bro... you're literally an undead now, why do you want to experience it badly, twice in a row?
but I guess you've been dealing a lot of battles within yourself which you don't tell me aside saimong mga sala hahaha. based from your accounts, daghan kaayo ka adventures ga await sa imoha; dating, drinking and more tea-spilling sessions in the future but something is holding you back gyud ay from letting you experience those stuff which I can't decipher unsa. This is so contradicting sa advices nimo nako permi, "It's the experience that matters" grrrr you're also goal-driven and lisud kaayo ka ipersuade regarding sa current goal nimo. I just hope na whatever you're planning to do, hope it will help you find peace 🐥 (wala koy choice rar 👹)