Me: good morning

My brain at 6:57am: you should have killed yourself when you were 15

I don’t think people realize how overthinking slowly kills you, they don’t know how it can turn your mind into thoughts you wish weren’t yours

Ich bin ein schrecklicher Mensch

viel zu oft stell ich mir vor, wie es wäre zu sterben...

“I’m tired of fighting for things that I’m never going to have.”

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Wenn ich jetzt eine Sternschnuppe sehen würde, ich wüsste genau, was ich mir wünsche.

Eure Welt wird sich weiter drehen, auch wenn ich sie verlasse.

25.03.2019 - 23:19

i didn’t realize growing up meant dying inside but hey it’s whatever

I just don’t wanna live this life anymore

Because they are supposed to love you,

Does not mean they do.

some of you are treating your children like your therapists. and there is a special circle of hell for parents who do so.

Your child does not need to be your confidante in problems with your spouse, your job, people you’re friends with. do not vent your problems with your mental illness to a 12-year-old so they can feel responsible for hiding what goes on at home and protecting you from yourself. your child deserves to be a kid and have fun. and they deserve a parent that allows them to do that.

If a parent or your family members dare to call you ungrateful, just accept that as evidence that these bitches never truly loved you and only see their love as conditional. Basically you have a contract with them and you must fulfill the conditions of said contract otherwise, they will discard you

The worst part of getting better is realizing how not okay things were… 

realizing how many people turned their heads and looked the other way because they, “ didn’t want to get involved.” 

Realizing how many people treated you like trash & you had no idea because that was all you knew.

if your child wishes to die only to get the hell away from you, you’re an abuser.