babies, scully asking mulder to be involved in the biggest process of her life (and the most important thing in the rest of her life) is such a healing and reverent experience. like he says “i’m absolutely flattered,” but it’s so much more than that. it’s like…spending your whole life feeling like you should’ve died at age twelve and then being told someone just wants more of you, more and more and more, in everything.

Maybe it's because the 30th anniversary of the pilot is approaching or maybe it's because I recently did a rewatch or maybe it's because I am a sentimental sap or maybe it's all of those things but TXF Pilot is just so good. I mean what a great introduction to Mulder and Scully. When they first meet in the basement and she shakes his hand OMG (you'd think sparks flew). Their dueling dynamic (that makes them oh so great) is introduced right off the bat. Scully is challenging the hell out of Mulder's theories, respectfully of course. A foundation of trust is built between them *swoon* throughout the episode. They are also such precious baby agents that it's impossible not to fall in love with them. THE RAIN SCENE IN THE CEMETERY! The episode just fucking slaps all across the board. And I will always go back to it when I want to remember how it all was.

I'm sure he's not the first in history, but for me definitely, the reason Fox Mulder was such a revelation is that I'd never seen a character before who seemed totally conscious of masculinity as a performance, while also being pretty good at that performance.

Like, we kid, but Mulder is doing pretty well, as a man! He's got a badge and a gun, prestigious credentials and a bunch of sharp-ass suits. He's smart, he's funny, he's hot, he's not primarily a fighter, but he can fight when he has to. If there's a fairly straightforward, down-the-line Socially Acceptable way to be a (rich white) man in the 1990s, Mulder is basically ticking all the boxes correctly.

What's cool about him -- and I personally think this is what Duchovny specifically, a known weirdo, brings to the character -- is that Mulder's subjective internal experience of the world is that he's a weirdo. He knows that. In his head, he's preoccupied with this wild psychodrama of his guilt and his paranoia. He lives kind of like a weirdo, when he's not on the clock. He seems to like and trust weirdos. He's pretty introverted and he has a weird, bleak sense of humor.

The feeling I always got about Mulder is that he knows he's ticking boxes. He wakes up every day conscious of the fact that he has a job to keep and he has to Act Normal, so he does things like get his suits tailored and work out and he's clearly playing a role, and he's only as invested in that role as he judges he'll benefit from. He doesn't actually give a shit personally, except that he needs people to tolerate him to a certain degree in order to be functional in the world.

I think he's so appealing to me because he was the first character I ever saw who seemed to be self-consciously participating in the game of Being a High-Value Man (before that specific lingo was coined), while clearly viewing the game as a useful absurdity. He's literally putting on and taking off his Patriarchal Authority Figure drag, for his own purposes, and that's a big chunk of what I've always loved about him.

If you missed out on the epic X-Files 30th Anniversary Fan Fest this past weekend but wanted a final chance to get some of my exclusive XF episode prints from the event, I've just added my last remaining stock to the shop for ship-to-home. Supplies are limited.