Click. Click. Click.

Creak. Do you see it spinning?

Here's a list of things I want to use:

Descend

Dance of the All-Consuming; Instinctual Origin.

Fullbody Choir: Dirge of the Berserkers.

The Gears of Price: False Horseman's field.

The Book of Energy; Full Reading.

Doesn't that sound like great fun? I'll do this one my way.

wdym an average platonic bond cant be deep and meaningful do none of you remember the power of friendship

we diagnose you with a creeping sense of alienation forever. incurable

hey. I don't know you. trying not to be rude. Please do not put shifting in astral projection tags. They can be related, yes, but I think it would go pretty far to have the communities have actual dedicated tags to combined doctrine rather than a completely different paradigm moving in on AP and Bilo.

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The one and only reason I (and possibly you) have not shifted yet is because I'm fucking lazy 😭😭

Can you say one affirmation, roll over, sleep, and still wake up in your dr? YESS OFC. My problem is that I assume it will be hard, so I 'need' to follow a 1000 step routine and say a billion affirmations daily, but I'm also too lazy to do that. So now I'm currently stuck in a cycle of being too lazy to put in the work while also being too lazy to change my assumption that work needs to be done in the first place. It's leads to me spiralling, and instead, I just choose sleep and dream about my dr.

This is just my long, rant-y way of asking for help 😭😭. Shiftblr, do your thing

@vixilic @ningsols come save mee

Just heard Vergil say "skill issue" I'm gonna stab myself

Your cards cannot think for you your teachers cannot think for you spirits cannot think for you your gods cannot think for you. YOU have to think for you. Do not outsource your thinking onto other figures, because there are and will be people looking to fill that void and tell you where to go and what to do and how to spend your money, and you will cede all control if someone speaks it cleverly enough.

A blank scroll. Because you need it.

this may or may not be a fantasy writing exercise for me. please reblog

Endlessly diabolical how you can't say words like rape and suicide uncensored without either being criticised by idiots or punished by conglomerates.

You know what, fuck it. Let’s show some love for the “unpleasant” autistics.

For the autistics who are always accused of being angry or moody when all they’re doing is sitting there.

For the autistics who take everything literally and respond sincerely.

For the autistics who come across as “blunt” or “rude” for being honest.

For the autistics who are called “control freaks” for needing a sense of order and routine.

For the autistics who get told to shut up for infodumping about uncomfortable topics.

For the autistics who find it too exhausting to mask and pretend to be sunny and friendly.

“Unpleasant” autistics, I love you.

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REBLOG IF UR BLOG IS SAFE FOR THERIANS AND FURRIES

nod. Yep, this is the thing. This is the thing I couldn't put into words. this is why I get pissed at deitykin so often. This post summed it up. You win the internet

Honestly while Practical Prayers is on the back burner there is one thing I actually might start writing up and that's... an opinion post on godkin claiming to be incarnations of known gods

And by that I mean getting into the difference between being an incarnation of someone and being that someone, including worship and uh to be frank worth to the public. Basically, would love to sit and detail things like memories not equalling current ability, the need to go work with yourself because you cannot confirm who you are until you're several months Bare Minimum, preferably years, into working full on through possession and constant workings with the person you're an incarnation of, how different parts of deities do different things and how working as one part of a mass of bodies works ie you can be them incarnated and still only be a regular person to everyone but them

But. On the flip side. also would love to talk in that post about how to become one with yourself again, how to start working as a whole so it's not "I remember being a deity (therefore you no longer really are, you're just an expression of their energy)" and now "I am literally in tune with and working with myself, currently able to act as their hand and as a hand is their body, I am them", how to start doing shit again like controlling the weather, altering people's lives and fates, giving them signs, working as literally them again instead of being an alternate universe where they're powerless and therefore not a god.

