having mentally ill moments over gin's page on the yttd artbook. him wondering if "normal" grade-schoolers are like this 😭😭😭 like how he's aware he's autistic and he's aware this affects him and the way other people see him even though he doesn't understand everything and he just. is embarrassed and scared cause he's 12 year old and he worries other people see him as weird and as a burden. how he has to deal with such a cruel form of low self esteem at such young age and how that expresses itself in the death game as gin, over and over again, has to be saved from danger by the older participants and he's AWARE he is and has always been a burden due to being "The Autistic Child" others have to take care of. and that leads to him feeling guilty for having to be protected and even, when in situations of danger, saying he'd be okay with being killed if that meant he could be the one to protect others for once (such as in the last game in 1-3b) just. the terrible trauma this young child has to go through :(

“If a society puts half its children into short skirts and warns them not to move in ways that reveal their panties, while putting the other half into jeans and overalls and encouraging them to climb trees, play ball, and participate in other vigorous outdoor games; if later, during adolescence, the children who have been wearing trousers are urged to “eat like growing boys,” while the children in skirts are warned to watch their weight and not get fat; if the half in jeans runs around in sneakers or boots, while the half in skirts totters about on spike heels, then these two groups of people will be biologically as well as socially different. Their muscles will be different, as will their reflexes, posture, arms, legs and feet, hand-eye coordination, and so on. Similarly, people who spend eight hours a day in an office working at a typewriter or a visual display terminal will be biologically different from those who work on construction jobs. There is no way to sort the biological and social components that produce these differences. We cannot sort nature from nurture when we confront group differences in societies in which people from different races, classes, and sexes do not have equal access to resources and power, and therefore live in different environments. Sex-typed generalizations, such as that men are heavier, taller, or stronger than women, obscure the diversity among women and among men and the extensive overlaps between them… Most women and men fall within the same range of heights, weights, and strengths, three variables that depend a great deal on how we have grown up and live. We all know that first-generation Americans, on average, are taller than their immigrant parents and that men who do physical labor, on average, are stronger than male college professors. But we forget to look for the obvious reasons for differences when confronted with assertions like ‘Men are stronger than women.’ We should be asking: ‘Which men?’ and ‘What do they do?’ There may be biologically based average differences between women and men, but these are interwoven with a host of social differences from which we cannot disentangle them.”

— Ruth Hubbard, “The Political Nature of ‘Human Nature’“ (via gothhabiba)

Yes.

what is wrong with him

something I haven’t seen anyone else point out yet is that deltarune only has two characters with actual voice lines (in different forms though, jevil has regular voice lines while spamton has vocals in his theme instead) and they’re the hidden bosses. normally if you’re going to put voice-acting in your game at all it would be the main characters who are voiced, so of course spamton and jevil being the only ones who actually speak probably has to do with them being self-aware. 

I’m not the first person to talk about how rouxls shares some weird traits with the secret bosses but something I haven’t seen anyone mention is that while he doesn’t have his own unique beep speech (technically he does but it’s unused) in his chapter 2 theme you can hear him say “hey” at the end, making him the only non-secret-boss to (kind of) have a voice. and there’s other weird fourth-wall-breaky stuff surrounding him too. he can teleport, something sans is implied to do in undertale when he takes us through “shortcuts”, clip through ceilings and walls, and when you check on him while he’s in your inventory he’s aware that the textbox is cutting him off

[ID: Rouxls’s check dialogue when he’s in your inventory. He is saying “Thou gazeth upon a man most handsometh. This daringest genius, adoreth beyond all hey”. End ID] and of course this stuff is all there to be funny rouxls is a comedic character but just something to think about

oh yeah yknow what else is weird? he’s like the only guy who isn’t content being in castle town?? and he has this desire to be important but specifically he wants to be second in command to the bad guy??? why???

there’s no conclusion to this post I just wanted to say rouxls is strange. what are your secrets funny blue man 

no more "berdly is jealous of noelles crush on susie" if theres one thing we know about this dork its that he will drop EVERYTHING to do smth once he figures out itll impress someone AND hes gone through quite a bit of character growth. noelle IS going to win susies heart and he IS going to help. he gives noelle one of those lame gamer teen shirts like "EAT SLEEP GAME REPEAT" or "HOMEWORK? NO. GAMING? YES." and is like. this will help you win her heart for sure! no one can resist the true gamer fashion i have meticulously curated here. and noelle is like berdly i care about you deeply and i appreciate you as a friend. i am not wearing that.

so many people say “i don’t understand [rouxls] speech quirk and im not gonna pretend like i do” neither does he my guy all botchings of his horrible accent are valid 💙

i wonder what the circumstances of kris living with the dreemurs were

pretty sure that kris already had a name beforehand though, otherwise they’d end up being called something like torgore

he knew what it was, he just phrased it like that specifically to troll Susie. lil bro energy

It may not be completely obvious because they don’t have any shared dialogue, but Kris does consider Lancer a friend and feels protective over him.

