Mar 2nd, 2019

在大學倉促的生活中，常想起高中那些細碎的回憶。還記得高一林順章說看成大地科展可以加分，求生意志的迫使，那是我第一次來到成大。隨著升學壓力逼近，又陸續和成大結下緣分，連兩年在單車節茫茫科系海尋找心之所向。時間瞬移一年，我變成單車節的一部分，相遇來自各地的高中生，還有自己的學弟妹。

最近重新看了電影你的名字，電影由「結」有形無形串起故事，可以是有形的繩結代表我們和神明的聯繫，也可以是無形的緣分和時間，互相牽動著生命。我不願讓生命臣服於天命論的主宰之下，然而生命總藏著冥冥之中的注定，讓你能成為誰的一部分，又重溫時間銷聲流過的感動。

"You never change things by fighting the existing reality.

To change something, build a new model that makes the existing model obsolete.”

― R. Buckminster Fuller

記《有型的豬小姐》。

「也許是這樣，有時候我覺得要努力，要好好地表達彼此的心意，不論是朋友或戀人或家人，讓對方適切明白自己的心，不要留有遺憾，只要是誠懇的，彼此都會理解的。但有更多時候，我又覺得一切都注定了，誰讓誰感到恩義綿綿，誰見著誰就無名火起，好像有更高的力量操縱似的。」

「現在我覺得，改變不了緣分，也要努力，起碼表達了自己的友善，讓對方知道自己的心意與動機是良善的，之後的相處不適，乃至於分別離散，便可以真正聽天由命。起碼，回想起來，知道不是意圖的問題，只是被捉弄了，真真只是緣分而已。」- 李維菁

德國🇩🇪 / 不來梅主教座堂 記憶總在最平淡時顯得深刻。星期一，打破了原定德國前夕的辭職決定，我又再度回到了打工的日常生活。 · 那天不來梅的天氣特別舒服，暖暖日光沒像拜訪國會大廈那般嚴酷。猶記得走到教堂前仰望它時，內心是多麼的凌亂，有種莫名的壓迫感，進到內部看見彩色玻璃的投射，甚至走近耶穌的台階上，我不自覺整個身體起了雞皮疙瘩。 · 也許這是我整趟旅程感到最震撼的時刻，儘管沒有信仰的歸屬，那場景依然令我動容，久久不能自已。我說照片總是無法拍攝起當下的感動，不如我們好好用心感受平淡的每分每刻吧。

Narrative paragraph

Dec 27th, 2018

大一上composition class which illustrates the narrative paragragh and got the recommendation from professor to revise it.

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It happened on a Christmas Eve, which would become a memorable day to my family. On the cold  night, my family decided to go to the supermarket in order to prepare some food and buy some Christmas decorations. My mother had already planned the Christmas dinner for a long time and all of us were so expectant about the coming Christmas. However, my home was located in a small village and there were very few conveniences; therefore, every time we want to buy some groceries we have to go out far from our village,  but we always had a good time while my father driving. We shared our excitement about the Christmas and imagined what gift we would receive. The car was filled with our laughing and we forgot how cold it was out there at that moment until something unexpected happened to our car. ‘Boom!’ Suddenly, we all heard a strange sound of explosion from our car engine, which started blowing smoke like a volcano. Shocked by the accident, my father went out to check the car’s condition. My sister and I started praying that our car could still work since it was Christmas Eve, we were planning to do lots of things we had looked forward to. Nevertheless, my father brought back the bad news that our car engine was broken and it was hard to find any car mechanics now. My eyes broke into tears, and the night seemed colder than before. My father tried his best to call for some help, and my mother walked around searching for any opportunity that someone can give us a hand. As time passed, we could not find any help because it seemed that everyone have gone out to celebrate the Christmas. When we all felt completely hopeless, however, we saw someone in the heavy fog and vaguely could see his face. His face gradually appeared and walked slowly through fog. To be honest, we all felt so afraid because we couldn’t assure his identity. My father then told my sister and I sat into the car quickly and warned us not to come out unless he called us out. At that moment I could feel my heart pounding faster and faster which almost pounded out of my body. As time passed by, the stranger walked to my father side and started to talk. I through the window saw my father gave a big smile to that stranger. My father gave us a gesture which meant coming out the car and the stranger introduced himself when we went out. Surprisingly, the stranger said that he used to be a car mechanic; though the garage was closed now, it was just near the village. He told us we could go there and have repaired our car. My family could hardly believe that such a fortunate coincident could happen to us. Later, the stranger drive his crane to take back our car and started to fix it.  Not long after he worked on the car, it recovered the power to move and the engine stopped blowing dark smoke. Tears poured into my eyes again, and we hugged him and thanked him for being an angle to us. Went on our previous plan, we finally bought the groceries for the Christmas and my mother prepared a huge meal. Without his help, we could not have such wonderful Christmas Eve. I promised to myself that if someone needs help, I will try my best to give them a hand. A small help will be a huge favor to somebody. I think this was the best Christmas gift I received in that year. 

