burning, like the sun

"...You wish to share?"

rest in peace to the father of fun and laughter...William Birkin 🤲

I say this because I deeply feel that this is something Gortash and Durge would try to do

There's something so distinctly Balkan about Orin, The Dark Urge, and Gortash...or maybe just the Dead Three in general..I feel this in my soul and know it to be true

There's something so distinctly Balkan about Orin, The Dark Urge, and Gortash...or maybe just the Dead Three in general..I feel this in my soul and know it to be true

If I re-enter my Fallout hyper fixation again, I fear I’ll just drop off the face of the earth. The last time I replayed all those games I ended up writing a 100+ page “bible” for the events that happened to my Lone Wanderer and Courier respectively and drew nonstop day and night. I survived solely off goldfish and earl grey tea. I will die, people.

i hate them

Good ol' Irulan

I’d say old man yaoi is one of my healthier interests

sweet kisses

i am going to obsess over this male character in a way that is so lesbian

Gortash acting as an enabler for The Dark Urge is so interesting imo. I can easily see redeemed DU feeling extremely betrayed and angry by it given that they now have a chance to contemplate their past self’s situation. They easily could accuse him like “you say you were my ‘nearest and dearest’ but you never saw how much I suffered? Or did you just not care because my misery advanced your (our) goals? You never wanted to help me? You could have stopped me.” At this point in the story, DU’s come to understand friendship in a way his past self never could have and Gortash’s previous inaction is a betrayal of those values. If he never helped them, then Gortash never truly saw the real them nor understood them.

In my personal headcanon (and somewhat supported by canon imo), I think Gortash tried to helped DU in his own “Gort” way. Aka promising that they’d one day rule as “Gods” which is essentially a promise to DU that they’ll rise above Bhaal or be free of his influence (as others have previously pointed out). However, I don’t believe Gortash has the emotional capacity to help DU in the way they needed. He doesn’t understand it or he might even be afraid to hit that particular nerve. He liked the routine they fell into, so why change it? It is also definitely pragmatic. The Dark Urge’s condition advances their plans. Gortash puts progress and the plan above all else even if it hurts loved ones. He rationalizes his inaction with cold logic, weighing the pros and cons of his intervention. Therefore, I don’t believe it’s necessarily malicious enabling. Gortash acts with the idea of pursuing whatever is more “comfortable” for him personally and their joint plan.

From my personal experience, this type of enabling is pretty common (at least in my irl situations). They don’t know how to act and are afraid to confront their loved one, so they do nothing. It’s “easier” to do nothing. Definitely would like to write something for it at some point because I feel like this would be a key tension point in their post-tadpole relationship (or lack of). Maybe even pre-tadpole where the Dark Urge just quietly endured but desperately hoped Enver would say or do something to save them, but he never did.