Also a lot to be said about how you have to have a good grip on being a major force in your own - ie insert god name here's - life. A person's persona dictates everything they do, yes an incarnation of a god that spends most of their life asleep and doing nothing is still that god, yes they're still the same soul, yes they'll have an effect on the god, but also... That life has way less of a claim to Being A God because they're missing the Being part. They're just existing as the energy of the god in human form, not Being A God. An incarnation of a god expecting to Be That God should probably be a very conscious force in that gods life, becoming something that alters that gods thoughts and directions significantly in the same way their own conscious mind alters their thoughts and directions. If you want to Be The God and claim their body, their skills, their personality, then you better be a part of that god

Because. Yeah. Prevalence matters, I watch incarnations of gods take over and change their personality especially past lives even if those lives were just run of the mill everyday people, because yeah. That works that way. But if you want to Be A God, you should be working as a part of them, you should be affected by their moods and they by your moods, yes that happens for any life but... to the point it dictates their actions. There's a difference between being the same person and being one god.

You should be a second train of thought in their head, a head dog on their sled, you should be directing their power not as yourself but as a whole being. If you want to tell me you're (insert fate god here), sure, maybe you are, I'm not gonna care unless you come to me telling me to care, but if you really want to claim that and be worthy of the title imo you should be altering fate and altering that fate god's motives and actions, both moving in sync like two bodies of one being, yes you'll be your own people and have your own opinions and shit and you could even fucking hate each other but. there should be, imo, a gap and a gateway wide open between the power of the two of you not just so the incarnation is powerful but so that you are both of the same energetic flesh. You should, especially, be two decision making parts of the same brain, the god altering the incarnations life and vice versa to a degree that is worthy of being called godhood

rests on like 100 hands

So anyways. Getting comfortable in saying “Yeah lol I'm a deity” in part because of joining a server that very much so forces that environment. But still, getting comfortable.

Now I Stare and sort, yeah? Watching.. And running fingers on sharp string.

Pluck to hear a note!

Sometimes I *hate* being capable of magic. Forbidden knowledge should stay forbidden and all that. People are volatile. Sometimes we want to yell, scream, rip into things, cry, etc. Those actions are about catharsis. Those actions don’t *bring me* catharsis anymore. I want to pour out the eroding weight of hundreds of years of whispering knowledge onto somebody. I want to pour out the strain of retaining fluidity as a composite being into someone’s soul. I want to burn something, really burn it in a way that I haven’t in a long time. In the way I burned myself two years ago. In the way I’ll need to burn myself again if I keep playing a fool.

I want to lose myself in divinity. Not bring myself towards it. Dig my hands into it and watch it undulate before being cast away from it again. I want to lose myself in someone’s soul. Devour it with their consent. I don’t want to hurt anyone. I just know how to make that process feel really good because someone’s done it to me. I want to throw my weight around, make the world move around me for a few months. But that’d be immature. I’ve accrued enough problems for doing that already. I’m also not interested in becoming a narcissist just to ‘feel something’.

I don’t know. I’m rambling. Confessing, I guess. Giving my fucked up desires words so I can hate them properly. So I can feel ashamed of them properly. And, of course, so I can observe them properly. So that I can dissect them, as I would someone else’s desires, and find their roots. Satisfy them the way I satisfy others— by finding the why before the how. Still, though. I almost want my patience to run thin. I want the chance to fuck up again. I know this desire, it’s the river song, the current that keeps things moving. I just don’t know how to answer it.

Pillow fight dante. Just whip a pillow at him.

Uuuughhhh BORED

Honestly I need to stop turning myself into a cloak

on the other hand. Cloak for Brooks? Cloak for my beloved thaumaturge who is so scary and I adore them?

Cloak? Cloak of Magic Power? Turn myself into shifting myriad sigils because forms are not for me? (I just wanna be air rn man)

cloak/blanket self as ULTIMATE CUDDLE? as comfort? as safe under my wings?

Love brooks. Just wanna lay down in their lap and turn my brain off.