This is one of Kris’s actions that’s outside our control: they always kneel to protect him during this scene, even in the face of King’s bullets.

They also haul ass to find Ralsei to heal Lancer as soon as Susie suggests it (the running is, again, outside our control)

And if you try to throw away the Lancer/Rouxls cards, Kris will always fumble and catch them instead.

They don’t do this with the Ball of Junk, even though they desperately want to keep it to the point of their hand shaking when dropping it. But they’ll never let you discard the cards.

Bonus:

(Lancer saying he missed them.)

thinking about what kris and berdly's love language would look like

shoutout to krerdly shippers for inventing objectively the funniest ship in the extended toby fox cinematic universe, Kris having a fail boyfriend that they love So, So Much is absolutely perfect

bonus Kris rewatching their new favorite video for the 87th time within the hour:

there's like. an unfortunate hole in my brain and heart in which berdly occupies. like he's annoying and he's a jerk but there's a lot about him that really. really, stands out in a strange way.

i've talked about how he has two jobs and the immense amount of stress he has to be under, and i mentioned that his home life probably isn't great. i didn't really expand on it because frankly, the fact that he feels the need to hold two jobs at his age says plenty. but to look at it a bit more...

he says everyone always forgot him when he was younger. no one remembered his name. so um... who was taking care of him? obviously you could say "well he was clearly just talking about other kids his age" and write this off pretty quickly, but ... no, he wasn't. i say this because for one, he's very well-spoken; he speaks clearly and firmly, and never leaves room for confusion or that sort of ambiguity. he said what he said. no one remembered his name.

second, that spelling bee was the first time in his life that he was noticed and praised, nooooot by other kids his age, but by adults. the audience of a spelling bee is going to primarily be composed of parents and faculty, not so much other children. besides, what kind of child audience would respond to the winner of a spelling bee Like That akfjdngldj? anyway. this dumb little spelling bee was the turning point in berdly's life. i don't think being noticed by other kids his age was the issue. i think he was sincerely neglected. that was the point of the bluebird of misfortune sequence.

i don't like making conclusions like this about characters so young unless that's just. what's on the table. i'd looooove to say "no he just struggled with making friends but he definitely had parents/caretakers who remembered he existed" and leave it at that but i can't and it's because of queen actually.

i'm not the first person to point this out, but if queen parallels noelle's mother, who's to say she doesn't parallel Something for berdly too? ralsei keeps telling us that darkners only exist to assist lightners, and from what we've seen so far, the dark worlds really do mold themselves around the lightners who step inside... (i dont like this and i think ralsei's Wrong but in a cosmic-universe-story sort of sense. he's probably right.) since they were the first ones there, i think berdly and noelle (mostly noelle) are really important to how cyber world has currently arranged itself. and queen is likely the first darkner either of them met, so it only makes sense that she represents something major for both of them.

queen is unequivocally a mother figure. that's just a core part of her personality. she's a mom. sooooo we have this parental figure who, when it comes to berdly.......

cannot remember his name.

who avoids him and ignores him when she cannot reasonably avoid him.

isn't that interesting? and *gestures at her wine glass of battery acid* i don't think she's shown Drinking and drinking a lot for simple comedic reasons. that could be another parallel to noelle's mother but i kind of doubt it. just considering what we know about her so far. i think it says something more about berdly's um, parents? than noelle's.

despite aaaaaaalllllll this. berdly kinda insta-clings to queen. he desperately seeks her approval and just... attention. but he's not stupid. in the alley when he and kris first form trucies, he knows queen is avoiding him - we can see this from his overworld sprites and facial expressions. he's just not going to admit it out loud, especially not in front of kris. he knows that noelle is the important one here, that once again, he really doesn't matter. he'll always just be a forgettable little bluebird.

but wouldn't it be nice? if he could do something really spectacular? maybe then queen will pay attention to him. he might learn what it's like to have an adoring parent.

berdly's character arc feels largely incomplete / neglected (......well.), but there really is a lot there, beneath the snootiness and annoying exterior. he's just a kid, y'know? going through some shit. just like all the other characters. i think he's very much a side character and i super doubt there will ever be a circumstance in which he joins kris's party like noelle did, but it'd be nice to see a bit more resolution for all these concerning little details. pick your head up, kiddo; you're going to be alright...

sick of teeth being so high maintenance. you don’t see any other bones requiring so much care and upkeep they literally just do their job and don’t threaten to rot and fall out of your body?? grow up

I said this a while back before 3B came out but I’ll say it again. The fandom doesn’t properly appreciate that Nao is batshit crazy.

just to clarify i don't have critical thinking and if i support a fictional murderer that means i also condone murder irl

the release of deltarune chapter 1 was so fucking funny. toby fox said download this weird scary program for free! don’t worry if your computer’s security tries to block it and DON’T talk about what’s in it

“She got nervous and couldn’t speak.”