i can't stress it enough how crazy the love triangle situation is. mizu and akemi have a slow motion romcom first glance at each other. mizu and taigen are enemies to lovers. mizu taunts akemi about taigen while wearing his scarf. mizu imagines taigen while seeing a threesome. mizu and akemi have sex scenes juxtaposed with each other. taigen and mizu's brawl is an obvious parallel to mizu and mikio. "this isn't over" "i know". both could happen. neither could happen. all could happen all at once. and i'm watching it all like this
the loneliness and sadness that creeps into you in a way that only growing up queer can cause. your parents can accept you and still make you feel like an outsider. your parents can love you and still reject parts of you. that old-fashioned kind of love where they think trying to mold you, make you tough, is better for you. or that quiet status quo where you just don't talk. and where everyone is accepted, though some are more than others. generations and generations it's just been easier to let it slide. to let it be. not cause a fuss. but then we sit there with a knot in our chests all our lives wondering how it got there
ma tu immagina essere john travolta e ti chiamano per andare in italia a fare presenza in questo festival della musica che si suppone essere una roba seria e arrivi e ti vogliono far mettere un cappello da papero e farti fare da terzo incomodo durante i rituali psicosessuali dei conduttori. tu ti invazzi perché giustamente sei john travolta e te la senti tanto. e il giorno dopo thee gladiatore ti dissa durante lo stesso programma dopo che è entrato sul palco minchia first e lo stesso presentstore che ora ti odia gli fa gli occhi dolci. e tu sei john travolta.