Can't you just be straight up and tell me how you feel about me?  You told me to wait and I did, well kinda.  But now I am ready to have you in my life.

Just like depressed frustrated you know.

I don't want to -

leave my room.

make dinner.

cry.

Feb is starting off to be a costly month.  The usual $410 for rent, $800+ charged on my CC, and an unplanned $230 speeding ticket.  Anyone else want to take my money? 

Map of Central Park - New York City Parks Department 1868.

Imma continue to do me.

I wished I lived be myself.

Why say no when it can be a yes? By saying yes you will be showered with opportunities and experience. I have had an amazing time in the past 12 hrs of my life!

Also, due to my current financial state, I think I should start eating ramen, pastaroni, and more potatoes. 

I am beyond ready to live by myself.  Its not that I don't love my housemates, I'm just over living with people right now.  

I almost had a melt down halfway thru today.  I was starting to sort my laundry so I could finally wash it all.  I could not start this simple task because my eyes were forced by my mind to scan my room, to observe all the items I have in my room and all the pointless things that make up the average American lifestyle.  I have too many articles of clothing, too many books,  too much school supplies, to many things made of plastic, too many gadgets, too much bu11$#it!  All of these items I have obtained throughout my life have made me partly responsible for the extraction of the mass amounts of natural resources and the creation of synthetics to mass produce a great majority of the items I own.

A few months ago this same thing happened to me and I started a new way of life as a minimalist.  All the things I had read to get me started said to slowly get rid of items, you know a few per week until you become satisfied with the number of things you have.  I did everything I had read and felt imitate relief.  

I think it is time for round two.  If i can continue to limit my attachment to ridiculous times then I think I will be more comfortable.  Tomorrow I will finish my laundry and once again begin sorting through my current belongings to see what can be throw out of my life and introduced into a new one.

No, you weren't.  I was just really good at making you think so.

Attempted to paint my desk. Totally unsatisfied with the outcome.  Why come painting be as easy drawing?