My favorite moment from this week has to be when I was talking with my family over dinner about how I'm struggling with creativity at my design class, and how this friend of mine came up with such a cool s-shaped design, and my dad went "she totally took it from Pinterest". Period.

So in a month I'll be halfway through therapy (because I only get eight sessions at uni) and I'm out of money, unemployed, scared and surrendering, not praying and not going to church on sunday, self-esteem six feet under. At this point I doubt I've made any progress at all, and just a few days ago I would've sworn with full confidence I was definitely making progress and changing little by little.

Worst or...best?

ok today was good, then it sucked a little, then it was good again, then it sucked a little again, then it was memorable, then it sucked big time.

Watcher google drive

i think the title is pretty self explanitory

Only ghost files on it atm but Mystery Files and Puppet History are next. Watcher has back pedalled on deleteing all their free content to lock it behind a pay wall but y'know what? maybe I just dont want to give them ad revenue anymore, which is evil but screw them. Also they may still back pedal on their back pedalling, which is to many pedals anyways.

It is so wearing having to go to bed at 11 PM in order to get up at 8 AM and get NINE hours of sleep. There is no time left to wallow in self pity and misery and the terrors hidden in the uncertain future

Time for some night panicking

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I think two statements with this whole thing can cexist;

They listened. Apologized. Were very accountable. Fixed the issue. Admitted to how insensitive and tone deaf what they said and did was. Etc.

And.

They are still rich. The comments and stuff they did were very insensitive, tone deaf, and outright cruel and not okay at all, and many people will never trust them again as they once did, many won't even ever watch again. Many people, while being able to accept the apology, will still want nothing to do with them after that, especially for us who genuinely are struggling in life with money. It was highly insulting and it makes you look at people differently after that.

okay watcher fandom!!! time to get outside and touch some grass!!! war is over!!! go live life!!!

Am I happy Watcher rolled back their plan and apologized? Yes. Have I still lost any desire to watch their videos? Yes. Do I think people are being too harsh towards Steven, singling him out and such? Yes. Do I think Steven and Andrew bringing back worth it in the middle of a global cost of living crisis is extremely out of touch? Yes.

All of these things can coexist. Feelings towards the situation can be complex. It happens.

Watchergate: 4/19-4/22

Reeeally sad for Shane and Ryan. I like their content so much, admire their work, I wish this new streaming platform thing would work for their sakes, but it doesn´t seem like it and I get why. IF anyone at watcher ever reads this, I´m sorry you digged a grave you didn´t need

HE REPENTED FOR HIS PAST CRIMES AGAINST THE CHURCH AND GUIDED MANY COMMUNITIES TO STAY TRUE TO THE TEACHINGS OF THE LORD IS WHAT HE DID. HE IS A SAINT, AND IN THIS HOUSE PAUL IS TO BE RESPECTED. END OF STORY