stacksolotl
terminal silly little guy syndrome
Stacks, 35M (he/him/they/them), trans + queer, Latino/mestizo, DID + etc.; follows back from Cuwalli. I don't respond to discourse/syscourse. CW: There's a lot wrong with me. It's fine tho.
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We started this and then haven't been using it for some reason... I guess it's kinda my fault. I ain't sure I've really recovered from the last time I tried putting myself out there. Having supposed friends/people you admired laugh at you blows.
Being an old fuck who grew up in fandom spaces trying to come out about/stop masking about diagnoses and shit you can't change is hard to begin with, but these days between purity culture and online ableism-disguised-as-inclusion it's basically impossible. We always get sick over what people are going to think, which ain't normally how we are. There's just something about the internet that don't help matters. Funny, considering IRL we don't give a fuck.
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[Text; This host loves their singlet partner]
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when you scammed another businessmanthing out of 7k dollars after work: 💋💋💋💋
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It's not often that Jimmy and I have what could be termed an "incompatibility," but at least when we do, it's something where we compliment one another.
Or, that's what I keep telling myself to keep from choking on my frustration that his priorities do NOT make sense to me at times. We have company coming over, and he has decided the OUTSIDE of the house is more important to clean up than the inside???
I guess that's him all over, anyway.
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Possible accessible OSDDID App Review
Simply Plural !
Facts:
What type of app it is: An app for tracking what parts/alters are fronting
Compatibility: Seems to be available for apple and android products, as well as browser support
Size: 66.5 MB
Internet required: Yes
Does it share my data?: You’re able to share your information with friends. Most things are set to be private initially
Lockable: You can log off as needed
Light and dark mode are available in-app as well as syncing with your device’s settings. There’s also a more accessible font option, which I thought was a nice touch.
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Personal thoughts:
Personal difficulty using(0 being the most easy, 10 being impossible): 9
How easy to add your parts: 2
How easy to switch between parts: 7-8?? It took me a long time to figure out how to even do this, but once you figure out how its maybe a 5
Personal avoidance level: 10, no parts wanted to use this app
Safe to say, I’m perplexed by this app. Let me show you some screenshots
We start with this clusterfuck of options. As someone who’s dissociating and dyslexic all these different directions that hold the exact same weight as eachother are really confusing! A young or badly confused part might think User Report is the same thing as making a note of who’s out right now
Maybe this is helpful to someone, but to me, it looked like way too much even on a present day
This is the ‘Members’ list. Where all the parts are listed. There are a lot of symbols here that aren’t listed in any of the help sections that I’ve had to clumsily figure out by trial and error. Like apparently the arrows next to the names are.. Making a note of who’s here in the moment? I had no idea until just now.
Also they’re sorted alphabetically. Never in the history of Ever have I sorted my parts this way?? Sorry, this is the stuff I’m really specific about.
Evidently the bottom buttons are how to view who’s fronting at the moment. I can’t figure out what ‘custom front’ is for
Here’s what a part looks like when you open them up from the list. You have a lottttt of info you can go through and add using the icons at the top. I like that it has this many options for people who are probably a lot more serious for the use of the app.
When I first used it some years ago, I had no idea the Visibility was an option, so you might want to make sure it’s set to what you need it to be to feel secure (Private, shown to trusted friends, or shown to all friends)
Here’s the side bar, with lots and lots of options again, but at least these are a little more sorted and I would’ve preferred this for the main page.
Now, let’s look at Add Front Entry…
Okay, so there’s a detailed front entry and a quick front entry option. The detailed front entry looks like this:
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My dear OSDDID friends, I ask you, Do you know how long the part previous to yourself started fronting, from the date, the hour, the minute?? and when they stopped???????? Not even you, the previous parts who were here.
