You feel you’ve been here, once before, in a memory that was not quite yours.

some of you need to see this

My dad and I once had a disagreement over him using the adage "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger."

I said, "That's just not true. Sometimes what doesn't kill you leaves you brittle and injured or traumatized."

He stopped and thought about that for a while. He came back later, and said, "It's like wood glue."

He pointed to my bookshelf, which he helped me salvage a while ago. He said, "Do you remember how I explained that, once we used the wood glue on them, the shelves would actually be stronger than they were before they broke?"

I did.

"But before we used the wood glue, those shelves were broken. They couldn't hold up shit. If you had put books on them, they would have collapsed. And that wood glue had to set awhile. If we put anything on them too early, they would have collapsed just the same as if we'd never fixed them at all. You've got to give these things time to set."

It sounded like a pretty good metaphor to me, but one thing I did pick up on was that whatever broke those shelves, that's not the thing that made them stronger. That just broke them. It was being fixed that made them stronger. It was the glue.

So my dad and I agreed, what doesn't kill you doesn't actually make you stronger, but healing does. And if you feel like healing hasn't made you stronger than you were before, you're probably not done healing. You've got to give these things time to set.

I hate to break it to you, but that ‘I’m tired today, I’ll do it tomorrow’ energy is not going to bag you the life you dream of. Waking up everyday, sleeping on your dreams because of this nonchalant energy of tomorrow. It's not serving you sweetie, your dreams require actual actions. Not actions every now and then, not actions when you’re in the mood. And why? Because that ‘sometime-ish’ energy is keeping you stuck and stagnant and moving you at a snails pace towards your dreams.

So what you think about doing, what you'd like to do, what you’re plotting to do means absolutely nothing if you don’t take actual actions. Sorry to break it to you but the intentions mean nothing. Do you know how many people intended to start businesses, pursue their dreams, do something good for the world? Help someone? But they did nothing. They just thought about it. Taking no action. You might know someone like this, that might even be you. Stop pipe dreaming your life. What you do today, right now, is what defines your progress of moving closer towards your hopes and dreams. The universe responds to your actions. So make today count, take a step, even if it's a baby step towards your dreams. Do it today, for you. For your future self.

Non-attachment doesn’t mean staying disconnected from others to be safe, it is being able to connect with others without having them destroy your independent self.

Subconscious Thoughts

anime_irl

normalize admitting that you care. being nonchalant all the time is overrated.

the MEATBALLS menu????? wtaf tumblr

Memories - Magnetic Rose (1995), Morimoto Koji

Kedi (Ceyda Torun, 2016)

How to Finish

I drew this poster for Jon Acuff and his FINISH book tour. Big thanks to Jon for this collaboration, his book has some great ideas about how to complete creative and life goals.

“I love you and I always will and I am sorry. What a useless word.” - Ernest Hemingway

via @quotemadness

Just, is this me being assertive? Or am I being emotional and/or immature? What if I’m getting signs to stay by her side through this? What if that’s how I really feel? Is that for the best? It just gets too deep and I can’t articulate it well.

“Yes, be patient with me. My heart is heavy.”

— Albert Camus (via minuty)

I grow stronger every time I successfully comfort myself through a difficult situation