「說故事的力量──那些運動場上教我的事」- 徐裴翊

Dec 3rd, 2018

由於新聞工作坊的關係，透過學姊的邀請參與了這場演講，原先對這場演講的內容不太清楚，但有先去大概了解講者的背景與她豐富的工作經驗，徐裴翊她不僅在緯來體育台待過幾年的時間，對於體育賽事充滿熱情，台灣國內外的賽事都曾經在第一現場為台灣的運動員加油，做第一時間的轉播，後來轉到三立新聞台擔任主播，也接觸了不同以往的工作內容，進而培養自己在媒體領域多元的能力。在三立新聞台離職後，與曾在體育新聞共事的友人創辦了Vamos Sports，致力推廣台灣體育賽事，讓運動員背後感人的故事藉由媒體的傳播廣為人知，也希望將體育這件事融入到民眾日常生活中。

徐裴翊由台灣三位知名的女性運動員開場，分別介紹她們在體壇上充滿魅力的競賽模樣，同時也分享了她們的一些生命故事。第一位是舉重選手郭婞淳，我是因當年台北世大運而認識她，徐裴翊說���時她參加印尼亞運的時候，是帶著受傷的身體參賽，不過，負眾望拿第一名的她還是拿了第三名的佳績，在醫院治療她躺在病床上和身邊的人說：「我能感受在病床上的不舒服，希望我在痊癒之後，能夠幫助更多的人。」她身為台灣的運動員，代表參與了各種國際大小賽事，舉起世界第一的重量，回饋社會的心卻是很難得的。再來是羽后戴資穎，她才22歲就登上的世界球后的地位，至今仍保持她的世界排名，至今維持了103週之久，徐裴翊說著她儘管身為羽球世界球后，平時還是保持練球的習慣，甚至有空就會回家陪家人打球，站在世界顛峰的位置，依舊謙虛地保持自己平常的模樣。最後是高爾夫球球后曾雅妮，曾經在台灣風靡一時，帶動打高爾夫球的熱潮，曾在許多比賽有亮眼的成績，然而近期因為打球瓶頸而在球壇上被台灣人逐漸淡忘，「不僅是高潮值得被關注，低潮也是」徐裴翊說。在三位運動員身上我們都看見了她們對體育的熱忱，她們的故事如此獨特，可以當成我們的借鏡，或是另一種思考世界的方式。徐裴翊用這三位運動員的故事告訴我們，雖然在台灣運動員不如其他國家獲得高度重視，我們仍可以透過知道他們的現況給予精神的支持。

「唯一能凝聚台灣人的心，就是體育賽事了。」，徐裴翊描述她每每參與現場比賽，看到台灣的選手擊球得分，整個身體都會起雞皮疙瘩，在比賽現場得到的感動往往無法用言語表達，這也成為了她創辦Vamos Sports的契機。透過影音報導或是每個禮拜的直播來引起大家對體育賽事的討論，那是她在體育台和新聞台做不到的事情。他說他曾在新聞台奔波國外體育新聞，努力徵求上級的同意，來播報那短短兩分鐘不到的體育新聞卻是登天之難。「人生一切的一切一定都有它的意義。」他不後悔在體育台和在新聞台的經驗，那是累積她多元媒體領域能力的啟蒙，創辦一個新的媒體平台絕不是一件簡單的事情，從拍片、剪輯、過音等技巧都是需要很多的時間與經驗。這讓我更加明白媒體在我們日常生活的重要性，甚至是當自己身為媒體傳播端時，要如何堅守新聞的價值，做好守門人的角色，讓民眾能透過新聞接收多方的內容，進而影響多元的思維模式。

是離開。

Nov 21st, 2018

每每在國文課限時兩節課，或是學測那種緊逼人書寫些什麼他人期待的內容，我的書寫能力總是瞬間消失，而且是徹底地消失。這次的題目是家鄉，對於家鄉的定義我還是很模糊，生命的前十二年在深坑居住，幼年所有的知識啟蒙和情感建立都是在那裡。到了台南，重新賦予我生命存在的另一種方式，更專注於活著的每刻，和身邊的事物。在台南也遇見與我生命契合的他，他用另一雙眼睛告訴我他的世界。兩個都是我的家鄉，其一都不能割捨，我也不曾離開。

大學近乎三分之二過去，時間飛速地抓不住，情感亦是。身邊朋友一對對的離開彼此，我不想用分開，他們是被現實綁住，不是真的想分開的。要感情持久恆溫我也不是那麼懂，只覺彼此都不要忘了當初相愛的理由和感受才是。感情可以很脆弱，也可以很堅強的。上週末和先生一起看了lalaland，特別喜歡故事的設計。願終老回首謝謝是你，一直陪在我身邊。

「在這個紛亂快速的世界，誰知道你遇到的那個人，會不會成為你生命中最重要的人。」

關於開始。

Nov 14th, 2018 

生活永遠過得不怎麼痛快，挺著月經腹痛和被麻辣鍋療癒的肚子走出了醫學院大門，俯拾一片藍橘漸層的天空，內心雜亂無頭緒的想法依然，但想著是該做些什麼的時候了。

活了快十九歲的一大把年紀，像個老人老是覺得生命真的好脆弱，恍惚中就會在我眼前破碎。這輩子啊，沒做過什麼好事就活得特別的幸運，那就應該要多做點好事才行。就粗略地分享每週所學和微心情吧。

（喔對，我目前就讀成功大學外文系，聽起來很厲害，嗯真的，因為我很常被那些看不懂的書擊倒，ex: Professor suddenly asked me ‘What’s the language?”，沈默是人類最好的發明了，顆顆。）