I think the quick entry would’ve been better if you could add the hours options yourself, because most everyone I know with a dissociative disorder has a very different rate of switching, and 2 hours is not enough for the people who might switch once in days or weeks. (I personally shift from one group of parts to another every few days to a week)
At this point if you’re thinking that “She just doesn’t understand, I’ve been using this app and it just takes a learning curve to use..”, I invite you to realize that this app has no margin for error, no lenience for our I Don’t Know Myself Disorder, no room for considering dissociation and it’s varying forms and general blurriness.
I wondered for a moment why it was like this…
Ah-ha.
The Plural Association is organization that hopes to eliminate the difference between OSDDID and non-disordered plurality, effectively de-medicalizing a Dissociative Disorder.
I read some of these links and quite a few of them focused on the ‘beautiful mind of having plurality’ rather than the dark reality of where a dissociative disorder comes from, being a trauma disorder. Downplaying DID as ‘Not Getting Along With Your Headmates’ disorder. There was just enough reasonable and flowery language for them to sprinkle blatant misinformation throughout, tricking you into believing things that may be harmful if you actually have a Disorder that needs treatment.
I have no doubt that people with non-disordered plurality are experiencing something. I can’t claim to know enough about someone’s mind to say otherwise, of course. I think saying Endogenics don’t exist shuts down people who might actually need help.
However, the mixture of OSDDID and Endogenics like this is very very harmful when it comes to creating ‘accessibility’ like this. It takes away from the actual point of what would be helpful for someone with a DD, like communication between parts, the slow breakdown of dissociative barriers, and for many, the lesser separation between parts and goals towards coming together.
The Plural Association wants you to be separate, but also know all parts, which can be incredibly dangerous to venture into yourself if you have a lot of trauma(and therefore parts) you don’t know. Integration, Fusion, and taking it slowly and at the pace recommended by a professional, are really wonderful and personal parts of healing and shouldn’t be snubbed out by the pressure to be As Plural As Possible. Exactly like this app does
Final thoughts:
This app is needlessly complicated. I mean, maybe it can be really helpful if you go through and learn everything about it. I’ve only been picking at it for a week and barely scratched the surface. I feel like it must be like an art program, it takes you a lot of hard work and practice to settle into using it.
The premise is not at all for me. Not in all my years of knowing and figuring out my DID have I ever found it useful to *just* have a record of who switched when. Sure, it can be enlightening. But I’d find a lot more use in a text app where my Personas can make note of what’s going on in the moment, how they’re feeling, why they’re there.
Simply Plural is not at ALL simple or accessible to the common dissociated user.(me) Many times I peeked at it, I got confused easily and lost. It feels like a winding house where one room leads to the next and the next without hallways.
It’s a lot especially for people who have less distinct parts too. or many of them! they’d all be placed in the same alphabetical order without any distinction between distinct and nondistinctive parts, or subsystems.
I’m extremely uncomfortable that you could technically find people on here, and find their information if they didn’t have the right privacy settings on. I didn’t feel completely safe putting all my parts on here, capping it at the main 16. Even more so, there’s the ability to give someone a ‘token’, which is customizable access to your information, including being able to write and add things, as well as delete them. I could easily see an abuser use this for the worst. What in the world?!?!?
I try to keep my reviews light and positive because I believe there’s merit in any DID media to various ranges of accessibility for people. But this one I just cannot recommend. I hope you understand my points as to why
If this app works for you, dissociation and all, then I’m really glad for you! If you’re endogenic and don’t have dissociative issues, maybe it’s more suited to whatever it is you…do with your parts? ? (I don’t know enough, sorry)
Would I recommend this app to someone with OSDDID? Nope.
#uggghhhhh this was so promising when it was new and not a clusterfuck#I have no doubt their now brazen association with TPA is what ruined it#but I won't rant I'll just say fuck TPA#good review
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Oh good I forgot Tumblr's tagging system is fucked these days let me just go remove my tags on the shit that got found I guess so that I don't have to password protect my blog
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God I wish "you&" as a concept would just fucking die.
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Today's job is "work on the DID & Gender presentation that's coming up in a week," but my brain keeps telling me it's "write about a lot of discourse today," and that is KILLING my motivation for working on it.
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